THERE’S A HOLE IN MY BUCKET LIST!

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Please don’t misunderstand. I don’t believe I’m going to” kick the bucket” in that sense, although there are times when my old bucket needs kicking, and kicking hard. I would find anyone kicking me in the poopoo, sitter, bucket or derriere particularly painful, although I’m certain no one likes the idea.

I’ve always thought the whole idea of writing a “Bucket List” a particularly depressing chore. Is it the theme of dying? No, because everyone eventually dies. I think it’s the idea of waiting until then to do or perform all those secret wishes and desires everyone harbors. It’s only after adversity one realizes you can’t plan life. Life happens when we have our backs turned and aren’t looking. Many of our wishes and desires can come true but what a sad event to put them off until the final days or weeks.

Many of our hopes and desires are totally “unwritten” and sort of sneak up on us. I like to think they are pre-planned by a higher Power and are simply hibernating while they wait for their time to arrive. What possible purpose would it serve to make a list for something, someone or some event we could never imagine before they occur? I find myself doing things and seeing parts of my life working together in ways I could never have imagined. For instance, let’s look at the objects in our lives. Objects bought for one purpose stick around and serve another purpose. Last night I covered our little Yorkie, George with a baby blanket originally bought for my youngest grandson who is now ten years-old.  Our home is filled with treasures once bought by my parents or Jim’s parents which have now become ours. Furniture, art, and lovely objects stick around to bring pleasure to new owners. Perhaps they help to enforce the memories we living creatures leave behind.

Another surprise life brings along for us is in our varying relationships. I have met hundreds, perhaps thousands, of wonderful individuals through this blog and I am happy to say many of them have become friends with each other. Doors have opened which I never dreamed existed. New friends are waiting to be found by each of us. Since I am an RN, I suppose I’m a bit more comfortable with medical personnel than many others in this world and my diseases and health problems have helped me to meet even more wonderful individuals. I’ve met some jerks along the way, also, and always wonder why such uncaring individuals bother to go into healthcare if they don’t really like or have a gift for caring; haven’t you? Fortunately, for me, I have met and made many highly qualified, compassionate individuals in the field of medicine.

Life is unceasingly full of surprises; it is difficult for me to imagine anything as wonderful that I, even with my wild imagination, could have imagined or planned. Life is a road of wonder and takes faith to travel, but like many roads, it often needs repair, has it’s potholes as well as breathtakingly gorgeous views. I love this particular quote and will briefly share it with you: “A religion that is small enough for our understanding would not be large enough for our needs.” It was written by Arthur Balfour; thank you Arthur.

I’ve become convinced over the years that life is not a list but an attitude. Each of us have stepped into those potholes, been hit by the trucks and vehicles of life with its accidents, diseases and varying forms of suffering however our reaction is what will be left from the wreckage. “Weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.”

Some of the saddest individuals I know are the ones who complain all the time. Sharing is different than complaining. It’s more brief and succinct. Complaining is usually without purpose except to gain sympathy. Each of us who read this could write an enviable list of complaints about illness, pain and disappointments. It isn’t about having something to complain about. It’s about the attitude of acceptance when we realize we are all part of the human condition and share the load that is leveled out to each and to many. Let me share a lovely poem I read the other day that has stuck with me.

“Every year that I live I am more convinced
That the waste of life
Lies in the love we have not given,
The powers we have not used,
The selfish prudence that will risk nothing;
And which, shirking pain, misses happiness as well.
No one ever yet was the poorer in the long run
For having once in a lifetime
‘let out all the length of the reins.’ “

Author, Mary Cholmondeley

I’m certain many of us reading this would love to shirk pain once in a while. I wonder how one does that? I realize the poet is referring to the pain brought on by risk taken but for many of us we were just walking along the road of life and “WHAM!” We were struck by an accident of DNA or other events awaiting us along the wayside.

Often when I am faced with someone who complains constantly, I find few of them really have much to complain about. Many of us with a broad scope of health problems or personal problems tire out long before we run the gamut of recitation regarding what has been dumped into our laps. How do the moaners in life find the time and energy? How do they stand the boredom of their repetitious recitation? I find it a major challenge just to make it through the day, searching for joy along the way to savor the sweetness in the midst of the bitter.

Let us live our lives with just a few simple guidelines: no regrets, concentrating on the lovely and the enriching, not upon which that I can no longer do and never forsaking hope.

The author of LITTLE WOMEN, Louisa May Alcott once said, “Far away in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see their beauty, believe in them, and try to follow where they lead.”

94 thoughts on “THERE’S A HOLE IN MY BUCKET LIST!

  1. Oh heck……..only just seen the new blog, for which I thank Sue for, as its brilliant, but I have written on the old blog to Chris, Tonie, and you too Sue…..so if you wouldn’t mind looking, sorry about that. But yes another smashing blog, very meaningful to me and all of us in different ways I guess….but I agree with you Sue, through your blogs, we all have formed a sistership that is unbreakable, and makes coping with all that happens to us on a daily basis, far more bearable when we often feel alone…..thank you for that dear friend…I love you…….God speed on your journeys back and forth to Portland….Jennie xx

    • Jennie dear girl, I am so sorry to hear about your dear friend Bep passing. Special hugs for your amazing Mom as she has another reminder of heaven’s nearness.
      I’m thrilled to read about you printing out your airline passes and know you will have a wonderful time. Just keep reminding us when it is and while you’re there, remind yourself you can rest up all spring and summer when you get back to France and home. Be kind to yourself, okay and let DH lift the luggage, etc. I know your adrenaline will be pumping and you’ll be excited. Heck, I’m excited for you!!
      I hope your lovely gardens are in full bloom but knowing your husband’s knowledge, I have a feeling he has it planned to bloom all summer. Glad to hear you’re both planting your “gutter” gardens. Everyone should see those in your pics on FB; what a marvelous idea. Much love, Sue

  2. Dear Sue, Meeting so many wonderful people on this blog has brought comfort and joy to my life. Never would I have thought that this computer could bring me such wonderful friends. It is you , Sue, that have brought us together in this one spot and I, for one, am eternally grateful. Take care dear lady. Janet

    • Janet, I so agree with you. I feel so fortunate to be able to get to know all of the folks here.
      Such loving and caring people.

    • Janet, when I got home last night and read your entry, it struck me with such grace and love it brought tears to my eyes. I thank God every day for the gift of writing and all the blessings it has brought to me but none more than all of you have brought to me, in return. I hope your neuropathy is manageable and life has it’s many bright spots for you. Life here remains a challenge. Much love, Sue

  3. Thinking of you today, Sue, even though I’m so tired I can barely think or see straight. I hope you are more bright eyed than I. 😉 I’d better perk up. We are having an 80th birthday get together for my step father this evening. I still need to go pick up the cake and candles. I already have ice cream. That was my assignment. Then I must get ready and we’ll head down to their house where the celebration will commence. I’m trying to decide if a nap or shower would serve me better. I have housework that should be done, but it’s just going to have to wait. I did enjoy my way through this new missive but will read again when I’m not so fatigued.

    Blessings to everyone!

    • Lyn, I wonder which you chose, the shower or the nap? I hope the party was enjoyable for all and the cake delicious. In the pic on FB it looked like your stepfather was having a good time.
      Is your fatigue from the usual source, your RA or do you think it’s the increased meds? I hope the weekend is a good one for you. I know you’re in singing season and pray you have the stamina for your many obligations and pleasures. Think of you so often. Much love, Sue

  4. Loved this. I had an elderly aunt ask my dad if things had become more serious in my health as I had made a “bucket list” trip. I saw the trip as something I had always wanted to do and it was in my list of to do’s. I’m not at deaths door (unless I get hit by a bus or something) and yes my health is “interesting” but the trip was a “I had the cash, time, stable enough health and assistance to make the trip so I did” trip. If I live 1 or 30 years it was a trip I wanted to make. I admit I get a bit annoyed with folks that whine a lot over more minor issues. Then I think about it and realize the issues isn’t “minor” to them that it is a subjective issue. I kick myself and feel guilty at being judgemental. I’m so not perfect. I’m working on not being frustrated with folks that are helping me. One friend is cleaning. She has a habit of “reorganization” and that adds some work at trying to find things I keep in certain places for easy grabbing and use. I had to deal with all the excess stainless steel dishes and buckets which meant moving the dishwasher (very heavy) to wash all the dog dishes left in the sink Another friend is “unpacking and putting the wheels on my generator” in her kindness the air filter has broken, paint scratched which will lead to rust and my laundry room smells of oil and gas to me (was just cleaned and smelled so fresh). It’s too cold and wet to do this outdoors right now. After we get this thing outside were it belongs I will re-clean the room. I feel the weather and not really up to the work. Oh well. I’m not going to turn away help and soooo not going to hurt their feelings.

    • Oh dear poor Laura……I feel for you, your friends all trying to help and making it worse for you to manage in the long run…….sometimes you just have to look the other way don’t you? I hope things improve for you sooner rather than later….take care my friend……love Jennie x

    • Laura, I’m sure if you were diplomatic in your approach your friends would understand how you want things done. As far as moaners, I’m afraid I grow weary of individuals who call me and moan about things that are not going to change or constantly are in a twitch about something truly stupid or unfair. I have one friend who is always moaning about her kids not bringing her great granchildren by to see her and has become quite martyred about it. I always find honesty the best approach to her, although it never changes. My time and energy is important and limited and all that moaning doesn’t help others to get where they need to be…it’s like getting your car stuck in a pit..all that tire spinning doesn’t get you out. Fondly, Sue

      • DEAR LAURA, I CERTAINLY KNOW HOW FRUSTRATING THAT CAN BE. I BELIEVE SUE IS RIGHT WHEN SHE SAYS TO BE DIPLOMATIC. YOU WILL HAVE SOME WHO WILL LISTEN AND OTHERS THAT WON’T BUT LIKE YOU SAID IT’S NICE TO HAVE TH E HELP. IT IS HARD WHEN WE HAVE TO SIT BY AND WATCH OTHER DO TASKS THAT WE COULD’VE DONE OURSELVES BUT HEY , WE CAN’T CHANGE THAT. I’M SLOWLY LEARNING THAT LESSON.
        SO NICE TO HEAR YOU HAD A GREAT TIME ON THAT TRIP OF YOURS. EVERYTHING SEEMED TO WORK OUT SO WELL. GOOD FOR YOU. YOU TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF LAURA!
        PRAYERS GOING YOUR WAY. LOVE YA,
        XXX

  5. I swear, Sue, every single one of your blogs gets more inspirational than the one before it and always resonates home with me. I’m convinced, God brings those people into our lives whom he knows will lift us up and help us along on life’s journey. You are in my prayers, dear friend, as I pray for your complete healing and relief from your pain. Sending love.

    • Karen, how kind you are. I think it’s all in the timing and in the experience. I know I haven’t been in my best form lately but I always sit down or lie down at the computer and say, “Okay Lord, what are we going to write this week?” I believe very strong that the right people do come into our lives at the right time..far too much evidence in my own life to believe otherwise and it sounds like in yours as well. Fondly, Sue

      • SWEET KAREN, I AM OF THE SAME BELIEF.GOD DOES BRING PEOPLE INTO OUR LIVES WHOM HE KNOWS WILL LIFT US UP AND HELP US. OH DEAR , WE USE TO HAVING A SAYING ABOUT THAT AND NOW I’VE FORGOTTEN IT. WELL IF IT COMES BACK TO ME, I’LL COME BACK ON AND WRITE IT.
        HOPE ALL IS WELL WITH YOU. ENJOY THE DAY!
        GOD BLESS, XXX

  6. Beautiful blog, Sue. I love the poem, it really does speak volumes. I know that I don’t have anything that I will die of, but the pain and the loss of mobility does get to me sometimes. But, I do try to grin and bear it.
    When my youngest sister was first diagnosed with colon cancer, she made a bucket list, and it was funny, as it centered around food. She told me she had never eaten a “big mac” and wanted to do that. But, almost immediately after she started her chemo, her mouth became a mess. (After the first surgery, she had 28 positive nodes, so her chemo was heavy duty; then it spread to her liver and kidney, so she got really harsh chemo) She never ate one. I was looking at some pictures yesterday that a friend of hers had posted; a group of her friends had taken her to the frozen yogurt place, she loved, the name is Sweet Frogs. In one picture she was crying, trying to eat some of the yogurt. But, you know, she never complained. AT one time, when she and I both had got very very thin, she told me she had always wanted to be skinny, but did my ass hurt when I sat down?, for hers sure did. Funny enough, that was my biggest complaint about being thin. Fat does provide some good padding.
    My bottom does feel better now, thanks to the advise you folks gave me. Now I have a rash under my breast that I can’t get healed up. When it first started, I had some cream for fungal infections and I used that. It didn’t help. Then I started coating it with zinc oxide, that didn’t help either. So, i started using iodine on it. That does seem to dry it up a bit, but it still continues to blister up and spread. It, funny enough, relieved some of the itching, too. That stopped helping, so I started using gold bond lotion. That helps the itching a lot, but not the pain. It weeps to the point that I have to keep a towel tucked underneath my breast to absorb the weeping and the blood. And, the towel keeps the underside of my breast from rubbing the skin underneath. It seems the older I get, my body just wants to freeze up or rot away.
    Tonie, I did see that your surgery went well. I’m so happy for you. I know how that rotator cuff hurts. I’m glad you’re rid of that pain. I’ve had you in my prayers, and I know so many others have too. Are you staying at home alone or are you at your sisters?
    I finally made it to Roanoke to get my military ID renewed. This one is good for the rest of my life, and I’ll never need to do this again. Thank goodness, it always seems to be such a hassle. It takes less than 5 minutes to actually do the renewal, but there’s always either a long line (even though you have to make an appointment), this time, their server was down, and we had to wait about an hour for it to come back up. They were very nice, but there’s not a lot to keep one occupied at the DEERS centers!
    Sue, have you started your chemo yet? Are you going to do radiation? I’m glad you like your new oncologist. I know you feel much more confident with a good team of doctors that you like and trust. I’m so sorry that you have had this extra burden put upon you. I pray for you so often, I know how hard it is for you to make the trip into Portland to get your treatments. It looks like a home health nurse could come and do that. But then, I think a doctor has to be nearby (or at least in VA they do) in case your react to the chemo.
    I love all you folks so much. I’m so glad you’re here, I think I’ve told you before that when I have sleepless nights, I’ll come here and just read. It’s a great comfort to me, knowing I have so many kindred spirits who understand and I’m not alone with this.
    Linda

      • HI LINDA, GEE WISH I HAD ADVICE FOR THAT BREAST ISSUE BUT I HAVE NOTHING. HOPE A DOC CAN HELP YOU OUT. SOUNDS PAINFUL. HAPPY TO HEAR YOU GOT YOUR MILITARY ID RENEWED, MUST FEEL GOOD.
        ALWAYS NICE TO KNOW YOU ARE HERE. LOVE YA
        GOD BLESS. HAVE A GOOD DAY OR AS GOOD AS YOU CAN.
        XXX

    • Linda, if your rash is fungal you may need to take Rx med orally to clear it up (Nystatin, keyoconazole, or Diflucan)? I’ve recently read that pure coconut oil has antibacterial and anti fungal properties as well as being a good moisturizer/ skin protectant. I use it on all kinds of skin irritations and find it very helpful. At least it isn’t harmful even if it doesn’t work for you.
      Once the rash is cleared up there’s a great product I use called Soothing Care Chafing Relief Powder Gel. It’s made by the co. that makes Monistat but its not an anti fungal. It’s a gel you apply that turns to a very silky powder. It’s fragrance free as well. It’s really helped me- I used to get a lot of irritation under my breasts from perspiration and my bra rubbing, esp. in summer Texas heat. This stuff’s great.

      • Thanks Annie, I have them both on the list of to do things for my son today. I had tried olive oil, but that didn’t help. It sounded familiar to me that coconut oil has anti-fungal and anti-bacterial properties. When I was working, I would spray anti-prespirant under my breast. That worked great. I was a heavy sweater when I was larger. But, I’ve stayed cold for several years now, but over this past year I have gained back about 50 pounds, so I have started to perspire again.
        I really appreciate the advice, thanks, miss not so crabby pants! Enjoy your trip, be safe, and love you.
        Linda

  7. Sue
    Great blog. So many friends I have made on this blog. It is such a wonderful thing for me. A part of my day and most times my evenings. I hope you are home resting my friend and that all your plans are falling into place.
    Take care all
    Love to you all
    Tonie

    • Tonie….hope you are healing well, and taking long rests too sweetie, thinking of you, will try and send you a recipe next week….you still collecting them? how many more do you need? Love you mate….Jennie poo xx

  8. OH SUE, THIS BLOG IS SO STRANGE TO ME BECAUSE JUST LAST NIGHT DH AND I WERE TALKING ABOUT THE BUCKET LIST. HE SAID HE JUST HAD ONE IN HIS HEAD AND I THOUGHT, AS I TOLD HIM WE SHOULD MAKE A BOARD SO WE WILL BE ABLE TO VISUALIZE WHAT WE WANT TO DO AND THEN IT WILL HAPPEN. HE JUST LOOKED AT ME AS IF I WAS CRAZY BUT HE KEPT ON TALKING ABOUT WHAT HE WANTED TO DO, AND WHILE HE WAS TALKING I WOULD SAY , SO YOU ARE GOING TO DO THIS WITH OUR DD, OR DS….. MANY THINGS I COULD NOT DO OF COURSE RIGHT NOW THAT IS WHY I WAS TELLING HIM TO DO ALL THIS FUN STUFF WITH OUR CHILDREN. WHEN I FINALLY THOUGHT ABOUT IT, MY BUCKET LIST WAS VERY SIMPLE, I JUST WANTED TO FEEL BETTER , GET A DIAGNOSIS AND HAVE LESS PAIN. HE JUST LOOKED AND SAID WELL OF COURSE THAT WILL HAPPEN. HAPPY TO HEAR HE IS SO CONFIDENT BUT I STILL AM NOT THERE YET. SO, SO MUCH FOR THE BUCKET LIST.
    I AM THRILLED I FOUND YOU AND YOUR BLOG. I FEEL VERY CLOSE TO PEOPLE ON THIS BLOG AND CAN ALMOST FEEL WHAT THEY ARE FEELING. IT IS SO NICE TO COME ON HERE AND READ ABOUT WHAT IS GOING ON IN ALL THEIR LIVES. I GET SO MUCH HELP, AND DON’T FEEL SO ALONE. I FEEL THAT PEOPLE HERE REALLY CARE ABOUT EACH OTHER AND THAT IS THANKS TO YOU MY DEAR SUE. I FEEL THE LOVE JUMPING OUT OF MY COMPUTER. SOME DAYS, OR I SHOULD SAY MANY DAYS. I WISH I COULD JUST DROP EVERYTHING AND GO VISIT SOMEONE ON THIS BLOG TO HAVE A CUP OF TEA. YOUR GUYS ARE ALL SO SPECIAL TO ME AND MEAN THE WORLD TO ME. I CAN’T EVEN SAY HOW MANY TIMES I’VE READ WHAT SOMEONE WROTE AND THEN WAS ABLE TO GET ON WITH MY DAY. THANK YOU ALL FOR THAT.
    VERY DEEP FEELINGS HERE, AS LINDA SAID I HAVE SO MANY KINDRED SPIRITS WHO UNDERSTAND AND I’M NOT ALONE WITH THIS. I REALIZE NOW THAT MY CHILDREN AND DH DO NOT UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH PAIN I’M IN, MAYBE BECAUSE I’M MOM THE STRONG ONE. BUT HERE IS A PLACE WHERE I KNOW PEOPLE DO UNDERSTAND WHAT I’M GOING THROUGH AND ACCEPT WHO I AM WITHOUT BEING JUDGED. THANK YOU ALL FOR THAT.
    LOVE YOU ALL, PRAYERS FOR ALL OF YOU AND ANGELS TO GUIDE YOU, AS TEARS ARE RUNNING DOWN MY FACE.
    GOD BLESS!
    XXX

    • Suzanne, don’t give up yet on doing some of the things on his bucket list together! I have been able to do more in recent years than I could have ten years ago, so don’t give up hope! I also agree with what you said about the friends we have found on this blog … It would have been a great help to me if I had had this blog when I was first diagnosed! PM

      • THANK YOU POMMUM, I WILL TAKE THAT ADVICE AND RUN ( WELL NOT EXACTLY RUN!!!) BUT GO WITH IT. SOMETHING HAS TO HAPPEN SOON.
        I’M SURE IT WOULD HAVE BEEN A BIG HELP TO BE ON THIS BLOG 10 YEARS AGO. I’M CERTAINLY GRATEFUL FOR ALL OF YOU EVERYDAY SINGLE DAY. THANK YOU AGAIN BRENDA FOR ALL THE INFO. YOU ARE A SPECIAL ANGEL IN MY LIFE. LOVE YOU BIG.
        PRAYERS AND ANGELS GOING YOUR WAY.
        XXX

    • Suzanne my love….course we all understand, after all we are all in the same proverbial boat…..its nice to know that we can all have a good and hopefully helpful chat to each other, and sometimes some of us have tried things that have worked for us and passed it on to the rest of us, ain’t that something…..without seeing the blooming doctor….whoop whoop!!! love you sweets, take care, be in touch…….bon weekend…..Jennie poo xx

      • THANK YOU JENNIE POO, LOVE YOU. YOU ARE SO RIGHT ABOUT THAT, HELPFUL INFO AND CHATS. GOOD FOR THE SOUL ALSO.
        LOVE YOU BIG SWEETIE.
        XXX

    • Aw, Suzanne, we are glad you found this place, too. I’m thankful for all here – those we hear from and those we don’t, who come here for oh so many reasons not the least of which I’m sure, to feel less alone. Blessings to one and all.

    • Suzanne, if there is one thing I know for certain, that life changes. You have all the possibilities to be given a new drug that could and may change your life. Just walk the walk each day, bug the doctor and have hope because without hope, like faith, we are cooked PLUS life sucks living like that. All of our families, our own development and the very gifts we have each been given deserve our appreciation and love for life. Keep looking up, okay? Love you, Sue

      • DEAR SUE, YOU ARE RIGHT. I DO HAVE THE POSSIBILITIES TO BE GIVEN A NEW DRUG THAT MAY POSSIBLY CHANGE MY LIFE. THINK I’M NOT BUGGING THE DOC ENOUGH YET. WILL DO THAT.
        THANK YOU SUE, I CERTAINLY WILL KEEP LOOKING UP. JUST HAVING A BAD MOMENT BUT WITH ALL OF YOU BEHIND ME, I AM FEELING THE POWER TO KEEP ON GOING (SLOWLY) BUT NEVER THE LESS STILL GOING FORWARD. LOVE YOU BACK.
        HOPE YOU ARE RESTING TO KEEP UP YOUR STRENGTH. YOU ARE IN BATTLE! SO HAPPY GEORGIE WILL BE WITH YOU AND A MEMBER OF YOUR FAMILY OF COURSE.
        GODSPEED!
        XXX

  9. Sue, thank you once again for a beautiful blog. I too enjoyed the poem, and wouldn’t it be nice if we could shirk pain some how! When pondering the meaning of the poem, what also came to my mind was not only physical pain, but emotional pain as well … shirking the possible pain that could come with loving someone. If one is afraid to love because of possible pain, they would also miss the happiness that can only come by loving others … just my thoughts.
    I think of you often Sue and the journey before you, and I am glad the pieces are falling into place. Have you thought of George becoming your therapy dog? In doing so he could accompany you to all your treatments. I have a Facebook friend who takes her small dog to her treatments and finds her presence very comforting and reduces her anxiety, but that of course is very personal and not everyone would benefit in such a way.
    My flare has continued, but I have been told it will until a new drug gets things under control once again. I have been quite ill with a nasty bug from the grands, but finally gave in to an antibiotic earlier in the week and I am slowly feeling better. I had a CT scan of my lungs tonight after some concern with a current chest x ray, and hope the results do not indicate a reason to change the plan to start a new biologic. My new rheumatologist has ordered blood work and x rays, saying he needed base lines from when he took over my care. Changing doctors seemed stressful at the time, but I think we are going to be a good fit, and his office staff are very friendly and already seem like old friends, which is an added bonus.
    Time to rest so take care everyone, and hope all have an enjoyable weekend! Pommum B

    • Pommum….hope the infection is on the way out now, and you are feeling better…..when do you get the results from the CT scan? Sounds like its working out with your doctors, it helps if they “get you” and you feel you can trust them. Have a restful weekend petal….love you….Jennie xx

    • Brenda Pommum, It’s still early with you and the new rheumy. I know it’s a bit of a shake up when we change and when it’s so terribly important. Only those of us who live with chronic pain understand the importance. You are famous for your courage dear girl and none more so than now. I was under the impression your new rheumy was a woman. Don’t know how I got that idea.
      I loved your idea about making George a therapy dog. I don’t think I will because of the radiation, probably couldn’t anyway and since no chemo, the radiation only takes a few seconds. They’ve told me the getting undressed and dressed again takes more time than the sizzling. George would look awfully cute in a vest though and he could go into restaurants with us that way. Probably regret that one as well he’s such a puppy, still. Hope the grands in your family are getting back up to speed after that wretched virus. Is DH doing better. As for you, if you couldn’t fight the whole world than it’s good you got the antibiotics. Sometimes even us independent gals need help. I do love you so much. Sue

  10. Hi all
    Well this bucket list….
    I start but..do I make one i can achieve or one I can achieve with DH,so I get mixed up and don’t bother,then I think ill just go and enjoy the day.seems to work best for me ,no cancellations to make or appologise to anyone .
    Can’t travel by air becos DH Menieres ,it makes it worse..or sea as walking with unstable balance makes him dizzy…so it goes on.dont know when he will be ill…..then there’s me
    I don’t really think beyond the week,I’ve always envied people who can,but we seem to fit into things that we do and if we can enjoy that I’m happy
    Tonie
    You I think aren’t too good
    Sue
    How’d it all go
    Just finished painting the back of fence and trellis ,taken painkillers and resting ,but glad I done it
    Back later chris

  11. PS…….I am sad to say my friend Bep, died yesterday, thank you for all the prayers said on her behalf, and will be sure to tell the family of all the support you all gave……thank you………..Jennie xxxxxxxxx

  12. Tonie….worried about you, I realize you may not be able to use your keyboard…..got you on my mind and in my prayers sweetpea, let us know how you are if you can…….love you…Jennie poo xx

  13. Sue…..wondering how its going with you since our last update, thinking about your ass, in the nicest possible way of course, I know how you dread those trips, I hope everything is going as well as it can for you, and needless to say prayers and positive thought come to you from here in France……I love you…..God bless…..Jen x

  14. Jennie:
    yep, some times one handed. I really feel for Pom mum. I have a better understanding of what she goes thru. I am doing fine. Hurting more today than I have. I slept literally all day yesterday. I never really rested that much after surgery. But doing better. Dr apt on Tuesday, so will see.
    love
    Tonie

  15. Dear Friends, I should have updated everyone yesterday but was exhausted after Friday’s drive. I saw the new oncologist and he is quiet smart and kind. He agreed with the radiation oncologist that because of my many problems besides breast cancer, like chondritis, Sjogren’s, IBS, etc. I am not the typical patient. Therefore I will be having radiation therapy as soon as the wound from the surgery heals. I had to see the surgeon’s nurse while I was there and have another 50 cc’s drained from the seroma that is around the wound but it has at least slowed down a bit. They should be able to start radiation in two or three weeks. I have found a hotel a few blocks away that’s like apartments and will allow dogs so George can be with me. I told the oncologist and he smiled and said he thought dogs were really angels in disguise and he seemed pleased. He’s amazingly intelligent, looked at the whole picture and was quite frank. He told me he didn’t think I could take chemo well at all. We’re concerned about my reaction to the sun and the comparison with radiation but they are different rays so we will see. Someone will be with me for those days spent there, either Jmi, my son Jeff or Beth, my daughter. None of them think I should be alone, so we will see. That’s the latest plus just recovering from all of it I confess I am feeling some depression and incredibly old right now but know that will pass as I heal. I’m in the Lord’s hands and incredibly good medical hands. This new gent will be in close communication with the radiation oncologist, my rheumy and my primary care doc. All but the last are there within the same block. My surgeon is still in the picture because she’s so wonderful and will also be in the loop.
    You each mean so much to me and it’s only out of fatigue that I haven’t kept up on here as I should. Please forgive me. I continue to seek your prayers and love with understanding. Sue

    • Dear Sue, There is nothing to forgive, we just want you to concentrate on getting well. Do what makes things better for you. Prayers, positive thoughts, gentle hugs. Janet

    • Sue, I second Janet. It sounds like you are in very good hands, and we are, of course, all in your corner. Let’s get those nasty cells! I’d send you energy, but I’m afraid I have none myself right now, but I will send what I can and tons more when I get ahold of it. 😉 Nothing is too much for you, my friend. Now rest, and I shall do the same. And if a sweet little tune should happen to cross your mind, it’s just me dropping off a little healing energy and love. 🙂

      • Lyn dear, love the thought and the love behind it. I hope your energy is returning with rest and mild exercise. Think of you often, with a melody in my heart, of course.
        I look forward to getting healed enough to be cooked…from what I understand of radiation that is pretty much what it is in tiny increments. I just request your prayers that I will tolerate it since I have such problems with the sun..I know they’re different but even the new oncologist wonders and I guess we will see. Since he doesn’t think I could tolerate chemo, it must be. I can’t say I’m disappointed to give up the daily injections I’ve been on for the last month for osteo…in favor of one twice a year. I knew this new oncologist/internist was brilliant. He asked so many questions and brought up many issues the first one never seemed interested in. I think it’s the difference between experience and experience. I can strongly feel the Lord’s hand in my life as all of these many doctors work together on my behalf. It’s wonderful in a strange way in spite of it all.
        Jim is back at work and of course, working too long and too hard. Kids are all fine after a wonderful week at Disneyland, although they ran into a couple of glitches.
        Do be good to you dear friend. Love you, Sue

  16. Sue
    I’m with Janet ,you look after yourself.thats what we all want
    Nothing to forgive..we understand it all and what you are going thru
    Love Chrisx

  17. JANET IS RIGHT SUE. YOU TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOU RIGHT NOW. YOU KNOW WE ARE ALL PRAYING FOR YOU TO HAVE A POSITIVE OUTCOME. WE ALL LOVE YOU SUE. PLEASE TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF.
    KISSES AND GENTLE HUGS!
    GOD BLESS.
    XXX

  18. My dears, I guess I just kind of reached the tipping point and I know each of you know about the tipping point.Maybe I’ll write a blog about that. Why not? I have also been fighting what the doctor thinks is phlebitis in my right arm since the nuclear injections, with pain and inability to fully use my right arm. I think, because it isn’t that red but very sore it is coming from my right shoulder which has started to click a great deal…no cartilage. It’s frustrating as each of you know. This morning when Jim went to get into my car to go to Costco, it wouldn’t start; my Scooba pooped out on me today and one of my best friends of 35 years calls me and only talks about how awful her life is and how she’s giving away all of these things that give her pleasure, like all of her quilting supplies. I just don’t understand someone like that when I’m fighting so hard to live. I think she’s given up on life and I’m always upset after talking to her because she is so wretchedly negative. With the decisions, the pain in the left chest, the tail and the back…well, it was just too much. I’ll recover, I know.
    The new doctor had some good advice and told me three things: I should try to walk three hours total each week if I am able; I should follow a strictly healthy diet full of good foods, vits, etc and keep up my positive attitude because it matters. We’ve had rain for two days since our heat wave so guess I’ll walk in the rain. One thing I’ve learned here in Astoria is that I am waterproof. The terrain around the house is too uneven for safety so it’s best to walk in a store or down by the Columbia River which is always majestic. So what’s a little seagull or tern poop? Love each of you…Sue

    • Sue, you forget about that negative Nelly and do your best to follow that new doc’s advice. For what it’s worth, I think it’s very good indeed. Bird poop? Ha! That’s nothing. You’ve got this!

    • I think I’d like to drain the negative right out of the hole in the bucket. Seriously though I find walking behind a cart (buggy) in stores is helpful as the cart helps stabilize me, the floors are flat and dry and there are people and things to look at (although things do tend to jump in my cart as I pass them and my wallet gets lighter). Walking Georgie in the rain is nice, don’t let him eat the poop though, too many things that can make him sick and you need a sick dog like you need a hole in the head. I’m so sorry about your negative Nellie. I’m in a much better frame of mind about all my help. It’s given me a starting point of things I can do for myself including cleaning my silver wear drawer and under the sink (that was plain scary). Gentle hugs and lot of prayers for all here.

      • OH BSL, I DO THE SAME WHEN IN A STORE.THAT BUGGY IS A BIG HELP FOR ME AND I DO GET MY EXERCISE WHILE WALKING. ALL GOOD. HAPPY TO HEAR YOU ARE FEELING BETTER ABOUT ALL YOUR HELP. GOOD FOR YOU!
        LOVE YOU WISE WOMAN.
        XXX

      • Laura, you do sound more positive. Life’s so frustrating at times it just rolls over us, doesn’t it? I agree with you about the wallet getting lighter…oh my. I’m afraid George hates the rain but maybe with a raincoat? He is so very spoiled but adorable and so loving. Jake is seeing less, hearing less and sleeping most of the time. His appetite is still good, however, poor old boy. Hope the new pup works out for you. You are such a wonder with the training.
        I must agree under the sink space gets scary. How does that happen? Are there little sink creatures who get under there and spread spilled soap, dirt particles and dust? I’ve often wondered but am also always surprised by all the lost solutions or cleaners I find and say, “Oh yeah, I remember that stuff.” It’s the getting down there and getting back up that’s hard. I bring in my small plastic gardening bench that’s at chair height. That helps. Do take care, Sue

  19. Sue
    That sounds golden advice from your dr
    You need a friend like that anytime like a hole in the bucket,some people just drain you while they feel better themselves…
    I too find walking with a shopping trolley helpful ,except when the wheels go wonky!
    Does that mean fixing the scooba or having a new one?
    I’ve got a new thing to do for our history society interviewing interesting people on tape .i can be nosey all I like!!im looking forward to it. Infact I think all people are interesting and all have a story there somewhere. They tell me about this fella and all he has done…meanwhile I’m a thinking his wife has got a better tale to tell….just my funny way of looking at life I think…
    Well gonna try and get back to sleep
    Chris

  20. Bird poop
    I forgot..we went to Whitby once..it’s where captain cook sailed from and discovered part of Australia
    Well I just got out of the car and there was the seagull waiting for me straight ontop Of my head.. And quite a large one too
    It was a welcome to Whitby….
    Chris

    • Bloody hell Chris, exactly what happened to me in Whitby, Barry and I were sitting quietly having some fish and chips, and the bugger not only shat on my head, it nicked most of my chip too…………still I love Whitby, spent many childhood holidays there…….talk soon, love Jen x

  21. Suzanne, As one of the newer members of this merry band, I want to thank you for all of your encouragement. Encouragement is definitely a two way street. I’d much prefer getting advice from who in the foxhole with me than someone who is gawking from afar…know what I mean? Hang in there sweetheart. The answer will be found if you keep pushing..of that I am certain. Love you, Sue

    • I’VE NOW TIED A KNOT AT THE END OF THE ROPE AND HANGING ON. YES I DO KNOW WHAT YA MEAN CAUSE THERE ARE LOTS OF PEOPLE GAWKING AND TELLING ME WHAT I SHOULD BE DOING WHEN THEY HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I’M GOING THROUGH.
      I WILL KEEP PUSHING CAUSE THAT IS WHAT I NEED TO DO. THANK YOU FOR THE PEP TALK.
      HEALING PRAYERS FOR YOU SUE DEAR HEART.
      LOVE YOU, XXX

  22. Sue, I’m so glad you don’t have to do the chemo. I agree, that would just add insult to injury to your body. At our local mall, they have a walking club, and some of the stores even give them coffee, cookies, and water. They meet every morning, rain or shine. I think the local Wal-mart encourages that too. This sure is easier in the heat and cold, and the many hills here.
    When I read the poem again, the Garth Brooks song came to mind “The Dance” I don’t know the words exactly, but it goes something like ‘some things are better left to chance. I could have missed the pain, but then, I’d have missed the dance.” Just a reminder, for me, that there is always going to be a little pain of some sort thrown into our lives, but we also have opportunities that are priceless, and so worth the pain.
    I love 12 step people when it comes to negative Nellies. Years ago, when Ed and I first married, he just didn’t do things like i wanted him to. (I sorta forgot that in return, I wasn’t doing things as he wanted them done.) So, I complained about him, a LOT. One of my friends finally said “by now, I know what your problem is, and I do not want to hear another word about it unless you are wanting to talk about solutions”. AT first I felt like I’d been slapped in the face, but the more I thought about it, the more I realized that I wasn’t even trying to fix anything at all, I was just wallowing in self pity, which was getting me no where but to miserable in a big hurry. I began thinking about ways to solve my problem. Changing him wasn’t my job or place, but I could change me and how I reacted to things. So, I got to work on that. My friend, in her frankness, woke me up. I realize that might not work on everybody, but it sure did work on me!
    I love you all so much.
    Thank you for being here.
    Linda

    • Linda dear, wise advice you give. I’ve been reading about your problems with the fungus problem and have a soap I think would work because it worked for me. It’s based on Tea Tree Oil, which I love although the odor takes a bit of getting used to. The soap I found on line and it’s called Pedifix, Funga soap cleansing wash. Hope you can find it. I bought it from Amazon while looking at fungus drops for toenail fungus for my DH. You know to keep the area as dry as possible. maybe one of those new butterfly pads in the pantie liner section would work. They don’t have any sticky stuff on them, they just tuck. Take care my dear and hope this helps. Love you, Sue

  23. Sue…….silly cow that so called friend, she could learn a thing or two from you…..I too am glad you will not be having chemo…..you have a great team of doctors all working hard for you, and a loving family to come and be with you when you need them….then of course you have us bunch of rebrobates….only kidding, you know my English humour by now. The nuclear injections, are they the ones that are to help your bones that you fought so hard to get? That doctor gave you good advice Sue, you can do this, you know you can, you are the strongest person I know, have ever known, so the sooner you get a start date the better, meanwhile, you must do all you can to stay strong for your family and for us, cos we need you and each other……………..I love you……….Jen x

  24. GOOD MORNING JENNIE POO, WE ARE ALL HERE SOMEWHERE. GUESS EVERYONE IS BUSY OR NOT FEELING WELL.
    HOPE ALL IS GOING WELL FOR YOU SWEETHEART AND EVERYONE ELSE. MY COMPUTER IS ACTING UP. GET ALL MY E-MAILS TWICE??? NOT SURE WHAT TO DO WITH THAT. THEN I HAVE ANOTHER MAIL ICON THAT JUST POPPED UP AND GET ALL THE SAME DOUBLE E-MAILS THERE. TRYING TO FIGURE THIS ONE OUT.
    LOVE YOU BIG! ENJOY THE DAY, HOPE YOU HAVE BEAUTIFUL SUNSHINE.
    XXX

    • Hi Suzanne……of course folks have stuff to do, I guess I am so used to seeing a collection of posts, then there was nothing….you know what a worry guts I am, I like to know everyone is ok and where they should be, Lord I sound like a clucky Mom……. how odd about your puter, but if I remember some time ago on my old one, it happened to me, plus I couldn’t post on here……………..hope you are alright my friend…..and everyone else, thinking of you all….love you Jennie poo xxxxxxxxxxxx

  25. Hi, Jennie and Suzanne, I’ve been checking in each day, but have been both busy and not feeling the best after overdoing. Sitting with a heating pad on my back as I type. Computer issues… not fun to deal with, are they? I’m sure SB is getting tired of several family members coming to him when something goes awry. At least he does what he can to help. He and DD are busy and doing well for the moment, Whew. We’re having some car issues but that should be straightened out soon. Thinking of everyone. 🙂

    • Lyn …..oh dear me, problems, problems….don’t they all seem to come at once? I am sorry to hear your back is not good pet, and I wish you better…….love Jennie xx

      • OH LYN SORRY TO HEAR YOU ARE PAYING THE PRICE. ISN’T THAT ALWAYS THE CASE.
        REST UP SWEETIE. SENDING HEALING PRAYERS. HAPPY TO HEAR EVERYONE IS DOING WELL RIGHT NOW.
        NICE TO HEAR SOME GOOD NEWS.
        LOVE YA
        XXX

  26. Dear Friends, As for me, I was at the eye doctor’s yesterday and pretty useless after that. You all know the routine. After they’ve put you through several tests, three kinds of eye drops and you hit the outside with dilated eyes…My neck is never happy after the eye doctor’s nor is my sitter. My ocular pressure isn’t good, it’s too high so I will have to see a corneal specialist. Gees! Somebody shut the door on all this stuff…please!!!
    Lyn, good to hear all is going well with your two. That’s always nice to hear. I am concerned for all of this fatigue you’ve been having. Any answers? Is it the pain, meds or doing a great deal? Any or all of the above would do it.
    Jennie, bet you’re busy ironing, packing, etc. Hope the neighbors keep your lovely plants and flowers watered while you are in England. Think of you so often.
    Suzanne, looks like your computer went a bit nuts. I know how frustrating that is because I am a complete dunce with one. I know..writer, etc., but I started out on a typewriter. In fact, we still have one in the closet. Patience may be a virtue but when it comes to our health, well, it’s darned frustrating. We know.
    Tonie, hope that shoulder is mending quickly and pray those chicks are safe from Henny Penny and Judy’s cat.
    Pommum, hope the lab work is going to allow you to go on the new biologic…quickly.
    Brenda in Texas, haven’t heard from you in awhile. Theresa, still miss you dear girl and Barbara P. Miss hearing about little Blu. Reminds me I need to give George a hair cut and bath today. Don’t know if I’m up to it but know it would make us both feel better.
    Linda dear, what a history you have and you share so frankly, it’s appreciated. To all, I am waiting to heal so radiation treatments can start in two or three weeks. Life has to be a bit on hold but otherwise, sun is shining with new storm moving in. Will get to meet the grands at bus today. They’ve been at Disneyland for a week and before that I wasn’t up to it so will be fun. May do a lot of lying down to play games or watch movies but still lots of chatter about their trip, I’m certain.
    Love to each and every one of you, Sue

    • Sue…..so kind of you to think of me when you are going through all that crap, yes I am getting things ready, have you ever tried squirting aftershave from a sealed bottle, in to a plastic spray bottle? It took 20 mins to get 15ml into a 100ml bottle, its not like I’ve owt else to do with my time……and the bill…oye vey! its trebled from what started as a cheapie flight for four days to see my Mom and kids….ah well, don’t think I will be visiting the Mother country again…so its only money. It must be horrid for you, when everytime you have a doctor look at you, it actually causes more pain, holding your neck in a certain position for a long time, has such repercussions long after. How I wish I could shut the door on all your pains and treatment dear lady……..courage, it won’t go on forever, even though it must seem like it right now….I love you…………..Jennie xxx

      • Jennie, The cost going up that much? That truly stinks. I know it will be wonderful for you. I’m counting on the excitement and the adrenaline seizing you for the entire time with some rest spurts…then when you get home you can crash!! Big time. I feaer the hardest part for you will that no one will understand how difficult it will be for you during or after. When are the dates?
        Indeed I have so much going on and am too exhausted tonight but will post an entry tomorrow with full details. Much love, must crash after just sent the new blog in to our dear Natalie. Much love, Sue

  27. Chris dear girl, sorry I forgot to comment on your incident with the sea gull gift on the head and Jennie’s. What an experience. I swear they plan their spots. We once had one drop an oyster shell in midflight outside our house and break a window and I’m convinced they always know when Jim has washed one of our cars and return the next day. Hope your DH’s B/P is stable and your dear Dad is safe. How is your health right now? Thinking of you. Love, Sue

  28. HAPPY NURSES WEEK to our dear Sue, Bobsled Laura, Brenda? and Linda? (if I remember correctly?) and all the rest of you who have worked in nursing, PT/OT and other health care fields. It’s also TEACHER APPRECIATION WEEK- for our sweet Lyn!
    Have peeked in a time or two to read but just now getting around to comments. Two new bitty babies at work, and the one little guy has an incredible set of lungs! Suffice it to say the whole bldg. knows if he is upset! Busy last week and this one getting the new ones into their routines. I am now officially the tube feeding queen…
    I ver pleased with the new primary care doc I saw last week so will be transferring my records and care to her. Just had an immediate connection with her. She’s Italian, and was trained in Canada. Read over my medical history and said , wow, you are special! Not in a bad way, just very interesting and complex. She told me if I had any trouble getting an appt to email her and she’ll make sure I get in. It’s a fairly large practice, and they have Lab, X-ray, CT, and MRI on site, so very convenient. Plus, they are in-network with Baylor Quality Alliance and Aetna so my co-insurance is only 10% instead of 30% with my old doc. Huge blessing.
    My neuro appt was a waste of time b/c the sleep study people didn’t get the report to my neurologist and I did not have the copy they e-mailed me. Argh.
    Will see psych on Thurs. to review/adjust meds for fibromyalgia, and depression. Hopefully they can find a better combination that will work w/o leaving me drugged out and sleepy. I have enough brain fog just from the pain w/o adding med haze.
    Jennie, I hope your upcoming trip is all you could dream or hope for! Praying for good health, safe travel and a sweet time with your family.
    Lyn, snuggle those kitties for me, and keep on lifting that beautiful voice of yours in song. Praying for strength and stamina for your concert season.
    Tonie, praying for your shoulder to heal quickly (yours too Brenda!)
    Sue, most of all I’m praying for you to be in good spirits, and for your body to be able to rest and heal, and tolerate all your treatments with minimal side effects. Praying for safe, pain free travel and for you and your family, (fur babies too) to have the peace of Christ reigning in your spirits and a sing in your hearts.

    I’m headed to Oklahoma next weekend (16th-18th) for my nephew Sayre’s high school graduation (he is my brother Mark’s son); and a personal baby shower/spa day for my niece Candi-she and her hubbyBrent , along with big sis Brooklynn and big bro Brayden, are expecting baby #3, Cadence Faith, on June 3rd. My oldest brother Joe, his family, & my niece Brandy will be up from San Antonio and we’re hoping to have Mom out of the rehab hospital by then. Looking forward to the visit (but not so much the road trip.) Hoping my “weird” brother stays in Wagoner- don’t have the energy to deal with his family drama. Kinda mean, I know… I have this theory that whoever stirs the sh*t should have to lick the spoon! LoL.
    Well I’m gonna try to catch another little nap before time to go to work.
    Love to all, “Princess Crabby Pants”

    • ANNIE, HAPPY TO HEAR YOU CLICKED WITH YOUR NEW DOC. SO VERY IMPORTANT. HOPE ALL GOES WELL FOR YOU ON THURS.
      ENJOY YOUR TIME IN OKLAHOMA!
      TAKE CARE, LOVE YA, XXX

    • Sweet Annie, Oh my. So very much going on for you, to you and around you. Hang on sweetheart. It will all come together eventually. I am so pleased you like the doc and that she is so simpatico. It certainly does help, doesn’t it to have a connection. I hate frustrating appt. when the info isn’t there and understand how frustrating that appt must have been for you. Keep us turned in. Safe journeys and I agree…avoid all crazy folks, relatives or not. Much love, Sue

  29. Mornin all !
    Wow ! I had a lot of catching up to do ! Happy Nurses Week to you all ! And Teachers Week, to Lyn and Suzanne, that I know of !
    So much to comment on, yet I woke up late and must be going in a minute to get ready for work. So just a quickie (hope you don’t mind)
    Went to the Dr yesterday, my shoulder is doing well, got the stitches out . She says (the PA) 4 more weeks in the sling, take the arm out 3 times a day s and move it around (already doing that) . One more week, then I can get back in the pool. And still do some workout at the gym. So all is well,. Chickies are all doing well. Getting big 🙂
    Sue, hang in there dear girl, the Lord is making you a new now ! Can’t forget the eyes. I can’t wait to hear what great treatment the specialist will have to clear them up.
    Suzanne, dear girl, I pray everyday for you to be lifted up. I know how it feels to be in limbo.
    Pommum, same for you lady. I know I always marveled at your courage to carry it on thru with all the operations and such. It will be done again, just hang in. Every new Dr has to put you thru their paces and change up things. It will clear up.
    TO all, love you much and hang in there, Friday is comning 🙂
    Love
    TOnie

    • Tonie…….oh you do seem to be making great headway, great to get the stitches out, each day will seem easier then, but you will be careful won’t you? I know what you are like, always rushing here there and everywhere, glad the chuckies are doing good……you know that month in a sling will just fly by, and if the weather produces the sun, that will help too, just chillax, and let nature take its course…….I agree with you totally with regards to Pommum, she has great courage……………..love you petal…………..Jennie poo xx

    • Tonie dear, My eyes were so bad last night I pooped out. I was out yesterday and walked the length of our huge store across the river, all the time looking like I was casing the joint…hat pulled down over my head, wrap around dark glasses..oh my. It was still too sunny. I look forward to getting a solution for the eyes, also. Right now waiting for the surgical wound to heal. Still building up a bit of fluid, a seroma. Looks like it will have to be drained once more. Appt. there in Portland on the 21st so hope it will wait. Will try to see a new corneal specialist at that time. Raining here today after a bright, sunny yet chilly day yesterday. Oh yes, one more big change. After all the nonsense to get on those daily injections for osteo (Forteo)…the oncologist has taken me off of it and will now give me a new one which is injected twice a year called Zumeta. He said it is more friendly to cancer and very effective. Life is so liquid right now.

      I agree with Jennie, imagine you out chasing chicks out of the road BUT who else? Are you saying the stitches have come out or will? I’m sure that will free you up considerably. I know that feeling. I can’t believe all of the one handed planting you did. What a wonderful garden you will have this summer. You’ll be eating better than any of us, you know that? Glad you’re getting in so many work hours as long as the drive and the day isn’t too exhausted. Like me, you will benefit from some the pushing by getting your energy back…hopefully. Think of you and pray for you often as you heal. Exercise in the pool will be wonderful. Hang in, hang on and all will finally fall into place, I know it will. Much love, Sue

  30. Jennie:
    haha and LOL ! If you could’ve seen me yesterday am (after I went to court over the burnt out headlamp) I got the hoe and went into the garden. with my good hand, I planted cucumbers, squash,cantalope watermelon and pumpkin. Then I got on the lawn mower and mowed the yard as good as I can. It had to be done. I told my PA I did it, she just shrugged, said you had to do what you had to od, just BE CAREFUL ! I can get back in the pool next week (in a sling) and my plans are to get a weight loss exercise plan going.
    So tired today, just went shopping (groceries) unloaded, fed and watered. Took a shower and am going to rest for an hour or so until church. I hope you are getting excited over your trip. I know how excited you are to see all your family. Take care and behave !!
    Love
    Tonie
    ps DId I say the chicks were behaving ?? WRONG ! I let them go out yesterday and looked and there they are out in the ROAD> I had to go chase them home ! SO…they are grounded !!!

    • TONIE……YOU ARE A KNOCK OUT, KNEW MY ADVICE WOULD FALL ON DEAF EARS, HE HE!! YOUR A LASS YOU ARE, BUT GOOD LUCK TO YOU SWEETS, JUST BE CAREFUL, I WOULD HATE IT IF YOU TOOK STEPS BACK INSTEAD OF FORWARD.
      WELL I AM NOT EXCITED ABOUT GOING TO THE UK, APPREHENSIVE MORE LIKE, THERE ARE SO MANY PROBLEMS, WHICH I WON’T GO IN TO, BUT I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING THE FAMILY, ESPECIALLY NIKKI AND MY MOM…..IT WILL BE OK, JUST NERVOUS AND DON’T REALLY KNOW WHY, SCARED OF HAVING TO SIT TOO LONG MAYBE…….KEEP WELL AND KEEP RECOVERING LOVELY LADY………GOD BLESS…JENNIE POO XXXXXX

      • OH JENNIE POO, I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND. WHEN I WENT TO SEE MY SISTER LAST YEAR (10 HRS) DRIVE, I WAS SO NERVOUS AND HAD TO BRING SO MUCH STUFF WITH ME. WHEN DH DROVE ME TO DD HOUSE I WAS CRYING. THAT’S HOW NERVOUS I WAS. WE STOPPED AT A HOTEL ABOUT 6 HOURS INTO IT CAUSE I JUST COULDN’T KEEP GOING. THEN CONTINUED ON OUR WAY THE NEXT MORNING. ONCE THERE I WAS SO HAPPY TO SPEND TIME WITH MY SISTER (THE ONE WHO HAS CANCER NOW).
        ONCE ON THE PLANE CAN YOU NOT WALK UP AND DOWN THE ISLES, MAYBE EVERY HOUR OR SO. THAT WILL HELP YOU. OH JENNIE HERE’S A BIG HUG CAUSE I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE FEELING. IT WILL BE OKAY SWEETHEART. LOVE YOU BIG. XXX

  31. HEY TONIE, HAPPY TO HEAR YOU ARE UP AND ABOUT. YOU TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF NOW, PLEASE DON’T OVER DO IT.
    YOU DO NOT WANT TO BE PAYING THE PRICE FOR THAT.
    LOVE YOU BIG SWEETPEA!
    XXX

  32. LADIES (and gents if there are any on here) Don’t forget to send me your recipes ! You can send as many as you wish , I have only gotten a few from a few of you ! Send them to : toniedalton@gmail.com
    Love ya’all !

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