LIFE IS TIME

life is time

The clock is non-judgmental

It doesn’t care at all.

No thought it gives to me

As it stands within the hall.

 

The gold watch on my wrist

The alarm clock by the bed,

What care they for misery

Or joy that may lie ahead?

 

They only serve one purpose

And that’s to track my life,

Moment by moment, clock ticking

Time maps this life of strife.

 

The good days and the bad

They are the same in length

As you and I struggle to balance

Our pain against our strength.

 

I try to stop the pendulum

Save time for better days

But the hands of time keeps clicking,

Caring not if I’m ablaze.

 

When I was very young, time dragged

Christmas’s eons apart and

I measured life by birthdays,

Knowing not what life would impart.

 

Why does wisdom come so late?

Could I have been prepared?

Is everyone caught by surprise?

I didn’t plan on being impaired.

 

Could I have a fresh start?

Can I get a “do over” this year?

Can’t someone in charge give me a pass?

I’m sick of being stuck in here.

 

I want to kick my feet and rage

I’d love to pitch a fit

But I’ve learned from other times

I’d just dig a deeper pit.

 

With each day that passes

I grow tired of complaint

It just ravages time;

Therefore I attempt restraint.

 

I’ve discovered I must savor

The moments, the emotions, the hours

For each of them are fragile.

After bloom they fade like flowers.

 

Old clock you just keep ticking

And I’ll pledge to savor time,

My life, both pain and joy,

And thank you with each chime.

 

 

Sue Falkner Wood

 

227 thoughts on “LIFE IS TIME

    • Thanks Janet. I appreciate your thoughts and concerns. I’m exhausted today. That four hour round trip is so hard on my back. Today will be a rest day except for the repairman coming out to try once again to fix this washer. Think it’s time to bite the bullet and get it out of here which is a shame since we’ve put so much money into a three year old washer. UGH. Stay as well as you can dear lady. Love, Sue

    • Sue, You can’t imagine how thrilled I am that your metastasis is limited to the skin. I’ve been praying for you. A break and some good news were long overdue for you.

      I loved your poem. It really fit into my thinking of late. About the time of the 4th anniversary of Mom’s death, I started thinking about the people I have lost in my life. The first two I remember were very significant people to me. My granddad died with I was 11. I adored him and he was the only male in our lives at the time. In his eyes, Rosa and I could do no wrong. It was also a terrifying experience; at the family viewing, my Mom started screaming “Daddy, don’t leave me, please don’t leave me.” And she tried to crawl into his coffin. That’s an image I’ll take to my grave.

      The next one was my first love. I worshiped that guy, but he didn’t worship me back quite so much! He was an electrician and worked on industrial installations. He and a crew were working several stories up and they decided to work through lunch to get what they were doing done. A kid had started working on the ground crew and he wanted more than anything to learn to operate a crane. He decided that lunch time was an ideal time to practice. He knocked all 5 men off that high beam. One died instantly, one was left paralyzed for life, one broke a leg, one didn’t even get a scratch, and John had his back broken. He was very angry about being incontinent and said he’d rather be dead than live his life like that. He was only 27, strong and healthy. The doctors told him they could do a procedure to relive some of the pressure on his spinal cord and give him back control of his body functions. They took him to surgery and just as soon as the procedure started, he went into arrest. They managed to get him back with no problem. They said they’d give him some time to get stronger. So, 2 days later they took him back into surgery. I was amazed, if his body was too weak 2 days ago and he had a cardiac arrest to recover from, how could he possibly be ready. But I wasn’t worried, we were in our 20’s and we were invincible and never died. He went into arrest again on the or table and this time they couldn’t get him back. I was devastate at his death.
      A week after my granddad died, my grandmother’s twin brother died. So our house was clouded with grief for a long time. Over the years, deaths came on now an then, a great Aunt, a great-great uncle, my great grandmother, an Aunt, a friend and 3 months later his wife. Then you all know about my trifecta 4 years ago. I was sad when Mom’s anniversary came up, but for some reason, on my birthday, I thought my heart was going to rip out for Rosa. Actually, it was the day before my birthday. If we hadn’t made plans to get together, I’d get a card from her on the 26 or 27th. I loved seeing her writing. It had not changed since we were kids. She signed her name large, in very clear and child like letters. I had to make myself stop going over my list, and mind you I had all my faithful and loving dogs in my thoughts, too. I didn’t want to think myself into a big depression.
      Then, I started thinking about time and how serendipitous it is.With Johnny’s fall, things had to fall into place in a certain way, and carefully timed out. I don’t think a human could calculate an accident so precisely. Then I thought about the plum tree. My grandma had a beautiful plum tree in her back yard. It was just in front of the shed and the chicken house. One year, lightening struck that tree. It split in two, with the split leaning to the right. This split off portion never showed any signs of dying, and in fact took hold and became as strong as the original tree had been. Grandma and I grieved that the beautiful plum tree wasn’t so beautiful any more.
      I live in the foothills of Tonie’s mountains. There is no such thing here as a level lot. Grandma’s driveway had been a hill with a big drop off. Granddad had built a brick wall around the drive and filled it in. Tomboy that I was, I like to get a flying start, and fly all the way to the end of that driveway and at the last minute slam on the brakes and spin around. I was 11 and doing this crazy thing. I got to the end of the drive, slammed my brakes on–and the chain had fallen off. No way to stop, no way to land the bike on the ground just beyond the wall. So, I literally flew through the air. I was sure I was going to land on the roof of the chicken coop or even fly right over it. But, instead I landed in the broken off part of the plum tree. My grandma was at the kitchen window and saw my flight. She came running outside and helped me out of the tree. (I wasn’t hurt at all, but badly shaken) She just said “now we know why your pretty plum tree had to get deformed.” Times had to all fit together.

      I’ve written far too much. But then, I always do! Health wise I’m doing fairly well. The Entyvio is working great for me, there is no bleeding now in my GI tract. I think I need to have my esophagus stretched again. I don’t know if I’m weird or what, but I have so much going on with my body, I didn’t realize what problems my esophagus was causing. When the symptoms went away, I realized where they came from. Now they’re back. I called the gi’s office today and he’s not leaving for a couple of weeks. I hope that’s enough time to get me worked into his clinic and get it done. The pain doctor has helped but he’s also a pain in the patoot! He was worried about giving me opiates for my pain because of my depression and one relative was an alcoholic. I had to sign a “narcotic agreement” saying I would not go to other doctors seeking opiates and consenting to a drug test every time I came in. He’s got 2 pages of diagnoses printed out for me. Spondyloarthritis in my neck and low back, he said he thinks the nerve damage in my hand is a result of my carpal tunnel surgery being botched. I know I’ll never get him to say that again, he works with the group that did that surgery. He say a lot of the muscular pain I have is due to arthritic spurs irritating the nerves. He told me that most of what’s wrong can never be healed, nor get much better. He said I was difficult to treat because of my gastric by-pass, depression (as if constant pain isn’t enough to get anybody depressed! and because of the extent of my arthritis and the severity of it. I told him if he could get the palm of my left hand well enough to peel potatoes and chop veggies; and my lower back so that I could stand up and cook a meal. Well, I did manage to peel a few potatoes the other day, and I cooked, it was only spaghetti, but I cooked.

      I had a fall early yesterday morning. I was sitting here in my computer chair and dozed off to sleep. I don’t know how I fell out of my chair and how I landed where I did. I gouged an area on my right forearm, about 3 inches long. Stupid move on my part.

      I love you all, I left a few notes on some posts. Hope everyone is feeling better. Me. I’m just sitting here waiting for Noah to pick me up!
      Linda

      • Linda, yes, you do always make up for your absences with long posts but your life has been a most interesting one. I am glad the new meds are working for the bowel and you haven’t had any recent bleeding. As far as the esophagus goes, won’t you have to have it stretched more than once? Might be a good idea to find a new gastro guy or gal if you don’t like the one who will take over for your current one. Hope that you get in to get that done. Are you choking on food?
        Thank you for opening your heart to us as you always do. Hope this current storm is not making your life too miserable. Maybe being in foothills will help the water to roll off. I am sorry to hear how lonely life is for you but do understand that one. My DH is still working far too much, has to go into the jail to check on the meds on the weekends and is asleep most of the time he is home. He was training a new RN who had been an LVN to help him out down there but she up and quit. Big disappointment for both of us. Now they’re looking for a replacement for her.
        I hope all is well with your son. I know you have many friends nearby and hope that is some company for you dear lady. Love, Sue

  1. Great poem sue
    That we come to terms with time. But yes I’d to like to snatch some time for better days ,they go to quickly
    All dates seem to go by so quick…..Xmas ,Easter, birthdays
    When we were kids there used to be so much time in between.time used to go on forever
    Thinking of you Sue
    Chris

    • Chris dear, I know you’ve been keeping me in your thoughts and appreciate it so much. Here I am waiting for the washer guy as I try to rest. Yes, time is what life is, isn’t it? I think we will just give up and buy a new set but this time will find those that are not attached so if one goes bad, we can replace just one of the appliances.
      Yesterday was so hard on my back. Our car isn’t that bad but the doctor’s office and a restaurant, well, those are a different story. Haven’t heard when scans scheduled just yet. Hope to hear today. Hope all is going well with you and your Dad. Love, Sue

  2. So appropriate…. I’ve realized just now as I read this how much less time means to me. I rarely wear a watch and instead do things when it seems to be time. I usually live based on infusion week, Sunday or grooming day. It just doesn’t seem important like it did when I worked (meds, rounds, vitals and report) always wearing not just a watch but one with a second hand and water proof. All my watches still must fit the above but rarely are found on my wrist now. I’ve lost track of what year different life events have happened and now look at more general terms such as before sick or before mom passed. I don’t care if I live much longer only that I live until after dad goes so I don’t make him grieve. My life is lonely much of the time (barren spinster, little family with friends busy living their lives and sister less than involved) so living to old age is of little interest. I however do want my remaining life to be of quality be it a day, week, month, years…. I want those I do leave behind to have memories of me make them smile.

    • Laura, how right you are. Time changes and it’s importance to us also changes. Your comments got me to thinking how much your life has changed since I’ve known you, however, I am glad you don’t have that ridiculously dangerous drive and the, shall we call then, challenges of work. Time is change, is it not? I just heard from the washer guy so will make this short.
      Live as long as you can is our motto, is it not? There are always surprises for each of us, some good, some not. Thanks for your concerns my dear. Be good to yourself along the way. Love, Sue

    • Laura, you described how I view time since I came out of work. I don’t care what day it is, unless I have an appointment or obligation. I try to notice when it’s Thursday, because a restaurant here has wonderful salmon cakes on Thursday. But, as my hand improves, I’ll be able to make them myself, and believe me, that’s much cheaper. I remember things with a reference, “before my first heart attack” or “before my stroke”
      I’m lonely much of the time too, Laura. My husband, the man I knew is just gone. He doesn’t talk any more, never goes anywhere. He says good morning and good night to me, and that’s about the extent of our conversation. My son is either sleeping or gone.
      Your line about your loved ones having memories that make them smile. A friend of mine died I guess 25 years ago. She wrote poetry but she seldom would let anyone read it. At her funeral, they read one of her poems. I’ve asked several times for a copy of it, but I’ll always remember the last line “If you can’t think of me with laughter, don’t think of me at all.” It’s easy to think of her with laughter. She loved to laugh, and she was one of those people who laughed with her eyes. We used to play poker a lot, and we’d spend hours laughing. I miss her like crazy, but I always think of her with a smile.
      My point, which I have danced all around, is that even with family, we can be lonely. No one means for it to be that way, but it happens. I know we all love you. I too am glad you don’t have to be “Bobsled Laura” now. That was scary, hearing you describe your adventures getting to and from work in the snow. I know when holidays are coming up by the postings on Facebook. As a child, I thought it had to be ten years between Christmas’s. I waited forever for my “mildstones”, getting to be a teenager, turning 15 1/2 so I could get my drivers license. Then “Sweet Sixteen”, then old enough to vote. Also old enough to drink. I think maybe that’s why I never liked to drink. My husband took me out, and I ordered one of everything I had heard of. He didn’t warn me how sick you’d get mixing types of booze. That was one devil of a sick, too. I promised God if he’d let me sleep until that horrid sick was all gone, I’d never drink again. And, in the 56 years since then, I can tell you every drink I’ve had. After that, the milestones seemed to be hitting the next decade, turning 30, which was the only one that bothered me, I realized I wasn’t a “kid” anymore. But 40, 50, and 60 didn’t bother me a bit. If I manage to hit 70 I think I’ll be more shocked than anything.
      love you girl.
      Linda

  3. Excellent poem, Sue, and oh so true. And why does wisdom come so late? I think it’s through the painful events in our lives we acquire our wisdom.
    Chris…youre so right …when we were kids or even as young adults , time seemed to pass slowly between x-mas and b-days. Now it flies by!
    Thinking of you today, Sue…
    Jo

    • Thanks Jo for your kind thoughts and special prayers. Indeed, time can be our friend and yet it can also ravage us but that is the way life works. I agree with you that we learn more from our problems than from our successes. Although I have known a few individuals, as have you, who never seem to learn, no matter what they go through or how old they are. I think crisis and pain give us the opportunities and it is up to us to take them or not, don’t you? I’m beat today so need to rest. Just ordered another part for the damn washer, which is the last part to be replaced. If that doesn’t do it then we’ll definitely be buying a new set. Ugh. Thanks again for your concern. Love, Sue

  4. My dears, just for now let me explain I do have metastatic primary breast cancer of the skin. We’ll be doing scans this week to check on all the organs and bones. Your prayers were felt and meant the world to me. I’m so tired I can hardly type. We’ll talk tomorrow…now rest. There are meds, an injection I”ll be starting once a month if all the organs are clear, otherwise, chemotherapy. Much love, Sue

  5. Sue
    I hope you are having some sleep now and Jim too
    You have both had a hard day and I pray for your strength for the coming week.im hoping that you can have the scans in Astoria and not have to travel again so soon.
    Laura
    I think when we are in pain in a way we are all isolated from others.its like the rest of the world goes about its business and we are on another road
    Jo
    Also the time between those dates seems filled with others ,Halloween etc.
    It seems we must be always celebrating something….commerce is making money from it all ..!m always surprised what I can find a card for ..it was for divorce the other day!
    Love Chris

    • Chris…that’s funny . A card for divorce??!! It’s the greeting card companies that thinks up all the “ocassions” for us to buy cards for like “Sweetest Day” , etc.
      Sorry to hear you have a concussion. They’re awful. I’ve had two in my life. The headaches and nausea are no fun…and dizziness too. I just had a brain MRI coz of mine. Take it easy and rest. Hope your dad gets better soon.
      Jo

    • Jennie, don’t worry sweetheart. We’ll find out soon how bad this latest development is. Leave it up to me to have something unusual. Later, love you much, Sue

  6. Hello dear ones
    Sue such a good analogy. Time goes faster and faster. There is a scripture where the Lord tells us that time will go quick for our sakes. I think we are living in that time. Prayers for your strength.
    I know you drink Insure. But you should try the protein drinks from Shaklee. They are used by athletes because of the good nutrition and high protein in them. It would maybe help you with your strength.
    My daughter found a home. Thank you for all your prayers. It was made just for them. Even had a tree house and swings. Off to itself. Closest neighbors are in the cemetery lol. Of course she will still be with me for a couple more weeks wIting for electric and such. But she can move it all on and be ready just to walk in and live
    Rainy and dreary here today. Hope the Son is shining for you all today
    Love
    Tonie

    • Tonie, so pleased to hear the kids found a house and will be on their own soon. Sounds like the perfect house for them with the tree house and swings. Where are all of their possessions now? Are they stored at your house? As far as weather, we are cold and got down into the 30’s last night. Surprise. Got up to 64 today but clear and lovely. Not that I’m going out in it at all. I’m just lying low, resting the back for now. Later, do take care and get some rest. Love, Sue

      • Yes, they are stored up in the old trailers. Then some furniture I am passing on to them, along with a bedroom suite that Ms Alice daughter is giving them. I am giving them my dining room set and going to refinish my mother;s first one she had. It is just a wooden table , been painted, so gotta scrape all that off.
        BRRR !! I am not eager for those temps, but my granddaughter is so excited to see snow !
        You rest up
        love
        Tonie

  7. Sue, I loved the poem and it is so true about how years ago we couldn’t wait to be 18, then 21, then on and on and on to specific birthdays and holidays. Now it’s like we finish one thing and there is very little wait before the next thing is here. Sue, I love you so much but I am finding it hard to find the words I want to say to you at the moment. Just know I am praying for you. I believe all is going to work out ok. God is in control. You are special and an inspiration to all of us.
    Tonie, so glad your daughter found a house. I know everyone must be happy. I pray the move goes smoothly. Love to all of you, Donna

    • Donna, so sorry I failed to wish you Happy Birthday yesterday. Hope it was a good one. Indeed, the days pass so quickly unless we’re in pain and then they can truly drag. I thought we’d never get home last night on the long drive home. I’m being a lazy old thing today. Still haven’t got the days lined up for the scans but it’s understandable considering how busy the oncology office was yesterday. Hope they are able to schedule them soon just to get them behind me. So often it’s the not knowing that wears away at us, don’t you think? Later dear, and how it that new grandbaby doing? Love, Sue

  8. Happy birthday Donna….even it is to late
    Tonie..it wil be bliss to have your home back to yourself,and the kids near too
    Sue….good you are resting.i do so hope this washer sorts out now.its had a whole new interior!

    My dad has a cold now and it has laid him low,but he is ok
    Me..well I bumped my head In The garden.didnt think anything of it till the next day. I woke up with this feeling of falling down as i was lying flat ,went to see Dr. after a few days As had this headache nausea and sore scalp…apparently it’s set up a neuralgia there and a bit of concussion. It was only a sharp branch of a tree as I stood up! So what a blimmin nuisance .she said it could take two to three weeks to go.
    Weather looks set good for next few days so may go to shed later in week for a few days . supposed to rest with it but I can do that there with some scenery to watch..
    DH has his computer back windows 10 messed it up big time and (the man who knows) had to take it away and fix it….had to create a new account with it .and transfer all the data over.it was complicated.
    So he is happy now and was at a loss without it. Apparently they are bringing out a patch for it.what i think is why don’t they know all this before they bring it out in the first place. They’re supposed to be clever..well perhaps they are in that they are providing extra work for the market!
    Well go back try and get back to sleep it’s nearly 4 am here
    Chris

    • Oh Chris, I am so sorry to hear you have a concussion. What a scary experience for you so please for the sake of all of us who love you so much, baby yourself for a bit. Watch for any additional headaches, vision problems or further dizziness, okay? I’m sorry your Dad has pneumonia. That’s always serious but especially in the elderly.
      Unfortunate that your DH has had so many problems with Windows 10. All the glitches are still there I guess. That’s exactly what my SIL and our computer guy said about it…to wait awhile for them to work out the problems before getting it.
      Hope his B/P didn’t go up over the problems with it. Now you two take care of each other. Okay? Love you, Sue

  9. Sue, my grandbaby (great) is doing great. She is growing so fast. She likes to smile so I call her Miss Smiley. I haven’t met her personally yet as she lives in NJ. My granddaughters is good about sending me pictures and she also called me on live video to see the baby in real time. That was so nice. My daughter is going up Friday for a few days. Then my granddaughter her husband and the baby are coming south for Thanksgiving. I am excited about that. I hope the scans are scheduled quickly. Will you have to go back to Portland for those or can they do them there? I am praying that they are OK and no more cancer anywhere else. Waiting is the hardest part. Now the time will slow down when it needs to move and get this overwith.
    Thanks for the Birthday Wishes. I just stayed home. My back is really bad. Not even the area that I got the injections for. My x-rays showed a slight fracture in my Lumbar 2 area but no pain there. Go figure. Mainly low back and hip joints. I have to take a pain pill before I can sit at the table and eat. I am also dealing with very low potassium. I am taking 10 mg. Daily and eating high potassium foods. I am waiting to hear back from my blood work I just had. I have been so tired and muscles hurting eveywhere. My oncologist found it when I went for my check up and he did bloodwork. I did tell him how I was feeling. All my other tests were good but I am slightly anemic. That is one of the main reasons I haven’t written on the blog much since I got back from my daughters. I have been reading to keep up. I did have a cortisone injection a week ago in my right middle finger for the RA. Another reason for not writing much. That is better now. I was thinking this morning how nice it would be to not have to take any medicine as I was starting my morning regimen of pills.
    I hope you rest well tonight my friend. Love you, Donna

    • Donna dear, I am so sorry you are going through so much right now. Your back sounds very painful. With even slight anemia and all the pain in the back and hips that is enough to make you fatigued. Don’t ever worry if you don’t feel like writing to us but just one sentence would often do so we know you’re relatively okay. It’s a pain isn’t it having to watch the K+ plus all the other factors in your diet. This way of life is so much work, each and every day. Don’t you sometimes wish you get take a day off from yourself? I know I do. I’m pleased your great grandbaby is doing well. New babies offer such hope for all of us who are older, don’t they?
      Hang in there dear friend and know you’re in our thoughts and hearts. My scans will be done here in town so we can forgo at least one trip. Love, Sue

      • Glad the scans will be near you and saves a trip to Portland. I hope it will be soon. If you are like me I hate waiting for test then hate waiting for the results. I pray you got rested and your back feels better. What about the washing machine? Any news there. All my laundry is upstairs so I put my laundry basket in the hallway and my husband takes it downstairs when he leaves for work at 5AM. At night when I have finished, he takes it back upstairs. If I forget to put it out for him I just throw it down. Bless his heart, he does his own laundry which helps me as he wears heavy blue jeans. That saves my back. Love you Sue, Donna

  10. Tonie, well it certainly sounds like the kids are going to fill up their house very quickly. It’s good they will have the furnishings to make life comfortable for them. How far away from you will they be? Snow? THoughts of snow already? Well, it will be an interesting first year for all of them, won’t it? Hope they’re loading up on warm clothing after all those years in AZ.
    I’m still waiting to hear from the hospital who is waiting for the okay from the insurance company.I don’t anticipate any problems. It just stalls the timing a bit. I’m anxious to get the scans completed, naturally. I was such a lazy slug yesterday. Should try to get something productive accomplished today. Much love, Sue

    • Glad the scans will be near you and saves a trip to Portland. I hope it will be soon. If you are like me I hate waiting for test then hate waiting for the results. I pray you got rested and your back feels better. What about the washing machine? Any news there. All my laundry is upstairs so I put my laundry basket in the hallway and my husband takes it downstairs when he leaves for work at 5AM. At night when I have finished, he takes it back upstairs. If I forget to put it out for him I just throw it down. Bless his heart, he does his own laundry which helps me as he wears heavy blue jeans. That saves my back. Love you Sue, Donna

  11. HELLO……DONNA HOPE YOUR BACK GETS BETTER REAL SOON, THINKING OF YOU AND HOPE YOU HAD A LOVELY BIRTHDAY.

    CHRIS….BAD LUCK WITH THE CONCUSSION, NEURALGIA AS WELL, THAT’S TOUGH……HOPE DAD RECOVERS FROM HIS COLD, AND I ALSO HOPE HE DIDN’T GIVE IT TO YOU……HAS DH STILL GOT WINDOWS 10 OR DID HE DECIDE IT WASN’T WORTH? I AM GETTING USED TO IT NOW, BUT HOW I WISH I WAS BACK ON XP.

    SUE…….HOW ARE THINGS GOING WITH YOU SWEET FRIEND, I WORRY ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME, WHEN AND WHAT IS THE NEXT STEP? HAS THE TREATMENT BEEN DECIDED, OR HAVE YOU TO WAIT TILL THE BONES ETC AVE BEEN INVESTIGATED?
    THIS IS SO DAMN HARD ON YOU AND SHOULD NOT BE HAPPENING………………I LOVE YOU…….JEN XX

    LOVE TO ALL XXXXXXXXXXXXX

    • Jennie, Yes, we have to wait for the scans which will be all day tomorrow. Dreading. After that if they are all clear then except for the skin, I will get an injection monthly. If other organs involved then it will undoubtedly be chemotherapy. Please pray for those results. Much love, Sue

      • Sue, I will be praying for you tomorrow as you undergo your scans and get them behind you. I am just glad you don’t have to travel into Portland for them. Love, Jo

      • SUE….YOU DON’T NEED TO ASK ME TO PRAY, YOU KNOW I DO, NO MATTER WHAT……..ITS GOING TO BE A TOUGH DAY, DO THE USUAL AND ASK FOR AN ANGEL, I KNOW IT WILL HELP, LIKE I SAID TO YOU, THERE IS A REASON YOU HAVE OVERCOME THESE HUGE PROBLEMS, AND YOU WILL DO IT AGAIN………LA FOI MY FRIEND (FAITH)
        I LOVE YOU…………………..JENNIE XXXXXXX

  12. Well DH Bp is so ok that he has halved the dose of one of them,becos of the side effects,so we will see how it goes
    Jen
    He’s got his comp.fixed and all ok on it now…fingers crossed…he seems to like windows 10. See how that goes!
    My head still bad and nauseated.
    Sue
    Pleased you don’t have to go to Portland again for scan.hope you have heard a date by now. How’s all the pains in back ,has it settled after the trip ?
    Chris

    • Chris, I am sad to hear you still have to deal with nausea. Do take care and rest, rest, rest.
      Watch the severity of the headaches.
      I just got my time for my two scans. Both tomorrow beginning at 8:45 to drink some disgusting fluids, then scan at 10 then injected with nuclear medicine and back again at 1 PM for next one which will be the bone scan. Long hard day but must do it.
      Glad DH is making friends with his computer. More than I can say about any changes with electronics and me. Do take care, okay? Love, Sue

    • CHRIS…..GLAD TO HEAR THE BP IS OK FOR THE MOMENT, AND THE COMPUTER IS FIXED, BUT SORRY TO HEAR YOU STILL FEEL LIKE YAKKING, DID THE SKIN GET BROKEN ON YOUR SCALP WHEN YOU HIT THE TREE AND WENT CROSSEYED?? I HOPE THE DOCTOR MEDICATED YOU, AND THINGS WILL SOON BE ON TH UP……TAKE CARE LOVE…………………………JENNIE XX

  13. Sue
    I am going to shed tomorrow and will be thinking and praying for you .
    I will rest at the shed and watch the headaches
    Get the day over with and behind you sue
    Love Chris

    • Chris, have a safe trip and be sure to contact a doctor over on the coast if any symptoms gets worse. It will probably dissipate in time. Indeed I will be anxious to get the day behind me and so will my back and behind. Enjoy your time at the shed. Love, Sue

  14. Thanks Jo for the prayers and thoughts. So you did get some results. How serious is this seizure disorder? Please forgive me for not following through earlier about your scans. I have been so selfishly preoccupied lately. I hope it’s not something that will have a major affect. How’s the ever present sitter doing? Love, Sue

    • Oh, Sue, with everything you have going on, we all would be preoccupied. It’s nothing I can’t live with…I started taking Topamax last week. We’ll see how it goes. The neurologist called it “partial complex seizures”. The sitter…well…it is ever miserable..of course!
      Prayers for tomorrow…..Love, Jo

  15. Sue, had my infusion today and have spent time thinking of you. It doesn’t surprise me at all to have you have something I’ve never heard of happen to you. You are such a unique individual. I wonder if they will do any case studies based on dealing with autoimmune disease and treatment options in the patient presenting with CA. I love you my dear friend. You are a rock for me and I have learned how to deal with twists and turns in life and with our diseases through talks with you and your writing. My emotional response has matured so much with your wisdom and I’m far more comfortable speaking out when something isn’t right for me not just medical treatment but life in general.

    • Laura, entries like this make me realize I didn’t lose everything when I had to give up the profession of nursing. I know it’s been a more than difficult few years for you as psoriatic arthritis is hideous. You’ve been very courageous and knowing you you have reached out to others, yourself, many times. We nurses are just that way.
      That’s an interesting question you raise about rheumatoid disease and cancer treatment. I’ve certainly learned a few things about oral chemo. I think that’s the main reason we’re considering an injection. I do fine on the injectable methotrexate but had trouble with the pills. The local oncologist wasn’t a bit interested in my history and that’s the main reason we drive all the way to Portland. I think integrative medicine is so vitally important. Thanks for thinking about me. Love, Sue

  16. Jo
    I’m sorry to hear that ..a seizure disorder ..does that mean something like epilepsy ….can you still drive ..or does it only affect your balance .
    My goodness what a shock for you ,or did you somehow expect something like that?
    Is it all liveable with now you know about it tho ?
    It must have been a shock to have that news
    Chris

    • Hi Chris…I did expect something to show up on the MRI or EEG and it did on both. My balance is bad…I fall a lot..4 times in 4 years and one of those falls I hit my hard head. .I don’t have have like a full blown epilepsy at all , but a “partial seizure” which wouldn’t be noticeable to anyone looking at me and also affected my cerebellum which controls our balance in our brain! The neurologist was very good diagnosing it all.
      Hope you rest this weekend and your headache goes away.

      Jo

  17. Sue, Life is Time, yes, let’s use it wisely. Thank you, and thank Natalie for yet another terrific picture! I’m sorry I’m just seeing this new blog post. Somehow I missed its posting. Not too surprising, actually, been dealing with fatigue and foggy head the last week and a half. Oh, the joys. I have been following your posts on fb as they cross my Feed. So sorry about that darned washing machine. Unbelievable. Wish you didn’t have to deal with that on top of all else. I will be keeping you in thought and prayer tomorrow. I know how difficult imaging can be for you. Praying for clear images!

    Tonie, so glad to hear the kids found a place! It sounds perfect. 🙂 (Good for you, too.) 😉

    Chris, my heavens. Do take care of that concussion. Been there, done that with the boy. Not a fun time. And dad has pneumonia? Goodness. Praying you both are on the mend.

    Jo, I do hope the med helps!

    Donna, dear, I second Sue. Please do take care. So sorry for all you are going through.

    • Lyn, sorry you have had a bad time lately. Do you think it’s the new Fall weather coming in? Glad you like the poem and the picture. Yes, Nat does a wonderful job. I am so thankful to have her help me out so often.
      I hope that in coming days you will be feeling better and the thinking clears up. Love, Sue

      • Lynn, I hope you are feeling better. I think about you often. I am sorry you are having a hard time. Our weather is cool and raining and I can really feel it. My right hand and left shoulder are hurting pretty badly. Sleep well and I pray you have a great day tomorrow.

    • Thanks, Lyn. I hope your fatigue lifts and you feel better. Did your son have any residual long term effects from his concussion? I hope not.
      Jo

      • He does, Jo. He actually had at least 2 concussions (2 diagnosed) and still has some difficulty concentrating at times and some memory difficulty.

      • Lynn…Sorry about your son. It is a quite common occurrence. I’ve had two concussions, also. A very major one when I was 13. That’s when my headaches started way back then. The medical field is learning so much more about the repurcussions and effects of head injuries later in life.
        Jo

  18. Hi everyone, thanks for the Birthday wishes. It was a good peaceful day. Got calls, cards and a beautiful flower arrangement from my oldest daughter. I miss chatting with all of you. Know I am keeping up with all of you. Praying for all of you. I will get back on track writing each of you. Get a good night sleep… love you all, Tonie, Chris, Jennie, Josephine, Bobsled Laura, and can’t forget our dear sweet Sue. Will be praying for you tomorrow as you get your scans. Believe they are going to come back clean so you only have to get a monthly shot. Be back later. For those of you on Facebook, I shared some pictures of my new great-granddaughter on my wall today. God Bless all of you! Donna

    • Donna dear, thank you so much. I loved your washing/laundry tale. I’ve been known to throw laundry down the stairs a time or two myself. Well, it’s now defunct. A three year old GE washer stackable set that cost over a thousand dollars and we have just ordered the last part it is possible to replace. We will see, I guess. WHen the repair guy came the other day I opened the door and he said, “Hi Mom, it’s your other son.” Think we’ve been seeing a bit too much of him and know he is almost as frustrated as we are. Last go around then we have to buy a new one and hope they give us a good deal at his store. The other stackables are front loading and I haven’t heard anything good about those so will have to see.
      Thank you for your kind wishes for tomorrow and I pray your back is not acting up too much today. Love you, Sue

      • Having more back trouble. Different spot all together. I also had x-rays and found out I have a slight fracture in my Lumbar 2 area. That is not even hurting. Go figure that one out. It turned cool and rainy today so you know I am hurting all over especially my right hand and left shoulder. More prednisone. Ugh, I hate taking so much medicine. I wrote to Sue up in the blog somewhere explaining more of my health problems. Love you. Donna

  19. Jo, I am sorry to hear the diagnosis but the outlook is good and it sounds like you have a neurologist who is very knowing and caring. Now I understand why the previous concussions. Isn’t that a miserable experience though? My dear, it seems like some of us have so much on that plate of life it’s a wonder we can balance it at all, isn’t it? But taking all of this one day and one step at a time is how we must live. Moment to moment. I am dreading the hard tables and all the sitting tomorrow but know it must be done. Do be good to yourself and let us know how your Mom is doing as I think about her often. Love you, Sue

    • Sue..i know you are dreading the scans on the hard tables today with your back and sitter. It’s rough, I know. Wish they would make those darn tables more comfortable. Sending prayers and angels your way to see you through. Praying for clear images and the once monthly injection for your outcome. Amen.
      Love, Jo

  20. Morning Peeps:
    It is Thursday, I know this because I am dragging butt !! I could just lay here and sleep, but alas ! Not my lot in life.
    Sue, praying for you this day that all goes well. Lyn, sorry you are feeling so down. I had my RA Dr to call me in a week of Prednisone due to all that junk. It knocked it out, but as fall goes so goes my pain as well. Hope you feel better soon.
    Well, the saga continues. Still another week to 10 days before my house is my own and I am counting them by the minute it seems. It has been a long 2 months. I can’t believe summer is over. I didn’t get to ride hardly at all, was too busy and too tired. I am hoping to get to do so more often. Now that most of my work is done. Baby thinks since the air has turned cold she is supposed to get her feed 🙂 So funny, she comes calling to me as I come across from feeding the chicks !
    DD is taking the extra rooster and his little bride with them. THey call them :Romeo and Juliet. So funny.
    Well, much as I hate to , I must get dressed.
    God bless
    Love
    Tonie

    • TONIE….YOU MUST THINK I AM SUCH A KLUTZ, I THOUGHT YOU WERE ALREADY IN YOUR NEW HOME, I HAVE THE ATTENTION SPAN OF A GNAT SOMETIMES……SO YOU WILL BE IN BEFORE THE BAD WEATHER COMES HOPEFULLY?? ITS SAD YOU DIDN’T GET TO RIDE MUCH LOVE, BUT YOU HAD SUCH A LOT TO DO, AND HAVING THE KIDS AND ALL !!!!!
      LOVE THE NAMES FOR THE CHUCKS, HAS YOUR DD FOUND SOMEWHERE NEAR YOU TO LIVE NOW?? I HOPE SO, TO HAVE FAMILY CLOSE BY IS EVERYTHING……..MISS ALL THAT…….LOVE YOU…JENNIE XX

  21. Jennie:
    Honey I AM in my new home, but I never really got moved in. I still have things to put away, put up, and FIND now. My home was invaded the day after I moved in. THat was in June. Now when they leave I have to rearrange everything and put away a lot of things I cannot even get to right now because of all the company.
    DD found a home in the nearest “town” It isn’t right in town but on the outskirts, so pretty to itself. They love all the space it has. I am going to see it today.
    All rainy and I am wiped out. WHether from the weather or what. But can’t make it to water aerobics today.. just too tired.
    I am officially now wearing regular womens sizes and not the big W womens. 2 sizes down as well. First time in a LONG time. I love how much better I feel about myself and how much better my knees and feet feel. They still hurt, but not like before.
    Sue, hope you are feeling better. Love you all so much
    Tonie

    • HI TONIE….SO SORRY FOR MY MISTAKE PETAL, HOWEVER ITS GOOD TO KNOW YOU ARE NOW SETTLED AND ITS JUST A MATTER OF GETTING ORGANIZED……WELL DONE FOR THE WEIGHT LOSS TOO, GET SOME PHOTO’S “BEFORE AND AFTER” SHOTS, WOULD LOVE TO SEE THEM………..I THINK A STONE OFF ME WOULD HELP MY KNEES TOO…………….GREAT NEWS ABOUT YOUR DD TOO……LOVE YOU…JENNIE XX

    • Tonie, it won’t be long before you can get everything settled. You won’t know what to do with |ourself when everyone is gone and it is quiet. I hope your back doesn’t start hurting with everything you are going to have to do as they move out. I hope you have a great weekend and just maybe a nap or two. Love you, Donna

      • Tonie, a stone is 20 pounds. I think the women in Britain must be very smart. Think how much better it sounds to say “I weight 7 stones” than to say I weight 140!

  22. Tonie
    Good for you to lose all that weight ,well done
    Good weather here for the w.end.DD was coming with a friend but it got called off. Good thing really with how I feel. this concussion has set up my neuropathy in my head and I feel like sHt
    Sue. ….hope you are resting after yesterday
    Back later chris

  23. DEAR FRIENDS, FEELING TOTALLY SORE, EXHAUSTED AND HAVING MUCH PAIN AFTER A LONG DAY YESTERDAY. DON’T KNOW HOW LONG IT WILL TAKE TO GET ANY RESULTS. FIRST BOTTLE OF GUNK I HAD TO DRINK REALLY GAVE ME CRAMPS WHICH STAYED WITH ME ALL DAY, THEN ON TO TWO IV INJECTIONS OF NUCLEAR MEDICINE TO CHECK OUT EVERY NOOK AND CRANNY OF ME. JUST RESTING NOW, DEALING WITH CRAMPS, SORE JOINTS AND BACK AND SEARCHING FOR PEACE ABOUT WHATEVER WILL BE. LOVE TO EACH OF YOU RIGHT NOW. SUE

    • Rest and gather energy as it comes. Hopefully your little room fridge is well stocked with fluids and yogurt. Love you and will continue to pray

    • Sue, rest your sore body and back and recoup what energy you can this weekend. I will continue to hold you in my thoughts and prayers and pray you willl find peace and patience . I’ve been watching Pope Frances saying mass in Madison Square Garden in front of 25,000 people. My favorite Pope ever!
      Rest now, Love, Jo

    • Sue, Well the tests are over. Now waiting for the results. I just know they are going to be clear. I hope you can get some much needed rest this weekend. I wouldn’t do more than you have to.
      You will definitely be in my prayers. Hope you have a good weekend. I love you my friend, Donna

  24. Sue…so much to deal with . I can’t think of what to say except I’m with you there. And praying for that peace for you as you wait.
    I’ve come back home ,not too good and felt safer to be at home
    Cramps you didn’t need either along with the sore joints
    Hope you are getting some rest and the back a bit better
    Chris

    • Hey Chris, so sorry about the concussion. I pray that soon you will be feeling better. I don’t blame you for wanting to stay at home to be close to your doctor’s should you need them over the weekend. Try and get some rest dear. Hopefully your head doesn’t hurt to bad. Hoping your DH blood pressure is staying good. Hope your dad is doing OK with his carer. Love you sweetie, Donna

  25. Good morning peeps !
    So…another dreary day here in the mtns. At least it isn’t cold. Even though it is muddy, I still must dig up some potatoes before the wet ruins them.
    I went to see the kids house with them yesterday. It is a big ranch style , built in 1948, hardwood floors throughout, full size basement , and attic, large carport with 2 utility rooms and lots of space , large kitchen, and a very big yard. I am pleased for them. We put a lot of things away and rearranged things. They have a ton of stuff to do. As do I when they leave. It is the usual madhouse here this morning because the kids are here from school. I had one of those one time moments this morning. I let the hens out and fed them and there were a couple eggs already. One was freshly laid and still warm. I brought it in and let the boys hold it. The wonder in their eyes and big smiles on their faces really grabs the heart. That moment was worth all the aggravation I have had. A picture I will carry for years now.
    Chris, so sorry, rest your head and take it easy. That is no light matter. and no shaking of the head !!
    Sue, you also rest up and take it easy. As for me, I must change my bed and get outside here shortly, I am enjoying laying here too much !!
    Love to you all
    Tonie

  26. Dear Friends, been reading all your entries and love hearing from you all.
    Tonie, sounds like your daughter and family have found such a wonderful place to spread out. It sounds perfect for them and know the move will take awhile but please, you have enough to do at your place. Let them move themselves. I am concerned about your back and health. All sounds great for them. Glad they’re getting a rooster and hen. They’ll love that. So cute how the children have taken to the country life.
    Jennie, sounds like you’re having good times and bad. Hope the good outweighs the bad and the weather settles down. We have had some very pleasant days here. Rain at night, then clear weather with cool winds in the day. Smells like autumn. Hope Sacha is doing well. Our old Jake is hanging on and don’t think he’s suffering at all. Did go through a bad time with him for a couple of days but he’s better now. He’s over 14 and barely sees and hears, poor old dear.
    Jo, hope the sitter is calming. I know…it effects everything doesn’t it? Such a constant, nagging companion. Glad so much of your testing is over. Prayers for your Mom as she ages. Such a difficult time in life.
    Lyn, I see you and DD went into the city to see a play. How fun. Glad you enjoyed it so much. I know this is always a difficult time for you with weather changing. Stay good to yourself, okay?
    Donna, sorry you’re having so much pain. Little by little hope it eases for you. How bad is the back problem right now?
    Chris, I know you’re going through a bad time now and am so sorry. Hope the headache and other problems like the nausea are easing for you. You sure didn’t need that, huh? Hope all stays quiet with your Dad and DH. Glad you’re at home near any resources you might need. Please stay safe.
    Each of you mean so much to me and please know I have just had a rough week and will keep you informed when I know more. Sue

    • Sue, my back can get pretty bad. I have to take my pain medication in order to be able to sit for a while. Sitting is the worst problem. I have had the heating pad on it most of this evening. It has helped a lot. I am going up to bed now. It is 11:25 PM. Once I get in the bed it won’t hurt either. Continuing to pray for you Sue. Hopefully you won’t have to wait too long for your test results. Continue to rest. I am going to a Cancer Day Survivor dinner tomorrow with a lot of other survivors. We have it every year. I have gone to 15 of them. It is at our hospital. We have had as many as 800 people attend. I doubt we will have that many tomorrow. I will take it easy as not to hurt too much.
      love you dear, Donna

      • Donna, Glad to hear about so many survivors of cancer…encouraging. I understand about the sitting because I’ve had that problem for so long. It’s a real challenge. Hope you rest well and have a good time tomorrow..does taking a cushion help? Love you, too. Sue

    • Sue, I hope you are resting this weekend and recuperating from the difficult week and scans and your back and joints are less painful.. Thanks for thinking about my mom. Things have quickly escalated with her. She claims someone was in her house during the night at 2a.m. She heard the footsteps and saw a light on in the bedroom where my dad used to sleep. She c l aims she went back to her room and locked the door and an hour later when she came out the light was off in that bedroom. We don’t know if she’s making it up, dreamt it or could someone have really been in the house? She sounded so very frightened to have made it up. So I’m going to try to go to Chicago in a few weeks and interview a full time caregiver, 24/7. Sorry for the long comment, but you are right when you say things get more difficult as she gets older.
      Thinking of you , Sue, and praying for the best.
      Love you, Jo

      • Jo, It’s difficult to say with elderly. Some suffer such severe “sundowner” syndrome, it’s difficult for them to know what is real, what is not and what is a dream. Life is such a painful circle as we are born, live in our prime and then decline…painful but somehow soothing to know each of us will deal with it with our own in some way. I know you’ll feel better when you can get up to Chicago and see her for yourself but I also know how difficult that trip will be for you. I wish you well for finding a competent company of caregivers or an individual. It takes a special person, both compassionate, trustworthy and faithful. That field can attract all types of individuals…both good and bad. It doesn’t pay very well and requires such commitment of one’s time and life. Thanks for your prayers, as they are deeply appreciated. Love, Sue

      • Sue..thanks for the info. I never heard of “sundowner” syndrome before. It could be that. She is still “on the ball” mentally with some slight memory issues. I know it won’t be an easy task to find the right person, trustworthy and caring. I do dread the trip there all the way around. Hope your resting this Sunday.
        Love, Jo

  27. HELLO………WHAT A BUMMER, MY KNEES HAVE GONE AND I DON’T KNOW WHERE, BUT IF THERE ANY NEW ONES HANGING AROUND, CAN SOMEONE ORDER ME A PAIR………………JUST A BIT MORE PAIN TO ADD TO THE GROWING LIST….HAD A TERRIBLE ATTACK OF DIVA LAST NIGHT AND THIS MORNING, AND NOW CAN HARDLY BEND THE LEFT KNEE AT ALL.

    CHRIS….SO GLAD YOU ARE RECOVERING FROM YOUR HEAD INJURY, AND I HOPE YOU ARE ENJOYING THIS LOVELY AUTUMN WEATHER WE ARE HAVING….ARE YOU?

    SUE…….ITS VERY KIND OF YOU TO BE CONCERNED ABOUT SACHA, HE IS FINE, BETTER THAN HIS OWNER THAT’S FOR SURE…….I HOPE YOU ARE RESTING UP, AND THE BUTT IS FEELING LESS SORE FROM YOUR JOURNEY…..DO YOU HAVE TO GO BACK FOR YOUR RESULTS, OR WILL THEY CALL YOU? THINKING AND PRAYING FOR YOU MY DEAR FRIEND.

    DONNA……ENJOY THE DINNER FOR THE CANCER SURVIVORS, DON’T FORGET TO TAKE A SOFT CUSHION WITH YOU, AND LET US KNOW HOW IT WENT.

    TONIE….SUE IS RIGHT, THE KIDS ARE CAPABLE OF SEEING TO THEIR MOVE ON THEIR OWN…….BUT KNOWING YOU, I BET YOU WILL GET INVOLVED………………YOU STILL HAVE THINGS TO DO IN YOUR OWN PLACE THOUGH, SO TRY NOT TO SPREAD YOURSELF TOO THINLY, OR YOU WILL GET DONE IN AGAIN.

    LOVE TO ALL, HAVE A GOOD SUNDAY…………..XXXXX JENNIE XXXXXX

    • Jennie, I assume they will call me with the results so we can make the appt. for the shots. I am so sorry to hear your knees are misbehaving so much. Rest them with heat for a few days and they may respond well to that. Staying off of them is important until they calm down. Do take care now, okay? Love, Sue

      • THANKS SUE….I AM OK WITH WALKING, BUT CUTTING OUT THE WORKOUTS……OFF TO DOC’S IN A MINUTE…..HOPE ALL GOES WELL FOR YOU, AND KEEPING YOU IN THOUGHT AND PRAYER….LOVE YOU, JEN X

  28. Hello, everyone. I just caught up with all – Jo, Donna, Chris, Jenny, Tonie, Sue, Bobsled. I do hope everyone’s heads, bums, backs, knees, feet, et al, are feeling better. Yes, Sue, I took advantage of a great opportunity for a bus trip into NYC with ticket to see Finding Neverland, and took my DD with me. Thankfully, the fatigue and painful parts were behaving and I felt good going into the day. We enjoyed a leisurely time of sipping coffee and shopping, lunch at Ellen’s Stardust – what fun old time diner in which the wait staff entertain, singing great classics. Good food, too! Matinee at 2:00, the show was magical! We then enjoyed dinner at a nearby brick oven pizza place, strolled a couple of blocks to Bryant Park and sat and enjoyed the evening a bit with our “dessert”, a toasted graham cracker latte from Starbucks. The walk back to the bus meeting place was the most challenging part of the day. People came out of the woodwork! A mass of humanity to weave through back to the bus. Today, I try to recover. Everywhere I look in the house I see something that needs to be cleaned or put away it seems. I hate that. How is it no one cleans up when I’m away… ugh. It’s going to have to wait. I’m pooped. Rest up, all.

    • Lyn, Wow. What a stimulating day you and DD had in the big city. Sounds like great fun and memorable, too. Thanks for sharing it with us. Love, Sue

    • LYN…SOUNDED LIKE YOU HAD A BALL….SO PLEASED YOU WERE WELL ENOUGH TO ENJOY IT ALL, DON’T TRY AND DO TOO MUCH AT HOME, OR YOU WILL RUIN YOUR LOVELY EXPERIENCE, ONE STEP AT A TIME, AND RESTS BETWEEN…….LOVE JENNIE X

  29. Good rainy soggy overcast morning all:
    Did I mention it is still raining ? 🙂 Regardless. Some butt head called me at 2:30 and said NOTHING. So I was awake watching movies til around 6. So off to a great start today, and I must teach Sunday School today. Yes, Sue and Jennie, I am not helping them move, just drove them over that day and puttered around for an hour or so . I realize how much I have to do when they leave me.
    Lyn, I am so jealous of your outing. I LOVED the movie, “Finding Neverland” it was so sweet and tearful ! Ms Alice’s daughter who lives in New Jersey has told me to come and stay with her, then take the train into the city, spend the day doing whatever, then meet her for dinner. Thing is, I have to drive up and back. I may take her up on it one day. I would LOVE to see the museums and at least one show.
    Well one more week, yesterday was so peaceful. I got a little work done, and lay on my couch, watched a complete movie in silence, and took a long shower with no one knocking on the door. Yes, it will more than likely be a long week. BUT.. 🙂
    Chris, glad your head is feeling better. Now I must go and get ready for church.
    Love to all
    Tonie

    • Tonie, sounds like some drunk dialed the wrong number and you were the victim. I’m so sorry you will be so exhausted today. Hopefully you can get in a bit of a nap after church. DO take care, Love, Sue

      • Sue, when we were just in our first house, I got a call in the middle of the night – drunk – as well. The unnerving thing was, he said my name. I had no idea who it was or how he got our number. I was a bit scared for a while, but no repeat ever occurred, thankfully.

    • Tonie, I have no doubt you’d enjoy the city, but that is a long drive for you, for sure. We are to have rain this coming week. I know we need it, but I’m not looking forward. I know what it can do to a body. Glad you had a peaceful morning. Sorry for the interruption overnight.

      • Lyn, I had to chuckle a bit at what I wrote earlier about Tonie’s mid of the night call probably being a drunk because we get calls all the time in the mid of the night…not drunks, but sometimes because of drunks; as they are calls from the jail about someone who has been arrested. Many, many years ago when I was a young divorced mother with young children I got harassing calls and had to even call the police. I was so frightened because they kept happening. Because they called me by my first name, Dorothy, and no one who knew me did, the police thought it was some guy harassing newly divorced women. The divorces are a matter of public record. You can be sure I had all the doors locked and canned; you know when you put can in front of the door. It’s a weird world at times…Sue

  30. Jo, yes, sundowner is a term we use in hospitals and it is so often amazingly predictable. I don’t know if it’s the fatigue of the day, darkness of nightfall or what causes it. I know you’ll find the strength for the trip when you need it. Love, Sue

    • I worked nights for several years at all levels of nursing and the ONLY place I didn’t have too much of an encounter with sundown syndrome was on the dementia unit as by the time they were there, they had very little cognitive function to lose. Any nurse that has ever watched the sun rise at the end of a shift has had to deal with it. It’s tragic really.

      • Laura, so true, so true. I can remember some nights that morning sun was like leaving Wonderland, it was so welcome. Sue

    • Sue, when I was in nursing school, and kept very late hours studying, somebody would call at 3 am every night. never said a word, no heavy breathing or anything. Just stayed on a line less than a minute and hung up. This went on for about 3 months.Then it abruptly stopped. After about 2 weeks he(?) called again. I picked up the phone saying “What the hell is wrong with you? Don’t ever do that to me again. I have been worried sick the last few weeks, and didn’t know how to find out if you were okay, if I needed to send help, or food. All I knew is that you disappeared. Don’t you DARE ever do that to me again! He must have realized for the first time that he was calling a crazy lady—never heard from him again!

      • Linda, priceless story. Such a strange world at times, huh? Good to handle it with humor. Love, Sue

  31. Jo:
    I know you will want good people for your mom’s care. But look into finding someone who is able to do this, but not a job on the market. You will find lots of ads in the papers from people who “sit” with the elderly. Usually the most dependable and reliable people outside of an agency. If you ask around some of your friends may know of someone who fits this bill. Or two persons. Prayers that you find the right fit .
    Tonie

    • Tonie..thanks for suggestions and prayers. I have inquiries out to my friends back in Chicago for any referrals. .my mom has a carer monday thru Friday from 11 a.m. to 5 p.m. who we found through an agency. But she needs 7 days 24 hours and Agency can’t fill request. Hoping a friend will come through ..i would feel better having a caregiver that someone knows and recommended.

      Sue, thinking of you today…

      Jo

      • Thanks Jo, Yes, it is a big chore but well worth finding just the right person for your Mom. You need someone like our Tonie. I agree it is good to have someone you can know and trust and of course, references. I must admit the bigger agencies were a problem for us with Jim’s Mom even though they said they had background checks. Folks at your churches in Chicago would probably know someone who needs the work and is kind. Love, Sue

  32. Morning Peeps !:
    Sue , I did get my catnap. It rained all day which made it easy. The house is so quiet now. Everyone is gone, the kids to school and DD to her other home. I need to go and workout, but no hurry as it is still dreary and nothing can be done outdoors. And nothing indoors that won’t be a mess in a few hours 🙂
    Oh well, this too shall pass quickly. I may take another nap before going to the gym LOL !! Peace and quiet when you have grown accustomed to it , is a welcome thing is it not ?
    I hope you are doing better today. I worry about you everytime you have an appt or have to drive anyways. I know how hard that is one you.
    Take care all of you and have a wonderful blessed day.
    Love to all
    Tonie

    • Tonie, sounds like life is humming along down south. Glad the kids house is such a joy and a challenge for Nikki as she gets settled making it her own. So, will the kids have to change schools? How are they about that if they do? Indeed, there is a lot to be said for peace and quiet, especially when you don’t feel well. Glad you got some rest. Love, Sue

    • Chris, hope each day brings improvement for the concussion. It will take time but I’m glad that time is being spent at the shed. Love you, Sue

  33. Jo
    I wish you success with a carer..I know how difficult it can be
    Your poor mum it must be a worry
    Well I’m at shed and it’s lovely weather .still feel as if my head is being squeezed and stuff.but not so nauseous .scalp is sore like my hairs been combed the wrong way in spots
    My dad is more weaker and speech weaker.im gonna ask for a Dr to see him tomorrow as he seems chesty and with the pneumonia ever around with his swallowing ,I think it’s best
    Gonna listen to some TV then hopefully sleep.i put the alarm on last night for 3 am,so I could see the moon.it was a good sight
    Sue
    How’s the back after a rest any better? And the washer ?
    Jen
    You enjoying the good weather .hows the knees?
    Chris

    • Chris, thanks. I know you understand how hard it is to find a truly kind, dependable and good caregiver . It has to be done soon. We promised my dad at his request before he died we would make sure mom was able to stay in their home.
      I sure empathize with what you’re experiencing with the concussion. All you can do is keep trying to rest and keep things quiet (if you can. ) Enjoy your time at shed. I also saw the moon last night. It was awesome!
      Jo

    • Chris, I am so sorry you’re going through so much. All of us admire your courage and ability to hand on with so much going on. Do you think your Dad has active pneumonia or do you think it’s some congestive heart failure? I hope the new caregiver is working out okay as he was a few days ago. Are you heading home tomorrow?
      My back is pretty much as always since the last fracture. Yes it has recovered as much as it can. I am still waiting for scan results so we can plan a plan. Do take good care of yourself dear friend, Okay? Love, Sue

  34. Sue
    I’m going to wait and see what the Dr. says before we go back. My dad has been constipated which stops the Parkinson meds working ,as they get absorbed thru the bowel .also it could be that he has some liquid on his lungs from swallowing . So I’ll wait and see. My DD and her friend are coming up this weekend,they cancelled last weekend and I would like to see her and enjoy some time with her.i find out more that’s going on in her life like this…
    Altho my dad is frightened the Dr will put him in hosp.so he can’t be feeling well..so I suppose the answer is I don’t know what I’m going to do!
    I don’t feel strong about it. I feel I’m just going from one day to the next !
    I’m praying for the best news for you and it comes soon,so,you can get on with it
    Love chris

  35. HELLO…….WELL JUST BEEN FOR A STEROID INJECTION IN THE DERRIÉRE, BETTER THAN INTO THE BONE MY DOCTOR SAID, ALSO IT WILL HELP MY ELBOWS AS WELL AS THE KNEES……2 FOR 1…..
    GOT MY OSTEO IN THE MORNING, SO HAVING A COMPLETE MAKE OVER…….MEDICALLY SPEAKING.

    JO….I AGREE, THE CHURCH IS A GOOD PLACE TO LOOK FOR CARING FOR YOUR MOM…..CARE IN THE COMMUNITY AS WE SAY IN THE UK. I THINK YOUR DAD WOULD APPROVE………….LOVE YOU SWEETS….JEN X

    CHRIS…..BACK AT THE SHED, THAT’S GOOD, YES WE ARE HAVING A BIT OF AN INDIAN SUMMER HERE TOO, GOING TO WATCH MY DH PLAY BOULES THIS AFTERNOON, WOULD LOVE TO HAVE A GO, BUT IT COULD BE A STEP TOO FAR, AND I WANT TO GET AS WELL AS I CAN SO WE CAN HAVE ONE LAST TRIP TO THE COAST BEFORE NEXT WEEK, WHEN THE RAIN IS COMING……..TAKE CARE LOVE…………JENNIE XX

    SUE…..YOU KNOW I AM THINKING OF YOU……PLEASE LET US KNOW AS SOON AS YOUR RESULTS ARE IN…..I AM GLAD SOME OF YOUR BACK PAIN HAS EASED LOVE, ITS NOT EASY HAVING TO MAKE THESE LONG TRIPS, I WISH IT COULD BE NEARER FOR YOU, BUT I GUESS IF YOU WANT THE BEST, THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO, AND THEY SOUND LIKE THE BEST, AND THEY KNOW YOU, WHICH HELPS…….I LOVE YOU……JEN X

    PS….CHRIS….SORRY I ONLY JUST NOTICED YOUR LAST POST AFTER I HAD WRITTEN TO YOU……I HOPE YOUR DAD HAS BEEN SORTED OUT WITH HIS CONSTIPATION PROBLEM, POOR OLD LOVE, HE IS GOING THROUGH IT AGAIN ISN’T HE? WHAT IS GOING ON WITH YOUR DD CHRIS? YOU SOUND WORRIED.
    I AM PRAYING FOR A SOLUTION FOR ALL YOUR FAMILY LOVE, AS WELL AS YOU, AND I WILL BE GLAD WHEN YOUR HEAD FEELS BETTER………………KEEPING YOU IN MY THOUGHTS AS ALWAYS…….MUCH LOVE …JEN XX

    • Jennie, I think when Chris asked about my back she was referring to the scans and the grueling tables more than last week’s travel. No results as yet.
      I’m glad you’re getting some relief but please be careful in what you do. After a steroid injection you will have a false sense of euphoria and be tempter to do more than you should for a couple of weeks.
      I so often wonder why life has to be so difficult. I don’t have the answers but I know life still matters so much. The sun still shines, the fall colors are coming in and life drifts forward. Love you, Sue

  36. Morning Peeps:
    Sue I feel I am in the great Northwest this week. It has been raining for a week now. And not supposed to let up this week. Hopefully it does for Friday, because it is Homecoming for the high school.
    Yes, some of the kids will have to change schools. Nathan and Hailey won’t. She goes to the vocational school in the town they live in, and he will catch a bus there to take him back to this school as well. So all is good there. They had Disney Throwback Day today, and we dressed Devin up as Tinkerbell (a makeshift costume) she is so cute with her Pixie cut, it was a no brainer 🙂
    Well, my prayers for you all today. I have an RA appt on Monday, and all my labs came back good except for my RBC count, it is down some, a bit below normal so not sure what she will do with that. Maybe skip a few doses of MTX. I plan on going shopping while I am there for a couple of outfits in my new size 🙂
    I have enough jeans thanks to Nikki, but could use a couple of skirts n such. We are passing clothes around like mad 🙂
    Well, must get ready for work. Ms Alice awaits. Today is my grandson, great grandson , and Ms Millie’s birthdays !
    Love to all
    Tonie

    • TONIE….HAPPY BIRTHDAYS FOR YOUR GS AND GGS AND MS MILLIE….WOW THAT A LOT ON ONE DAY.
      HOPE THE RA APPT GOES GOOD, AND AND PLEASED MOST OF YOUR LAB RESULTS WERE GOOD…..I BET YOU ARE REALLY ENJOY YOUR NEW SHAPE, YOU LOOK GREAT….HAVE A GOOD DAY WITH MISS ALICE, IS SHE OK?…………………………….LOVE YOU…JENNIE X

    • Tonie dear, sorry you’re sloshing around in the rain. Since we live on a hill we don’t get those puddles; heck, the whole town is a hill. Sounds like you’re all on a bit of a high about the move. Hope the kids that have to change will adapt well and like school even more. Devin sounds like a cute Tinkerbell and it isn’t even Halloween yet.
      I’m so pleased for you about your weight loss. New clothes, new look, now we’ll have to find you a new man.
      As far as birthdays, today is my SIL’s birthday. Everyone is going out to dinner, including Jim. I’ll stay in. That particular restaurant has stiff wooden chairs and takes away my appetite they make me so miserable. The food is good and that’s why the kids all love it. I don’t have a gift for him but Jim does so all will be well.
      Hope Ms Alice wasn’t too much today and of course, I also pray the visit next week will be helpful to you. It very well could be your Methotrexate and yes, if the doc agrees they might cut it back for awhile. Hope the weather is better for Homecoming and for your driving to the doc’s. Love you, Sue

  37. Tonie
    All those birthdays in one day..all have a good time .
    Shopping for clothes ..so good when you’ve lost a lot of weight
    And like Jen I hope all goes well for the appt on Monday
    Jen
    Hope all settling after the injection
    I’m no too worried over DD..I just like to chat and know what’s going on in her life.she is so busy at work and is tired all of of the time..today she is overnighting in London for her Job.she is coming up with one of her friends so looking forward to it .i don’t know her friend but seen a photo of them skating together and she looks nice. Be great to have some young company. …well in their 40s!

    My dad …what a mix up. I asked Dr to call on him ,they ring him up to speak before they go..he said he just needs antibiotics and didn’t want to see the Dr, she couldn’t do that.so he told me she hadn’t rang…then I ring them up and they said they had rang…of course then I’m on the back foot .but they said they would call and see him.they did and he is on antibiotics…..fluid on lung..could be what he swallowed..I don’t know..but the carer says he seems better…..I don’t know..my dad lies and stuff..so you don’t know how it all is..he is frightened of going into hosp so he will swing it which way he wants!
    We had a lovely day tho today.great weather and a walk around some pretty shops and I got myself a long swingy top to wear over leggings and boots. Huh boots I say….stil have to buy some ,the shoe repairer did them all wrong..not the right sole I left them there and so I don’t have to pay.they were no good before and def. not now.the sole wasn’t thick enough and so they then put two on and it was toooo heavy!
    Sue
    Another day gone by..hope you ok
    Jo
    You then have a commitment to keep for your mum.and I expect that is hard. It does sound a good idea with the church community tho.i hope it all goes well and your mum is better when you see her

    Good weather forecast for another few days .my head is still sh.t
    Chris

    • Chris, I’m sorry to hear about the boots. I thought you’d found the perfect solution. Darn. The search is on once again.
      I know your Dad detests the hospital, but I think they should have at the very least taken X-rays of the lungs. Let’s hope the antibiotics clear up any infection but as far as the aspiration, if that’s the cause it’s a bit more scary. Sounds like the caregiver is going well. That’s good for now.
      It’s such a shame you’re having such a rough time with your head but it will take time. Hang in there dear girl and know we’re all holding you in our thoughts. At least the weather is good and allowing you a bit of mild recreation. Regards to DH and hope all is well with his B/P. Love you, Sue

    • Chris, I was just looking at a couple of catalogs that had some nice winter boots and shoes that were fairly reasonably priced. One is the British company, HOTTER and the other is an American co. call TITLE NINE. You might check them out online. Good luck. Sue

      • Sue
        We have a hotter shop in town and I am waiting for them to have boots come In. When I went there they were still waiting.that is my next step.when I get back I’m gonna go try it again
        I would be a nightmare getting stuff from a catalogue they’d be going back all the time.but I’ll go and have a look at that other co. you said

  38. Jo dear, When I mentioned the church, I was thinking of the moral high ground and good, substantial references. Also, there may be someone in that area who needs the job as badly as your family needs care for your Mom. I would steer away from the agencies as much as possible. We had a terrible experience with Jim’s Mom’s final year of life. Her live in caregiver, stole from her. Her wedding rings, watch and a beautiful gold cross were all gone and we’re not sure how much more she took, because we didn’t live there. That particular caregiver also borrowed money from my MIL’s next door neighbor and never paid it back. She had many sad stories about how she was about to have her electricity turned off, etc. I don’t mean to scare you but opening her home to a stranger, takes so much thought and consideration as you know. We all will support you with our prayers for just the right person. Love, Sue

    • Hi Sue, that is what I am thinking, too, about looking into the churches I used to go to back in Chicago. That is awful about your MIL and that is a fear I am having right now with one of the caregivers she has there two days a week. This lady is constantly giving my mother sad stories how her kids go hungry some nights, and so and so on. I know my mom constantly talks about her and how sorry she feels for her and i know she has helped her out already. That’s all fine, but, I worry that this woman is totally dishonest and is snooping around through her personal things, finances, etc. during the day. My mom pretty much stays in the family room watching t.v. on the sofa once she comes downstairs in the morning. the other lady who does the other three days is totally trustworthy and has been with her and my dad at the time for three years. Yes, it is very scary opening up your home to a complete stranger. And you would think the agencies do all sorts of backgrounds checks, criminal and otherwise.

      Waiting and praying along with you, Sue, for your results so you can get a plan in action. Hope your back and sitter have somewhat recovered from the awful tables. Love, Jo

      • Jo, When we complained about the caregiver my MIL had they let her go but stood fast to their statement they had done all sorts of background checks, said their folks were bonded, etc. but we lived in another state and thought it was a fruitless endeavor on our part. My dear friend, if I were you I would follow your instincts on this woman you suspect and think about getting her out of there without notice. I agree with you if she is complaining and whining then she is out to get something. It is worrisome. Do you have family there in that area? Love, Sue

      • Sue, i have my two brothers who live there and an older sister who only lives there half of the year (here in AZ the other half). My brothers are really of no help at all with anything, especially my older brother. My younger brother has a lot on his plate with an autistic 6 year old son and works a job where he travels a lot. I am going to follow through with my gut instincts. I just know that one caregiver is trouble. I have bought my airline ticket. I leave on Oct. 28th. Seems far away, but it will give me time to get myself more physically ready as much I can, and mentally, too!! Also, hopefully, I will have the names of a few woman to interview by the time I get there.
        Have a good night, Sue….Love, Jo

      • Jo:
        Ask your pastor at the church you went to. That is how I got this job I have, thru mine. A referral. Of course there are dishonest people in church as well, but you can usually find someone who not only does a good job, but needs it as well.
        Prayers for you
        Tonie

      • Tonie…thanks. That’s exactly what I’ve done. I already called my old Catholic church and spoke to a woman who handles all the church business . She’s checking into a couple leads for me. Dishonest people are everywhere…even in the church. But I believe I h ave a good instinct about people when i meet them. So we will see……
        Jo

  39. Jo
    Well I really understand how worried you are with that carer..my dad as well as the things I have posted has a lady who pops in and asks how he is and always says she’s hard up . Needs some money for milk or something all the time.
    What sue says is good advice…..I wish you well with it all ,it’s all so worrying
    Chris

    • Chris,
      Thanks. Yes, I know you have had similar issues with your Dad…I remember reading about some of it. It is is such a HUGE worry. I just don’t understand what kind of people take advantage of the elderly or disadvantaged ?! This one caregiver is always giving my mom a very sad sob story. My mom falls for it and wants to help people.
      I hope your dad is doing a little better tonight. It is always something, isn’t it??
      Jo

  40. Jo, your plans sound good. Follow your heart and you have us backing you up in a sisterly, spiritual sense. Why is it that so often the brothers are of little use? I know sometimes it’s the responsibility of their own families but I see it so much. Perhaps, I shouldn’t say, but I think women have better instincts about these issues. All sounds good that you are planning. Gees that last sentence of mine sounded like something Yoda would say. Rest well…Love ya, Sue

    • Ahh..it does sound a little like something my old “little green friend” might say. Yoda has many memorable quotes!
      It’s true what you say about brothers/sons especially in an Italian family! They are kings!
      Thanks for your support. ..Jo

      • Jo, interesting statement. I was just looking at a catalog and found a great Xmas present for my SIL which is a entryway mat that says “A man is the king of his castle, until the queen comes home.” Gotta buy it. Yes, I’m already doing my shopping. Sue

  41. Chris, I liked the boots in the HotterUSA catalog and will probably try some if they have free shipping on returns. Hang in there. Sue

  42. Morning Peeps !
    Hope this finds everyone well and happy ! I had a bit of a rough night, what with kids coming in and out and waking me, DD doing laundry (right outside my door) and Cesar deciding he wanted to be out of the room 3 or 4 times last night ! I hate nights like that. THen when you can sleep it is time to get up ! Oh well, a few more days ! 🙂
    Sunday is another grandson’s birthday. He will be 6. Hard to believe they are getting so big. Such a houseful of testosterone DD has to contend with.
    Chris, so sorry you are still having probs with your dad. But until you take over total control, you are going to have this. I know you don’t want to do that to him, but at some point you become the parent and not him. He is still your Dad, not saying this is disrespect for him, it is the way to insure he gets the best care. I pray you find your way thru this. It is not an easy road to go down. DO take care, hope you find them boots. I need to get me a pair of brown one. I have cowboy boots, short and tall, but need some dress boots. Love skirts and boots. I have never worn leggings, thought my legs too big, but may try a pair just to see if I like them.
    Love to all this morning
    Tonie

    • Tonie, Whoa lady. Leggings? I love that you are thinking that way. I’m so happy for you and the new developments that have come into your life with the kids, weight loss, etc. It won’t be long now until you’ll actually be able to have peace and quiet to sleep at night if your body will allow. I thought about you last night hearing about all the flooding in VA on the news. Hope your rain has finally let up a bit. So much mud and inconvenience.
      Hope all the birthdays were celebrated happily. My family seemed to enjoy their night out at dinner. Jim had decided to give our SIL his collection of N-gauge trains he’s been collecting for years so he and GS can enjoy them. There was an ice cream cake so all were happy. I stayed home, warm and lazy. Hope you get a nap in today. Love, Sue

      • Sue:
        Yeah, the thinking stage is all it has gotten to yet. I put my hands on them in the store, but none purchased yet 🙂 The flooding is in the lowlands mostly , and of course the tidal plains. I am on a hill up in the mtns, so we don’t get a lot right around here, Just people who live next to the creek or river. But pray for them anyway.
        No nap, but slept the night, up at 6 am. UGH !!
        Well off to bed now !
        Love ya !

    • HELLO……..HAD THE INJECTION YESTERDAY FOR MY KNEES……THEY DON’T FEEL ANY DIFFERENT TODAY BUT MY HANDS HAVE IMPROVED AND THE ELBOW A LITTLE.
      IT HAS BEEN OSTEO DAY, AND I TOLD HIM ABOUT MY KNEE, HE WORKED ON BOTH FOR OVER HALF AN HOUR, AND SINCE COMING HOME I CAN WALK PROPERLY UP THE STAIRS, INSTEAD OF HOPPING UP LIKE A FROG AND PUTTING EVEN MORE STRAIN ON MY LOWER BACK.

      CHRIS….BEEN THINKING ABOUT YOUR BOOT SITUATION, AND THERE IS A COMPANY CALLED “CAP MOUNTAIN” NOT SURE WHERE THE ARE BASED, BUT YOU COULD GOOGLE IT, I HAVE HAD QUITE A FEW PAIRS OF SHOES ETC, AND AS YOU KNOW I HAVE SIMILAR PROBLEMS TO YOU IN THAT WAY…….NO HARM IN LOOKING.
      GOING TO THE COAST TOMORROW, MAY TRY SOMEWHERE DIFFERENT FOR A CHANGE.
      HOPE THE ANTIBIOTICS HELP YOUR DAD, AND THEY GET THE BREATHING PROBLEM SORTED OUT……ENJOY SEEING YOUR DD, AND HOPING THE PAIN IN YOUR HEAD HAS SHOWN SOME IMPROVEMENT…..LOVE JEN.

      SUE…..IT MUST BE NEARLY TIME FOR YOUR RESULTS NOW, PLEASE GOD LET THEM BE OK……I LOVE YOU…..JEN X

      TONIE….BITE THE BULLIT AND GET SOME LEGGINGS, NOW YOU HAVE THAT WONDERFUL NEW FIGURE, YOU CAN WEAR WHAT YOU DARN WELL LIKE…………………….LOVE YA…….JENNIE XX

      JO….GLAD YOU TO HEAR YOU HAVE YOUR FLIGHT BOOKED, AND HOPE YOU CAN MAKE THE JOURNEY. I KNOW HOW TOUGH IT IS ON YOU SWEETS, BUT YOU WILL BE OK, ALREADY PRAYING ABOUT IT FOR YOU.
      LOVE YOU……JEN X

      HAVE A GOOD DAY EVERYONE THINKING OF YOU ALL ……………………JENNIE XXXXXXXXXXXXXX

      • Jennie, hoped for more from the shot in the buttocks but it may take a couple more days. Glad he worked on your knees and they are better. Getting away to the coast sounds like a wonderful idea while the weather is good. Go in comfort so you’ll have a good trip. See my note below about my good news. It was a long week here! Love you, Sue

      • JEN..THANKS. YOU KNOW I’VE BEEN WANTING TO MAKE THIS TRIP FOR THE LAST FEW MONTHS, SO KEEP THE PRAYERS A COMING!! SOMEHOW I ALWAYS MANAGE TO GET THERE.
        SORRY YOUR KNEE ISNT TOO MUCH BETTER WITH THE STEROID. LIKE SUE SAID, IT CAN TAKE A FEW OR MORE DAYS TO GET THE FULL EFFECT. I KNOW IT DID WITH ME. AT LEAST THE OSTEO HELPED SOME.
        LOVE YOU, JO ♡

  43. Tonie
    I wear a long top with leggings Nearly to my knees either a sweater or a dress top.Covers all the big bits! The leggings with boots half way up leg and the leggings could be trousers when your out and inside the house they are comfy like PJs..and easy to wash and dry. They are so cheap and so I have a few
    Yea I know with my dad ..but what I have done is asked to change agencies so I hope the fellow there is ok while they sort it out
    He has swallowed liquid in his lungs becos the carer wasn’t putting thickener in drinks then it was too thick when he did. Then they told the Dr not to call and then when I called she went to see him and it was close to being serious ..so she said .
    Hope you have a better night
    Jen
    Are you jumping about then with new energy?!? Or not…….I do hope you get to the coast and have a good time
    Sue
    Good present for your SIL..I think I must get started to on Xmas stuff
    Did I say my gS has a girl friend..spends a lot of time with her ,but she lives an hour and half away.met on a course.
    I’m just the blimmin same.but nice day tho.hope I get a bit better for DD and friend coming this w.end
    Chris

    • Chris, I also hope you’re feeling better in the next few days to be ready to fully enjoy your DD and friend. So GS has a girlfriend? Growing up is he? It all happens so fast it seems. I like the sound of your style. Now I see why boots are so important to you. I can’t really wear leggings. My knees should have been replaced years ago and are too knobby and get more so as I have lost weight over the last year or two. Oh well…guess we have to appreciate what we have and go with it. It is kind of hard on the vanity this whole sick and aging thing.
      No thickener in your Dad’s liquids with all his problems? Oh dear. Small wonder he is nearly i a state of pneumona. Your Dad is alert enough he should have said something. Hope another transition in care goes okay and that he gets along. Glad to hear the doctor did see him. Please continue to feel better dear friend, Sue

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