WHERE IS HOPE?

Hope

Hope may hide but it never disappears. Like the wind it simply waits to be awakened, to be appreciated and to be stirred.

Hope lies within the depths of the human spirit, often bruised and beaten, often buried, yet it never dies. It lies beneath the sod, breathing through a reed.

Hope waits in the wings of the theater of life, watching as we are torn and shaken by life’s events. It watches as we despair, awaiting its cue to play its part.

Hope is always free.

Hope surrounds us as air, daylight and comforts of rest

Hope is all around us in many hiding places.

It waits in the bulb of a daffodil, in its infinite wisdom knowing when to burst forth in a riot of yellow, white or sun drenched orange.

Hope waits within each seed of life, holding the genetic secrets deep within. To taste a celery seed is to taste the entire crop. One single basil seed can grow into a plant so hearty as to provide a summer of pesto. A single tomato seed can germinate and climb a wall carrying its abundance of red fruit on its back.

Hope naps within a rosebud awaiting its debut.

Hope lies within each act of love between a childless couple.

Hope alights within each crack of dawn.

Hope floats within each breaking wave as it grabs the sandy shore.

Hope wrestles with despair within an aching heart as it courteously waits for despair to stop shouting and acting out as the angry child in the room.

Hope is born with us or may actually precede us and longs to help light our way.

It is we who allow it to thirst, to starve and to take a backseat in our life.

Hope is never pushy, invasive or goes where it is not invited.

If hope leaves us for a while, it is by choice, often unconscious but always a choice.

Hope cannot breathe in a room full of melancholia, cynicism and pessimism.

Hope is often alive in grief and is the unknown relative holding the grieving one in its arms.

Hope is often our only friend and ally.

Hope is there when all else leaves.

Choose hope and it will surprise you with its strength and the miracles it brings.

Hope waits.

202 thoughts on “WHERE IS HOPE?

  1. Thank you Sue. That is so timely with so many on the blog facing big challenges. You always come up with just the right thought, it’s as if you read our minds and know what will help. I know it’s because you are right here with us and understand, which so many around us don’t. Thanks again, this one really helped. Janet

    • Janet, thank you for those words. Indeed, we’re all in the stew pot of life and sometimes it gets pretty hot in there. Hang in there dear friend. Sue

    • Thanks Lyn, thoughtful of you. Hope you’re able to get out a bit and can see signs of spring around you. Love, Sue

  2. Dear Sue and all others, there is always hope . I also got a bad mamo report last week but could not tell anyone but dh because my granddaughter was due Monday. She was in labor for 48 hours and then she had a c section because stressed baby. But all is well, mommy and baby are fine and healthy. Still I have to keep the neg. news to myself because this is such a happy time for all. I almost made it to my 2 yr. remisson but it has come back and I don’t want this news to cloud everyone. The problem is my daughters are so close to me that they will get nosey now that the baby is here. But I have hope that the baby will give me the stuff to fight this again. I pray for us all that are facing all the bad news as our bodies age and we get weaker. Love and prayers ^j^ Barb

    • BARB….CONGRATS ON THE LITTLE ONE……..AND YOU WILL FIGHT THIS AND YOU WILL WIN, SO MUCH FOR YOU TO LOOK FORWARD TO NOW……..BEST WISHES AND PRAYERS TO YOU…JENNIE X

    • Barb dear, Been praying since I heard from you last week. Hang on. How wonderful your new great grand is here safely. Pleased your GD made it through the additional complication of the C section. BUT you didn’t tell us what the baby is. Happy news from the wonderful which ever sex it is. I know your joy is clouded and pray that gets worked out sooner than lately. Many prayers and much love…Sue

  3. I’m sorry, Barb. I’ll be praying you whip it’s nasty butt again! Those dear little ones do give us such hope and so much to fight for. Sending you strength, light, and love.

    Well, Sue I was out a bit today, but too much snow on the ground yet to see any signs of spring! It’ll come in it’s own time, I know. I just need to try to keep warm until then. πŸ™‚

    • LYN..KEEP ON KEEPING WARM HONEY, IT WILL SOON BE GONE, AND THE SPRING WILL MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER….LOVED THE PHOTO YOU PUT ON F/B, THE LITTLE WADDLING FAMILY WERE ADORABLE…..LOVE YOU….JENNIE XX

      • They were a riot, Jennie. I mentioned them to my son when I dropped off something for him at work (he works there) and he said, yes, they hang around there. As I was pulling out I thought I’d get a shot of them. When they noticed me they came “running” toward the car. Silly ducks.

    • Lyn, it just occurred to me how much faith is involved in the coming of spring. We trust those bulbs beneath the snow are alive and have a plan to burst forth. Love, Sue

      • Indeed, Sue. I spent the afternoon with my Mom and noticed her daffodils pushing through the ground. Mine are still mostly snow covered. I do hope they pop up before too much longer.

  4. Such beautiful thoughts Sue. How you always know exactly what is needed can only be a God thing… Reminds me of the Scripture in Hebrews ” we have this hope as an anchor for the soul, ”
    Thank Heaven for that anchor. Lots of hugs and many prayers for you my friend. ❀

  5. Thank you Sue for this beautiful and timely blog. Hope is the one thing that can keep us going. I hope for days of less pain, for joy in life to return for DH, for so many things.
    Our winter weather was scheduled to begin at 9 pm, but by 9:30, we had over an inch of snow and it was still coming down fast and furious. I have great hope this is the end of our winter, and soon I will see Jonquils and Bradford cherry trees in bloom.Spring makes my soul sing, and I am so looking forward to it.
    I hope also that everyone gets good reports tomorrow (Friday). My love and prayers go with you.
    Linda

    • Oh Linda, cherry blossoms. Sounds so wonderful. Reminds me of the lovely walk full of them in DC. Would love to see that someday. Sorry your winter is off schedule. Take heart in spring and I will also. Must take a shower so I have sweet smelling armpits for exam. Love to you…Sue

  6. Sue~~one word~~HOPE can carry us through the darkest moments and then in one beautiful moment–we are able to let HOPE fill our hearts to the brim so we can continue to cherish Life… Lately as I have been struggling with this Neck Pain~~without question it does get hard to keep “my chin up” and then I have a moment where my husband is sitting with me, sharing a bag of Chips and a Soda~~it truly felt like we were back in those “dating days” as we sat, laughed, watched the world around us, and then walked slowly outside. Yes, the Physical Pain follows us, but HOPE also lifts us up, past the Pain each day.

    Bless you Sue for this heart-filled post….

    • AWWWW MARTHA….THATS JUST WHAT MY DH AND I DID THE OTHER NIGHT, I LIKE TO REST MY HEAD ON HIS SHOULDER, BUT AFTER TWENTY MINUTES OR SO….CAN’T BLOODY MOVE MY NECK….WORTH IT THOUGH…….LOVE JENNIE X

    • Martha dear, hope your chin is having help to be held up by a cervical collar. They are such help and I always reccomend an older or pediatric one for sleep if okay with doc. During the day, with full size one. Isn’t it surprising how heavy the human head can feel. So much work for the neck to hold it up. Cuddle on with your DH. Thanks for your kind words. Fondly, Sue

  7. Well sue thinking of you today.take all our wishes with you to carry you thru . The blog makes me think of all aspects of life and where there is life ,hope. It’s there in the crook and crannies and also where we least expect it
    Barb
    Such good news about your grandchild.you may feel stronger in yourself when you do share this news with your daughters. Let them give you the strength they will want to when you feel you can tell them.

    Well it’s 6.30 am here start of a day.wonder how my dad will be with his swallowing this scope with his Parkinson’s, seeing him tonite as I have to be at his flat for the steam cleaning at visiting hrs this afternoon
    Ok all back tonite Chris

    • Chris, they should put your Dad out for that procedure. Probably find some erosion in there. Pray they can fix it while in there. Poor dear man. He’s been through so much. Hope the house cleaning also goes well and you can have good workers who know how to do it right. Hang in there today. I know you will be exhausted dear lady. Love you, Sue

  8. Sue:
    Wonderful words of wisdom. Hope is indeed our anchor. I think of those bracelets and pins that you used to get with the anchor, cross and heart on them. Faith , hope and charity. Without hope , well…we have nothing to look forward to , do we ? But hope builds are view of tomorrow.
    Well, I should be on the road to the Dr apt, but it is nasty out there and I am not sure what the roads are like getting to the Interstate. SO, as I have 2 appts today I will opt for the later one. It is supposed to clear up shortly so the snow (2 inches) we got will start to melt off. I am just afraid of ice. So better safe than sorry. I cannot believe we are still getting SNOW !! It is supposed to melt off and be very nice for the weekend though , glad of that !
    Prayers for Sue and Jim today at your appts. CHris, I pray you get answers for your dear Dad. Prayers also for Jo as she endures all the sadness of saying goodbye to her Dad. For little Harry and his parents and family, and for anyone else who is need of it this morning !
    Love to all
    Tonie

    • TONIE….THATS A LOT OF PRAYERS, YOU NEVER FORGET ANYONE DO YOU, SO LETS NOT FORGET YOU, PLEASE BE SO CAREFUL ON THE ICE, I WISH EVERYONE BATTLING THESE CONDITIONS STAY SAFE, CAN’T BELIEVE ITS STILL GOING ON……….COSY UP TONIE, DID YOU GET THE CAKE MADE, THE ONE IN RED FOR THE CHILD???? HOPE YOUR APPOINTMENTS WENT WELL MY FRIEND…LOVE YOU…JENNIE POO X

    • Tonie, we need you in one piece. Stay off those roads. Doctors can work you in due to this. Your shoulder news is better than we feared and hope it will get fixed very soon due to your granny sitting schedule. Great idea to contact your representative. About time a politician represented his people instead of himself. Hope he’s a gem. Stay safe and know you are loved. Sue

  9. SUE….HOW I LOVED THIS BLOG……BEEN WALKING SOME TO TRY AND EASE THE PAINFUL STIFFNESS IN MY BACK, AND ALL AROUND ME I SEE HOPE, IN THE BLUE SKY AND DIFFERENT FLOWERS OF THE SEASON, MADE A COUPLE OF NEW FRIENDS TODAY, BUT ALWAYS A BLOT ON THE LANDSCAPE IN THE FORM OF “RESULTS” SAME FOR YOU AND JIM MY FRIEND, ITS A RIGHT BUGGER, TAKES MORE OUT OF YOU THAN SOMETIMES THE PROCEDURES….THINKING OF YOU, WISHING YOU NOTHING BUT BETTER HEALTH AND ALL THE LOVE IN THE WORLD…GOD BLESS….JENNIE XX……..THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN FOR SUCH A SPECIAL BLOG XXXXXXXXXXXXX

    • Jennie dear, thanks for “getting” the blog. You never know as a writer what the soil is the words will fall upon. Pleased you have flowers emerging. Hope your dear son’s news today is good. Yes, it’s a big day in many ways for us. Hope Jim’s arm is healing correctly and the X=rays reveal that. I must get ready for my appt. Long morning ahead but I have hope due to the presentation of these growth…appeared quickly and not in the typical locations for malignancy. Hate that mammogram machine..first procedure. Plan to yell loudly.
      I have been so blessed as to have help from the insurance and our mail pharmacy. They got me a discount from the Eli Lilly Co. who makes the med and I can now get it for $50 per mo. Therefore I hope to start on the new bone building drug which I will inject every day for 2 years BUT had to ask them to hold it because of these tests. I won’t be able to take it if I have cancer. Pray not, of course.
      Poor little Harry. I pray for his comfort as he slowly return to the Lord’s arms. We’ll have to share our days later on. Much love, Sue

      • SO HAPPY to hear the company came through for you Sue and you can get your meds for 50.00$. That is good news indeed. I’m sure you will soon be starting to inject yourself. Sending angels and prayers.
        Love you big
        XXX

  10. GOOD LUCK SUE……I WILL HOLD YOU IN MY THOUGHTS DEAR FRIEND…..TIMS RESULTS CAME IN, LUNGS AND CHEST AL CLEAR, PROBLEM AS THOUGHT IN THE OESOPHAGUS, ADVISED TO HAVE MORE GASTRIC TESTS….HE SAID HE HAS REACHED THE END OF THE LINE WITH IT ALL NOW, AND IS NOT GOING TO BOTHER…..HE JUST CAN’T DO IT ANY MORE…I THINK HE IS RIGHT, SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO LIVE WITH THINGS, MAYBE IT WILL ALL SETTLE DOWN AND LEAVE HIM ALONE FOR A SPELL, I DON’T KNOW. JO IS OK, PREPARING TO GO SEE HER DAD FOR THE LAST TIME, WE ARE KEEPING IN TOUCH VIA F/B. I TOO HATE THAT FREAKING MAMMOGRAM MACHINE, FEEL LIKE A FREAKING PANCAKE AFTER……GOT TO TACKLE EACH DAY AS IT COMES DON’T WE MY FRIEND……..THINKING OF YOU, WILLING IT ALL TO WORK OUT FINE…..LOVE YOU…………………..JEN X

  11. Well dad had camera thing done.stomach clear only has a …corkscrew oesophagus ….
    So now have to have scan of bowel to trace blood loss
    Had 3pts blood and haemoglobin still gone down so more blood today
    Cleaning went ok at dads took 3 hrs and toilet blocked too!!
    I got new tabs for spine get them next week not in chemist
    Got referred to a pain clinc for acupuncture ,hope al goes well for all today Chris

  12. So far, all the test results are promising. Jennie, I reached a point once when I said no more colonoscopies, never again would anyone stick a tube up my arse. But, as time went on, I realized the misery was for my own good. But I do understand wanting to be left alone. Sue, I hate mammograms, too. Looks like they could at least warm that darn plate they smash you with. Sue, I’m praying for your and Jim’s tests, and am anxious to hear the results. Dear Rosa had a cyst once, they did the ultrasound first, and when they started the mammo, it popped. She and Becky had a lot of lumps in their breasts over the years but everything was always benign, thanks be to God. We have a bad family history, my paternal grandmother had breast cancer and my maternal GRANDFATHER had breast cancer. Very rare, but it does happen. But, anytime we have any sort of lump, they “jump” on it. Little Harry has been on my mind all morning. I didn’t think of what the grandparents were going through until Sue mentioned it. So, I’m trying to cover them all in my prayers.
    Toni, we beat you in the snow department, believe it or not. We got 5 inches. I made my beef stew and it smells so wonderful. I need to put on a pan of cornbread so we can all stuff on this hot comfort food! Our car looks like a huge block of ice sitting in the driveway. It’s not going anywhere today! Our coffee pot died. Fortunately, we replaced the old one because we wanted this Cuisinart, so we kept the old one. The day was saved by Mr. Coffee! I think Ed and I would have been fist fighting by the end of the day without coffee! We are both so addicted.
    Toni, hope your tests go well. And hope you’re careful on your slippery slope.
    I need to go find something to feed the sweet birds. Some are already back for the spring; I’ve seen a few robins and cardinals, and they’ve been singing outside my window since I sat down here. Food gathering is so hard for them in the snow.
    Love and gentle hugs to you all.
    Linda

    • Hey all:
      Well I left home around 10 am to snow and slushy streets until I got to the main roads,Now I am home with no snow and a muddy mess !! Made decent time getting there and had an hour and half before I got to see the Dr. Well, he explained it all and guess what ???? I have to go back and see ANOTHER Dr for the surgery !! WHew !! They are killing me here ! Seems this Dr only does the incision surgery, and mine requires an orthoscopic so as not to mess with detaching the deltoid to stich up my tear. The good thing is , the tear is in the muscle and not the rotator cuff so it will be a simplier surgery and a quicker recovery time. SOOOOO waiting for them to contact me. I just got back @ 4:30 pm. Had to stop off at the store for a few things until I hit the grocery store for the big shop.
      Yes Jennie, I got the Red Velvet cake made yesterday and I have about half an hour before I have to go over to the party. Very tired, but got an injection in my rt shoulder to ease it a bit. I really hope it helps maybe it won’t be torn !
      Waiting to see what news Sue has for us. Yes, Jennie I try not to miss any of us when I pass them prayers up. I even pray for those who read and do not comment. Ya’all be good.

      • HI TONIE, GLAD YOU WERE ABLE TO GET THE CAKE DONE, AND THAT THE INJECTION HELPED A BIT, IT WILL ALL SOON BE SORTED OUT AND YOU WILL BE ABLE TO ENJOY SPRING WITH LESS PAIN.
        LOVE YOU…JENNIE POO XX

  13. Dear Friends, Back home after 4 and a half hours at the hospital. My ass was asleep now screaming so loudly pretty sure the neighbors will call the cops. Jim’s arm is healing well and he can take the sling off every once in awhile if he’s cautious. We had to wait an extra hour for his xrays and go to another section than the doctor’s because tech was ill up in doctor’s office. Big old mess with folks in walkers, canes and slings all walking to another location. SIL brought Jim to hospital because I didn’t get out in time.Met him after my stuff completed.

    I had the mammogram on both sides, and the affected side was painful…that’s usually a good sign. Couldn’t take much smashing, I’ll tell you. Then had ultrasound so in there for both over two hours. Still waiting to hear if biopsy will be needed. Right breast fine, problems on left side. Should hear from doctor later today. Hope they can diagnose from ultrasound and tell me it’s cystic disease; sure don’t like the idea of having a needle pushed into nipple. I can live with three nipples as long as it isn’t going to kill me.

    Grandkids after school in 40 mins. so will rest tushy. George lying here on his little back wanting his tummy rubbed. So cute.

    Jennie I am pleased son is okay except for swallowing. If he has to live with it there is much he can do. We’ll chat later. Poor kid is sick of it for now, can’t blame him. Tonie, sorry to have to go through the system again. Glad you’re safe and hope the injection in the other side calms it down also. Probably been doing extra with it. Chris, poor Dad. Erosions in the esophagus, maybe? He’s been suffering so much and extends to you. Seems like he would vomit if it’s too high up. Back to all later…love each of you, Sue

    • OH SUE…..BLOOMING HECK, YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH THE MILL AND OUT THE OTHER SIDE MY FRIEND, GLAD TO HEAR AT LEAST THE RIGHT SIDE IS ALL GOOD, I FEEL SURE THE OTHER WILL BE TOO, BUT TONIE’S SUGGESTION OF A NIPPLE RING GOT ME THINKING……….HE HE!!!! YOU NEEDA GOOD REST NOW SWEET LADY, AND SO DOES JIM, ENJOY THE WEEKEND WITH THE POOCHES, SOD THE HOUSEWORK, AND GET A TAKE OUT…………I DON’T KNOW HOW THINGS WILL GO WITH TIM BUT AS CLAIRE HAS BEEN SICK THIS LAST COUPLE OF DAYS, HE HAS SOMETHING MORE TO FOCUS ON, NOT MAYBE A BAD THING IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN. OK LOVE…….LOOK AFTER YOURSELF AND TALK MORE LATER…….LOVE AND BIG HUGS……….JENNIE XXXXXX

  14. Jennie, I don’t blame your son, either. Sometimes you just need a break! Hopefully he will find some helpful hints in the meantime.
    Sue, good news for Jim and I pray for you, too. Rest well. And enjoy little George and grands. πŸ™‚ Hopefully the neighbors have ear plugs. πŸ˜‰
    Tonie, glad you are safely to and back and hope you can rest well enough before having to head out again.
    Chris, your poor Dad. And so much cleaning at his place. Glad it’s all done now. You rest, too, dear.

    • HI LYN…..YES YOU CAN GO DOWN THAT ROUTE TILL YOU GET SICK OF IT, BIT LIKE THAT MYSELF, THEY CAN ALL JUST LEAVE ME ALONE EXCEPT FOR THE BREAST SCRENING ON THE 21ST, THEN I AM DONE, JUST GONNA TAKE ONE DAY AT A TIME……HOW IS YOUR SON NOW LYN, DOES HE STILL GET THOSE GHASTLY HEADACHES????? BONNE WEEKEND…….JENNIE XX

  15. Sue, good to hear that Jim is on the mend. Now for you to get the ok would be fabulous. I am so far behind that I don’t know who the wee baby is that passed? Toni good luck with the shoulder and just remember that pushing ourselves isn’t going to work as we age.I got the cast off today and now I can drive if I remember how. My daughter took me so I told her about the test results because I go for the oncologist next week and she would find out but my other daughter{ the new grandma} and the rest of them can wait and enjoy that new baby boy… Jase Hunter…. 7.8 lbs. They will be out of hospital tomorrow and there is still time. I just can not believe how this whole group is getting hit by bad news. I just feel so bad for everyone and prayers are being said for all and there familys. Love, ^j^ Barb

    • BARB….GOD LUCK WITH THE DRIVING, THERE WILL BE A TIME AND A PLACE FOR YOU TO TALK TO YOUR FAMILY, BUT AS YOU SAY ENJOY THE LITTLE ONE A BIT FIRST…….TAKE CARE,……LOVE JENNIE X

    • Congratulations Barb on that new baby boy, Jase Hunter, love his name. Angels and prayers being sent your way sweet lady. Take good care and keep the hope up!
      God bless.
      XXX

  16. Wow, lots of good news so far, and I’m so thankful. Toni, I hear the orthoscopic surgery is not very bad, and for that I thank God. And stitching the deltoid will not be as bad as the rotator cuff, so I’m pleased as punch about you! I’m just sorry you have to wait to see another doctor. Seems nothing ever goes easy for us, doesn’t it? Not even the good stuff! Glad you got home safely. We’ll have lots of mud soon 😦
    So happy that Jim is healing well. I know he’ll enjoy having that sling off a bit, Ed sure did.
    Barb, I know your daughter hated to hear the news, but I’m happy you have someone to talk about it with now. I know you have DH, but we women folks need other women for some things, or is that just me?
    Chris, hope the new pills help. I know we all want so badly to find something that helps, even if it’s a magic wand. Then, our disappointment level is so high if it doesn’t help or if it causes side effects we can’t live with.
    Sue, hope that butt screaming doesn’t disturb the neighbors. I can just see you now in court, explaining to the judge that it didn’t come out of your mouth, but your ass. Think you can make him believe that?
    Love you all,
    Linda

  17. Sue, read this blog several times and think it is amazing that you to wrote those words this particular week, but I believe it was a week that hope was there for you, to give you comfort when comfort was needed …. hope was there to give you hope! My thoughts and prayers have been with both you and Jim, and I do hope all goes well for both of you today, and that your questions are answered by words you want to hear!
    I think it was also amazing that you wrote these words this week because they have spoken to me more than any other writing you have done. I have been trying to explain how I have been feeing these past few weeks, what is different. DH has been trying to understand why I am so angry, but I now know what to tell him … hope is hiding and I can’t find it! I don’t think I have ever totally lost hope before. It may have hidden for a very short time, like we were playing hide and seek, but I was always able to find it quite quickly. My rheumatologist warned me once about a certain spot he was positive I would reach, and I think maybe that is where I am, but that wise man is no longer available to answer my question, but I believe that answer lies inside within me. It has been a long, cold, winter, the coldest on record in many, many, years, and there has been a lot of illness in our house, and in the house of my son. I think maybe hope must be out there in the cold Canadian winter, and I must look, like you said, for that reed popping up out of the snow as it melts, that reed that has been allowing it to breath, and there I will find my hope! I sure hope so!
    Thank you Sue. Much Love ….Brenda

    • HI BRENDA LOVE…..SOON THE SNOW WIL ALL BE GONE, SPRING WILL BE HERE ALONG WITH HOPE AS IN THE BLOG….SOME SUNSHINE, FLOWERS AND BLUE SKIES ARE NEEDED FOR YOU PET, THAT WILL MAKE YOU FEEL A BIT BETTER I HOPE. YOU ARE RIGHT LOVE, THE ANSWER DOES LIE WITHIN YOU……..SEEK AND YOU SHALL FIND, AS THE SAYING GOES…….YOU WILL FIND THE RIGHT WORDS TO SAY TO YOUR DH, JUST CHOOSE A QUIET MOMENT, AND TELL HIM EXACTLY HOW YOU FEEL, FOLLOWED BY A BIG HUG, I FEEL SURE IT WIL BE OK……………LOVE YOU MY FRIEND….JENNIE XX

  18. Brenda, praying you find your way to spring soon. We are all here for you. πŸ™‚

    Jennie, I hesitate to say it, but I don’t believe the boy has had a migraine since the fall. I was really concerned as we headed into the fall time change and winter – when they were at their worst last year – but he has been doing well! His back is still an issue. The ablation he had in his lower back is holding and still giving him relief, but his upper back is still bad and the lyrical was not helping. We didn’t want him taking more meds, so we are trying acupuncture. He had his first session last Tuesday and feels very confident with his acupuncturist and says she really wants to help him – he’s so young. I’m proud of him. I offered to go with him, but he wanted to go by himself. He did feel some relief and still feeling a little, so that is a good sign. Let’s pray this is the answer for him. Thanks for asking about him. πŸ™‚

    Barb, enjoy that new baby boy! I’m also glad you have your daughter you can confide in now. Blessings.

    • HI LYN….THANK YOU FOR THE UPDATE ON SB, OH I AM THAT HAPPY FOR HIM, MIGRAINES ARE SO CRIPPLING, I PRAY THEY STAY AWAY FROM HIM SO HE CAN GET ON WITH HIS LIFE AS HE DESERVES. IT SEEMS HE IS DOING THAT ANYWAY, AND I’M SURE THE ACUPUNCTURIST WILL BE ABLE TO OFFER HELP. YOU TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF LYN, HAVE A GOOD DAY SWEETHEART….LOVE YOU …JENNIE X

  19. Thanks Lyn, it’s been a long, hard, road, and guess it is surprising that I haven’t come across a road block before, but this feels more like a dead end! Hope it is just the long winter that got me down, and we still have another month of snow until spring.

  20. HOPE, SUE THAT WAS THE PERFECT WORD FOR ME ALSO. IT HAS BEEN A VERY DIFFICULT WEEK AS WE FOUND OUT MY SISTER HAS CANCER AGAIN. SHE WILL BE OPERATED ON WEDNESDAY, WOULD LIKE TO ASK YOU ALL FOR PRAYERS. THIS IS HER SECOND TIME WITH CANCER. VERY HARD TO DEAL WITH CAUSE SHE DOES NOT LIVE CLOSE BY. WAS SUPPOSE TO COME FOR A WEEK IN APRIL BUT WILL HAVE TO CANCEL THAT.

    SO HAPPY TO HEAR THAT JIM IS GETTING BETTER AND HOPE YOUR NEWS SUE WILL BE GOOD. PRAYING FOR YOU EVERY DAY.

    GETTING BACK TO HOPE, THAT IS WHAT HAS KEPT ME GOING ALL THIS TIME. HOPE,TO FEEL BETTER, TO HOLD MY GRANDCHILD, TO JUST BE ABLE TO DO SOMETHING. HOPE, HOPE HOPE…. THANK YOU AGAIN SUE FOR THE WORD HOPE. THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT I HAVE BEEN TELLING THE SCHOOL BOARD, HOPE IS WHAT KEEPS ME GOING.

    TONIE, WISH IT COULD HAVE BEEN THE SAME DR. BUT HAPPY TO HEAR THE INJECTION HELPED YOU A BIT MY DEAR SWEETPEA/

    CHRIS, PRAYERS GOING OUT TO YOU AND YOUR DAD. HAPPY THE CLEANING WENT WELL.

    LINDA YOU MADE ME LAUGH WITH YOUR COFFEE STORY. THANK YOU FOR THAT.

    BRENDA SWEETHEART, HANG ON TIGHT SPRING WILL GET HERE. WE HAVE AT LEAST 4 FT OF SNOW HERE BUT I KNOW DEEP DOWN IN MY HEART AS EVERY YEAR IT WILL MELT AND THEN WE WILL FEEL A LITTLE BETTER. KNOW THAT YOU ARE IN MY PRAYERS ALSO. YOU ARE NOT ALONE IN THIS DEAR LADY. WE ARE ALL HERE FOR YOU. FEEL FREE TO FB ME IF YOU FEEL UP TO IT.

    BARB, GOOD LUCK WITH THE DRIVING PART. I’M SURE IT WILL GO WELL. TAKE IT SLOWLY. CONGRATULATIONS ON THE NEW ARRIVAL, A BABY BOY, HOW SWEET. YOU WILL HAVE TO LET THEM KNOW SOONER THAN LATER, I THINK. THAT’S JUST ME THOUGH. KEEPING IT BOTTLED UP INSIDE IS NOT GOOD FOR YOU BARB. SENDING ANGELS YOUR WAY TO GUIDE YOU. TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF BARB. I’LL BE THINKING OF YOU . PRAYERS BEING SENT YOUR WAY. XXX

    JENNIE LOVE, HOPE YOUR BACK IS FEELING A LITTLE BETTER. THINK OF YOU ALSO.

    SORRY THIS IS SO LONG , HAVEN’T BEEN ON FOR A WHILE. WILL BE BACK LATER.
    LOVE TO ALL AND PRAYERS TOO.
    GOD BLESS YOU.
    XXX

    • HI SUZANNE LOVE…..I AM FINE…..A BIT EMOTIONAL AS PEOPLE I LOVE DEARLY ARE GOING THROUGH TRAUMAS, AND THERE IS NOT MUCH I CAN DO TO HELP EXCEPT LISTEN AND TRY AND PICK UP THE PIECES IF NEEDED, SEEMS TO BE WHAT MOST OF US DO HUH??? I AM SO SORRY FOR THE NEWS OF YOUR DEAR SISTER, ITS SEEMS WE WILL HAVE TO DOUBLE UP ON THE PRAYERS FOR HER AND FOR YOU…….SHIT HAPPENS DOESN’T IT? KEEP HOPE ALIVE DEAR LADY, IT ALWAYS SEEMS WHEN THE CHIPS ARE DOWN, SOMETHING GOOD HAPPENS TOO…………………….LOVE YOU….JENNIE XX

      • Jennie, listening is an art and not too many people have it anymore but you certainly do. Yes Shit happens and it’s happening it seems everywhere these days. I’ve always kept HOPE alive, thank you God! Now we are dealing with my sister (who will be operated on Wed.) her husband went in the hospital on Friday with 104 fever, they are worried about kidney failure. My sister wanted to cancel her operation but thank God her daughter,( who is a nurse) said no, she will have this operation and she would take care of both of them. It is the same hospital. They can’t get the fever down? Will keep you posted.
        Take good care of your back Jennie poo.
        love you big!
        XXX

  21. Hey Guys !
    Glad to see you have all come thru the last storm intact. Carol and I took the birthday girl from church down the mtn to spend her birthday money today, it has been a very long day and I am so pooped !! I will be sucking up to the couch the rest of the evening, thank you very much !
    So…I lost Blanca (the white chicken) to a varmint , so I decided to reinforce all the places anything can get in. Then last night about 2:30 the boys wake me up raising cain and wanting outside. My chickens are all over the yard, so I get up to the pen, and there is a plank off the side, and I HUGE possum sitting there on their nests glaring at me. So I say, “Be right back buddy , I got sumthin; for you ! ” Back to the thouse and get my pistol (22 revolver) go back up there. Cock, Aim, BANG !! nothing, GOOD LORD I MISSED this CLOSE ??? Cock, Aim FIRE BANG … again nothing. Okay one more time !! Cock, aim FIRE !! Then it dawns on me. Last time the gun was used, my Ex borrowed it to play cowboy and I am trying to shoot a possum with BLANKS !! Go back and get a BIG walking stick and beat the crap outta him. Not sure where he went but I got a few good licks in. I was so full of adrenaline I couldn’t get back to sleep til almost daylight !! Felt like Granny Clampett out there in my Jammies and bed jacket freezing protecting my chickens !!
    Well another day another adventure in the life of a Dalton !!!
    Love you all
    Set your clocks UP !!

    • OH TONIE, THATS THE BEST LAUGH I HAD IN A VERY LONG TIME…….I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO GET THAT VISION OF YOU OUT THERE IN YOUR JAMMIES, COCKING YOUR PISTOL AT THAT THERE POSSUM………..DO YOU PUT YOUR CLOCKS FORWARD FOR THE SPRING NOW…..WE IN EUROPE DO IT ON MARCH 30TH…..ITS MOTHERING SUNDAY THEN TOO HERE. I HOPE THE CHUCKS ARE OK, AND FOR GOODNESS SAKE DON’T SHOOT YOURSELF IN THE FOOT..HA HA!!!! LOVE YOU MATE…JENNIE POO XX

      • Jennie, we set out clocks up last night, and Mothers Day here is in May. Been thinking of you while I was watching “Band of Brothers”. It is a movie about a division of the US Army in WWII, called the 101st Airborne, Easy Co. ( My Ex was in the 101st) Follows them and others thru basic training all the way to the end of the war. All the places in France, England and Germany. It was funny, sad, and beautiful all at once. My Dad was in the Phillipines . Judy’s Dad was killed at the Battle of the Buldge.
        So many lives lost over one little evil mans ambitions. Anyway, if you haven’t seen it it is a great movie. I had just never watched it thru all the way.
        Hope everyone is starting our a great day and continues on thru.
        Love to all
        Tonie

  22. Tonie, I hope you’ve located some proper ammo by now and are fully prepared for any future possum invasion! My DH has gotten into shooting the last year or so. When we married I said no guns in the house while we have little ones. Well, the little ones are now bigger than me, so I suppose it’s safe now. He’s picked up a few fire arms, SB has one, too. I gave my blessing, but said if they are in the house I should know how to operate them. We haven’t been out yet, but maybe when it gets warmer we’ll head to the range. I joked he should get me a little lady derringer. Maybe make it pink like a piece I saw on one of those gun shows DH like to watch. What a hoot. Anyhoo, I did so enjoy that visual of you taking on that furry fellow. Keep those fowl safe, now!

    • Lyn, I do have a derringer as well, but alas no bullets for it, it takes a special shot that I never got. Used it for a prop at Tombstone. I need to clean my gun now, and reload it πŸ™‚ It is funny how many women and men today are getting into shooting. I really feel sorry for anyone trying to take away America’s weapons ! I can handle a .22 cause of not much kick, the higher the velocity the more the kick. I also have my dad’s .22 rifle. I need to get that out from under the bed πŸ™‚ You should know how to use them, just a good knowledge to possess.
      Take care !
      TOnie

      • That’s my thinking, too, Tonie. If they are here, I should know how to use them. Of course, now I would need to stick with only what doesn’t kick or need much pressure to fire with these hands and now elbows. πŸ˜‰

  23. HI TONIE….YES MOTHERS DAY IS IN MAY HERE IN FRANCE TOO AND HOLLAND, SO MY MOM GETS TWO AS SHE IS ENGLISH, CRAFTY MOO…….YES I WATCHED “BAND OF BROTHERS” A FEW YEARS AGO, LOVED IT, LOTS OF ACTION WASN’T THERE, SO DON’T YOU GO GETTING ANY IDEAS, PUT THAT GUN TO BED…………LORD I WORRY ABOUT YOU GIRL……….ONLY KIDDING………..LOVE YOU, HAVE A GOOD DAY……….JENNIE POO XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

  24. Mornin’ all !
    WEll it is a beautiful day here, sun is out bright and already 50′ (according to my thermometer) We have students here to help again, so Judy and I are getting 4 of them to do things for us we can’t. I need my shed repaired that fell down and some other things . The Lord is good, and supplies our needs. It is such a blessing that these kids CHOOSE to come and help. THey are almost always good workers .
    I pray all have a good day and get something done in the while ! πŸ™‚
    Love to all
    Tonie

  25. WHew !! To just walk around and give orders, I am SOOO TIred ! Great bunch of kids from Marquette up in BSL’s country of Wisconsin. My shed is back in working order, looks great. Little help with my rigging expertise, their brawn. The girls filled Judy’s wood box, and her storage box as well. Then they transferred a lot of wood shavings up to the chicken pens where I can use them. Get 4 more on Thursday. Tomorrow will be first thing to the pool and hottub, then for groceries.
    Suzanne, I loved the scripture, very nice.
    It was a beautiful day, very windy a bit cool but the sun was great. Those kids were so happy to be in warmer weather.
    Love to all
    Tonie

  26. Well, woke up at 4, got a little over 3 hours sleep. Gut is very upset with me. Not sure why. I mean, what did I do to it ?? I was good yesterday. Nothing bad was put in it , all healthy stuff. Maybe it is upset with me BECAUSE of that ??? I really need more sleep ! Have quite a bit to do today, so we will see if I get anymore now, maybe a nap later ??
    I pray you all have a lovely day. I plan to enjoy more sunshine today ….cause DAH DAH !! We have a Noreaster coming thur on Wed night !! Oh joy, but back to the 50’s on Friday !
    Love to all
    Tonie
    THe rooster is crowing and the bluetick hound is baying ! AHHH country life !

  27. GOOD MORNING TONIE, BUT MAYBE WHERE YOU ARE IT’S AFTERNOON. WELL WHATEVER. THAT NOREASTER IS COMING OUR WAY ALSO. WED. OR THRUS. NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO THAT, BUT WE STILL HAVE LOTS OF SNOW AROUND HERE. CAN’T WAIT FOR IT TO AT LEAST START MELTING. HOPE YOUR GUT IS FEELING BETTER NOW. ENJOY THE POOL AND HOT TUB.
    GROCERY SHOPPING IT HARD WORK. YOU TAKE GOOD CARE NOW.
    HOPE EVERYONE HAS A GOOD DAY WITH LITTLE PAIN.
    LOVE TO ALL.
    XXX

  28. OH HECK….FEELING GUILTY NOW, JUST HAD A LOVELY AFTERNOON IN THE GARDEN WITH FRIENDS, MADE A FLAN ETC, CHATTED, SUN NICE AND WARM, AND THERE ARE YOU TWO SUZANNE AND TONIE, WITH MORE OF THE ROTTEN STUFF COMING………….SORRY ABOUT THAT, BUT WE HAVE HAD SO MUCH AWFUL RAIN BOTH HERE AND IN THE UK, THAT WE DESERVE A LITTLE SUNSHINE.
    HAS ANYONE HEARD FROM SUE, I AM REALLY STARTING TO WORRY NOW, BEEN SO LONG SINCE SHE POSTED.
    OK, LETS HOPE NO NEWS IS GOOD NEWS……MY LOVE TO YOU ALL, TAKE CARE OF YOURSELVES…..JENNIE XXXXXX

    • Oh Jennie poo, there is nothing to feel guilty about. You also, as you said went through all that rain. We always have snow until April, so nothing new, but it just seems that this year it is bothering me more. Enjoy all the sunshine you get and get out there and have fun. Do be careful with your back, you only have one.
      love you big!
      XXX

  29. Sue is fine, I spoke with her last night. Just running ragged and having to be careful of her eyes. Keep her in prayers, we need COMPLETE healing for those eyes !!
    Had a big post written, but it didn’t let me post it, so just know I love you all
    Tonie

    • Love you more, ha ha. Joking aside, we will all keep Sue in our prayers, I’m sure of that. You are exactly right Tonie we need COMPLETE healing for those eyes!!.
      Sleep tight my friend.
      XXX

  30. Dear Friends, I guess I let the time slip through my fingers and I do apologize for that. I am having eye problems now that we’re having sunnier days and that long wait and process at the hospital the other day was cruel. I was stupid and should have taken a seltzer with me and put in eyedrops every hour but didn’t think of it. There is so much.
    Jim is feeling better and started PT for his fractured arm. It’s doing better but he needs to regain function in it. As for me, I have three spots on the L breast and am scheduled for lab work this afternoon and a breast biopsy early Friday morning. I’m scared, of course, but because that mammo( I’m calling a panini machine) was so painful over them, I am telling myself they are cysts. It’s the not knowing that is difficult. Our son and GS are coming on Sat. from TX for a preplanned visit and I pray I have good news for their visit. Please keep me in your hearts and prayers. I have a wretched headache right now from crying this morning but there you have it. I love each of you and do stay up to date on here. Sue P.S. No new blog this week.

    • Dear Sue, Prayers, gentle hugs, positive energy all going out to you. Of course you’re scared, we are all scared for you. You have always been our rock, now it’s our turn to be there for you. I truly believe in the power that prayer and love can give and you must be on the receiving end of hundreds if not thousands of them. Time for you to take care of you. Love from Janet

      • Janet, thanks so much. Your words were reassuring and comforting. I think it’s just the sheer volume of problems that have hit us in recent months that has worn me down. Hope you found a med to help those tremors. Love you, too. Sue

  31. Sue
    I have always been told if they are sore there is no need to worry
    I have a lot of cysts and when you press them they are so bruised.
    I used to see a specialist to have them checked every year after a scare and he was a breast specialist and he used to say that too
    Yep put those drops in every hour.i have to as well.even more so sometimes.today I sat by a log fire and they are so dry .
    Thinking of you Sue,over the next few days
    And prayers
    Love Chrisx

    • Thanks Chris..I believe that also. After breast got smashed last week I couldn’t even wear a bra for two days so if pain is good…I’ll be okay. You watch those eyes, too, my dear. Most folks just don’t understand how awful Sjogren’s syndrome can be, do they. Love you…How’s Dad? Poor man. Sue

      • Dear sweet Sue (that was a GREAT BBQ that my mother used to buy πŸ™‚
        We had a good prayer for you tonight. Holding you close and lifting you up. I know you are scared, but we are told he didn’t give us to a spirit of fear. God bless you , wish I could be there to go with you. Love you so ! Hey you are going braless ?? I try to avoid that or I have to move em when I go to potty πŸ™‚
        Please take care
        love you much
        Tonie

  32. Well my dad is still in hosp…..but they took his catheter out and they said all the bypassing was a sign he’d be ok with catheter out. .and it was! Out now for a few days and after having forcing himself to go every hour he is good! They gave him 4 pts blood for his bleeding,he was so white,and antibiotic thru drip ,as they said they thort it was diverticulitis ,and bleeding stopped.he has scan with contrast tomorrow .so apart from being a bit with the fairies and weak he is picking up.but at the moment it takes two to take him to shower he can’t stand at all. But the occ.therapists are talking of him going home.,sees consultant tomorrow on ward…so it won’t be till next week
    Carpets have to be cleaned again ,smell better but not gone
    I’ve been looking into care homes…but he is not interested.
    Maybe the hosp will tell him he needs more care at home.
    I have to speak to them anyway tomorow
    Went away yesterday to where jen used to go..lovely day sun out. Very old village with buildings from 13c.had a picnic sitting out on a bench looking down onto the village .went into church that her DH did some of the stained glass window in and sent a pic to her ..oh and had a prayer for us all.strange feeling felt connected somehow
    Well yep I’m awake it’s 3am ish.
    It’s our 45 wed anniversary next week had booked a night away at coast but don’t know if we will be able to go with all going on
    Try to get some shut eye
    Sue..thinking of you all the time over next few days
    Chris

    • Chris:
      So glad your Dad gets that catheter out ! (not as much as him though) What does that mean “a bit with the fairies” ? A bit out of his head ?? Never heard that one. It is funny, when I read what you have written I hear it in my mind in a British accent πŸ™‚ Can you send me the pics of the church ?? Sounds wonderful. Congrats on your anniversary and I pray you will be able to get away, need to do that some huh ? I so want to go to the beach this year. Maybe !
      It is cold here again today, but thankfully only a dusting of snow here and there this am. WInd is up and NASTY. Was supposed to have kids working here today, but was outdoor work, so they opted out and sent them where they could be indoors. I could have gotten them for my flooring but wasn’t up to all the measuring (bending over) and sawing involved right now.
      I will be so glad when WARM stays and cold goes away. I have lots of little green things springing up in the back room where I have started some plants to go in the garden. One day soon in non-windy times I must burn it off in order for it to be plowed up.
      Do take care all and have a blessed day
      Love
      Tonie

      • OH TONIE, lucky duck! You have started planting your seeds. Good for you. End of march I will start my seeds here. Can’t wait. They are now saying it will be very cold and snowy here until April. Strange weather we are having. it was -29 last night. So cold, you just want to roll up and not move. Hope the garden works well.
        love ya
        XXX

    • Chris dear, so glad you got a trip out and it sounds wonderful. Imagine knowing Jen’s dear man had done some of the work. Sometimes when you recount your adventures, I realize again what a young country we are. Congratulations on your coming wedding anniversary. Through thick and thin, huh? That’s marriage for all of us isn’t it?
      I’m pleased they found the problem with your Dad. Diverticulitis could sure make his cramp and bleed and lose control of his bowels. Blood is so irritating when it’s out of place. I am happy for him he got the catheter out but hate to see him go home alone. So much can happen to him. Sorry about the carpets..what a pain.
      Thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers. SO many have been so kind. Take care of your sweet self, okay? Love ya, Sue

  33. Sue, sending you prayers and lots of love. Thinking of you and hope you feel the love coming through. We will all be awaiting the good news on Friday! In the meantime sweetpea, take care of you now. Rest if you can and keep putting in those drops.
    Love you big!
    XXX

  34. Sue and Chris, special prayers for you, and prayers for everyone, of course. Naturally, since we are north of Tonie and Suzanne, we were hit with that arctic blast as well. It was beautiful, just over 60 on Tuesday, yesterday started the descent from about 50 to the plummet last night. Strong winds, very cold. Still windy this morning, high today upper 20’s with wind chill of 0 to 10 degrees. A roller coaster for sure. I had planned on just staying in and warm and taking it easy today, but yesterday found a car that would be a dream. DH says if I want to trade my car, now is the time. So, time for thought, playing with numbers, and probably not that rest I’d hoped for. The car is 2 and a half hours away… SB would go with me tomorrow to take a look. I’d love to see the car, but… Well, you all know. So, today will be running figures, thought, and potentially cleaning up my car a bit. Not a good day for cleaning the outside of the car! Thankfully, I could vacuum it out in the garage. We’ll see. Lately cold sets off my back, and it is already starting to let me know it could get unhappy. I guess I’ll start applying heat. Now that you know more than you wanted, I’ll offer up a prayer of thanks, for there are many far worse off than I, and send immediate prayers for all here. Blessings, all.

    • Lyn, great news on the car. I hope it works out the way you want. I am with you on the cold and pain ! It is very windy and very cold this am. At least the sun is shining which is always a bonus ! Take it easy and don’t overdo. I am sitting on a heating pad as we speak. Haven’t been able to calm my back down. Let’s pray this is our LAST vestige of winter
      Hugs
      TOnie

    • Lyn, The idea of the new car sounds good. Transportation is so important in wild weather, especially for a busy family like yours. I also understand that’s a long way to go…one way…alone, with a bad back. I wish the weather would pop into full time spring for so many of you. I do have to admit that the drive home, if you were in the new car would be more fun.
      I know heat is always my go to friend and George has discovered it and likes to squeeze me out and can find it under the covers when I have it on my ankles or back. He’s been such a tiny blessing to us over the last few hideous months and keeps us laughing. Jim is doing well with PT..not his favorite thing but he’s doing well. Being a lefty makes it difficult to write, even sign in at the doc’s. Glad I gave him all the seasons of COLUMBO with Peter Falk. I think he’s about made his way through them all. As for me, I sure won’t miss the Velocity channel; too many cars, auctions and mechanics for this gal.
      I’m overdoing it big time today getting ready for weekend guests. I think we all do well to have guests a couple of times per year to clean. Not looking forward to having needles in my areola on my boob, but so be it. I feel peaceful about the whole thing but it did come on top of so much I was exhausted.
      Just heard a great bumper sticker on the news. It was KEEP YOUR DOCTOR, CHANGE YOUR SENATOR. Thought you all would enjoy that. Take care of yourself dear Lyn. Much love, Sue

      • “KEEP YOUR DOCTOR- CHANGE YOUR SENATOR”. Great idea! Laughing so hard it made me cry! Senator heck- can we change the president too?
        Well Sue, after they stick the needles in your boob, be sure to tell them to re-inflate it! (I know- bad nurse humour.) One of my favorite bumper stickers was “Save the Ta-Ta’s!” Praying for you and yours- Love, Annie

      • Haha, oh, Sue and Annie! I can’t imagine that needle there… I’m sure there will be some numbing solution, but still. I’m going back and forth about the idea of a “new” car. I know it is a really good deal, but like many of us, am concerned about whether it’s a good idea financially. I’m not going alone, though. SB is coming with me. πŸ™‚ It will be good to have company as well as another pair of eyes to look over the vehicle. If I like it, I do dread the haggling. I don’t enjoy it and am probably not the best at it as a result. But first, see if we like it and it is comfortable for me to drive.
        Glad the PT is going well for Jim. I bet you are completely worn out with all going on as well as getting ready for family visit. But how wonderful that visit will be!
        I’m pooped from vacuuming my car and thoroughly cleaning the windows and dash, etc. I didn’t do the exterior – way too cold out! DH says I should run it through a car wash before leaving tomorrow. I’m tempted to just go as is. The trip, etc. will be enough, I’m afraid. Well, time for a little down time. Movie or read a bit. I already have Lily on my lap and Rufus on the top of my chair back, behind my head. Just call me the crazy cat lady. >^.^<

  35. Tonie
    Sent them to you hotmail email. Four pics as they were all together .hope you get them
    It’s funny when I read books written by people famous I always read it in their voice
    I’ll try and email a few more from yesterday Chris

  36. Well finally got some of my blood tests done this morning. Have to go back on March 24th for the rest??? My sister got through the procedure and now has to wait two weeks for the results (if the cancer is in the lymnoids (sp)_) Then they will be able to operate and they will know if she needs chemo. Her husband Ed is still in the hospital, they are trying to bring his numbers for kidneys down. They are over 300. Of course I have no idea what that means but I do know it is not good.
    Good for you Lyn on the great news for the car. STAY WARM. I totally understand that feeling.
    We are now expecting another 10 – 15 cm of snow again tomorrow. Will this winter ever end. Water frozen at the farm got people in to help thaw it but it’s not working. Means a hell of a lot more work for George. I’m just so tired of everything, and so is he. He is just working too hard for his age. We are both sucking air right now, hope it all ends well.
    Chris hope all went well with you talking with them at the hospital today. Keep us posted.
    Sue you keep resting and putting those drops in your eyes.
    Tonie, my dearheart, not sure I know what I would do if you weren’t here to keep me laughing and also saying things straight up.
    Enjoy the rest of the day everyone. Praying for all of you.
    XXX

    • Suzanne, I am so concerned hearing how things are for you and George. These older guys…they just do what lies in front of them and we worry. I live with a guy like that so I know. Funny, isn’t it? With men it’s their work and that accomplishment, even if it’s a bad day; and with us gals it’s our families, then our jobs.
      I am so sorry to hear about your BIL and dear sister. Oh my, such worries. Prayers from the heart for your whole family for healing, courage and a joy in living. It’s hard to remember sometimes when fatigue and pain fall upon us. Life is still so wonderful, depending on where we let our thoughts and eyes fall, don’t you think? Love you dear girl…
      No, to the resting for me. Just been cleaning carpets. I have to stay busy when I’m stressed because it helps. Never was one to lay around and worry about case scenarios. I leave that in the Lord’s hands and go about my business. I am faithfully doing the drops. Our son and GS are coming this weekend for a brief visit. That will be fun but different than my usual. No baking, just going out and also laying in a supply of deli variety for lunches. Good to see both of them.
      Do take care. Aren’t you glad some days are only 24 hours long? Sue

  37. Yep Suzanne have to laugh with Tonie she’s always there with her humour
    I hope the time passes quickly for your sister such a long wait
    Also I wish the weather would buck up for you both such a long winter for all this year
    My dad will have his results tomorrow. But no more bleeding and he looks good and more with it tonight
    Thinking of you Sue
    Chris

    • That’s great Chris about your dad. Let us know what the results are tomorrow. Yep, our Tonie is a blast. So happy to have her in my life and you too. Well gee all of you really. You make me want to get up and see what has happened to all of you. THANK YOU ALL FOR BEING THERE FOR ME. IT MAKES LIFE MORE DURABLE.
      FEEL LIKE I WANT TO CRY NOW. WILL GO TO BED AND SLEEP. THAT seems to be working for me these days.
      love to all. EVERYONE PLEASE TAKE GOOD CARE . LOVE YOU ALL TO THE MOON AND BACK.
      XXX

  38. HI all,
    Sue, I’ve always heard that cancer doesn’t hurt in the breast. So, at least that’s one good sign. Yep, so much hitting at once is a real show stopper. Troubles are easier to handle a little bit at a time.
    It’s been in the high 60’s and low 70’s most of the week. We did have some rain yesterday. but also high winds. The barometer has been low, and if it gets anything under 30, I know it. It’s got back up to 29.88, so hopefully it will be up to 30 very soon. Funny how that pressure works on me. Ed seems to be feeling better, thank God.
    I have a lot of little things going on. My eyes are infected again, this time both of them. I had some drops left from the last bout and have been using them the last couple of days, so they feel a little bit better. Last time it was a staph infection. My naval is bothering me again, it’s red and very sore, and at times I have a tiny bit of blood from it. So, it’s back to the ophthalmologist and GP for me. The burn on my ear from the fall is healing up, but still a bit sore. Remember, I said the first thing I remembered is the vent burning. I have a heat pump and the air generally feels cool coming out of the vents, but it was very hot. The bruising on my hip and leg is faded, almost gone. Still a bit sore. I can’t seem to get the rash under my breast healed up. One day it will look as if it’s about gone, the next day it’s raw and bloody again. Oh a good note, my back feels a lot better. I still can’t stand very long, but it doesn’t hurt constantly like it did. The corn is back on the end of my right great toe, so it’s back to the podiatrist too. My great toes and thumbs turn up at the last joint, so the top of my toe rubs against shoes! I’ve had to have them cut out a few times and it’s time to do it again. My body is so weird. After my stroke, the left thumb doesn’t turn up quite as much. Drastic cure, though. Throat is much better, so all is not bad.
    Chris, I’m so sorry about your dad and his problems. A lot of older folks are very adamant not to have strangers come into their homes to help them. I can understand that a little bit, but I think they don’t realize what a burden they put on their children when they’re like that. It’s so much harder when there’s only one child, but I’ve seen in large families that their seems to be only one who’s willing to help. Dynamics in families can be so odd. I know he’s glad to have that catheter out.. They seem to bother men much more than they bother us gals. And I know he’s sore from stepping on the tubing and pulling it all out. Imagine that balloon being yanked through that small passage; it hurts to think about it. I always tried to keep the tubing taped up or used a leg band to keep it up high enough so it couldn’t be stepped on. But I know a lot of nurses who didn’t take the few extra minutes to do that.
    Chris, congrats on your 45th anniversary. I so hope you can DH can take that little trip; I know you need it.
    Lyn, I’m so happy that SB isn’t having the migraines. Poor guy has so much to deal with so young, and that’s one thing he sure didn’t need.
    Toni, I laughed until I nearly cried, thinking of you out shooting at the possum…with blanks, no less! Sorry you lost Blanca, I think you love your chickens almost as much as your pups! You sound like a real country Mama now! It’s great ya’ll have those kids in to help. It’s so good to have help with the things you can’t do yourself, although you’re pretty self-sufficient!

    Sue, as much as I enjoy your blogs, I was glad to see you didn’t post a new one today. I know we all want you to take care of those eyes. So you had a crying spell, huh? I think we all need one of those now and then. Helps to get it all out of our system. The tears seem to wash away some of the self-pity and feelings of being overwhelmed. My grandma used to say that “everybody need a good crying jag from time to time”. Sometimes when I feel like that, I’ll give myself a time limit. If it’s really bad, I might take “today” to get it all out of my system, but sometimes I set my time in hours. Then I force myself to let it go. If it’s related to a person, I’ll print out this thing I have that says “there are 7 billion people on this planet, and you’re going to let ONE of them ruin your day??” If it’s a situation, I use select passages from the Bible, which makes me feel great. Then again, I’ll think of a quote a friend once gave me. I honestly can’t remember if it came from the Torah or the Koran, but it goes something like “over every blade of grass, God is bending and whispering, grow dear one, grow.” I know I have the wording wrong because I’ve tried to Google it and find where it came from, and I can’t find it. But I do know I have the gist of it right, and I find it a great comfort.
    You’re all in my prayers and I love you all. I love a good flan and would love to have that recipe!
    Linda

  39. Believe it or not, I went on Bing and found it right away, it’s from the Talmud, and says ”

    β€œEvery blade of grass has its angel that bends over it and whispers, ‘Grow, grow.’”
    The Talmud

  40. Oh Linda that is simply beautiful. Thank you for sharing it with us. You are such a sweetheart. Reading your post reminded me to
    wish CHRIS HAPPY ANNIVERSARY. Dear me almost forgot were it not for Linda here. 45 years is something to celebrate. Hope you can make it to the coast, but if not you can always celebrate at another time. XXXX
    Sue I know the feeling of not being able to just sit around when stressed, that is usually how I am. Since I’m coming off prednisone, I could fall asleep anywhere I happen to sit. It’s getting ridiculous. I’m in such pain right now I’m not sure if I should call the doc or not.
    I find no relief period. Not even after taking my ocycontin. Well I’ll be finished with prednisone on April 8th. Hope the Rheumy calls me before that with results of the tests I’ve been going for.
    Sue you enjoy your weekend with your son and GS. Will be thinking of you with happy thoughts.

    Love to all on this blog. Take good care everyone of you.
    XXX

  41. So I ran across this great quote in a nursing magazine:
    “AIR goes in and out.
    BLOOD goes round and round.
    Any deviation is a problem!”

    How well I know from my time in the ER. Stabbed my finger today with my ultra sharp embroidery scissors- was ripping out part of a seam and they “skidded” across a difficult stitch. From the amount of blood dripping everywhere you’d think I amputated my finger! But it was just a tiny puncture wound- barely 0.1 cm diameter but prob. close to a half-centimeter deep. Add in your routine low-dose aspirin regimen, and Bingo! Instant blood bath!
    (and before you ask, yes, my tetanus shot is up-to-date- lol)

    Went to the chiropractor this afternoon; I do wish my cranky S-I joints would keep themselves in line. Wicked muscle spasms in my upper back and shoulders as well. Full-on fibro flare. Yep I’m ready for spring too! I don’t think it’s actually the cold weather that bothers me so much as the rapid temp fluctuations. Don’t bounce back the way I used to- kinda like a frozen rubber band- stretch it to much and it snaps…
    Feeling very much like Princess Crabby Pants today – LoL. Love to all!

  42. Hi all … just a short note to say that you all continue to be in my thoughts and prayers … and especially Sue of course!
    We have had a busy week being March break, with little ones around every day, and my feet have been so very swollen and painful, that there have been times I have just been up to the bathroom and then back to bed again. We still have huge snow banks and if the weather forecast is right, we will have little relief from the snow and cold temps until sometime in April.

    Sue, sending love, comfort and prayers to you tomorrow.
    Pommum xoxoxo

    • SAME HERE BRENDA, SNOW AND COLD TEMPS UNTIL APRIL… NOT VERY GOOD BUT WE CAN’T DO ANYTHING ABOUT THAT SO WE MIGHT AS WELL JUST CONTINUE TO TRY AND FEEL GOOD DOING OTHER THINGS.
      LOVE TO YOU TOO MISS CRABBY PANTS. LOL.
      GOING TO BED NOW JUST TOO TIRED TO CARRYON.
      XXX

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