HEARTPRINTS

the sparrow

 

Since everyone on the planet has probably seen a scientific detective television show, we each know about fingerprints, footprints and the printed trail left by DNA. We’ve become almost calloused as we have become educated by such shows as CSI, NCIS and Rizzoli and Isles. These prints and evidence are so certain, substantial and solid compared to a print of far more importance, and that is the print we leave upon the hearts of those we meet, love or with whom we simply interact in any business or medical setting.

 

It’s an extremely self-centered world in which we find ourselves these days and most of us are busy looking out for what will work for us, what we can enjoy and also surviving what we must endure. We seldom look at each other as we busily text away, even while walking up the street, oblivious to the world around us in a somewhat dangerously self-involved manner. Many of us here on this blog understand constantly what we are presented with as far as health problems and all the ramifications of these changes and their effect on each corner of our lives. Health issues, pain and suffering drizzle over all parts of our lives like a glass of spilled milk; socially, economically and in our daily haunts or inability to lead our usual lives. Self-centeredness creeps into our lives and can take over and dominate if we let it.

 

Like many of you, I have discovered a little jewel which is part of a huge treasure that is, like many treasures, hidden in plain sight. It lies in the interaction between us and our fellow humans. Each individual we meet is a jewel or at the very least, a story to be told. Life is a library, a jewelry store and thesaurus of possibilities and it’s available via our fellows. We each lose so many opportunities for kinship along the way without even realizing that’s what we’re doing. We often have far more in common with others than we realize. We have more in common with them than a mere superficial interaction reveals. We pass them in the market, sit next to them in offices and live next door to them.

 

When we begin to see our fellow beings as jewels or untapped treasures, it seems a pity there are millions we will never truly meet, or know. There are millions who could enrich our lives but we will never know, will we? Each of our fellow humans has something going on in their lives that would surprise us, shock us perhaps, and also warm our hearts. Each of us is a complicated creature full of hopes and dreams, failures and disappointments as well as accomplishments and talent.

 

I’m not advocating a trek to get to know everyone in the world because we each know that’s absurd. What I am trying to say is there is more to each individual we brush up against, talk with and casually know than we initially realize. Reaching out to each other is often awkward, such as chatting on an airplane. Some folks want to talk, others do not. Some individuals want to keep business and medical procedures all teetering on the business end and others love to tell you the story of their lives, challenges and families. Others just value their privacy. I respect that and have felt that way at times, but usually, not.

 

I seem to have the habit of getting to know various individuals life brings to me and I enjoy that quality…if it is a quality. It could be interpreted many ways; perhaps I’m snoopy, curious or just plain rude. I hope that is not the case. I tell myself it is “just me.” I love people and find them intriguing. As I’ve previously stated, they are each treasures of the ups and downs of life and all of its possibilities and triumphs.

 

As most of you know, I have just completed six weeks of radiation therapy for breast cancer. On my last two days, the positioning on the table was uncomfortable for me and the technicians were very considerate. At the end of the last treatment a young tech said to me, “I’m so sorry we hurt you so badly. I feel awful about your burns.”

 

This struck me as one of those special connections and I replied, “Oh no. You have to look at this situation completely in a different way. You didn’t hurt me. You have saved my life.” She thanked me and said she hadn’t look at it that way. It was the truth…I hope.

 

The burns have been painful and extensive due to my years of methotrexate treatment and now I have the recovery to face each day. As many of you know, one of my favorite coping skills which always brings a smile to my face is to sing. I usually choose “Nobody knows the trouble I’ve seen. Nobody knows my sorrow,” drawing out the sorrow in my best alto voice. I usually can’t make it through the song without smiling at my ludicrous assumption my troubles are greater than those of someone else.

 

A few weeks ago I watched a wonderful old all colored film called CABIN IN THE SKY. In that film Ethel Waters sings a song that has been bringing me a deep comfort ever since I heard it. I have always loved the song but it has now become my mantra.

 

It was written by Civilla D. Martin in 1905 as she was inspired by a couple she admired. Surrounded by obstacles as the wife was bedridden and had been for twenty years and the husband used a wheelchair to manage going about his own life and business. One day Civilla asked Mr. and Mrs. Dolittle how they could have so much faith and be such an inspiration to others and Mrs. Dolittle replied, “His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.”

 

Civilla wrote the poem and sent it to songwriter Charles H. Gabriel who set it to music. Today I would like to share that song with you to read or to hum along if you know the melody.

 

HIS EYE IS ON THE SPARROW

 

Why should I feel discouraged, why should the shadows come,

Why should my heart feel lonely, and long for heaven and home,

When Jesus is my portion? My constant friend is He:

His eye is on the sparrow and I know He watches me.

His eye is on the sparrow and I know He watches me.

 

(Chorus)

I sing because I’m happy,

I sing because I’m free,

For His eye is on the sparrow,

And I know He watches me.

 

It’s a comforting, fine thing to know we are being watched over, isn’t it? I hope you find comfort in that truth as well as finding comfort in the lives of others as we all rejoice in the lives we have been given and make the very most out of them. Enjoy the heartprints you leave and those you receive. They are the prints that truly matter.

 

 

 

 

 

 

79 thoughts on “HEARTPRINTS

  1. Well, you got me singing ! Love that song. Love that movie as well. Haven’t seen it in ages. I love people and interacting with them. For sure, some are not very much fun to be around, but if you try you can find something that is special in them. I am praying for your swift recovery my dear friend. I am so sorry for all the pain and trauma you have been thru in the last few years. Seems like it is one thing after another. But I know your faith has kept you on the right path and will continue to do so.
    It is raining really hard now and I pray it cools it down a bit. Was up to 94 here today with a bunch of humidity. I stayed inside and rested mostly. Ran out before the rain and did a few chores. Let the chickies out and when it started to rain they rain as fast as they could for home 🙂 so funny to watch them.
    Prayers for you all , hope you are doing well.
    Love
    Tonie

    • Well, Tonie, it looks like that’s one way to gather in the chickens; a down pour. I do hope with that blistering heat it doesn’t get terribly more humid for you. We’ve had a couple of overcast days with light drizzle at night and mid seventies during the day. You know, you caused me to pause with your remarks because it doesn’t seem to me as if I have had that much more going on than most of us but it has been an adventure when I stop to think on it. Healing will be most welcome in regards to this furnace blasting type of burn I’m dealing with right now. Good to know you’re always there dear friend, Love, Sue

      • Sue:
        Yes, I know we have all had a rough bit of it of late, but such is life huh ? We haven’t however, had to go thru the procedures and loss of “limb” that you have. Trauma , as I said. I have been reading Job. Something that I never really liked. So this time I prayed over it and asked for understanding. It has been a joy this time with things leaping out at me. This morning was in the 37-40th chapters. I love when God answers Job and recounts for him all the wonders that He, God has done and asks if Job can do them also? This one jumped out at me, what I get out of it is to , Get up and stand firm in your infirmities, He will help you if you will try to help yourself. Be not proud but put on your best face everyday and be holy. I thought I would share it :

        Job 40:7 Gird up thy loins now like a man: I will demand of thee, and declare thou unto me.
        Job 40:8 Wilt thou also disannul my judgment? wilt thou condemn me, that thou mayest be righteous?
        Job 40:9 Hast thou an arm like God? or canst thou thunder with a voice like him?
        Job 40:10 Deck thyself now with majesty and excellency; and array thyself with glory and beauty.
        Job 40:11 Cast abroad the rage of thy wrath: and behold every one that is proud, and abase him.
        Job 40:12 Look on every one that is proud, and bring him low; and tread down the wicked in their place.
        Job 40:13 Hide them in the dust together; and bind their faces in secret.
        Job 40:14 Then will I also confess unto thee that thine own right hand can save thee.
        Love you
        Tonie

  2. Sue, I to love to talk to people. It didn’t use to be that way. I was very shy and timid. You would think with 5 small children with me always I would not be shy. Someone destroyed my self esteem and I could not even look at someone when I talked. In thinking back on those days, I realize just how far God has brought.me. I started opening up when I was going through the cancer treatments. I had to find out everything I could about the breast cancer that I had and it forced me to come out of my protective shell. From the diagnosis through the chemotherapy and finally the 6 weeks of radiation took almost a year. Oh and the 3 surgeries too. I began talking to anyone who would listen. Soon it became fun meeting new people and finding out about them. I developed 3 very close friendships over the 13 years I have been a survivor. Unfortunately my closest friend, Tracy, passed away 2 years ago August 1st. She also had breast cancer. So even though it has been hard, at least I am still a talker now.
    Sue, I am so glad you are finished with the radiation. I am so sorry you got so burned. So did I. Just try and rest and keep yourself hydrated. Before you know it, you will be healed. Look at me trying to tell a nurse what to do. Ha ha. At least you didn’t have to go through chemotherapy. Praise God for that! I love you and I am praying for you. God Bless. Donna Lou.

    • Donna, it is enriching to read your story of growth. I don’t think cancer changed me that much as I’ve been ill for such a long time; it was just another brick on the fire of my life. It makes it a bit heavier and challenging to a disgusting degree. I am thankful for your survival and fine example. You can give me advice anytime you wish and yes, I am hydrating and trying to eat protein each day, more than usual. I am sorry you lost a friend to cancer, as I have also had that experience and it can hurt so deeply. I didn’t have chemo because the doctors thought it would be too difficult for me. I am now going to take Tamoxifen for the rest of my days and hope I can tolerate it. Haven’t started on it just yet.
      It’s good to be hearing from you again and hope you keep it up. Fondly, Sue

  3. Sue and Tonie, I forgot to tell you that it was 97 degrees here today and very humid. No rain though. We really need some for our garden. My husband is faithful to water everyday. We got our first tomatoes this weekend. Those tomato sandwiches sure are good. Nothing like homegrown tomatoes and cucumbers. Throw in some squash and green beans and you have a great meal. Who needs meat. My husband is making some homemade ice cream tomorrow. Looking forward to that. Chat with you later. Hello to all of you I haven’t talked to in a while. Healthwise I am hanging in there like everyone else. Got a major flair up with my neck and shoulder. The pain is bad and it is hard to sleep. Can’t seem to find a comfortable way to rest. I just spent 3 weeks at My oldest daughter’s home also with my younger daughter too. Had 3 of my grandchildren with me. I really enjoyed it. They all took excellent care of me. I think not used to having younger children around had me tensed up and watching fireworks took its toll on me. I know I will feel better soon. It is just one of those things we do in order to have a little fun. Sorry for going on and on. You see, get me started and I don’t know how to shut up. Anyway, HEY EVERYONE! I think about all of you everyday. I read everything, I just haven’t typed much. Please forgive me. I care about all of you very much. LOVE, Donna Lou.

    • Donna Lou,
      So good to hear from you ! I KNOW how that humidity is down there ! It gets worse when we go over the mountain (There is a mountain that separates Va from North Carolina, and you can feel the heat and humidity begin halfway down) My brother lives in Kernersville. Enjoy your tomatoes, I am still waiting and guarding mine from the deer !!
      Love you back
      Tonie

      • Tonie, I am hoping your humid weather has let up a bit. It makes it so hard to breathe. Perhaps the rain gave you relief as well as the chickens. Love, Sue

  4. HELLO….WHAT A LOVELY BLOG SUE….I LOVE SPARROWS, THERE ARE SOME FOLKS THAT CALL THEM PLAIN, I THINK THEY ARE BEAUTIFUL. ITS STRANGE HOW WE ARE DESTINED TO CROSS PATHS WITH THE FOLKS WE MEET ON LIFE’S ROAD, LIKE YOU AND THE RADIOLOGIST SUE, A FEW SIMPLE WORDS MEANT A LOT TO HER. I THINK LIFE IS LIKE A BIG JIGSAW, EACH PIECE HAVING ITS PLACE. GOT A KNOCK BACK YESTERDAY, SOME FOLKS WERE SUPPOSED TO COME AND VIEW OUR HOUSE, WE GOT EVERYTHING NICE, AND WE SAT THERE, AND SAT THERE, BUT NOBODY SHOWED…….WE WERE SELLING OUR LOVELY HOME FULLY FURNISHED, NO AGENCY FEES, A LOVELY GARDEN, AND MAY HAVE THROWN THE CAR INTO THE MIX…..WHAT MORE DO FOLKS WANT? I REALLY THOUGHT THIS WAS IT, WE COULD SELL UP AND MOVE BACK HOME, NEAR TO WHERE CHRIS IS, SO AT LEAST THERE WOULD AVE BEEN ONE FRIEND…………..FELT SAD, DIDN’T HELP MYSELF WHEN I PUT ON THE “YOU TUBE” DVD OF THE SONG FOR THE FIRST TWO DAYS OF THE “TOUR DE FRANCE” WHICH WAS SET IN MY BELOVED YORKSHIRE, CRIED A LOT YESTERDAY AS MY DREAMS JUST DISAPPEARED.
    RIGHT DOCTORS SOON, FIND OUT WHATS HAPPENING TO THE GUT.
    TONIE, HOPE YOU TOMATOES SURVIVE THE DEER, DIDN;T KNOW THEY LIKED THEM, SURELY THAT WOULD GIVE THEM THE SQUIRTS????????
    DONNA LOU…..DON’T KNOW YOU YET, BUT NEVERTHELESS I HOPE YOUR PAINS IMPROVE, SOUNDS LIKE WE HAVE ANOTHER GARDENER IN OUR MIDST.
    HAVE A GOOD DAY EVERYONE, LOVE YOU ALL TO BITS……………………JENNIE XXXXXX

    • Dear Jennie, So sorry the people didn’t show. From the pictures you have posted you have a lovely home and I am sure there must be someone over there who would love and appreciate it as much as you do. You are much in my thoughts with the Tour de France going thru Yorkshire, such beautiful countryside no wonder you cried. Good luck with the doctor. Prayers and positive thoughts for you and yours. love, Janet

    • Jennie, I am so sorry for all you recent disappointment. I know that feeling of let down you get when you’ve shined and polished everything.If not them, then someone else will come along. It sounds and looks like such a beautiful spot and to sell it furnished? I’m surprised at the desperation I hear in your voice. I had no idea you felt quite that strongly about getting back to England. I pray you get what is right for your life and dear husband’s life and health. Hang on my friend and it will all be made right, I’m certain of it. Much love, Sue

      • I didn’t think myself that I wanted to go home so badly, I love France, and would happily stay here if it weren’t for the money problems,but thanks for you support Sue….will be talking to you soon…..I love you….Jennie xx

    • Jennie:
      We will add this to the prayer list. The right one will come along ! You wait and see. It is because you are wanting to go home now and are ready. It will happen. God bless ya !

  5. Hey all:
    Just a note before I plug into a movie. Seems I never watch tv anymore, it is all reruns ! All I get is antenna stations, so I watch movies online. Anyhow ! Dr says yes, need surgery, but we will wait a while until this one is stronger that he just did. Will be going back in August. I need to see the other Orthopod. Didn’t know this guy is so specialized, only neck to fingertips. So my knee, which is in desperate need of something, will have to wait until I get back to him. Cancelled his apt this morning since this guy is doing my surgery ! SIGH !!
    SO…came back home , changed clothes and went berrying. I got almost a gallon of blackberries in about an hour. Beauitful big black things so sweet ! I had some ice cream and loads of them for supper !! The red raspberries are not good yet, so will have to go back the first of next week and see how these are coming along. I may pick some to sell as well as eat 🙂 (sorry Jennie)
    Love to you all
    Tonie

      • WHAT A GREAT BLOG SUE. I ALWAYS FEEL GOD IS WITH ME. LOVE THAT SONG! SO HAPPY THE RADIATION IS OVER. STILL SENDING HEALING PRAYERS AND ANGELS. I’M SURE YOU SHOCKED THE YOUNG TECH BUT ONCE SHE GOT IT YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN HER HEART. FOOTPRINTS ON HER SOUL. GOD BLESS YOU FOR THAT.
        JENNIE POO DIDN’T REALIZE HOW YOU FELT SWEETHEART. SEEMS LIKE THERE ARE A BUNCH OF US ON THIS BLOG WITH MONEY PROBLEMS. LET’S STOP AND PRAY A MOMENT THAT ALL WILL TURN OUT WELL FOR YOU.
        TONIE, I’M JEALOUS, ONLY STRAWBERRIES READY HERE. ENJOY THEM ALL SWEETPEA. LOVE YA.
        DONNA, SO NICE TO MEET YOU, HOPE YOU ARE FEELING BETTER WITH EACH PASSING DAY. SENDING YOU PRAYERS ALSO FOR LESS PAIN.
        I’M STIL WRAPPING MY HEAD AROUND WHAT THE INTERNIST TOLD ME. LIFE, HUH!!!
        WELL YOU ALL TAKE GOOD CARE, TIME TO GO TO SLEEP. LOVE TO ALL ON HERE.
        GOD BLESS
        XXX

  6. Hello, everyone! I’m sorry, Sue I did read and enjoy Heartprints! Adding another furry friend has added joy, but extra work, too. And I was trying to finish my book before book club met. I almost made it! But the meeting was still fun. I had all but figured the ending out anyway. We read The Lost Hours. A different book from our selections of late, but I really enjoyed it. Sadie and I both need daily exercise, but boy has that been hard to get in lately. We are “enjoying” the horrible humidity Donna and Tonie have spoken of also. Yesterday morning I took Sadie just around the block and was wringing wet when I came in! Not fun. Today I got us out earlier, gave Sadie a short walk due to the humidity, then took a longer one myself. I wasn’t really feeling up to it, but knew I really needed it. Numerous joints complained the whole way, but I felt the better for getting it in. The heavy humidity makes me ache as I’m sure it does so many of the rest of us here. I can’t wait for it to break as it is supposed to do soon.
    Tonie, Donna Lou, you’d both have enjoyed our dinner tonight. I didn’t get any produce planted this year – or flowers, either, thanks to going on and then off the Cymbalta with all it’s accompanying side effects and withdrawal effects. But, the farm stand down the street has just opened not to mention all the lovely produce in the grocery store lately. I was inspired by some tomatoes with olive oil and basil I had at a brunch Sunday. I had purchased some tomato from the farm stand yesterday and so picked up some mozzarella and other goodies today and we had grilled hamburgers (I always make my own with hamburger and various condiments, bread crumbs and some egg) on ciabatta rolls. We all made what I labeled caprese burgers. I had taken fresh tomato, sliced it down and added a tad of EVOO (extra virgin olive oil), basil, fresh mozzarella and a touch of balsamic vinegar. We could eat the caprese as a side or on our burgers – we all chose on our burgers and agreed we’d like a slice of onion with it, but opted out since we had a concert tonight. I had also made a side salad out of carrot, cucumber, spring onion, a touch of EVOO and rice vinegar – YUM, and fresh corn on the cob – also from the farm stand. Delish! Pressure is on for tomorrow’s dinner. Yesterday I made one of the guys’ favorites – marinated salmon, baked potato and roasted asparagus.
    Despite the humidity, I’m sitting with my heating pad right now. The concert was inside, in a cool room and my back and neck are bothering me. I only sang one number (DH played the whole concert) – I used to play flute with the band as well, but stopped when my fingers became too iffy with good old arthritis. Anyway, we came home after the short concert in the cold room and I practiced for next week’s concert – I’m singing chorus in Beethoven’s opera Fidelio – a concert semi-staged version. DD and DH are singing, too this year!! Anyway, my back and neck are complaining. Of course. But, I’m freshly touched up and trimmed by my hair stylist today, so I’m a happy gal. 😉 Sweet dreams, one and all!

    • Yum Lynn, I love all the fresh veggies as well ! I would have been stuck with just the hamburger, nothing else thanks (well with the condiments !) Living alone, I eat a lot of just veggies or fruit. I did pick up some salmon burgers to fix for me with some fresh tomato on em and lettuce out of the garden. It cooled down here some yesterday and this am I woke up to typical mtn weather. 61′ ! Not sure how hot it will be today, but it typically gets down to the 50’s overnight here. Hasn’t been doing that . I do understand about the exercise, which is why I push myself as well. Feels good huh ?
      My SIL has been diagnosed with moderate RA in his knees. But they didn’t send him to a Rheumy ! Typical VA hosp in PHOENIX !! SO he is seeing his reg Dr today and asking them to send him. (per my suggestion) he sounds better and is making noises about moving here. I hope so, miss my babies. DD is also planning on moving back next year so that has a lot to do with it I think.
      I had to give up guitar Lyn for the very reason. I still play the bass (would like to try the bass fiddle ) and we finally got the organs swapped out at church so I have a smaller one to play ! I love it. I love the sounds and bass pedals. I need to practice a bunch, but still can play. One of my friends is giving a benefit for someone in the community and I am to sing for about 15 min in August. I must find and practice songs for it. I have a few in mind, but will see how the time goes. Music is my second love, behind horse ! 🙂
      Have a great day
      Love
      Tonie

      • Yes, Tonie, I’d have been happy with just burger, veggies, and cheese, too, but the boys… not so much. 🙂 I’m thinking of some balsamic grilled zucchini and grilled veggies tonight. There are some leftover hamburgers and chicken for the guys. I love summer!
        Sorry your SIL has RA. I am shocked he wasn’t referred to a Rheumy. Did they at least start him on some DMARDs?
        Music does soothe the soul and so much more. 🙂

  7. Lovely blog to read sue
    Thought provoking
    Back home for a couple of days..got pain clinc tomorrow ,then off again
    Bit of trouble getting on here ,but fingers crossed ok now
    Sue I hope you are improving bit by bit
    Be back when I’m over at the coast
    You slow down Tonie!
    Lyn…..you still sound busy!
    Loved the bits about your meals
    Donna
    Hi…
    Well it gives it 30c here tomorrow..so it’ll be more bearable at the coast
    See you when I’m there…!
    Chris

  8. Thought someone might know…how do I get ducks to go from our patch of grass by the hut.they make a lovely mess.any hints at all?.ive got strips of foil hanging at moment don’t know if that’ll work till I go back
    Ta..Chris

    • Show them episodes of Duck Dynasty! (It’s an American “reality” show about a bunch of redneck guys that made a fortune manufacturing duck calls for hunting). It’s actually a great show- “Faith, Family, and Ducks, in that order” according to their patriarch. LoL

  9. Love hearing about everyone’s gardens. My friend Kathy gave me a huge tomato from her dad’s garden. It was about the size of a softball, and I ate the WHOLE thing for lunch today! Oh my was it ever yummy. Haven’t quite mastered patio gardening- maybe next year.
    I’m so excited- my sister will be here this weekend to see a friend of hers so I will get to spend Saturday with them and have some “girl time!” I’m thinking pedicure, and margaritas at Mi Cocina (our favorite Mexican place). Will welcome the “down time” after a crazy couple weeks at work. We are down 2 teachers (long story) so it’s been super busy as I’ve been helping in the classrooms as much as I can. I am just beat by the time I get home but it’s been fun too hanging out in Isabel’s classroom and playing with my toddler friends in between nurse duties.
    Well, gotta run for now. Love to all, Princess (My Butt is Dragging Out My Tracks) Crabby Pants

  10. Ok you guys
    I gather there’s not a lot I can do?
    Just gotta learn to love Daffy Duck
    Get back when at the coast ,cheers to all
    Chris

    • Chris, SOunds like you are having such a grand time. I am so happy for you. As far as the ducks? How about feeding them in an area a bit away from the Hut? Love you, Sue

  11. Chris:
    BOrrow a dog, they will stay away. 🙂 I couldn’t resist the shoo ! this am ! Hope you had a great day all of you.
    Lyn, No, they never did anything for him except give him some pain meds. He said they more or less told him to “suck it up”. I gave him the lecture on the need for a Rheumy, so he was supposed to request one. I too love the summer with all the fresh foods ! Got some good cucumbers tonight. Waiting on tomatoes to ripen yet. Lots of lettuce still and should have a mass of pumpkins. I am going to can it, so expensive at the store, thought, “why not “? Well, gonna read a bit more then off to never never !
    Love
    Tonie

    • TONIE….SOUNDS LIKE YOUR’E HARVESTING SOME GOOD STUFF THERE, THERE IS NO TASTE QUITE LIKE HOME GROWN IS THERE? WE JUST GOT FINISHED PICKING THE LAST OF THE PEAS AND BEANS, BAGGING THEM UP FOR THE FREEZER NOW, READY FOR WINTER….TOMATOES COMING ON, STILL GOT PLENTY OF THEM THERE RED THINGS…….GOT SOME CUCUMBERS TOO, AND ONIONS AND CARROTS NEARLY READY, SO LOOKING GOOD.
      THINK I WILL MAKE A QUICHE LATER WITH SOME OF THE PRODUCE, NEED ANYMORE RECIPES TONIE OR HAVE YOU ENOUGH NOW……………………LOVE YOU….JENNIE POO X

      • Dear Tonie, I am an absolute failure as a cook. I have no recipes to share. I’m sorry cooking just isn’t my thing. My Mother was a very good cook, but she never wanted me in the kitchen. I was very much the tomboy and didn’t really learn the girl stuff. I kind of regretted it, but never enough to learn on my own. Sorry. Janet

      • Janet:
        No worries, if you have a recipe of your mom’s to share that would be good as well. Being a tomboy is a GOOD thing !! Me too! My poor Ex, he probably had ulcers from my attempts at cooking at first. I never learned to cook until later in life. Always loved to bake, but not to cook. Now, I just do what is easiest !! 🙂 You take care my dear friend. Know you are in my thoughts and prayers at this time. Rough time for you right now. Love you
        Tonie

      • Dear Tonie, The one time I asked my Mother for a recipe it was for a devil’s food cake, It was shortly after I got married. She told me she was sorry, but she didn’t have a recipe. She had made it for so many years it was just automatic. She had learned it from her Grandmother, never measured anything. I know she did the same thing with baking powder biscuits. If I ever cook or bake I have to have minute directions, which I follow to the letter, probably why I don’t like to cook.
        Prayers and positive thoughts for you always.
        On my way to the gym, have to loosen up the arthritic joints so I can get moving. Love, Janet

    • The last time she was on here was on the previous blog and that was on Saturday. She wrote a comment to me on Facebook on Monday. Neither one said anything about how she was doing. She isn’t usually off that long. Does anyone know a reason she wouldn’t be here? Janet

    • Good morning ! It was a beautiful blog Sue. I also love those songs and the scripture His Eye is on the Sparrow comes from in Matthew is one of my favorites. I just love the picture of the two little sparrows on the windowsill that was used. I am hoping your burns are starting to heal and pain subsiding. You have been through so much. Thinking and praying for you♡
      All of your gardens sound wonderfu and bountiful. I can’t wait to start mine back up in October. Home grown tomatoes are the best. Nothing grows here right now in AZ!!!
      Jennie, I received a message from Suzanne yesterday morning. She had her internist visit and all he did was up her Lyrica dosage. I think she felt let down that is all he did.
      Must go walk Ava before the hot temps start to climb. Have a great day to all….
      God bless !
      Jo

      • JO…..THANKS SIS FOR THE SUZANNE UPDATE, I WILL WRITE TO HER…….TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF FOR YOUR TRIP TO CHICAGO, NO GADDING ABOUT, WILD PARTIES AND STUFF…….I LOVE YOU BIG…..JEN X

  12. BRRRR !! A foggy 54′ this am ! Like September weather. We have a cool spell going thru. Today is supposed to be the last of it and tomorrow back to normal. It went from 90 one day to 70 the next ! Ms Alice and I turned on the heater on the porch to knock the chill out yesterday !
    Sue, praying for you lady. I dreamt something of you last night, don’t remember what it was, just that it was about you. May the Lord lift you up and strengthen you.
    Love to all Have a wonderful day !
    Tonie

    • TONIE…WOW! QUITE A CONTRAST, GETS A BIT LIKE HERE SOMETIMES, NEVER KNOW WHAT TO PUT ON FROM ONE DA TO THE NEXT, LAST WEEK WE HAD TO PUT THE HEATING ON, THIS WEEK THE COLD AIR FANS….OYE VEY!!!……..TAKE CARE LOVELY……….JENNIE POO XX

  13. Well sue..the bloke over the way feeds the birds some seeds and the ducks go for the husks and pass on route via us.so I don’t think that would work
    Got some foil strips towards the back hanging where they appear but that’s not really working.we got some stuff to water into the grass keep wild animals away…but I like the deer and the rabbits and squirrels.dont see many of those
    So will have to see if it works
    Don’t fancy using those false owls that google suggested as that wouldn’t be very polite to our bird man
    Anyway here I am ensconced it my hut.reading and catching up on some research for family history
    DH relatives I traced to criminals on the first fleet to Oz and what their sentencing was and what happened to them.so over in Oz now they wanna know so I’m putting it all down for them.one was a gypsy..it’s a thing to be from the first criminals apparently and they got involved in the gold rush too
    Sue I hope you are feeling betterer…..
    It gives it 32c here tomorrow but you don’t feel it on the coast and the hut faces a better way than our house,but we have got stuff for a BBQ tomorrow i will have mushrooms ,capsicums and onions with a salad and DH will have that with a steak .i used to love tomatoes but haven’t since the diver episode along with no cucumber..well I do I cut the seeds out
    My diet continues I have lost 15lbs so far but it has taken me since jan 1st just another 5 to go
    Takes a time to shift it tho.oh DH is on it as well too
    Yea how’s Suzanne …..
    Ok folks hope this posts Chris

    • HI CHRIS……HOT HERE TOO, 34C TODAY, BUT SET TO BREAK TOMORROW AND STORMS ON THE WAY…..SOUNDS LIKE YOU ARE STILL HAVING FUN AT “LE HUT”, LCKY YOU WITH THE SEA BREEZES, I USED TO LOVE THAT AT FELIXSTOWE. WELL DONE WITH THE DIET, AMAZING, I TOO HAVE LOST 5LBS, LET’S SEE IF WE CAN REACH OUR TARGET WEIGHT A.S.A.P.
      GOT THE HOUSE ON WITH THREE MORE AGENCIES, SO HOPING, NOT GIVING UP……WOULDN’T IT BE NICE TO HAVE MOVED BY AUTUMN…….TALK SOON, LOVE YOU……………..JEN X

    • Chris dear, you sound so much better lately. Must be that getaway home of yours, ducks and all. Does the heart good to hear you so engrossed. How’s the DH’s B/P? And Dad? Yes, dear, I am better each day but it’s been a long haul. Life is such too damn much work sometimes but nobody asked me so guess I’ll plow on. Love, Sue

  14. SUE….NICE TALKING WITH YOU, FEEL MORE SETTLED ABOUT YOU NOW, I HOPE YOU CONTINUE TO MAKE PROGRESS, I KNOW IT WILL BE SLOW, AND STILL PAINFUL, BUT I KNOW YOU WILL HANDLE IT WITH THAT CALMNESS YOU HAVE, ENJOY THE WEEKEND AS MUCH AS YOU CAN, THINKING OF YOU……….GENTLE HUGS AND CUDDLES………….I LOVE YOU….JENNIE X

  15. Jen, I always love it when you call and we can chat. Hope this move works out for you very soon dear friend. Weird weather lately, huh? We’re having a bit of cool wind today. Just gave George a much needed bath and he’s busy rubbing around on the carpet. Sure wish the carpet was cleaner since he’s using it as a towel. What a character he is.
    Yes, I’m healing slowly then will start on the oral chemo Tamoxifen. Hope there aren’t severe side effects. I’m tired of all this necessary crap. Love you girl, Sue

  16. Hi all
    Suzanne hope you ok,I know you weren’t keen on the lyrica,never mind an extra dose
    Jen
    Talk when back,but yea be good to sell by autumn, you just need that one person
    Trying to be good with diet but blimmin hec it’s hard away from home,but keep at it I am!
    Sue
    Well it feels like I’m permanently on holiday,I’m either packing to come or packing to go!
    But it all feels more copeable just seem to be cleaning everywhere twice!
    DH bp seems to be regulating itself on these new pills,some sideeeffects,but he seems to be coping with those at moment.
    My dad has swollen feet and ankles which the dr says is due to his Parkinson’s and not moving about so he is on diuretics .he doesn’t get good days anymore…
    Hope you can get some relaxing time this w.end. .schools finished over here so everywhere seems busier already
    Well gonna try and sleep,it gives thunder and stuff tonite
    All best Chris

    • Morning all:
      Sue, so good to see you on here, even if for just a bit. Praying for your increased energy and health.
      Chris, so glad you are enjoying your break at the beach. I can tell you we are all envious of it ! 🙂
      Jen, praying for the sale of your house. It will work out, hang in there.
      Suzanne, I know sometimes you think these Dr’s will give you a miracle cure and it will be done. But then, it is trial and error with them. And you. They have to find the right combo for what is going on. You are already on a few pain meds, so the Lyrica is the next step to try and control the Fibro. Like my old Rheumy told me, if they treat the FMS they are also treating the RA, and if they are treating the RA they are also treating the FMS. They go hand in hand. Don’t get discouraged, give it a good month or so to kick in and see what happens. If it doesn’t work, you should be on something else next. It takes time.

      Well, it came a rain yesterday afternoon, sprinkles. Never got dry enough to mow, so that didn’t get done. Had so much fun in water aerobics yesterday. The sound system was not working, so we sang. I lead them in as many songs came to mind and a few others came up with. We laughed and sang and did cadence, it was a hoot n a holler !! I am sore today from the good workout we had. Cool, overcast and wet again today. Good for the growing things, but I wanted to get a few things done outside. Guess I will catch up on my crocheting and sewing. Take care all and have a good weekend !!
      Love to all
      Tonie

      • TONIE…….I WOULD HAVE LOVED TO HAVE BEEN IN THAT POOL SINGING ALONG WITH YOU ALL….SOUND LIKE A HOOT.
        WE HAD A LOT OF RAIN HERE TOO, SACHA HAD TO WEAR HIS COAT THIS MORNING FOR HIS WALK…..NOT A HAPPY FACE. DH SAID THE DITCHES AT THE SIDE OF THE ROADS WERE FIR TO BURST.
        I HOPE THE EXERCISES ARE HELPING YOU SWEETPEA…….KEEP IT GOING AND GET STRONG…..LOVE YOU…JENNIE POO X

      • Tonie, just lost a duplicate entry so forgive if it shows up. I would also have liked to have been in that pool. You are so much fun. Bet everyone there also had a great day. Glad your weather has cooled off for a bit after all the stifling heat. Are the chicks and pups okay? Our tomatoes don’t ripen here either due to a lack of direct sun. Hope yours are coming on. How are the other vegies doing?
        I’ve had a very quiet week, most down and resting due to the burn pain. Finally got out today and went to the store. Been putting it off due to pain, lack of energy and just didn’t want to put my seatbelt over that painful area. Feel like I dug a ditch with just that one trip. Our weather has been pleasant and cool and we’re expecting rain next week for our trip into Portland to see the radiologist. Hope to chat with you soon. Much love and let us know about the coming surgery on the second shoulder..oh my. Sue

  17. THANKS TONIE FOR THE INFO. I DID WRITE ON THIS BLOG. IT’S UP THERE SOMEWHERE. I SAW IT AS I WAS SCROLLING DOWN. MY GRANDSON WAS IN THE HOSPITAL ALSO. ACCIDENT WITH A BRANCH, CUT RIGHT TO HIS MUSCLE SO HE WAS KEPT FOR 5 DAYS. HE IS HOME AS OF YESTERDAY. WENT TO SEE HIM AND ENDED UP HAVING SUPPER THERE WITH THE WHOLE FAMILY. AKSEL HAS TO GO BACK TO THE HOSPITAL ON SUNDAY.
    ALSO MOLLY HAD TO BE BROUGHT TO THE VET, SHE HAS AN EAR INFECTION AND NEEDED TO GET HER SHOTS. TWO HUNDRED AND SOME ODD DOLLARS LATER, SHE IS STARTING TO FEEL BETTER.
    THAT’S ABOUT IT FROM HERE. LOVE YOU ALL AND WILL TRY AND POST A BIT MORE OFTEN, JUST DIDN’T SEEM TO HAVE THE TIME WITH ALL GOING ON AROUND ME. LEARNING TO TAKE GOOD CARE OF MYSELF, ALWAYS PUT EVERYONE ELSE FIRST AND IT’S HARD TO CHANGE THAT. SEEMS TO BE IN MY NATURE, BUT NOW MY BODY HAS SAID ENOUGH. LEARNING TO DO THINGS DIFFERENTLY AROUND HERE , SO IT WILL MAKE MY LIFE EASIER.. ONCE MY DD IS BACK FROM VACATION I WILL HAVE HER COME UP TO SET THE KITCHEN UP SO IT WILL BE LESS PAINFUL FOR ME TO GET CERTAIN THINGS. IT’S A START.
    GOD BLESS YOU ALL.
    XXX

    • Suzanne, where you been girl? You had us all worried about you. I can’t seem to find the entry you mentioned on here, maybe I’ll check on last week’s. It doesn’t sound like it went well at the doctor’s. I must have missed something. Each of us understand how hard it is to make adaptations to your life and to live on with the pain. I pray the current meds are bringing you a degree of relief. Sounds like you’re on the right track and change is coming about in your life. I’ve often had to redo and actually simplify my kitchen of so many things I just move around and never use anymore. It seems as if gremlins get into the cupboards and move things about, don’t you think? It’s good you’ve been busy and it’s good to let life carry you along sometimes. Love, Sue

      • Sue:
        Glad you have been resting up. I find when I fasten my seat belt, I pull my arm thru it so it is not around my chest. I have to do this in the Jeep especially because it slips up around my neck. I have this impression of being in a wreck and my head popping off 🙂
        My garden is coming along. Having lots of peppers (you know I love them hot things) and getting my cucumbers back on track, should be some coming along now. Tomatoes are starting to ripen up. I am betting they will all get there at the same time 🙂 I have to go out and weed it this am. So overgrown from all the rain. I have some spinach I want to plant, it will come along just in time. THe hot pepper spray seems to have worked with the deer. No late night mutilations lately. Lettuce is still good and onions also. I have some new radishes coming up. I stagger them so I always have some out there. SOme of the things I planted never came up. Same with Judy. But what we haven’t had other people have given us. It is nice being back where people share their abundance with you. I am going back out this evening to pick blackberries and raspberries (red ones). Such a joy to me. Love those things, plus it is so nice to be out in the woods. You take care you, and rest up. Get better. Praying for you. We will chat when you feel up to it. Okay ?
        Love you
        Tonie

      • HI SUE, SO HAPPY YOU ARE HOME AT LAST AND CAN TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF. SOUNDS LIKE YOU ARE DOING THAT WELL. GOOD FOR YOU.
        YES I WAS DISAPPOINTED CAUSE I THOUGHT HE WOULD GET ME A PHYSIOTHERAPIST TO HELP WITH MOVEMENTS AND DIFFERENT THINGS. HE JUST TOLD ME HE HAD LOTS OF PATIENTS LIKE ME AND I HAD TO LEARN HOW TO DO THINGS DIFFERENTLY. UPPED MY LYRICA AND SENT ME PACKING. HE ALSO SAID HE WOULD WRITE A NOTE TO MY DOC TO UP THE LYRICA TO 300MG BUT NOT MORE. IF SHE RAN INTO TROUBLE HE WOULD SEE ME AGAIN. SO NOW THAT IS WHAT I’M DOING, TRYING TO DO THINGS DIFFERENTLY. I DO BELIEVE I HAVE THOSE SAME GREMLINS AS YOU HAVE.
        DECIDED THAT I NEEDED TO GO OUT MORE OFTEN AND PAY THE PRICE CAUSE I’M NOT GOING TO SIT IN MY HOUSE ANYMORE. SO TODAY I MEET MY SISTERS FOR LUNCH IN TOWN (WHO CAME DOWN JUST FOR THE DAY) AND COUSINS AND AUNTS FOR LUNCH. HAD SO MUCH FUN AND LAUGHED A BUNCH. NOW IT’S TIME FOR ME TO GO LIE DOWN SO I CAN MAKE SUPPER LATER.
        LOVE YOU SUE. SENDING HEALING PRAYERS AND ANGELS ….
        GOD BLESS EVERYONE ON THIS BLOG. LOVE YOU ALL.
        XXX

    • SUZANNE……I KNOW I HEARD FROM YOU ALREADY, BUT I DIDN’T KNOW ABOUT POOR MOLLY, GIVE HER A BIG HUG FROM ME, I AM SURE SHE WILL SOON BE OK., ITS EXPENSIVE GOING TO THE VET, BUT THE EXPENSE IN COMPARISON TO THE LOVE?……..NO CONTEST IS THERE?. TAKE THINGS EASY LOVE, AND I HOPE YOUR GRANDSON IS SOON ON THE MEND…….LOVE YOU….JENNIE POO XX

      • THANKS JENNIE POO, MOLLY IS ALREADY STARTING TO FEEL BETTER. THAT’S A START. AKSEL WELL, STILL NOT 100%/ HAD TO GO BACK TO THE HOSPITAL AGAIN TODAY. NOW BROOKLYN, HIS LITTLE SISTER IS SICK AND SHE IS NOW ON ANTIBIOTICS ALSO. GEE, NEVER SEEMS TO RAIN BUT POURS.
        LOVE YOU JENNIE POO, HOPE EVERYTHING GOES WELL WITH THE HOUSE. THINKING OF YOU OFTEN.
        XXX

    • Suzanne:
      You have indeed had some things happening. Is you grandson doing okay now ? And poor Molly ! My dogs have had good health and I am blessed on that aspect. We are still fighting the flea infestation though. I get them cleaned up, the house and the yard, then have to do it all over again. They seem to be impervious to the dips and treatments.
      I am glad you are getting the hang of things. I do understand having to change your thinking, but it is the way of it. You have to decide which things you can and cannot do everyday. TOday I had to forego my workout because I have so much to do here. All the rain we had Fri and Sat, I didn’t get to mow or work in the garden, so all of it has to be done today. Plus I have to pick some berries and make jam. I knew if I went to workout I would not have the energy.
      Be good to you and take care. Hugs to Molly !!
      Love ya
      Tonie

      • THAT IS EXACTLY IT TONIE. I HAVE TO CHANGE MY WAY OF THINKING AND I’M DOING IT. I AM NOW PUTTING MYSELF FIRST, BUT DH IS FINDING IT VERY HARD.
        MOLLY IS DOING MUCH BETTER. NOW IF ONLY MY GRANDCHILDREN WOULD FEEL BETTER, LIFE WOULD BE FABULOUS. HOPE THEIR ANTIBIOTICS WORK AS WELL AS MOLLY’S DID.
        YOU CERTAINLY KEEP BUSY TONIE, DON’T THINK I COULD KEEP UP WITH YOU. DON’T FORGET TO TAKE CARE OF YOU ALSO.
        LOVE YOU BIG SWEETPEA. XXX

  18. Sue ~ Thanks for this essay about reaching out to others. Your writing is so intriguing and thought-provoking. I do think most of us walk around in a techno-stupor these days, or perhaps in a stupor caused by another self-centered absorption. I know I’ve been in my own little world, and mostly just too tired to reach out or call a friend or engage in conversation. So, like you mentioned, chronic illness can shrink our worlds, and bring out the selfishness in us.

    Prime example of that is this blog. I wanted so much to be a part of the group, to get to know you all, and to be here regularly enough to feel a connection. But, it hasn’t worked out that way, and I feel sad about that. I blame it on my fibromyalgia, and resulting lack of stamina and endurance. I have barely enough strength to do the most necessary things, and after that, I collapse. I’m also dealing with the stress of my husband becoming ill…. Well, I could go on and on, but you know what I mean. I do alot of sighing lately.

    Anyway, I’ll try to chime in more, and make time to read everyone’s comments and to pray for you all.

    Take care,
    Trish

    • Trish dear, good to hear from you whenever you can chime in. Just say a few words and you’ll have our concern and thoughts. I am sorry to hear on top of it all your husband is ill. Take heart dear lady…others do care. Come back soon. It helps me to know you’re reading the blog and hanging in there. I am sorry life is so hard right now and hope your DH is improving. I’m here along with many very special folks. Sue

      • Thanks for your kindness, Sue. I am glad you are home now, and don’t have to travel. Hoping that your skin heals soon, and that you can just get that rest which I’m sure you need.

    • HEY TRISH…….DON’T WORRY, WE ALL HAVE TIMES WHEN ITS ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE TO SIT AND TYPE REPLIES EACH DAY, I HAVE JUST HAD A SPELL OF THAT, PLUS I OFTEN LOSE THE BLOG AND CAN’T POST ANYWAY, BUT I CAN READ IT….SO JUST YOU READ IF YOU ARE UP TO IT, THEN CHIP IN AS AND WHEN YOU CAN….NO NEED TO FEEL DISCONNECTED, BECAUSE YOU ARE SO NOT……LOVE JENNIE X

    • Trish, you are a part of the group! We all have times when we are good at keeping up, and bad at keeping up. Life happens, our chronic reason for being a part of the group happens. But we are all here for one another whenever we can bop in, and even when we can’t. I know I for one include all who read and participate here in my prayers. 🙂

      • Lyn, you’re right on. Life happens!! And it’s tiring sometimes. Thanks for your prayers, which we all need so much.

    • Trish:
      Good to hear from you. Dear one, we are all here with you. Just chime in whenever you can. You are in our prayers and we look forward to hearing from you whenever you can.
      Tonie

      • Thanks Tonie….By the way, I made those oatmeal-applesauce muffins that you posted about (months ago!). I forgot their “official” name, but I’ve enjoyed them. I freeze them, with 2-3 in each bag, and then take them to work for a healthy snack. I’ve got to try hard to NOT be tempted to eat the yummy chocolates and candy for sale at work. 🙂

  19. HELLO…..EVERYONE OK? GETTING NERVOUS ABOUT FRIDAY AND SEEING THE SPECIALIST, SURE I’LL BE OK, GOT TO BE OPTIMISTIC……..HAD MORE STORMS HERE, BLOWN OUR LOVELY YELLOW ROSES ABOUT SOMEWHAT, STILL WE WON’T HAVE TO WATER THE GARDEN FOR A BIT. GOT SOME GOOD NEWS, MY STEPSON AND HIS YOUNGEST ARE HOPPING OVER THE CHANNEL FOR A QUICK 48+ ON MONDAY…OH YES AND MY GREAT NIECE JUST GRADUATED AT LAW SCHOOL….TOMORROW GOING TO CHECK OUT AN ENGLISH TEA SHOP SOMEONE HAS SET UP HERE IN FRANCE…..AN EXCITING LIFE I HAVE HUH???
    I LOVE YOU ALL, AND LIKE LYN SAYS, JUST COZ WE ARE NOT ALWAYS ON HERE, DOESN’T MEAN WE DON’T STILL PRAY FOR EACH OTHER, THAT’S WHAT’S SO GOOD ABOUT THIS BLOG……LOVE YOU SUE XXXXXXXXXXXXXX JENNIE

    • An English tea shop ~ what a wonderful place to visit and relax. There were a couple in Florida, but I haven’t found one here in Charlotte yet. Anyhow, have a good time!

    • Jennie, Indeed, your current life makes mine look like it’s in slow motion. I love yellow roses; I think they’re one of my favorites although I love the multi-colored ones. Bet the rain was good but the wind a bit much. Hope you’re up to enjoying your company and knowing you, know you’re baking and working too hard to prepare. Enjoy what ever delicious fare you are preparing. Love you, Sue

  20. Suzanne, it always ticks me off when doctor’s lump us all together. I am sorry you didn’t get more specific treatment. Is the Lyrica working out for you? I hope that it does. Did it help get you through a fun lunch? My dear friend, I keep wondering how your GS is doing. What a painful injury. It will take awhile to heal but hopefully without any long range affect and now his sister is ill? You’re right..rain..pour. Pray they both react well to the antibiotics. So much on your heart and plate. Thinking of you all with love and prayer…Sue

  21. Trish, How are you feeling and your DH? Is it something any of us can help with. I know the stress that’s added to our already stress pain filled lives when our DH is also facing something. Pray it passes and he’s getting good care. Fondly, Sue

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