Yes, I’m a lady in waiting
Not for an infant nor queen,
I’m simply waiting for life
To be kind to me and less mean.
I’m always waiting for better days;
A day that doesn’t hurt this much,
Or one that I can function in
To accomplish, such and such.
Those of us who live with pain
Day in and each day out,
Are forced to swallow patience
So much, we long to shout.
I’ve tried to scream and cry,
But felt such small release
I found I must simply wait;
For help, for answers, for peace.
Each moment, each hour, each day
Can drone on end to end.
Do my answers come slower than most
Or is it my desire to mend?
Emotions rise within
Some non-pleasing to me,
As they rear their ugly head
They make an ass of me.
Where is patience to be found?
Is it found outside or in?
Can I dig a hole and plant a seed
Or will it spring forth from my skin?
Surely it’s not standard equipment or
It would come easily, but no
I fear patience has but one source,
Waiting for answers to grow.
I don’t wait very well
And know none who do,
And see few examples of it
Except inside the zoo.
I often need a cage to pace
A keeper at my call,
As I wonder what the future holds
Swaddled in impatience like a shawl.
I wait for surcease from constant pain.
I wait for release from this marathon;
This dance without a seeming end,
As life’s tune drones on and on.
I wait for that alchemist physician
Who has magic answers for me,
Yet in my heart the fear speaks
And I feel no one hears my plea.
Thankfully those lost days soon end
Because I can’t stand myself
And have no desire to live in darkness
Like some troll or cursed elf.
If this is simply to be
Waiting can drive me mad
As I continually seek answers
For I can’t bear to always be sad.
As I wait for solutions the clock ticks on
Each precious day is spent,
I’m losing more than I must
While I wait to cease this torment.
If I’m to be a lady in waiting
I must also be one who lives,
Continually seeking answers
I can also be one who gives.
What if answers never arrive
And I’m left with years of regret?
I’m reminded there are acts
Worse, than to wait and fret.
Seeking and living with pain
Must go hand in hand
As this is the cup I’ve drawn
And this is the gold I’ve panned.
While waiting is often necessary
There are nuggets in each day
If I but open my eyes and ears
I can weave gold from hay.
Where is the balance at hand?
What deductions have I?
Just to seek the help I need
And never fear a good war cry.
Like you I wait, I want, I wish
As life goes on each day,
I count the blessings all around me
Telling the wait, “Don’t get in my way.”
Weekly Dose of Sue 
Dear Sue, Your words draw a picture of what you are going through now. I wish I had the words to help. Just know that we all are saying prayers for you, puling for you, loving you. Keep the faith and this to shall pass. Gentle hugs, Janet
Janet, I’m sorry if this poem came across too personal. I, indeed, had all of us who are waiting for changes in our lives. I had everyone of you in mind. How is your packing and sorting going? It’s hard, I know and so much of it is the walk down memory lane that occurs with objects and places. It will get done just as I will heal. love you…Sue
Sue:
Oh my ! Waiting. Patience isn’t one of my “many” virtues though ! It is difficult for us all to be there. I know it is driving you mad with all you are usually doing. REst up and take care and it will all go soon. I think the waiting is what kills us more than the pain.
I had a busy, productive day and am paying already. I had a 2 hour gardening spruce up. So many weeds and tough to get pulled up. My hands are so sore and my back is on the heating pad. My bench is really a life saver (or should I say back). There was just so much to do. Mowed the yard, did a bit of weed eating, made some blackberry jam while it rained, and then went up to the mountain to pick some more blackberries. Which I put to good use on a scoop of vanilla ice cream !! SO a nice hot shower and a heating pad and I am in bed trying to relax. It is hard to do all in one day that should take 3. And I will have ot do more on Friday. But such is life huh ?
Love
Tonie
Tonie, it does sound like a back breaking day. Pulling weeds…good thing we have such damp weather…but we still have a few dandelions that are as big as bushes and those suckers can really dig in. Your jam sounds delicious. All those seeds..you’re lucky you can eat them, huh Jennie? Indeed it sounds like a heating pad night. Hope it stays cool for awhile.
No, I don’t think anyone likes waiting..aggravating. I hate to admit we learn a lot about ourselves and others through the process. Later, Love and care, Sue
Sue
While waiting for whatever is to come our way.ive been so impatient .or something else .. more worried.
But it always seemed to be that to live and get thru the day is the best option. It’s a fight to keep the brain under controll and stop it wandering .
I do hope some piece of improvement happens for you shortly that makes life easier
But I have reread your poem and how apt it is to what I have felt in my own situations
I appreciate the…waiting getting in the way …if we could just change that bit…!
What did John Lennon say something about life is what happens to us while….I forget the rest
Well sue it’s nearly 8am here and we are going back from the hut to look in on my dad and catch up at home…indeed I don’t know where to call home these days! Have I got two ,or is one more dominant ,I seem to be in between!
Always thinking of you Chris
Chris, Safe trip dear girl. Hope you find things okay with Dad. I know his condition is deteriorating and it’s to be expected but it still is hard to live and watch. I think having two homes sounds interesting and definitely not boring. We all are waiting for something..right? Enjoy today and don’t over do it. Love, Sue
Chris dear, John Lennon said life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans or something to that effect. Hope you’re finding things at home okay. Sue
SUE….I DON’T KNOW WHERE ALL THIS INSPIRATION COMES FROM….WELL YES I DO, FROM ENDLESS PAIN, AND FROM US LOT….THE COMMON BOND WE ALL SHARE, BUT IT WAS GREAT I HAVE TO TELL YOU, AND THANK YOU SO MUCH. I PRAY THAT YOU HAVE THE STRENGTH TO KEEP ON FIGHTING AND GETTING BETTER…….I LOVE YOU. XXX
CHRIS LOVE, ARE YOU OK? SOUNDS LIKE YOU HAVE A LOT ON YOUR PLATE AGAIN, I HOPE YOU FIND SOME IMPROVEMENT IN DAD WHEN YOU SEE HIM, LET ME KNOW IF YOU WANT A CHAT, AND TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF……LOVE YOU XXX
TONIE….BUSY AS USUAL….DON’T GIVE YOURSELF BELLY ACHE EATING ALL THOSE BERRIES (WHICH YOU KNOW I CAN’T HAVE) I NEVER CEASE TO BE FASCINATED AT WHAT THE ENVIRONMENT GIVES UP TO US FOR FREE, JUST WHEN I AM ABOUT TO PICK HEDGEROW FRUIT FOR DH’S PIES, THE BLOODY COUNCIL MAN COMES AND MOWS THEM ALL DOWN, NEVER COULD GET THE TIMING RIGHT……..LOVE YOU MATE……JENNIE POO.
JANET…….TAKE IT EASY WITH ALL THE PACKING YOU HAVE TO DO, A BIT AT A TIME AND RESTING TIME BETWEEN OK??? LOVE JENNIE X
WELL TODAY I AM OFF TO DISCOVER AN ENGLISH TEA SHOP, WONDER WHAT SURPRISES THAT WILL HOLD? THE BRITS COME OVER HERE THINKING THEY GET IT RIGHT FOR THEIR FELLOW COUNTRY MEN/WOMEN, BUT SELDOM DO, STILL WE WILL SEE., COULD BE HIGHLY DELIGHTED.
LOVE YOU ALL……………………………JENNIE XXXXX
Jennie:
How can they mess up a tea shop ? Guess that is easy for me since I have never been to one 🙂 It is quite the custom and tradition your teas huh ? The only thing about picking blackberries is all the fruit stains on your fingers and under the nails 🙂 What kinda fruit are hedgerow fruit ??
Sue, the weed pulling was easier because of recent rains, but still took some doing as morning glories spread so much if you don’t get them right away. And a few other vine-like critters with roots to china ! Very sore and tired this am. Didn’t get to sleep til late. Always hate when I am super tired yet cannot get to sleep. Thanks for the advise on FB to take a muscle relaxer. Rest up dear
Chris: Have a good time in your home swapping ! Prayers for dear dad and hope he is doing better.
love to all
Tonie
TONIE……HEDGEROW FRUIT, IS OWT THAT GROWS IN A HEDGE….IE:- BLACKBERRIES, HAZELNUTS, THAT KIND OF THING, ITS JUST A NAME FOR “ALL OF IT”. WELL WE CHECKED OUT THE TEA ROOM, IT WAS GREAT, ITS SO EASY TO GET IT WRONG, IT HAS TO HAVE KERB APPEAL, CHRIS WILL KNOW WHAT I MEAN…..IT LIVED UP TO ALL I’D HOPED FOR, BUT THE ICING ON THE CAKE….IF YOU’LL PARDON THE PUN….IT WAS RUN BY YORKSHIRE FOLK, ITWAS GREAT TO TALK TO MY OWN FOLK, MY DH WASN’T A BIT OUT OF PLACE EITHER, COS HE IS AN HONORARY “YORKSHIRE MAN”. MARRIED TO ME HE’D HAVE TO BE.
WE HAD A HUGE WEDGE OF THE BEST CARROT CAKE I EVER TASTED, WITH A POT EACH OF YORKSHIRE TEA, BY ECK’ IT WERE RIGHT GRAND……CAN’T WAIT TO GO BACK.
YES THAT IS A PROBLEM THE FINGER STAINING, AND ITS NOT A JOB YOU CAN DO WITH GLOVES ON IS IT? YOU GET SOME REST TODAY LOVE, YOU SOUND DONE IN…….LOVE YOU….JENNIE POO XXXXXX
Jennie, I had no idea there were such high standards for the best and most proper English tearoom. Glad you found that almost met your expectations. The carrot cake sounds delicious.
Indeed, each of us live these lives of pain and suffering as best we can and share our ideas of overcoming in bad times. There still is strength in numbers. Some have different degrees of pain and understanding while others are consumed with themselves alone. I don’t think there is a right or wrong way, only an individual way and every once in awhile, something is said that clicked in the heart of another. Hope your weather is holding and hope you enjoy your company. Love, Sue
Hi Sue……I am fed up with my laptop, I can’t access my mail, so can’t answer anyone except here and facebook, which means I can’t write to my daughter etc. My “steps” will be arriving on Monday, staying till Wednesday, just a flying visit, but looking forward to it. Meanwhile I have my consultant to face on Friday, see if he thinks my gut needs fixing. How are you doing Sue? are you still improving?
Its lovely here right now, we had the estate agent round this morning, so had to be up early to make sure everything was tickitee-boo, and the garden looks at its best, so her photos should look good, they will go on next week some time.
Well I hope all is well with everyone, keeping you all in my thoughts….always.
You ok Trish?????……………………….Love and hugs…Jennie xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Jennie dear, I am saddened to hear you’re still having so much gut trouble. Let’s hope it’s a fix with a new medication or some special diet…and after giving up berries, too. The beat just seems to go on but fortunately, along with all the things we are forced to drag along are some wonderful things. Your garden sounds wonderful and I have a feeling some couple will come along who falls in love with it, especially with the current bloom on everything. The house is so lovely, also. You’ll have to give us the site if your agent posts the pics online.
These computers can be so frustrating. I’ll have to send my 8 and 10 year old grands over there to fix yours. It’s so frustrating. They even straighten Beth out and she’s very good on a computer compared to me. It all comes so naturally to the kids. Hope you get it worked out very soon.
Let us all hope your house will sell quckly and then you’ll have the new problem of finding a place to live in England. What a good problem to have, huh? Be good to your tummy and hope it pays off until you see the doc. Love to you, Sue
Morning all:
Jenny, that is cool with the hedgerows. Like going out in the woods to get the fruit. We have a lot of berries that grow on the roadsides. I pass people going to work standing the the back of their trucks picking the berries off the banks of the roads. I think it is great ! I don;t think anyone but me picks up in the mtn. Well, my brother will when he gets home next week.He is the one who showed me where they are. He says there is a patch of huckleberries there as well (wild blueberries) I need to look for them. I have been eating berries with plain yogurt and local honey (oh it is so yum) and cinnamon for breakfast. SO good.
Ms ALice is taking me to lunch today, so a treat for us both. I must get going as I have to stop for gas this am and go to the bank before work.
I pray all is well for you guys. Do take care and hang in there, your house will sell and you will go home. Funny you want to sell and I want to buy !! Send it over here to me okay 🙂 !!
Love
Tonie
Tonie, glad you’re going to lunch with Ms. Alice. It’s a nice change for both of you wild women. My goodness, aren’t you just the berry queen these days. We’re ensconced in rain and wind and it is lovely, but I like the rain. I must get it in gear and take a shower and trim my hair. I’ve got an appt. in Portland this afternoon with the radiologist. Such a long drive for one appt. but it must be. The burns are healing and I’m sure he just wants to check it out for himself. The worse pain seems to be behind me. It all now feels like a scald. I’m laughing as I write this because George is in his kennel next to the bed and digging his way to China in the bottom of it which means he’s pushed the pad out. I can see he’s ready for some adventure today. We’ll take him with us, the prince. Jakie will snooze away.
I got to see the grands for three hours yesterday and we rested and watched RIO 2. It’s really cute. Those RIO movies are so colorful and lively. Enjoy your day sweet lady. Love, Sue
Sue, your time with the grands sounds… grand! That George is a card! And great company for your long trip.
Oh Sue, I do understand your long drive. It is the same with me. About the same distance I have to go for my appts. Which is why I try to do 2 or 3 at once. Poor little George, he has such a rough life (NOT !). I am so glad you are healing well. Been praying for you. Pastor Faye goes today for her “tattoos:” for radiation. She says she is to get 34 of them. She is healing well also, just tired from all the chemo. I was hoping they would give her a couple weeks in between but it seems not.
Ms ALice and I had fun yesterday. I keep trying to get her in the Corvette, but she won’t. Fran has told me to drive it when I want to, but I want Ms Alice to go with me. 🙂 Just because. WIth the top down of course. It is a deep metallic red , think we would be noticed ? 🙂 I am looking forward to seeing my grands from SC this weekend. Hope your trip is uneventful. Are you enjoying the new car ? My son is buying a Harley. Picking it up today. I have comments I will email to you about that 🙂 . Take care and know you are in my prayers !!
Love
Tonie
Tonie, I love Greek yogurt with fresh berries and a dash of honey, too! Yum! I also found Qia which I add to it. It has good things like chia seeds, buckwheat and hemp as well as dried fruits for flavor. You are supposed to eat it as a cereal, but you can put it in and on things, too 😉 – for those who are unfamiliar. I tasted it first at Costco (big box ‘discount’ store) and have since found it at our grocery store, too in the organic/healthy section next to the produce.
Lyn, I will look for it. Thanks for the info
Hi Tonie…..I didn’t know you were looking to buy? what are you after? In the same area? Just made a plum pie, think I left too much juice in it, looks a bit runny to me, ah well, I’ll just smother it in custard, no-one will notice….he he!!. …..love ya……Jennie Poo xx
Jennie, I can’t buy anything til my disability goes thru. I will get a manufactured home and sit it here where I am now. They are nicely built and affordable for me. I have never had a plum pie. Sounds good.
Sue, I had to re-read the poem. When I first read it I was unable to really concentrate on it. Today I could take it all in. Yes, you’ve captured what you and many of us are currently going through in various ways. Nicely done. I pray you have a good trip and good doctor visit. Seems to be the week for it. I saw the eye doc (Plaquenil check) Tuesday, will see the Rheumy tomorrow, and dermatologist to remove those early cancer cells in two spots on Friday. Visits going on all around our little group!
Jennie, I hope your appointment with the realtor goes well!
I just lost a post!!
Ok got back home yesterday did all jobs saw my dad and wrote two letters for him done garden.then end of day it was too hot in bedroom so we came back to hut!
Jen Will email you when you are working again
Tonie didn’t know you were wanting to move???
Suzanne ..you no good?
Sue
Hope you are ok after the long trip
Lyn you are busy with hosp apps!
That’s it for now
We are here till Monday morning when DD is taking over for a week
Chris
Chris, not wanting to move, just get a better and somewhat larger home here where I am. THis space is too small and is very old for a mobile home, so I need ot upgrade . WHEN I get my disability.
Haha! I think what Tonie meant was not that she was looking to move, but that she’d like to see pics of Jennie’s beautiful home. 😉
Today is Rheumy day. A long week and interrupted sleep last night have made for a tired kiddo here this morning. I’d love to snag a nap this afternoon. We’ll see. I’m not sure if I mentioned, this is the week I sing in an annual music festival in a town about an hour and a half’s drive from here. We had rehearsals 10-2 Saturday, 7-10 Monday, Tuesday, dress rehearsal 7-10:30 last night, now performance tonight. It is usually choral work(s) with orchestra, sometimes with guest soloist. This year is a first – we are performing Beethoven’s opera Fidelio, semi-staged. They hired soloists, so we only have to cover the choral parts, which are not many. Less for women than men on this one, so lots of sitting and waiting around (off stage, thankfully) as opposed to lots of singing this year. Unfortunately, we women are not in until the very end of the opera! Oh well. Still fun. But tiring.
Lyn dear, The opera rendition sounds wonderful like so many of the performances your talents open for you. I do hope you made it through yesterday. How many performances will there be? That’s a lot of sitting for you and I know the drive is stressful but worth it to you. Enjoy dear lady, as much as you can. I suspect the performance was fabulous and you’re now pooped, hurting and proud. Love, Sue
Good am all !! I am still recupping from my overwork of Monday. You think I will EVER learn not ot push myself like that ?? Lyn I have napped everyday since Mon. Ms Alice took a nap on Tues and I went with her. I relax on the couch in the sunroom and read, I was gone for an hour and woke up not knowing where I was ! Yesterday when I got home I sat on the couch and put the fan on me (it was 91 in here with the AC going !) and was reading and fell asleep again. Guess I am tired !
Ms Alice took me to lunch yesterday. She has discovered Long John Silvers and that is where we went. SHe loves good cole slaw and they have it. All that grease upset my tummy though. It was good. I just don’t eat much fried stuff anymore, including French fries. Then we went shopping. She bought her a cute t shirt in that creamy orange color. And some candy to hide from her SIL !! 🙂 She is tired out after that. I am glad I can take her out to let her do what she wants.
I am supposed ot have company this weekend. We will see. My son is supposed ot come and bring the kids to see me. It will be a housefull and overwhelming but I will love it !
Well time to get going and get ready for work. I see it is to be 114′ in Az today. I sure don’t miss that heat !! . Sue, hope you are doing fine today. My love to you all
Tonie
Tonie, sounds like a fun day. If you two ever get in that red Corvette, we’d love a picture. Hope your storms cooled things off for you dear lady. Sounds like your gallbladder doesn’t like fried foods. I love that restaurant but haven’t seen one in years. I suspect Ms. Alice is almost as good for you as you are for you. You have gifts girl. Love, Sue
Sue:
No gallbladder anymore. But the fried food thing has been that way since I had it taken out 🙂 I will definitely get a picture for you !
A QUICKIE….GOT A STORM COMING, SO WILL HAVE TO UNPLUG IN A MINUTE….HAD A BUSY DAY, IVY AND TIM OUR FRIENDS CAME OVER, SHE STAYS WITH ME, THE GUYS GOLF…..SHE JUST HAD AN OP ON HER WRIST CTS, SO WASHED HER HAIR FOR HER, THEN COOKED LUNCH FOR EVERYONE, THEN CUT HER DH’S HAIR, THEN HAD TO GO THROUGH A PERIOD OF SITTING DOWN (OUCH) TRYING TO WADE THROUGH PC PROBLEMS…….HAVEN’T BEEN ABLE TO READ MY MESSAGES FOR THREE DAYS…ALL DONE NOW.
HOPE EVERYONE IS OK, AND GLAD TO HEAR SUE’S BURNS ARE HEALING…TAKE CARE EVERYONE….LOVE YOU…JENNIE X
Jennie, glad you’re connected again. SOunds like a fun day with friends. You’re so helpful…and talented. Hope the storm isn’t too fierce. Getting ready for company? Don’t overdo, okay? Love you, Sue
HI SUE……WELL BEEN TO SEE THE SPECIALIST, AND AT THE MOMENT HE DOESN’T THINK I NEED TO BE SCOPED, PUT ME ON NEW MEDS THAT HAVE ONLY JUST COME ON THE MARKET FOR REFLUX, HE WANTS ME TO TRY THEM FOR A LITTLE WHILE TO SEE IF THEY MAKE A DIFFERENCE, AND GO BACK TO HIM IF THEY DON’T. HE ALSO DID AN ECHO, AND HE SAID THAT LOOKED OK……………….HAVING A RETHINK ABOUT THE UK NOW, I KNOW I GOT HOMESICK FOR A WHILE, BUT HAVING DISCUSSED THE PRO’S AND CONS, BARRY AND I ARE THINKING WE MAY BE BETTER OFF HERE, OWING TO THE AMOUNT OF MONEY WE WOULD LOSE ON THE EXCHANGE RATE…..WE WOULD BE WORSE OFF, AND THAT’S SOMETHING WE JUST CAN’T AFFORD TO BE…….SO A LOT MORE TALKING TO BE DONE.
ANOTHER STORM ON ITS WAY SUE, IT WAS A GLORIOUS ONE LAST NIGHT, A MIX OF DIFFERENT LIGHTNINGS, AND THUNDER THAT WENT ON FOR HOURS.
I DON’T THINK I HAVE A GREAT DEAL OF TALENT SUE, I AM AN ORDINARY INDIVIDUAL, BUT CARE DEEPLY ABOUT TE PLIGHT OF OTHERS WORSE OFF THAN I, AS YOU DO YOURSELF.
I AM JUST SO THANKFUL THAT THE WORST STUFF FOR YOU SEEMS TO BE OVER, IT MUST BE SUCH A RELIEF, NOW THAT YOU ARE ON ORAL TREATMENT….IS THAT GOING OK, NOT BEING SICK OR ANYTHING?
OK SUE, HAVE A GOOD WEEKEND AND WILL CATCH YOU SOON……I LOVE YOU….JENNIE XXXX
TO ALL MY OTHER LOVELY FRIENDS, TAKE CARE OF YOURSELVES, LOVE AND GOD BLESS….JENNIE XX
Jennie, well, that’s good news isn’t it? Would you care to share what the name of the new medicine is? Let’s all hope it does it for you. Interesting to see your feelings change about the move. You can always make those treks to visit home, right? You do have a lovely situation and home to say nothing of DH’s beautiful job on the garden. It is amazing. You know, sometimes it helps to look back and ask ourselves why we made our decisions, like why did you leave England before you moved to Spain several years ago? I don’t know enough about it but I know there are times we need to remain true to our original decisions and in the end, it’s for the best. I know you two will figure this out and you have my concern and prayers.
Yes, I am feeling better. The burn has shed for the third time like I’m this old snake. Skin tight and scalded feeling but oh so much better. When the doctor (radiologist) was leaving the room the other day he looked back at me and say, “Well, you’re sure a trooper.” Hurray for me. Too bad I’m not a Girl Scout anymore; I could have received a new badge. I replied, “So what’s the alternative?” He said, “Well, not everyone takes all the problems you have like you do.” Tell me something I don’t know…huh? I haven’t started the oral drug and plan to this weekend. I wanted to get the worst of this behind me and the doctor said to wait until I felt up to taking on another challenge. I hope it will be fine. He said it’s the length of time you’re on it, not how soon you get started.
Jennie, you’ll make the right decision..I know you will. Let life lead you and it will. Much love, Sue
Tonie, You know it’s strange but the gallbladder is one of those organs that can cause you trouble after it’s gone. My Mom and many I have known have had trouble. It’s a complicated organ and the duct system can still be intact. I even had one friend who got a gallstone after she had no GB. Hope your weather has cooled and you are doing okay and not overdoing. It’s hard not to once we get started, I know because we all do it. Love you, Sue
Sue:
Ever since I had it out, the grease really bothers me. I try to stay away from fried foods, but sometimes I indulge and it backfires on me. I have heard others complain about it also.
Had to pull some more weeds yesterday ( I know I said I wasn’t) some I had missed. Tell you what, I am going to have a crop of pumpkins !! My tomatoes are starting to turn, and the potatoes are looking promising as well. I got my blind up in the LRoom and it was so much cooler in there yesterday ! Amazing huh ?? 🙂 Anywho… I am working today, Fran called and asked if I could stay, they want to go golfing. So of course I will, I need the extra $$ !! We are meeting on Fridays at church to do our crafts for the Christmas Bazaar. We are making these little pockets that people can put on their walkers or wheelchairs, SO neat ! Ms Alice has one, so I copied it and we kinda upgraded it with a lining that keeps it from pulling. Easy fix , put on buttons and there you go. We are gonna sell some and also give some to the people at the nursing homes who have no one at Christmas. I think we are all enjoying the fellowship and fun. 🙂 I ran out of gas yesterday !! First time in years ! So the Jeep is sitting at the church til I put some gas in her today. So silly ! But it does happen. Glad you are doing better. Will chat with you soon.
Love
Tonie
Hello, all! Last doc visit of the week is now over. Today’s was the least pleasant as it involved removal of two spots of early basal cell carcinomas. It is so worth going back to the dermatologist regularly for checks when you can catch these guys early! They are left side above my bra band, rights side below the bra band. Interesting, huh? At least there is at least one bra that sits right between them so I can have some support and modesty. 😉 Of course, surgery – even minor – at the end of a long week with a tired body is taxing to say the least. I did walk Sadie, our pup, out of a sense of duty and responsibility, but it wasn’t a long one. Oh, the removals went well, although he had to give me more local at both sites, and laying on my stomach was a KILLER for my poor neck. I may end up taking one of my new muscle relaxants the Rheumy prescribed yesterday later.
Sue, Fidelio was just one performance, which is a good thing. After several days of driving back and forth for rehearsals ( approx.. 1 1/2 hours one way), by the end of the one performance, it is enough. And this year all the sitting around backstage really bothered my back and neck – it would kill you, Sue. Last night I got up and walked around several times and it still would creep up. But it was fun. And there was a small paycheck which didn’t hurt. DH had a good time. It was his first professional singing job. He’s usually playing trumpet. DD sang again this year, too, and enjoyed it again as well.
I suppose I should decide what to wear down to this week’s Friday Deck Night at my Mom’s. For those who are newer, every Friday night over the summer our family has Deck Night at my Mom’s house. It’s pot luck, but with a different menu each week (in other words we each bring something or several somethings to contribute to the meal.) We gather, eat, and just hang out enjoying conversation and merriment. It’s a great relaxing end to the week. They’d all give me a pass if I didn’t feel up to going tonight, but DH and I are planning on going. Probably will take the pup since she’s not used to us being gone as much as we were this week. She went along 2 weeks ago and laid by my chair or in my lap the whole time. She was very good. It’s lovely weather today, sunny and 70s, almost 80 but will cool off this evening so I need to think about what attire will be best..
Tonie, I’m with you on the napping thing. I was nodding off this week, but not much time to really give in to one. Lots of late nights didn’t help, either. At least those are behind me for a while. 🙂
Lyn dear, I’m so relieved the surgery is over. I’m sure you’ll have a nice and welcome distraction with deck night. I predict when you get home you’ll hit the sheets and those new muscle relaxers will be a godsend. I do hope your neck recovers from the strain and positioning on your stomach. I understand that, completely. I would be getting out my pediatric cervical collar to sleep in. Heating pad? Do take care and I know you know what to watch for i.e. bleeding, pain, etc. Ice may help if necessary.
I envision the performance as lovely and how fun you all traveled and performed together. I didn’t know your DH sang. What a week you’ve had. Hope the weekend brings only what you want it to bring. I was planning on making an apple pie for the weekend but pooped out after making a batch of Swedish meatballs. It has just occurred to me I never sent you that recipe for Pearl Bailey’s family recipe for mac n’ cheese. It’s very simple and uncomplicated. It’s just cooked elbow macaroni with butter, cheese and milk, stirred frequently and baked in a 13X9 pan. I don’t have it written down or if I ever did it is long gone. I use a mix of some stringy cheeses, the milder variety and some extra sharp and keep it moist with a cube of butter and milk as it dries. Sorry to be so vague but that’s how I cook, unfortunately and probably won’t change; old dogs and all that. Rest dear girl…you deserve it. Nice of those skin cancers to grow around your bra line, huh? Love, Sue
LYN LOVE, I AM SO RELIEVED YOU HAVE GOT RID OF THOSE NASTY SPOTS…..YOU HAVE HAD A BAD TIME OF IT LATELY, SO I WISH YOU BETTER HEALTH SWEETHEART, LETS HOPE ITS THE END OF THEM NOW…..AND WATCH THAT NECK……ITS A ROTTEN PLACE TO HAVE PROBLEMS (WELL ANYWHERE IS) I DON’T KNOW ABOUT YOU BUT I FIND IT DIFFICULT SLEEPING, NOT QUITE KNOW HOW TO GET MY NECK IN A POSITION THAT ALLOWS ME TO GET TO SLEEP…….THINKING OF YOU LOVE, PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND THE PUP….LOVE JENNIE XX
Yea Tonie I can’t eat fatty things .had my gall bladder out 40 yrs ago.i knew straight away I couldn’t and have been like that ever since.i hate the feel of it in my mouth
after I’ve eaten it
But with DH on low fat diets it’s easy.
Jen
Hope tablets work…..shame about the move but as you say you Gotta stay with the money
Sue
Things certainly sound better than they did
Well had to go back to see my dad today.he had a hosp. Letter he could make out and I couldn’t understand him.
I managed to get thru to the hosp dr.and all was ok,so that was good
He had tests done for kidneys and he was talking of another catheter ,but it’s all ok now.so DH drove bć
Came back here letter
Tired now Chris
Chris dear, sorry you had a bit of a scare with your DD. Hope it all resolves without one of those damnably irritating catheters. Poor man. You’re a good daughter, you know.
So glad you have the hut to cool off after all the summers in your extra hot bedroom, must be lovely. I have an air conditioner going right now although it isn’t bad here, just the house gets hot upstairs. We almost always have a nice cool breeze off our river. Indeed, I am so much better. No energy and mild discomfort in chest and underarm but so much better. Trip Wed. very exhausting with so much riding in one day but looking forward to a quiet weekend. Hope you enjoy yours. Love you girl, Sue
Chris:
Glad your dad wasn’t in trauma ! I know youa re enjoying your seaside villa 🙂 I am glad you have it now to give you some comfort. I know DH has taken some good pics, you must share them.
Enjoy
Tonie
CHRIS…..SORRY ABOUT DAD, I HOPE HE IS ON THE MEND, POOR OLD LOVE, HOPE TO CATCH UP WITH YOU LATER IN THE WEEK WHEN THE FAMILY HAVE GONE HOME, NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO IT NOW, AS I HAVE HURT MY BACK…..TAKEN ALL THE JOY AWAY, JUST GOT TO DO THE BEST I CAN, AND HIDE IT FROM THEM…WHAT CAN YOU DO??? TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF MY FRIEND, CATCH YOU SOON…….LOVE JEN XX
Jennie:
Making those decisions is difficult to say the least. It took me a while to decide to move back here, and money (I thought) wasn’t to be an issue. It will all sort out. Just pray for guidance, He wants the best for us. And it is sucha lovely home along with Dh’s gardening skills. Hard to duplicate. Such a lovely home. Take care, hope the pills work out.
Love ya
Tonie
HI TONIE……YES, I AM FINDING DECISION MAKING DIFFICULT RIGHT NOW, DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO FOR THE BEST, OBSTACLES KEEP GETTING IN THE WAY THAT I HADN’T EVEN THOUGHT ABOUT, FOR THE MOMENT DON’T FEEL WELL ENOUGH TO BE BOTHERED WITH IT ALL. I HOPE ALL IS WELL WITH YOU PETAL, WILL WRITE MORE WHEN THE FAMILY GO BACK…………………LOVE YOU BIG…………….JENNIE POO XX
Jennie, the best advice I have in your situation is to think, compare and pray about the move. Answers usually come as “Yes, No or Wait.” Maybe now is time to wait..the hardest one of all. Hope you feel better very soon. It just goes on and on, I know and truly understand dear lady. Love you much, Sue
Lyn:
So glad all that surgery is done with. Yes, it is good ot get them early and not let em turn into something major. So many of us were sunworshipers in the early days of our youth, it is surprising that we are not more of us covered in those things. I still like a little color, but don’t lay out anymore. I get my sun from working in the yard and garden. WIth all the Native american in me I tan easily, so it doesn’t take much. I love it you are all musical (well, sb isn’t huh ?) and get to perform together. Makes it more special huh ? I am hoping when my son comes up we can play together in church for the kids to sing. 🙂 Looking forward to them if they ever get here . Take care and rest up, You have had a tough week
Love
Tonie
Tonie, trying to rest when I can. Unfortunately, as you know, duty calls within the home. Taking it as easy as I can, though. SB actually is musical as well – he has talent and appreciates good music of all kinds, but prefers to either be part of a large group or listening. He’ll not a solo performer like the rest of us. But he is on the athletic field what we are on the concert stage. He enjoys being part of a team as well as excelling on his own. He really likes the connection among teammates, too. Time to attend to some laundry and soon head out to Sadie’s Beginner Training class.
Well
As Tonie says if anyone would like A photo of various places we go to let me know and I’ll email to them
I don’t like to send without anyone saying ,I think I got most email addresses
Ok it 6.30am here gonna get some more shut eye hopefully Chris
U ok Jen ?
just written to you chris….scroll up…..love ya jen x
Chris- yes, would love photos!
Hi everyone- been kinda out of it- having a grand fibromyalgia flare (maybe a little too much fun last weekend:/ while my sister was here) I forget to slow down when I’m having fun. I’ll be so glad when we get new teachers hired at work and I can go back to “just” being the nurse. I’m sore and tired every evening. Decided to go to the pool /hot tub last weekend. It was a little too cool to swim (we had an unseasonably cool weekend-75 degrees!) and the hot tub wasn’t hot. Bummer. So much for home water therapy…
It’s hot enough this week- 102 today. I’d live to swim but don’t want to sunburn so have to wait til evening.
Just wanted to chime in and say hi. Hope everyone is doing well. Loved the blog Sue. Lady in waiting indeed- not my favorite game, but like you said, we make the best of it. Love to all, Princess Crabby Pants
Annie, good to hear from you. It does sound like things have been heavier for you at work. DOn’t worry about overdoing with your sister…we all do it and in spite of the price we pay, life goes on. Sometimes we’re pulled dragging and screaming in its wake but there you have it. Sorry about the hot tub. That would have been good. Souds like your weather is all over the place. You know what to do dear girl. Do take care and keep in touch. Love, Sue
Annie…your weather sounding like ours, can’t make its freakin’ mind up….bet you got a fright when you jumped in the pool.
Slow down a bit petal, you’ll wear yourself out………love ya …Jennie xx
Lyn dear, How’s the back feeling today after surgery Friday? Hope all is well. Love and thoughts, Sue
Well, Sue, considering what was done to it, my back is doing well. I have been using my new muscle relaxant overnight and this afternoon, since I didn’t have to go anywhere. I wasn’t sure how it affected my alertness. Actually, I think I’m less out of it that with the flexiril -good! No morning hangover. Incisions are sore as expected, and soft tissues in the areas are also. My arthritis in back and neck gets upset because I have to move and sit differently. SOOOO glad I waited until after Fidelio to have it done! The bottom one is right over my back ribs which would have been an issue for breathing. Yesterday I was busier than I probably should have been – thank goodness I was able to relax at our church adult fellowship last evening, although sitting in the chair got to me so I didn’t stay super long – something you can relate to. I’m keeping bandages over them for now. I let them air out a bit this afternoon, but even the large, soft t shirt that barely touched them bothered them a bit and I couldn’t sit back in the chair, so my back and neck began to complain. DH has been peroxiding and bacitracin-ing and dressing them – DD wasn’t around or I’d give her the additional practice. 😉 The top one is about an inch and a half, the bottom one is about and inch and three quarter. Stitches underneath are 5 each with 4 and 5 stitches on the outside, respectively. Now you all know more than you wanted, although the nurses may have been interested. My guy is very thorough. The two spots weren’t all that big, but he wants to make sure he gets ALL of it! I’ve not had any re-appear where he’s removed them. I am taking it more easy today because I can. I didn’t even go to church, but I did give Sadie a walk. I felt bad that she didn’t get one yesterday. Thanks for asking! How are you doing? Continuing to molt and mend?
Lyn dear, sent you a private message. Do take care with that. Bad spot for lifting weights, Ha, Ha. Sorry about your neck. It seems like all of these things hit us so severely compared to many due to our complicated health problems. Thinking about you..read message. Love, Sue
Sue
If you have Annie’s email could you email me it so I could send her the photos
I seem to have mislaid it from when we the new blog
Chris
Chris, I’ll check…okay? Love ya, Sue
Chris…if Sue can’t find it, think I have it somewhere…..company coming in about an hour, and my neck and back are burning with pain, so I know how Lyn feels….wish you better Lyn……..might not be in contact for a couple of days, so be good everyone, and take care of yourselves. ……………………..Jennie xx
Jennie, I already sent it to Chris..no worry. Just try to enjoy your company. Love you. Sue
Sue written to you xx