HEY! I’M SCOOTIN’ AS FAST AS I CAN.

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I could have also called this blog, “Conversations with myself.” The object of the “Hey” in question is usually me.

I’ve often heard that patience is a virtue. It’s not one I particularly like. It’s so much easier to work on all the other virtues like honesty, thriftiness and steadfastness. Patience is one of those qualities that only arrive after a terminally long spell of something lousy. It usually indicates you have been waiting for something, enduring some experience or putting up with something or someone who is not pleasant.

I know folks can be rude to the elderly, the handicapped and the others who have physical challenges, but outright impatience can be just as bad as being mean or impolite. The whole world seems to be in a hurry to get wherever they are going and then in a hurry to leave once they get there. Maybe we need to take more time to count the petals on the daisy, watch the snail cross the sidewalk and feel the sun on our face.

I must confess I am usually the greatest transgressor of impatience toward myself, not necessarily others. In recent months, I’ve had some slow moving, down time both emotionally and physically. It has stolen muscle mass from me, negated my energy and made me feel like I have aged five years in less than one. I hate that feeling of having fallen behind, don’t you? I guess it could depend who and what you are striving to catch up to or seek. In my case and I’m guessing yours, we try to keep up with our old selves. You remember that person? That’s the one you used to be. Unfortunately, we often hold up our old selves as our model or example of what we should be. That doesn’t work. Each day, with chronic illness, we must instead, reinvent ourselves.

In recent months I think I’ve figured out why so many of the elderly give up and give in after an accident or other incident knocks them on their tush. It’s hard to get back up. It hurts. Sometimes we can’t find the motivation to do it. It’s difficult physically and mentally. Muscles that have been set aside for a while are difficult to rejuvenate. Muscles are like flowing water in a stream. They have to move in order to stay viable and fresh. When those muscles are attached to bones, ligaments and tendons that have suffered an accident or are diseased, it’s even harder to get them to respond. Again, it hurts. I don’t like to hurt but sometimes…

For many years I have had a love/hate relationship with physical therapy. I have had good therapists and a couple of bad ones. Even the bad ones had something to teach me and the good ones? Well, they have changed my life. Diseased body parts due to some rheumatoid condition are always a challenge. It’s always a temptation to give in to them and let gravity in the form of a bed or a chair win. Sometimes gravity takes the form of the floor and it’s a totally unplanned gravitational experience. Thump. This usually leads to more pain and suffering.

I often have these long talks with myself, either out loud or in my mind and they are usually not pleasant. Far too seldom do I say, “Oh self, what a lovely day it is. Let’s go out and smell the rain on the sidewalk or watch the sun glistening off the river.”

No, my usual talks with myself involve the whys and wherefores of life and interrogating myself on why some action is worth it. It’s so much easier when I’m in pain just to stay put, not move and watch TV or read a good book. Sometimes I win the argument, yet I also lose; funny how that can happen. I know what I need to do but I don’t always do it. Forestalling movement of muscle for another day is somewhat like saving ice cubes by putting them in your pocket. Time will have its way. There’s also that old bugger gravity, once again rearing its ugly head.

One of the questions I still ask myself is not “Why?” because I gave up on that one long ago. No, the question I now ask myself is, “Is it worth it?” Does that surprise you? I’m elderly, I’ve been sick for many years with two rheumatoid diseases plus inflamed bowel disorder, then cancer and I’m tired of it all. I’m so fed up with the pain, the not being able to do what I would like to do. There are days I don’t think I have another effort left in me. I know many of you must feel that same way. There are those days. Those are the days I have to ask myself, “Is it possible for a human being to kick oneself in the ass?”

I’m not certain if it is anatomically possible but if it were, this body is certainly not capable of doing it and that is when I have to figure out another way to do it without the backward kick.

We are each comprised of so much more than just our bodies and I think you and I both forget this important fact, or at least I know that I do. A diseased and painful body may get us down but it is the spirit which spurs the body past the pain to go on with living. Without the spiritual input, the belief that life is still worth living, what would we have? Pain finagles its way into our brains as well as our bodies. It puts a frown on the face, a dread into the heart and robs life of joy. Pain, if left to its own devices is a predator of all that is joyful, good and loving in life. Pain is our enemy. This is quite literally a war to survive as we trudge day to day to overcome, to rise above and to win the battle.

I’m sorry I have pain and have had it for so long. I’m sorry if you do as you are reading this. After the “I’m sorry” is said, where do we go from there? There is about a nanosecond of comfort in the phrase, “I’m sorry.” There has to be more. The answers I have found may not be the ones which will satisfy you but they are all I know. I have to keep moving. I cannot always rely on others. It isn’t fair to them and it isn’t fair to me. I have to find ways to remain strong defeat this enemy and keep kicking it back.  Therefore today I do the exercises laid out for me by my physical therapist, I clean just one part of my house that is bugging me, I do one or two loads of laundry and call that a good day. During all of that I take times to rest this quarrelsome body, find time for a play period with the dog, read something uplifting, watch a good mystery or love story and keep going. That may also involve talking to a good friend by phone, chatting with a grandchild or my son or daughter or facing some surprise that comes my way.

This time of year some of us are surrounded by signs of spring, whether it is the chirp of a bird, the sight of a yellow daffodil popping into bloom, or a soft spring rain. Life can pull us along behind it and sometimes, it’s okay to hitch a ride. We must always keep changing as we are reinventing ourselves. Certainly, our bodies want to melt like that ice cube in the pocket but we have to do everything in our power to hold them up, prop them up or do whatever it takes to keep scootin’ along life’s highway. Otherwise we’ll become flotsam alongside the edge of the road. I want to be out there in the middle, the mainstream of life; don’t you?

 

 

209 thoughts on “HEY! I’M SCOOTIN’ AS FAST AS I CAN.

  1. Hello everyone, I am alive and hanging in there. Sorry I haven’t been on here for such a long time. I have felt so tired and yucky for days. My emotions seem to feel ok it’s my body that feels so out of it. I had to go out to appointments of some kind every day last week. I have been exhausted for days. I stayed in the entire weekend and yesterday. I didn’t feel like going out and doing anything. I had planned on going out for a mani pedi with my baby daughter Racheal but she was having some bowel issues and had to take a laxative so that knocked out going today. We are planning to try for Thursday. My laundry has just finished so I am going to go fold it. I am going to send this much so I don’t lose it. Will write more shortly . Donna

  2. Ok, I am finished folding the laundry and I am back to write some more. My back and hip are doing better. Still hurts, just not as bad. He said they can do a different injection next time if I don’t get enough relief with this past one. I won’t have to go off the Coumadin for it either. I know when I would get the epidural pain block in the spine, I would have to stop the Coumadin for 5 days and get a shot of Lovenox in my stomach everyday until my INR (blood work) got back to normal range. I am going to see my gastroenteritis doctor tomorrow to set me up for my colonoscopy. It’s been 10 years so I have to get it done. I will have to come off the Coumadin for that and go through the same procedure I just explained a few lines up. Last time they gave me pills and they worked just fine. I heard after a certain age you can’t use the pills to get cleaned out. Oh well, it has to be done. Not looking forward to doing the procedure.
    Tonie, you have just been through this recently and know what I am facing.

    • Donna, glad you are somewhat better in your hip and leg. Oh dear, those blasted colonoscopies. That going out for appointments is a killer. I have tried to balance things to give myself a day off after a day out. It works for me. Our son is coming for a visit for a couple of days next week as he’ll be here in the NW so I cancelled a PT appt. I promised myself to do the exercises faithfully. Oh they hurt but I am hoping for help eventually. Sometimes, don’t you find our progress is so slow it is barely noticeable? Take care and just check in to let us know how your walk is going on this road we all share. Love, Sue

      • Sue, I hope you are feeling better. I believe you said you have a sore throat also. Praying that gets well quickly. I am glad your son is coming for a visit. I know you will be happy to see him. I am glad you feel up to doing some cleaning. Oh how I wish I could. I changed my bed Sunday and had to wash the mattress cover, blanket, and comforter. It usually takes me about an hour or more to get it remade. I am having to stop so much to catch my breath. It’s just one of those things I have to do. I know what you mean about PT. It can be very painful and it looks like it’s all for nothing but it isn’t. One day you realize you can tell a difference and all the painful work you have done is paying off. Talking about loneliness, I think we can be around a lot of people and still be lonely, don’t you?
        I found me some really nice bras this week being fitted for my first 3 bras from Medicare this year. I had to go down a full band size and cup size because of the weight loss since my last fitting. I have lost 31 pounds since this past Thanksgiving. They are colorful with wide straps and have a front closure. They are so comfortable. I wore one of them when I left and I still had a few more places to go to at the hospital. They felt so good I went back to the shop, since it is in the hospital, and ordered 2 more with different colors which I am paying for myself. She called today and said they came in today. I am so excited to find something I like and is comfortable too. I am not looking forward to the colonoscopy. I need to have one though. By the way, do you have any idea where I can find the lambswool boot or the piece of material to go across the bed? I would appreciate any help with that. Take care of yourself and don’t overdo things. LOVE YOU!
        Jennie, it’s been so good to see you on here so much. Now I haven’t been on here too much. I always check everyday sometimes twice a day to see if anyone has posted. Then I don’t feel like writing. Makes no sense other than a tired brain and not knowing what to always write. I hate to think of you being lonely but I really do understand. I am glad you have your little tea shop to go to. Have you had anyone else to look at your house? I know we have Easter coming and maybe after that more people will look. Still praying for the right couple to fall in love with it. Don’t give up sweetie. All in God’s timing. LOVE YOU my friend.
        Chris, you have been sounding so good lately. I am glad you have decided to stand up to your dad. You know as they get older and demand things their way, I don’t think they are doing it on purpose. They have been independent so long and now they are having to be dependent on others and realize they cannot do what they used to do. It has to be hard. I am glad he decided not to go to London. I think that was a wise decision on his part. I guess it gives the GS some relief in case of a bathroom accident. I am glad you are enjoying your “beach house”. It would be nice to have somewhere to go and get away from home once in a while. I had my daughters house to go to last summer and fall. Now she has gone back to NY. That is too far for me to drive to twice a month. I hope you continue to feel better and at some peace about your dad. Continue to enjoy your beach house you and your DH.Hope his BP is staying under control. Sending good vibes to you. LOVE YOU.
        Lyn, I am so glad you had a great Birthday. It sounded like a lot of fun. What a nice gift your DH gave you. I just know they were beautiful. Glad your stairs are almost finished. I know your cat’s are. I am assuming they had the run of the house and it’s been hard on them having to stay in your bedroom shut up. I loved the picture on Facebook of the cat sleeping all crunched up at the table legs. So adorable.I hope your weather is starting to warm up. We have had similar weather as Tonie. Warm days then boom, hit with 20 degrees weather several nights and cold days. It was in the 70’s today. I think it will be all week. Take care of yourself. I know Sadie will enjoy warmer dryer weather and walking more. Enjoy your new stairs. I hope they turn out to be what you wanted. LOVE YOU beautiful lady.
        I love all of you and I feel so blessed to have you as my friends. LOVE, Donna

      • Donna, Yes, am fighting a sore throat. I take oscillococcinum, which is a homeopathic med that OTC and used extensively in Europe. It really helps me to cut short the viruses that always come my way. I also firmly believe in Vit. C and for me, echinechea. Those with hay fever or allergies shouldn’t take the herb but I like it. We are having better, warmer weather than you all are having. We have a rainstorm coming in but I hope it stays up in WA state so we can have a dry trip tomorrow. Should be a shorter day tomorrow with each of us going to just one doc…the same doc. Jim had a couple of skin cancers removed last week that are NOT malig. melanoma. Thank the good Lord. Just wish we didn’t have to put in so much driving time tomorrow but that’s what we get for living out here on the coast and believe me, it’s worth it.
        I know what you mean. Making the bed is such a job. It takes so much out of one, especially if you have to replace the sheets you just washed instead of another set. I guess we just do the best we can and call it exercise. Be good to yourself. Love, Sue

  3. Tonie, I thought I had written you a post but can’t find it. I am glad you have someone who could clean Red’s feet. I know it must have made him feel better. I think it is funny that Baby gets jealous over anything you do for Red. Reminds me of kids.One is scared the other is getting more than they did. I am sorry you haven’t been feeling well. I hope your throat is feeling better. Do you think it is a virus or from being out and seeding and the odors from cleaning the oven. I know they can be quite strong. Did the chicks do ok in the cold temperatures? I hope there has been no sign of the varmit who got to your other chickens. Did your nephew ever come and close up the spots you thought it was getting in? I hope you don’t have problems like that again. Try and take it easy until you feel better. Don’t push yourself too hard my friend. You don’t want to make things worse. I have to go tomorrow and set up my colonoscopy. I sure dread it. I have to do a lot more than just get cleaned out because I am on Coumadin. I believe I explained it in my post to Sue. Take care sweet lady. Get plenty of rest. LOVE YOU, Donna

    • Hey Donna:
      I feel a bit better this am, although my throat is still terribly sore. I must dose myself with Vit C as Sue talks about in her post. I always forget it, use it for bladder irritation as well. The chicks are fine. The little ones are using the dog pen and the dog cage. I wrapped it in a tarp and put a blanket around it. Also put a lot of hay inside. They are so cute, they cuddle up together at night. I lock them in the cage so nothing can get in, In the morning when I let them out, they run to the feed and start pigging out !
      Yes, very fortunate to have Bruce for my farrier. He is excellent with the horses, kind and patient. Makes a difference. He seals their feet where he files them down (just like we do with a manicure) and puts medicated goo on any cracks or bad parts. Red had 2 abcess’ at one time or other, one blew out int he bottom of his hoof (and smelled terrible when he trimmed up the frog.) and the other had blown out the front of the hoove. So…previous Daddy hadn’t done so great a job with him. No wonder he walked so slow, his little feet were sore.
      Good luck on your colonoscopy today. Prayers dear friend
      Tonie

  4. Hey Jennie, I forgot to ask you how your precious Mom is doing. Is she still having a hard time with all that has happened? I do hope she will feel much better by the time she gets to move back into her apartment. I know it has got to be hard on her. Did she get her last box of chocolates you sent? What about the 1st box that went missing? Did it ever show up? That was a shame. Just let her know she is being prayed for. Donna

    • HI DONNA….BLESS YOU FOR REMEMBERING MY MOM…..SHE IS WELL AND FIT, WENT TO THE GYM YESTERDAY…..YES I KNOW AT NINETY TWO…..SHE NEVER GOT THE CHOCOLATE, BUT THE SECOND PARCEL I SENT WITH SOMETHING DIFFERENT, SHE GOT, SO HEY HO.
      ANOTHER SIX MONTH TILL SHE GETS TO GO HOME, THINK IF HER INSURANCE PAYOUT COMES, SHE WILL FLY TO THE UK AND STAY WITH MY SISTER FOR AWHILE….WISH SHE COULD COME TO ME HERE IN FRANCE, BUT SHE IS TOO OLD TO COPE WITH THE LANGUAGE WHEN TRAVELLING, NEVER MIND.
      I HAVE TOLD HER ABOUT ALL YOU LADIES WHO PRAYED FOR HER, SHE WAS DEEPLY MOVED, AND NOW SAYS PRAYERS FOR ALL OF YOU…..FUNNY OLD WORLD HUH???? LOVE YOU PETAL, WISH YOU BETTER…JENNIE XX

      • Jennie, I am so pleased to hear your very tough Mom is doing so well. It would be nice if she could visit you when you feel up to it. I can understand her reluctance about traveling in a country with a different language but still…would be nice. Hope the news from Tim is good, as well. I would love to see your DH’s greenhouse and all the goodies he’s sprouting out there for the coming spring. I remain firmly convinced as the other on here that the right couple will come along and love your very charming house. Keep believing that my dear. Love you, Sue

  5. MISERABLE !! I hate being sick…not a good patient. SO glad I accidentally bought those cough drops a few months ago. I had some cold meds also. Hopefully it will work. Hang in there SUe and prayers for your trip tomorrow
    Love
    TOnie

    • Tonie, Hey lady…you be good. I know you have to go out in the cold to feed and if you feel crappy it makes it harder. Glad you have the drops and the cold meds. Don’t forget the chicken soup. Thinking of you and praying you get well very soon. Love you, Sue

    • Tonie, so sorry you are so sick. I hope you are able to rest today after feeding the animals. Take your meds and like Sue said eat some chicken soup if you have some. You are in my prayers. LOVE YOU Tonie, Donna

    • Tonie, so sorry you are so sick. I hope you are able to rest today after feeding the animals. Take your meds and like Sue said eat some chicken soup if you have some. You are in my prayers. LOVE YOU Tonie, Donna

      PS, I forgot to send this as I was rushing out the door to the doctor. I am going to go ahead and send it anyway. I just read your post and I too hope you don’t have strep throat. I hope you had strength to go to house and get mail. It is very nice here today as well. I didn’t even need a sweater when I went out. I will write a note to everyone about my doctor visit shortly. Feel better soon. Donna

      • Donna:
        Did go to the house, and also to the store to pick up “chicken soup”. Came back home for some downtime on the couch and ended up sorting out years of photographs and separating them into a fab container that I got. Each child has their own pile of pics, plus all the others I have taken over the years with 35 mm and such. WORE ME OUT !!
        Not strep, it is getting better. I did eat the soup, but it didn’t stay on my stomach for long. Ran to the bathroom all evening. SO I must have a combo of a couple of things.
        It is nice here as well, enjoying this weather regardless.
        Love
        Tonie

    • TONIE…SORRY TO HEAR YOU ARE NOT SO WELL…..HOPE THE COUGH DROPS BRING RELIEF.WRAP UP WARM WHEN YOU FEED THE ANIMALS…..AND YES YOU DO NEED SOME CHICKEN SOUP, BUT NOT FROM YOUR CHUCKS HUH???……..YOU WILL SOON BE ON THE MEND….LOVE YOU…JENNIE XX

  6. Sue, praying for your trip today. Hope it is not too uncomfortable. Hope you both get good reports today. Praise God for Jim’s good report on the skin biopsies. If you get a chance don’t forget to let me know if you have any idea where I can get the sleep boot and lambs wool material. Hope you got a good night’s sleep. LOVE YOU friend, Donna

  7. Morning all
    Still with the sore throat, feels like Strep, but hope not. Not running a fever , so…
    Donna, try looking on Amazon for your wool. They have almost everything. I have seen some on there when I was looking for something.
    Sue, glad you are getting out today, and so happy that Jim’s was negative for the C. Always good news. God is good. Have a good time together with little Georgie ! 🙂
    Jennie, Lyn, Chris, Janet, all of you !! Have a good day .
    Chris, good news your dad is not going to London. Would have been too much I think. We can do all things in our minds, but the body doesn’t always agree.
    Beautiful day out today. I must go to check the house today and fetch the mail. Also need to run in a couple of store. UGH !! I hate that. I hope to go and look at homes tomorrow if I am feeling better. I have some sort of virus on my computer as well. I am running checks to try and get rid of it.
    We may have good weather for Easter this year (a rarity) Hoping my garden gets plowed, cause I can plant potatoes on Friday. Got so much to get done, I hate not feeling up to it. Oh well, it will get there.
    Love to you all
    Tonie

  8. Hi all, just want to let you know that I am reading and trying to keep up with the news. As I may have told you I am in a wash out period before I start a new drug April 10 and I have gone into a major flare … the worst in the past ten years and my poor crooked fingers are twice their size. We are having Easter Dinner here on Sunday but everyone is helping. My fatigue is so overwhelming it is very difficult to get anything done and when I am up I break out in sweats so I am not good for much, but I do have large Kinder Eggs for the lids and new summer weight PJ’s for the warmer weather … if it ever gets here. We still have quite a bit of snow and it will be so nice to see the grass again! My MRI of my back showed multiple problems and compression fractures but it is believed that my most painful back pain comes from severe spinal stenosis at L4-5. (I have moderate stenosis at all other levels), so this is something I must learn to live with like so many other things. It makes sense that when my back is in spasm I curl up in a ball in bed or feel better leaning over a shopping cart because in those positions I am opening up the spinal canal just a little bit more. If I do any walking I should be bent over, but I hate to use a walker until I must, but maybe my Nordic walking poles might help. My rheumatologist knows of my flare and has not called back but there really isn’t anything that can be done but pray that the new drug works. This is the very last drug I can try and have been told that if it doesn’t work, nothing will … but I sure felt better than this on the last drug I tried but I still had active joints, new nodules and signs of vasculitis … not a good prognosis! My little Grands are starting to ask questions about my pain and disability and it is so hard to know what to say. I’m sure I will be remembered as the Nana who was sick all the time . My DH is gone a lot too driving Connor to his special school, shopping and helping the kids and I too am lonely a lot. When I was first off work I had a lot of phone calls but as the years go by they become less and less and I don’t have any extended family such as sisters. I am looking forward to spring weather as I have been out of the house very little since before Christmas. With so much ice and snow we will be getting into the cottage late this year, but I must get myself stronger to get on and off the boat. Right now with my back pain I am having difficulty just getting my legs into the car and I am unable to drive because I can’t turn my head … still waiting to see the neurosurgeon about my neck. DH has a new portable ramp we could take to the lake for the wheel chair but I’m still fighting that! I must close, but thanks for listening and I wish you all a Happy Easter!
    .Love and Prayers …Pommum

    • Oh Pommom. I am dealing with similar issues too. Since the falls I had my mobility has really gotten pretty ummmmm crappy. I am really missing having Nessie keeping me from falling (she’s just too old and Remi just isn’t mature enough for her joints to take the work without risking injury to her yet). I’m much more dependent on canes, walkers and although I know I will hate it the time may be soon for wheelchair with any distance. I don’t know how that will work because being alone is have to use my arms for propulsion and I like you have disease in the upper part of my body. This winter isolated me more and frankly I’m seeing the decrease in friends. The world is moving on without me. I’m glad I’m not trying to teach dog obedience anymore as it was painful at best and did make some of the physical joint distruction go faster than it might have. That being said, yet another door for social interaction closed. Tomorrow I see my primary doctor and next week my rheumatologist and have to admit to the falls and ongoing pain from them. Oh dear.

      • BSL:
        Good to see you on here. Sorry for all the pain n such from your falls. I do have a fear of them. Friends come and go I have found thru life, but our gang is always here to talk to.
        Hope your Dr visits go well
        Love
        Tonie

      • Bobsled Laura, It is fine to hear from you although I know you’ve had a couple of extra rough weeks and that makes me sad. I know you must feel a bit lost in this “space” between dogs right now while waiting for Remi to learn and mature. Watching ourselves destruct is never a pretty sight and we just have to fight with every resource we have, right? You know being honest with your primary and your rheumy will or should bring you some much needed answers. I pray that is the case for you. Perhaps there is a new med they can give you to slow the decline.
        I think each of us this week have expressed our dismay at being lonely and feeling left out of the mainstream of life. I don’t think there is a day that passes that I do not thank God for giving me a few other things to fill in my life that was once filled with nursing, such as writing, etc. True friends will stay with you my dear, they will. There may not be many in numbers but it is quality that counts. My Dad used to say if a man can live his life and at the end count five good friends(then he always held up his open hand) then he is a wealthy man. I think that is true. Some people just don’t understand. We just have the obligation to not drive them away by talking about our woes too extensively. That’s such a challenge at times for each of us. The answers to peace of mind and heart lie within each of us; not with others. Hang on and hope and new areas of life will open up for you and enrich your life. Love you, Sue

    • Pommum:
      Prayers for your new med to do the trick. I have been so blessed in that the MTX has kept the RA dog at bay. Thought I was going to have to upgrade a while back, but it kicked in again and things calmed down.
      It seems to take so long for you to get in to see the Dr. The waiting is the worst part isn’t it ? My sister is going thru stuff with her neck as well.
      Prayers for your back and legs, and neck and whole body !! Do take care and move as much as you can.
      Love
      Tonie

    • BRENDA…SO SORRY FOR ALL YOU TROUBLES, I AM IN THE SAME POSITION, I WAS GOING TO TAKE UP DRIVING AGAIN (BEEN AWHILE COS OF THE O/A) BUT NOW LIKE YOU BECAUSE OF MY NECK, I DAREN’T DO IT IN CASE I CAUSE AN ACCIDENT.
      DON’T FIGHT THE RAMP LOVE, NOT IF ITS NEEDED. WHO THE HELL CARES AS LONG AS IT MAKES YOUR LIFE EASIER…..LOVE YOU….JENNIE XX

    • Pommum, honey if you need to use a wheel care, go for it. Why be miserable when you can have help. I have a scooter and I use to feel like you. Mine also breaks apart but I needed help to get it in and out of my van. I was given a lift for it a year ago and I am so grateful for it. I would have never been able to afford one. Medicare paid for my scooter but they won’t pay for the lifts. My best friend passed away 2 years ago and she had one in her van. Her husband had been telling me for several years he wanted to help me get one. He decided to trade their two vans in on a newer one. He found one that was almost brand new and the elderly man had a lift in it already. He passed and his wife didn’t need the van so she traded it for her a car. Bobby got it and gave me the lift that was in Tracy’s van. I only had to pay to have it installed, $90. I was so blessed. It is inside my van so I don’t have to worry about the weather at all. They do have some that fit on the back of a car and you have to cover it with a cover. I love mine. I use it when I need to walk a lot like at the hospital or Wal-Mart. It makes my life so much easier. If you need to use yours go ahead and use it. If I feel ok, I walk with my wheeled and seated walker. I do everything I can to keep me moving. There are days however I have to use my extra help pieces to make my life easier. So this is my testimony about using my medical equipment. There is no right or wrong, it is about when you are ready for extra help and comfortable using it. I will be praying for you my dear sweet friend. LOVE Donna

  9. Hey Pommum, so sorry you still can’t see the ground for the snow. I remember my mother calling me crying and talking about not being able to see the ground for so long. She married a man from PA the second time around and it was not far from Niagra Falls and so cold. It was hard on her being from the South. My father was from Wisconsin but being in the service he was stationed in the South most of his career except when he was in Japan and Okinawa. Then my mom just stayed in the States instead of dragging my sister and me around as we were quite young. My father died of a massive heart attack when I was just 17 years old. My sister was 15 at the time. My step father moved my mom back to NC and that is where they lived until she died 15 years ago of a blood clot from a massive stroke. By that time I had 5 children and several grandchildren. My sister had 2 kids and a few grandchildren. I hope the snow all melts quickly. It can really get people down and depressed. I know you enjoy being at the cottage and I am so sorry it is going to be a little later this year for you to be able to go. I am also sorry about your back. I have the same DX in the same L 4-5. Also have 2 herniated disc in my spine. I have done pretty well this past year with getting epidural pain blocks. A few weeks ago I started having pain in my left back and leg. The only time I get relief is when I am lying down. I did get a trigger point injection 1 and 1/2 weeks ago. It is better now. Not completely gone but not as bad.I hope the new medicine will help you and soon. Do you know what it ? Well glad to hear from you and keep us posted. Tell Teddi hello and Cory. Both of them are so special! Will keep all of you in my prayers. LOVE and hugs, Donna

  10. Sue, and everyone, Well I saw the gastroenterologist today as my primary care doctor thought I needed a colonoscopy since it has been 10 years. She went over everything with me and proceeded to inform me that I would be a high risk patient. She said since I am not having any problems she thought it would be safer for me not to do it than taking a chance with my breathing problems and maybe having to stay on a ventilator when I wake up. There is the cleaning out process plus having to stop my Coumadin 5 days before and bridging me everyday with the Lovenox shot in my stomach then getting back on the Coumadin and getting checked everyday until my blood is back where it needs to be. She seemed to think it’s just too dangerous since there has never been a problem with anyone in my family. She did say if I started to have any problems, she would do one. So, I don’t have to have a colonoscopy as of now. Can you imagine how relieved I am right now. Of course I will keep an eye out for any changes. Sue, I hope your trip wasn’t too bad today. Thank everyone for all your prayers. Chat later. LOVE and Hugs, Donna

    • Oh Donna, Forgive me, I am moving like the snail in this pic…well, no because he’s getting a ride isn’t he? Anyway, I am so relieved you don’t have to go through ALL of that and have a colonoscopy, also. What a relief. Yes, thanks to Tonie…I would have also told you to look on Amazon for all of the sheepskin items. I have yet to find anything that is not on Amazon. Sometimes it is worth the cost of shipping a particular item that’s why I continue to be a prime member and get most things shipped for free. You figure just a few items pay for the annual membership fee. I think the elbow one is a wise idea. Any area that is rubbing and can cause a decubitus ulcer, or bed sore, can be so difficult to heal. That’s why prevention is the best way to go. Thanks my dear for being you. Love, Sue

  11. Morning all:
    Feeling a bit better than yesterday. Well, throat wise anyway. Coughing a bit more today. The wind is starting up again, so I will stay in today as much as possible. March wind is notorious for sickness. I am not going to get up to shop for homes again this week. Well, all in God’s good time.
    I had gotten a photo storage unit some time back and yesterday while in the basement watering the seedlings, I picked up my 3 boxes of photos and spent about 3 hours thinning and organizing. I need to order one more. I have another big box under the bed I forgot about. It was so nice going thru all the photos of my kids, me, family and grandkids up to the digital age. Like holding a book, something about the actual photo. All my travel photos (a lot of Oregon coast n such Sue) Grand Canyon, Monument Valley, desert hikes. Beautiful photos I need to put out in my new home. Rodeo photos I took in Payson, Az. I put each kids photos in a box. Easy way to circulate later. Good time spent.
    Donna so glad you are not going to have the colonoscopy. ANd I know you are. Sue hope you are doing good today.
    LOve to you all
    Tonie

    • Tonie, I went through photos about a month ago and got rid of a lot of them that weren’t important…you know like rears, noses, etc. and tons of negatives. I gave each of the kids photos several years ago and now mostly have pics taken since then. I’m thinking more and more of memories and less and less of the piles of things which will have to be disposed of one day. I think it’s part of this whole aging, going to seed business.
      I sure hope you’re doing better each day. I still have a sore throat and am totally crushed today after yesterdays trip but have given myself today off. The oncology surgeon has talked me into trying the new oral chemo. She suggested I try to ease into it on an every other day basis. Supposedly it increases my chances of survival by 50%. I do dread it after my recent experience with the Tamoxifen but will try it when this virus passes.
      Hope you’re getting past the cold and frozen water time and having more sun and spring flowers. Do be good to yourself. Love, Sue

  12. Tonie, I found what I needed at Amazon. Thanks for the information. I ordered it and can hardly wait for it to get here. I was a little surprised at the cost of the little boot but if it helps then it is worth it. They also had one for elbows which I have a problem with the one because I lean on it in bed. I also got a pad with the sheepskin to put on the bed. Hoping it all helps. Hope you are feeling better today. You said you might go home looking. I hope you find something you love. Have a Blessed day sweetie. LOVE, Donna

    • I just saw your post so glad you are feeling better. I think staying in is a good idea. I know the tree pollen is bad here especially the pine with all the yellow powder all over everything. So enjoy being at home. You will find the perfect home soon. As you said, all in God’s time. I am going out for a while with my youngest daughter. Looking forward to seeing her.
      LOVE, Donna

  13. Sue:
    I never answered your question about the cross stitch. The Bibs I am doing are a combination. It has a preprinted design and some are just stitch while the rest I still have to count the stitches. Get me ready for a total count of which I have two little CHristmas ornaments to make.
    Tonie

    • Tonie, one this certain and that is that counted cross stitch is pretty tedious if you’re not feeling well. You need one of those magnetic space keepers. They make it so much easier, you know. Love, Sue

  14. Thanks everyone for all your comments and encouragement.. DH is gone all day today too but the spring sun is shining in the windows and it is helping lift my spirit. My hands are so swollen that when Teddi asked to go outside I couldn’t turn the knob on the door but I finally did using a wet cloth, but we must get lever type handles put on and the door right now isn’t shut tight.

    Laura, do you have a scooter for shopping? I used a potable one that comes apart and will fit in a trunk before the surgery on my feet and my knees replaced but someone must be able to lift it in and out of the trunk, although each piece is not too heavy, the little motor being the heaviest. I have given in to using the scooter at Costco the few times I went this winter and Walmart has scooters too, but if I am able to walk I always think it is good exercise. I have two friends from work who have stayed in touch but they are busy and know that there isn’t much I can do with them anymore than maybe going out to lunch.

    Donna, my new medication is Rituxam which is a Lymphoma drug which they are now using for RA. I will have a second infusion two weeks later and then that is it for four months, hopefully longer. I will be given IV steroids, antihistamines and Tylenol for fever before they start the infusion and everyone it seems does have some sort of reaction and they often have to stop it for short periods and then continue on. The infusion usually takes about six hours so I was told to bring a pillow, blanket and a good book so I am not looking forward to this experience but I have been told it works really well for some people so all fingers and paws are crossed. My rheumatologist’s nurse just called and said that they would arrange for an injection in my back whenever the pain becomes bad again, so that was wonderful news!!!

    Jennie, just hate the thought of not driving, having that independence taken away but like you I would never drive if it wasn’t safe. I hope the sale of your home goes quickly now that spring is here. It looks beautiful and very cosy and warm in your pictures.

    Tonie, hope you cold will soon be gone. You continue to amaze me with all you do! I also have pictures to sort and even recipes that belonged to my Mother. That might be a good project to take to the cottage this summer.

    My hand tells me I must stop but my thoughts and prayers are with everyone and Sue, I hope your trip and appointments went well and Teddi and Korry sat hi to George! Love, Pommum Brenda

    • Pommum Brenda, always wonderful to hear from you, knowing first of all how much we love you and secondly because I know how difficult writing can be for you. I see what a hard time you are having and pray that the new drug will bring you the relief you need. To a certain extent I think each of us face a certain future of our diseases getting worse than they are but I guess you’d say we are playing a waiting game and hope to be as comfortable as possible for as long as we can. Think that’s why I always seek the best in doctors, PT, etc. Now, as far as door knobs, you know for opening all things I often use a piece of stretchy band or old tourniquet. It really helps. I hate to think of you having so much swelling and pain and think of you often. Too bad about the long, cold period of extra winter for you in the great North this year. We’ve had such a mild winter I feel almost guilty.
      Beth came by today and brought me a beautiful bouquet of tulips. So pretty in varied colors. Spring and Easter both seem to be arriving at the same time although we had rain for our trip yesterday but then again, it seems to always rain here in Oregon. George got into his kennel for the trip home yesterday and didn’t want to come out. I think we wore him out. Do know I am thinking of you and you always are in my heart and prayers my fellow warrior. Sue

  15. Hi All, just a note to everyone first to touch base. Our trip to Portland yesterday was long and tiring. We had a most amazing event occur on the way in which I must share, first of all. We were heading along Highway 30 which runs from the coast into Portland, OR all the way along the Columbia River. It’s a beautiful, well traveled road with forest most of the way. A small silver SUV passed us on the left and I noticed they had one of those carrier containers on the top of their roof rack held on with one or two bungee cords. I thought just fleetingly, it seemed a bit insecure. They were quickly followed by a black SUV with a small gas can tied down securely on it’s roof rack. Then, not two mins. later the roof carrier on the silver car went flying off, the black SUV slammed on their brakes and the silver one which lost the container just kept going. The carrier was flying through the air, Jim threw on our brakes as did the guy next to us and we stopped as the carrier scooted to a landing about 20 feet in front of us. Even 5 seconds sooner and that huge object would have gone right through our windshield. The silver SUV kept going, not even knowing it was gone. The folks in the black SUV got our and scooted the carrier over to the side of the road. I think we had an angel riding in the car with us yesterday…and I don’t mean George.
    Our visit with the oncology surgeon was fine. Jim is doing well so far and I will need to add therapeutic massage to my PT schedule because my left shoulder is still very stiff, in spite of the exercises I have done every night. I still can’t bring my arms up all the way over my head. The surgeon blames the radiation therapy for tightening it up so much. It was a tight wound anyway because of the hemorrhage I had during surgery so it’s hard to know. Therapeutic massage on such a tender area as a surgical wound does not appeal to me at all, but so be it if it will help. My SI joints didn’t like all the sitting and today I have pain all over, too many places to mention. That’s just the way it is.
    I will get back to each of you, I promise, when I find the energy. Love to each of you, Sue

    • Oh Sue:
      God is so good to us. It is indeed a miracle that no one was hurt. He watches over us at all times. That last trip to the bathroom or the last stop light slowed you up enough to keep you safe.
      I hope you are feeling better today. I thought today I would feel up to swimmiing, but alas…I am snorting, blowing , sneezing and wheezing today. Feel like a train wreck. So another day spent laying around trying to feel better.
      Love to you all
      Tonie

      • Tonie, First of all before I forget it…Amazon has one of those counted cross stitch magnetic board rulers for less than $5 as an add-on item it ships for free if you have anything else to order. Think you’d love having it to keep place on the pattern. I have a couple of gorgeous needlepoint pieces I need to finish and haven’t picked up in a year. I need to get back onto them. I love doing it, don’t know why I don’t?
        Indeed God was so watching over us on the road the other day. His timing is absolute and often amazing. Just when you think you won’t be surprised, you are…and thankful. It was amazing. I am so sorry you are still feeling so lousy. That’s so irritating to constantly feel like a faucet that coughs. Staying in sounds like the best solution along with tons of fluids. So sorry. My throat feels less sore today. I was thinking about braving a trip to the store by myself but am thinking better of it now due to high winds and pounding rain outside. I do however, feel so much better than yesterday. Talk about train wrecks after my trip to Portland…that was me. Couldn’t even get down the stairs after we got home. I just went to bed but my body kept me awake. Last night it was the rectal pain from all the sitting. My life…like so many on here is filled with so many problems it is almost laughable. Do take care now, okay? Love you much, Sue

    • Sue, so grateful that God was watching over the 3 of you. Glad George was in his crate. The sudden stop could have injured him. Glad no one was hurt. How scary. I think it was amazing that you noticed it was not secure before this happened. I can’t believe the driver didn’t feel the thing when it came off or did and just didn’t want to stop. Someone could have been hurt badly or killed. Glad things went well at the oncologist office. I know how you feel about the tightness in the chest. It is uncomfortable and sore. I hope the massages will help you get loosened up. I have them every once in a while whenever my arm is swelling and has to be massaged and wrapped. She, my OT, will work on my scar. On the 26 of April it will be 14 years since I found out I had cancer. I am sorry to have to tell you this, but I am still sore and tight. She, my surgeon, had to go so deep in my chest wall and pectoral muscle that I couldn’t have had reconstruction if I had wanted to. There is not enough skin to stretch. Of course radiation therapy made it worse. I am ok with it. It is what is. I am so glad I found these amazing comfortable bras. Do you know what pill you are going to be trying? I have been worried because you haven’t had anything on board for a while. Like I said, I have been on the letrozole ( femara) for almost 8 years with no side affects except for the dry skin. Whatever you will be taking, I hope you can tolerate it with no problems. LOVE YOU Sue. Donna

  16. HELLO…..WELL THE SHOPPING IS DONE FOR EASTER, GOING OUT TO LUNCH WITH FRIENDS ON SUNDAY….RESULT.
    I HOPE YOU ARE ALL GOING TO ENJOY THE HOLIDAY IN SPITE OF THE MANY DIFFICULTIES WE ALL HAVE.

    SUE….HOPE THE VIRUS CLEARS OFF SOON….MAYBE THE ORAL CHEMO WILL WORK OUT THIS TIME, YIKES !!! DID YOU HAVE A LUCKY ESCAPE, YES I AGREE THERE WAS AN ANGEL ON YOUR SHOULDER FOR SURE. THERAPUTIC MASSAGE, IT IS VERY GENTLE, AND IN VIEW OF YOUR INJURY TO THAT SENSITIVE AREA, I AM SURE THAT WILL BE TAKEN INTO CONSIDERATION….AND IF IT HURTS, TELL THEM TO “JOG ON” AND DO THE PT. THE TULIPS ….SUCH A LOVELY FLOWER AND WILL ALWAYS REMIND ME OF MY MOM….I USED TO STICK A PIN THROUGH THE BOTTOM OF THE STALKS….STOPS THEM BENDING OVER. I HOPE YOU WILL BE WELL ENOUGH TO ENJOY EASTER, AND HAPPY NEWS ABOUT JIM….LOVE YOU XX

    TONIE….I WILL PRAY THAT ROTTEN OLD COUGH CLEARS TO ENABLE YOU TO HAVE A NICE FEW DAYS, THE NEW HOME WILL KEEP….SO WILL MINE….LOVE YOU XX

    BRENDA…..I KNOW ITS UPSETTING ABOUT THE DRIVING, BUT NEVER SAY NEVER….LOVE YOU PET. XXX

    CHRIS….WHERE ARE YOU MATE….MISSING YOU, HOPE THE WIND HAS DIED DOWN….I MEAN OUTSIDE…HA HA!!
    STILL CHILLY HERE I FRANCE, BUT GOING TO IMPROVE AS THE WEEK GOES ON, GET THOSE SUN RECLINERS READY….LOVE YOU XX

    DONNA, JANET, LYN SUZANNE AND LAURA….LOVE TO YOU ALL, THINKING OF YOU…….LOVE JENNIE XXXXX

    • Jennie, Oh yes, Jim and I were fortunate indeed and it was a clear reminder of how very fragile life can be. I think we all think of our health and sometimes forget accidents can happen at any moment. You have had a rude reminder with your Mom and the explosion in recent months. Glad she is bouncing back.
      Awe yes, Easter is here already and we each hope spring comes with it, huh? What a good idea putting pins in tulips. Do you use long ones the length of the stem? We did clip off a bit at the bottom so they could drink. They are so beautiful colored.
      I fell asleep last night watching a favorite English film, ME AND MRS JONES. I really like Robson Green. Of course, I like most British films, old and new. Hope you enjoy your Easter lunch. We don’t have plans at the moment, depending on my health and the weather. Certain the younger grands will be hiding Easter eggs. I picked up a little something for them at the hospital gift shop and of course, I’ve bought some Cadbury chocolate eggs. None for this Nana. I gave up candy last year after going through so much with the dentist. Some things no longer matter. I guess life can be very relative at times.
      I hope you’ll feel up to driving soon if you want to. It is probably helpful to have a retired DH. I pray today is a good day for you dear friend. Think of you so often. I wish we could hear from Chris, also. Worry about her when we don’t. Love, Sue

      • HI SUE……THERE ARE SO MANY ENGLISH THINGS YOU LIKE IT SEEMS, WHICH IS NICE AS I LIKE A LOT OF STUFF FROM THE USA….ONE OF MY FAVORITE FILMS OF ALL TIME FOR COMEDY, IS THE LATE JOHN CANDY “UNCLE BUCK”…….I NEVER GET TIRED OF IT, SEEN IT AT LEAST SEVEN TIMES.
        ROBSON GREEN, LOVE HIM, HE WAS IN A SERIES IN THE UK CALLED “SOLDIER SOLDIER”, WHAT HAVE YOU SEEN HIM IN? HE HAS INCREDIBLE EYES, A BIT PAUL NEWMAN.
        I LOVE THE TRADITIONS OF EASTER, MY MOM WAS TELLING ME THIS MORNING, SHE AND HER NIECE HAVE A SMALL TREE IN BLOSSOM, AND THEY HANG PAINTED EGGS FROM THE BRANCHES…..NOT SURE WHAT THE DO HERE, IN THE UK WE HAVE SIMILAR TO YOU, AND HIDE CHOCOLATE EGGS ROUND THE HOUSE AND GARDEN.
        YOU ONLY NEED A SMALL PIN (DRESS MAKER’S) RIGHT NEAR THE BOTTOM OF THE STEM, A TIP MOM GAVE ME FROM WHERE SHE LIVES IN TULIP LAND……………………!!!!
        I HOPE YOUR THROAT CLEARS UP SOON LOVE, AND YOU SPEND A LOT OF EASTER GETTING YOUR STRENGTH BACK FROM YOUR ARDUOUS TRIP.
        GOD BLESS AND KEEP SAFE….LOVE YOU…………………..JENNIE AND BARRY XXXX

  17. Well here I am
    Been getting used to something
    Had a letter from hosp when I got back.they found a 5 mm nodule in my upper right lung.they thought it was of doubtful clinical stuff but have to have another scan to see if it’s grown in a year. I was upset and worried
    I somehow go in myself and can’t put it all down
    Anyway..sue what a thing to happen and you live to tell the tale! What a good save….how careless of those people .i hope the police found them thru an address on thAt case thingy and told em off
    That’s so good you picked up that quick after the trip and feeling better already ..well a bit anyway
    Went with DD round to my dads today and then for a snack in town
    Going over hers for lunch on Sunday
    Ok gotta go and do things all have a good easter..and jen enjoy your lunch out
    Chris

    • Chris dear, there you are indeed. I know so well what you’re feeling. Just try to tell yourself one simple truth. Most growths or small spots are totally benign, and non harmful. There could be many reasons for a spot on the lung and of course, you’ll follow through to be sure and then achieve complete piece of mind. Prayers and hugs for a good Easter. How did it go with your Dad? Glad your DD was with you.
      Still fighting throat here and rear still hurting from awful trip but time will take care of the throat, at least. Love you, Sue

      • Yes Chris:
        Remember me and my Mamo booboo , yes it is there. But it is not important, just keep an eye on it. Just in case. No worries, okay ?

    • Chris, so glad to hear from you. Like Sue said, most of those little spots are benign. I have 2 on my lung that they have been watching for over 14years. They never change. I think you are probably ok. I will be praying for your peace of mind and that they are nothing.Hope things went well with your Dad. Have a wonderful Easter. LOVE, Donna

    • CHRIS…..GOOD TO HEAR FROM YOU MATE…..LIKE THE OTHERS SAY, TRY NOT TO WORRY, WHEN I LIVED IN SPAIN I HAD A CHEST X-RAY DONE, AND I TOO HAVE A SPOT ON EACH LUNG, IT WAS REPEATED JUST BEFORE I LEFT FOR FRANCE, AND THERE WAS NO CHANGE….NOT WORRYING ABOUT IT, IF IT AIN’T BROKE I AIN’T FIXING IT…….YO ENJOY EASTER DARLING, GOOD TO SEE YOU GETTING OUT AND ABOUT. HOPEFULLY I CAN CATCH UP WITH YOU AFTER THE HOLIDAYS….LOVE TO ALL THE FAMILY, YOU TOO OF COURSE…………………………..LOVE YA…..JEN XX

  18. To all of you, I wish for each and everyone of you to have a very Blessed Easter! Tonie and Sue, I pray that the both of you feel much better and can enjoy the day. For all of us, I pray for a wonderful and as much as can be painless Easter Sunday! He is Risen! He is risen indeed! Hallelujah! Love to you all. Donna

    • Donna, I’ve decided once this virus passes I will start on the new chemo drug. I will take it every other day to start and check my tolerance as per my oncology surgeon’s suggestion. If I react, well that’s that. It’s called Anastrozole and is the second line after Tamozifen and is in the family of aromatase inhibitors. I will try but can’t while I have a virus or I won’t know what’s what.
      You also have a blessed Easter dear girl. Thanks for the honesty about the tightness and pain continuing after the mastectomy. I think some do and some don’t Apparently you and I do. Love, Sue

  19. Good Morning all:
    Well, cough, cough , sneeze, sneeze, pee, pee !! 🙂 The story of my life of late ! It is getting old and I HATE having to breath out of my mouth !
    Okay rant is over. Temps cooled a bit after an all night rain. I was concerned about my little widdies, but they are none the worse for wear this am, out in force chomping up the feed. At least I didn’t have to water anyone (bonus). FINALLY got my RX of MTX, which I can’t take until I clear up this mess I have going on.
    Jennie, here in the states, a lot of people put out plastic eggs from their tree or bush in the yard. And we hide colored eggs for the kids. Used to be real eggs when I was a kid, mostly now they use the plastic eggs and fill them with candy or prizes. Always a cross with the purple sash around it in the church yards. I got me a pretty green n white top to wear with a white skirt on Easter Sunday, but the way I feel today, who knows if I will feel up to going. Not to mention spreading my germs.
    I doubt I do anything for Easter. I did get me some hawaiian rolls and I have some ham and ALWAYS eggs I can fix. Add strawberries and some cake I have in the freezer and wahhlaa ! Dinner. That is if I feel I can taste it:)
    Easter dinner here in the South is usually : Ham, mashed potatoes, green beans, deviled eggs, and rolls (with a lot of other sides). ANd of course, iced tea (sweet) the house wine of the South. I read about a man from Georgia whose kidneys failed him and they attributed it to his drinking a GALLON of sweet tea a day.
    Have a lovely Saturday all. For me, I will see it from the inside. I do need to get gas, but that can wait til tomorrow.
    Love
    Tonie

    • AH TONIE….YOU CAN’T LET THOSE FANCY CLOTHES GO TO WASTE…….PUT A SURGICAL MASK ON AND GET YOURSELF OFF…..IF YOU FEEL LIKE IT THAT IS.
      THANK YOU FOR THE DESCRIPTION OF WHAT YOU DO THERE WITH THE EGGS, WHAT A GOOD IDEA. WHATEVER YOU DO, ENJOY MY FRIEND…….LOVE JENNIE XX

  20. Sue:
    (and others) there is a Shaklee product I had forgotten about. Called “Defend and Resist”. When you start getting a cold and such, you take 6 tabs for 7 days ( or make a tea of them). It has Zinc, Echinacea, lark tree extract, and elderberry extract and juice. It does work, wish I had it this past week. It really softens down the symptoms. Makes a wonderful tea.

    • Tonie, that sounds interesting and has all the vital ingredients to resist colds, flu, etc. I’ll have to try it. Sue

    • Tonie, so sorry to hear that wretched virus is still hanging on so tightly. Hope you feel up to church tomorrow but if not…do whatever will get you well. Spring is coming, spring is coming…it does about everytime this year, right? Be good to yourself and settle down with a Tom movie. Love you, Sue

  21. What a great bunch you are..my easter is getting better and better cos of all of you ! I’m really lucky to have you
    Gotta go feel like doin after freezing with thoughts,but it started getting better after I posted last nite.
    I can enjoy all now and that’s all your doin…chrisx

    • Chris, We’re just others who know what your life is like because of our own life experiences. Do hang in there and enjoy your weekend. Love, Sue

      • Chris:
        We are all one big “functional” family ! We have all been there in some way or the other. If we can’t lift each other up, then we are sorely in need of a redo. This is my go-to place for it all. Sometimes I even get a dressing down when I need it. But it is all here and all done with love. There is a Spirit that binds us all together here, and it is one of compassion and of Love. I believe Sue was given this blog from God for the Spiritual and physical uplifting of His hurting children. It is therapy for her and I know it is for me. God bless you today and everyday !
        Love
        Tonie

  22. Jennie, I have liked Robson Green since many years ago when I saw him in RECKLESS. There’s another film where he plays the prince’s bodyguard. Also saw some episodes of WIRE IN THE BLOOD and another TV series. Haven’t seen SOLDIER, SOLDIER. Loved ME AND MRS JONES. I also like one he isn’t in, MRS. PRITCHARD and love the old series with Catherine Zeta Jones about the farm family, DARLING BUDS OF MAY I think it was called..
    I hope you enjoy your lunch out tomorrow. Looks like a quiet day for me. Jim and I will go to the market. Shouldn’t be too crowded on Easter. GD, the youngest, won an award at school yesterday and I missed it. The chairs at those events are so hard and didn’t feel up to standing. I get so tired of missing so much. Feeling a bit sorry for myself today. It will pass. Do find some spring to enjoy my dear, okay and I’ll do the same. Sunny here now but rain later. Love, Sue

    • Jennie, I forgot to comment on the film UNCLE BUCK. My daughter in law has a brother named Chris who all of my other, older grands have always called Uncle Buck because he looks a bit like John Candy used to and was a fun uncle. Small world. Sue

      • SUE….THAT’S INTERESTING…..ALL THE PROGRAMS YOU LIKE, I LIKE TOO……REMEMBER “THE FONZ” IN “HAPPY DAYS”? LOVED THAT ON SATURDAY MORNINGS, USED TO WATCH IT WITH THE KIDS….SO MANY, I COULD GO ON AND ON AND ON….YADA YADA…………….HAVE AN EASY QUIET TIME AND ENJOY THE MARKET WITH JIM IF YOU CAN MANAGE IT……………..THINKING OF EVERYONE ON THIS SPECIAL DAY…………LOVE AND HUGS …JEN X

  23. Hey all:
    Still coughing and sneezing. Drinking lots of ginger ale. Eating soup.
    I did get a hopeful call today. The lady I am borrowing the post hole digger from, called and said they want to come by and see what I have to do. Her husband says he might can just help me. Oh would that answer a prayer. Trying to figure a way to get the posts in the ground once I dig the hole. They will be over tomorrow.
    Cool tonight, just turned on the heat and came to cuddle with the boys. I have been watching “24: I never saw it when I was on tv. Up to where they are setting off the bomb in LA. The one they wouldn’t air because of 9-11. The lady playing the presidents wife trips me out, cause she is just like Michelle Obama. Anyway, back to my movie.
    Love you all
    Tonie
    PS Sue, I like Robson Green as well. LOVED ‘Blood in the Wire:

  24. Blessed Easter to you all:
    No church for me this am. Not taking a chance on getting all the older people sick in church. Still coughing and wheezing. Feeling better, but still feeling it 😦 . There was frost on the Easter Egg this am. Skim of ice on the water again , enough already !
    I pray that all of you have a wonderful get together with family and share this wonderful celebration of Life Eternal that was given us by our Risen Savior.
    Love
    Tonie

    • Tonie, pleased to hear you’re getting better, even if it is gradual. Please take care and let your projects wait until you are completely recovered. I know you will do what you like…you remind me of my DH that way…the old never say die attitude and dedication but I’d like to see you get past the dangerous time of complications. So many folks are getting strep throat or pneumonia this year. Ice on the horse water…yuk. May spring arrive soon. We had a sunny morning and then rain in the afternoon.
      Jim and I did a grocery shopping because it was much needed but had a terrible day after that. So much pain. I had put off taking my methotrexate due to sore throat and finally took it last night. Throat better for me.
      Our son is coming tomorrow and of course, looking forward to it. Have to clean off much from around the bed where he will sleep. Frustrating because I can’t lift boxes of books that need moving. Jim is working very long hours now, even on weekend due to an inmate who needs catheterization every few hours. It’s nuts. I hate to see him work like this. It’s worries me terribly.
      I think spring will be so good for you when you can get outside, knowing how much you love that and can look at new mobile homes as well. Bet it’s getting beautiful in the mountains with the early signs of renewal. Love, Sue

  25. Tonie, I started watching the first series of 24 the night I had surgery on my left thumb and was so involved in the show it really helped with pain control! I’m glad you are feeling a bit better!

    Chris, I went into the ER one night very short of breath and they found spots on my lung and I was hearing possible diagnosis from TB to pulmonary embolism and they turned out to be rheumatoid nodules so there are many things spots can be.

    Sue, I agree that there was a heavenly angel in your car on your trip to Portland, but I’m sure George is your earthly angel.

    My family is coming for dinner and their Easter Baskets are wrapped. The little ones are each getting a large Kinder Egg so I know the will be thrilled and some summer clothes because that is what helps their parents out … they are all growing like weeds. This flare is showing no signs of letting up and my hands, feet, neck and even my jaws and teeth are very painful, so I am resting up to ice a bunny cake. DH is cooking the potatoes and we bought a large spiral ham which DIL is cooking and both girls are bringing salads so we should be good to go. I am going to try to find time to make the cucumber/ cherry tomato appetisers on my FB page as little Neve loves them both, even better than sweets, but today she will be very excited about the Kinder Egg … they even watch them being opened on You Tube! My rheumy’s office called the other day and said I just have to give them a call and they will make arrangements to have my back injected and all my family think I should get it done before summer. It is still very painful but right now it is my feet that are making it difficult to walk!!!

    Wishing you all a Blessed Easter Sunday.

    Love and Hugs … PM Brenda

    • Pommum Brenda, Good to hear from you but sorry life is still so painful. I join others in hoping you get the injection soon. It seems many of us have spots on the lung; interesting. Pain in the feet can be so confining, I know. Not as frequently as you but after a day of much walking, for instance at our large medical complex, I can’t stand the covers to touch my feet. I can only imagine how bad it is for you with your advanced disease. Isn’t it ridiculous the ways we often have to choose which area is hurting the most? So many problems for one little lady. I’m sorry dear, sweet girl.
      Your bunny cake sounds adorable and I, like Donna, am curious what a Kinder egg is. Hope the day went well for the family and both of you and hope the grands liked their new clothes. Love, Sue

  26. I hope everyone has had a wonderful Easter so far. I didn’t get up until almost 1:00. Then my daughter in NY called me. We were on the phone for an hour. I came downstairs and fixed me something to eat and got texts from some more of my children wishing me a Happy Easter. I read the newspaper and now I am writing to all of you.
    Tonie, I am so sorry you did not get to go to church today. As you said, better to stay at home than bring this virus around elderly people or children. I hope the gentleman will be able to help you with the posts. God always supplies! I saw the great pictures of Baby and Red you have posted on Facebook. Great pictures! Continue to rest and feel better.
    Jennie, hope your day has been a good one. I hope you have a good outing with your friends.
    Chris, so glad you ‘re feeling better about the spots. You see, a lot of us has had them as well and they turned out to be nothing. Praying that yours will also turn out to be nothing. I hope you had a good weekend and a Blessed day today.
    Sue, hope you are feeling better today. These spring colds or vivruses or allergies or whatever they are, can make you feel rotten. I hope your day has been a good one for you and Jim. Easter used to be a big family day when the kids were all little. Now that they are grown and spread all over, we don’t get together like we used to. I miss it but it would be very hard on me now. I kind of like doing nothing if I don’t feel like being around a lot of people.
    Pommum Brenda, I hope you are doing well today. I couldn’t believe you had that much snow again. I do hope that is the end of it and spring will start. I hope you enjoy your family today and pray you get some relief soon with your flare up. I might have to get a different kind of injection in my back. It is flaring up again. I have to ask you what is a Kinder Egg? I have no idea. I really feel foolish not knowing. Anyway, I hope it will be a Blessed Easter!
    Happy Easter everybody! LOVE and Hugs, Donna

  27. Happy Easter, everyone!
    We are back home after a longish day. We had Easter dinner with DH’s family this year and I finally saw our Grand Niece in person! I believe I was the only one who got to hold her. We got there early and she woke. I had a chance to hold her then. She is a spitter and anointed me early on. Her poor parents felt bad and apologized, but I assured them I had been spit up on many a time. Both my kiddos were spitters. 😉 (I now have my blouse soaking.) Poor little tyke has a cold or upper respiratory ailment and was a bit warm and fussy. Her mama gave her some Tylenol and managed to get her back to sleep, which she really needed, by holding her. Eventually they were able to put her back in her crib for a nap while we ate. Others got to see her, but not hold her. So happy I got her for a short while at least. 🙂 She’s a tiny one, just like I like ’em. Nice dinner and visit with everyone. Called my Mom when I got home, but she still has people there, so she’ll call me when they leave.
    I’ve caught up on everyone now – what a task! So many with issues and things going on. My heavens. You’ll be in my prayers for sure. Hang in there, one and all! I’m keeping tabs on a new one myself. Strange newish sensation at my larynx. Could simply be due to drainage and allergies, or something new like acid reflux, a couple of other remote possibilities (thyroid or arthritis). I contacted a gal I sang with in Italy years ago who is a speech-language pathologist and is Coordinator of Voice Services at Brigham and Women’s Hospital in Boston, Mass. We chatted a bit and she agrees I’m on the right path for now and will be sending me names of some good and appropriate ENT’s specializing in voice close to me if I want to follow up. Given all the basket of rheumatoid goodies and my OA as well, it wouldn’t be a bad idea. I made it through an important performance for Good Friday, thankfully. Now to be a bit more aggressive in trying to figure out what’s going on. Kids and DH are doing well. SB’s sprained ankle is not healing fast enough for him. He wants desperately to start running again, but so far it is not having it. DD had to work today. Poor kid. I know she really wanted to see the little one. She has applied for some jobs elsewhere that have come up and has an interview of sorts on Tuesday. She’s hoping for decent pay and a more regular schedule, especially since she will start school this fall for Health Care Management. Pets continue to be spoiled rotten. 🙂
    Blessings to all!

    • Lyn, SO pleased you had such an enjoyable Easter. I am sorry and concerned to hear about your voice. Whatever you do don’t go to Julie Andrews doctor. Poor woman. Did you see the Diane Sawyer special about the SOUND OF MUSIC with her and Ms. Andrews? I thought it was good. Seriously though, I am glad you are so knowledgeable and contacted a specialist. Remember my DD is a Speech Path. as well. I’m afraid this damnable disease, rheumatoid arthritis, can strike us just about anywhere. Just take it one challenge at a time. I’m pleased you were recently able to sing and fulfill a joy and an obligation. Remember…one step…no worries about what might be.
      Sorry you got baptized by the baby but it was a holiday. Glad you soaked. Those biologic stains can be a challenge. It sounds like a very enjoyable experience in spite of the excrement. Babies seem to be bursting out all over from every orifice.
      Pleased you have a good spring day today dear girl. Enjoy it. I have to go to the dentist but look forward to our son coming for a 24 hour visit tomorrow. Love you and thoughts with you…Sue

  28. Hello
    Hope everyone is having or has had a good Easter…….beautiful weather whoo hoo!! at last, hope its the same for all of you.
    Had a nice day with special friends yesterday, and hosting a lunch for them tomorrow….gave in and ate an Easter egg, got so used to not eating chocolate, it made me feel sick….serves me right….all done now and back on track.
    Keep well and sending blessing to all who are not feeling so good….lots of love…..Jennie xxxx

    • Jennie, Good to hear you had such an enjoyable lunch with good friends. Chocolate, huh? Sorry your enjoyable indulgence gave you pain. It seems more and more difficult to have a good time. I’ve given up chocolate candy and indeed all candy because of all the cavities I had last year due to my severe osteoporosis. I do occasionally eat ice cream bars, etc. then brush like mad. It’s not virtue. It’s expediency. I don’t want to go through anymore dental visits then I must. Currently have two cavities and will be going in this afternoon. My sitter is dreading it but such is life.
      Please tell us spring has sprung in France. It is busting out all over here. Love, Sue

  29. Morning all:
    Glad you all had a good day yesterday. Brenda, sounds like you had a great family day. You should get the injections done before summer, would make it easier and you would feel better.
    Lynn, you had a round up day too huh ? Spitting babies, ya gotta love me 🙂
    Jennie, Donna, so glad you both had good days.
    We all had a different day each didn’t we ? I did eat a ham biscuit 🙂 (well Hawaiian roll) My friends came by and looked at the work. Soon as I get my posts picked up he will come over and help me get them in. Thinks we can knock it out in a couple of evenings. God bless em.
    Still coughing this am, but gradually getting there. I MUST go out today and get feed, gas and a couple of things. Tomorrow I need to get the posts so we can get them done.
    Have a great day all
    Love
    Tonie

    • Tonie……you are sounding a bit better, I am glad you were with friends and not on your own, they sound so nice, and very helpful….please don’t try doing those big jobs on your own…….Spring is here, get planting……love Jennie xx

  30. Well jen glad you had a good w.end with chocolate😄…..me toooo!
    Tonie your cold sounds as if it’s getting better wahoo
    Hope all had a good day
    Us…well
    Had a good lunch and afternoon at DDs
    Then on way back DH said do I wanna go to shed for the day……yea
    So told my dad,he was busy on phone so told him on way to coast
    And rang as well before he went to bed
    Well….DD was going to see him today and she rang to say he wasn’t there.
    Neighbor sent he went to hosp at 3 that morning
    Well I came back straight awayand DD straight went to hosp
    Well I think it was attention seeking..I do really …he rang the puller switch as he said he hadn’t slept for three nites! So I said why did you do that and he said well they sorted it out!
    The pull switch people said he sounded slurry when he spoke well he always does and he can put it on!.so …he had a ct scan of head….all clear and he can come home .and he was sleeping all the time at Hosp. All this has taken nearly all day…and he was enjoying it all there inbetween sleeping
    So we were all controlled..so angry….don’t know how to keep it in as DD bp is sky high
    Public holidays seem to do this to him…
    Anyway..got it off my chest
    Ugh…..
    Chris

    • Hi Chris…..can’t believe I ate all that blooming egg……feel bloated today, and then tomorrow because friends are coming, I have made a chicken lasagne…….choc pud for dessert…….oh eck!!
      Impulsive decisions….like it….Dad at it again I see, he knows how to yank your chain, its so unfair that he keeps doing this to you, I think you need to put your DH first. it doesn’t do him any favours his b/p shooting up like that.
      Staying at the shed this week I hope, weather just right for you………..laters, love Jen x

      • Jennie, I’ve been eating more than my share of chocolate, too. I really must call a halt! So hard when I picked up chocolate peanut butter cup ice cream from our local dairy store. SOOOO good! Not my best move… 😦

    • Chris, I am saddened to hear of all your Dad’s antics. You will have to remind him about the little boy who cried wolf. It will gradually make it more difficult for you to know when it is truly a serious event in his life. It does seem as if it is getting worse, these childish episodes to get attention. Has he seen how angry you are right now? I believe he loves you and must know what a pain he is being. Maybe it’s time for a reminder. I assume you meant DH instead of DD has higher blood pressure. Poor guy. I know it must be so difficult being the only daughter to your Dad but…
      My DH has me terribly worried with working so much but turns a deaf ear to me when I point out why it’s dangerous for his health. Men can be such a problem for us gals. Two different species.
      Chris, since you aren’t on FB I’ll share with you a problem we’re having locally. Sea lions, mostly huge males are filling up our river walks and docks. My DD told me the authorities did an aerial check to check on our sand bars out in the river…for safety sake for ships and while they took photos saw all the sea lions and counted 2800. One enormous fellow got on the train tracks for our trolley the other day and caused a problem. They are huge, weighing several hundred pounds. It seems most of the females are staying in CA trying to find food for their young. Lots of folks are unable to sleep for all of the barking all night long. God’s creatures are indeed trouble right now.
      Hope you enjoy another trip to the beach house very soon dear girl. Thinking of you today as always, Sue

  31. Nope at home jen only come today so will stay for a bit.dad says his phones aren’t working now…so I dunno at all it’s getting all worse

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