WHEN YOUR LIFE ROLLS OVER ON YOU

ship in storm

 

Here in the beautiful Northwest, we have the very helpful presence of the U.S. Coast Guard. At the mouth of the Columbia River the freshwaters of the river can become quite violent when they are met by the salt waters of the Pacific Ocean. Driven by winds and rain, the channel can be torrential in its violence and sadly, each year many boats end up in trouble. Capsized or floundering in dangerous water is, I’m certain, a most frightening experience. Each year lives are lost, usually due to a lack of knowledge of these waters and their risk. When the waters are particularly violent, the Coast Guard has a line of ships which have the capability to roll over and right themselves. If your small sailboat has been tossed and turned and you end up in the water alone or with someone you care about, thrashing around for your life, it must be a great comfort to know there is a ship or a cutter that can come to your rescue in such a dramatic fashion.

If they can design and build a ship with those capabilities, then we, as human beings must have the same capability, don’t you think? For many of us, our lives have been turned upside down, we’ve been tossed about and we end up in a totally different place then we intended to be. We’ve been rolled over, tumbled and left to flounder.

HOW DO YOU GET RIGHT SIDE UP AGAIN?

Many of us have found ourselves lying on the couch after moving from the bed and that was “it” for the day. Many of us live that way for years, not just days. Each of us have to find our own way in “righting” ourselves to get back on our feet and back on the road of life. We can seek help from the “rescue ships” and sometimes from above, in the form of a “helicopter” but the bottom line for our rescue is it has to be “an inside job.”

It takes profound courage. It takes faith in the future and hope for a brighter tomorrow, as well as sniffing out just the right doctors who can offer us assurance, medical knowledge and the right tools to get back up again. Sometimes we rely on faith in a power stronger than ourselves; at other times family and often, our built-in responsibilities because we don’t want to “let down” those we love. Being needed on a daily basis can be a very good thing. Life has a way of dragging us on, forward and upward; all we have to do is hang on. Eventually, we do find dry land.

HAVE YOU EVER HAD THE HOUSE FALL ON TOP OF YOU?

Do you ever feel like the wicked witch from the WIZARD OF OZ? Oh, come on. I’m sure you have at one time or other felt like all that was left of you were two legs in striped stockings, sticking out from a house that has fallen on you. No? Then you are very fortunate.

I know this may sound strange, but there is something profoundly empowering about being on your last leg, down to your last straw and yes, having the house fall down on top of you. My goodness, so much violence with boats turning over; houses falling on top of us and many other analogies that may come to mind but life can really suck sometimes. Life is not for the feint hearted. Those are the times you indeed need to tie a knot in the end of your rope and hang on. You hang on for your life, for the lives of those who love you and for the life you have yet to live. It’s not completed you know, just because you have received a diagnosis of a painful disease you have to live with. It’s not over when your life is upturned, disrupted or maimed. How much life does it take to be alive? How much air does it take for one breath? How much water does it take to get wet? Hold on, hold on.

WHEN IS ENOUGH, ENOUGH?

This is a question that often arises among all of us who lead this lifestyle when we’ve suffered enough; experienced enough fatigue and look heavenward and shout, “Enough already!”

It’s a shame this isn’t a video because that last idea should be animated, with arms flailing in the air and uttered with an extremely hostile growl from deep within. We could jump in the air, lift furniture and toss it and put a fist through the wall but, that all takes too much effort and most importantly, it would hurt those parts of us which already hurt. Too bad though, that all sounds insanely therapeutic.

After almost 30 years of living with pain I can’t even count all the times I’ve uttered that phrase, enough already. To whom am I speaking? Well, it varies, so let’s see; there’s God, the Force, the wall, myself, all my dead relatives, half of my living relatives and often, the dogs. It’s okay because I don’t think the dogs are speaking back to me, but some of the others, well, maybe.

I spent, wasted and supposedly learned a great deal during the gnashing of the first few years I was ill. I couldn’t believe what my body was experiencing. Just the dire thought of living this way for the rest of my life was truly enough. I felt cheated, betrayed and deeply depressed. Unlike some people, I didn’t ever think it was a kind of punishment for anything I had done. I just don’t think that way. I always believed there were answers for me out there, somewhere, as well as a multi-changing purpose. I also never thought of doing away with myself for more than 30 seconds because of my faith and because of my love for my family. I’ve decided it takes far more courage to live than to die.

We all know there are two kinds of misery: physical and mental and both are usually accompanied by deep fatigue. That fatigue can pull you down and roll you around. It can zap life of all joy, make your daily needs impossible to fulfill and cause your behavior to be so bad you don’t even want to be in the same room with yourself.

We’re only human and can strike out in our frustration to those around us. Is this fair, of course not, but like a wet dog shaking off his moisture we often shake our aggravation just to be rid of it. This is unproductive but we don’t really care at the time we’re all wet. This act only isolates us further, but again, we don’t care. That’s when it is time to go back to the doctor, find a new doctor or if that fails to give you answers, it may be time to seek counseling. This life with chronic pain steals life, joy and productivity from us.

We’re in a battle for our lives and we have to win. With the help of a wonderful PCP, I have always found a tiny door to open on that infamous wall. It’s vital that we do not give up the search. It’s tempting, I know, but there are answers. It may be a different type of medicine. It may be physical therapy consultation. It may be a change of diet. Keep searching because there is no reverse in life, only forward. Maybe we can’t be who we were but we can be someone new. There is always intrinsic healing within us. There are times we may need help to find it. The train has already left the station and you and I are already onboard. Don’t we want the destination to be as joyful, fruitful and as pain free as possible? That may require us to think in new ways and discover new pathways.

There are certain qualities which I have found helpful when I feel myself drowning in the depths of “enough.” Although I believe we each have very individual answers to find in this search, some of these solutions are universal. Just a few of these are a deep sense of purpose within ourselves that tells us we have something to do, a talent we know we possess and need to use, or someone who needs us in their lives. For those we love we often climb stairs, hang in there with a job and let life pull us along even if it does hurt our hands, our knees or in my case, my sitter as well. A purposeless life isn’t really living, is it?

A GOOD SENSE OF HUMOR WILL GET YOU THROUGH THE ROUGHEST DAYS

I believe each of us comes to a point in physical suffering when we feel we cannot go on any longer; but we do. We fall asleep, or just fall down; we swallow a pill, cry until we’re dry or many other ways of coping. When we hit that wall, it’s very personal. Everyone copes differently but the ones who use humor are the survivors. I’ve seen grown adults with a broken toe who think it’s the end of the world and others who were in traction after a devastating accident and strung up like laundry on a clothesline in dire pain still manage a laugh or two.

If you’ve ever been hospitalized it is the workers and medical personnel who made you smile who still live on in your memory. Individuals who can make you laugh are pure sunshine in the form of caring and loving humans. Often they take a different form that isn’t human. Any of us who live with pets know this is true. Their antics bring buckets of joy to a dry heart.

If you haven’t read the writings of the late Norman Cousins, you should. He writes about the therapeutic use of humor with chronic pain. He made quite a study of the healing effects of laughter on chronic illness.

Look for joy while you are seeking the best medical care possible. Open those closed curtains or shade, throw a ball for the dog or go outside and pick a flower from that plant you forgot to water. Enough is enough in our limited view but life still goes on and instead of being a dead end, it is just a layover or perhaps a detour while we see another way to go. It is said the Chinese symbol for misfortune is the same symbol as the one for opportunity. I hope it’s true because it’s such a lovely, healthy thought.

I would like to challenge you, my friends, to wait until your boat rolls over; take a deep breath, hang on and it will right itself.  In many of the old movies they used to portray dream sequences by showing a series of doors opening. You would walk through one door to find another and another. In many ways that is our life with chronic pain. Closed doors do open; there is always another door to go through.  This experience is a conversion of sorts. Can you find it in your heart and spirit to embrace the new you? I understand so fully what I’m asking but I also know it is the only way out.

234 thoughts on “WHEN YOUR LIFE ROLLS OVER ON YOU

  1. Brilliant sue
    And believe me I’m alookin…I could really do with a new me
    Love all the description and the way it fits us all I think
    I must look up Norman cousins
    I’ll be back later to post what happened today.came to the shed after..needed to get away
    Chris

  2. Oh yes and buy the way…I want a U.S. Coast guard all of my own ..there be a new me😄
    Back later….soooo tired
    Chris

    • Brenda, thanks for your kind remarks. I just write what I have lived and hopefully learned. Come again. Sue

  3. I agree with Brenda. This is one of your best, Sue, and really touched my heart and soul. My dad always used to say “your body is a self-righting sailboat and can heal itself”. Thanks for reminding me of that. I can still hear him saying those words in my mind. I will print this one to have handy to read again and again. I hope you are progressing along slowly but surely!

    • Jo dear, good to hear from you. How wise your dear Dad was and continues to be as his words live on in your heart. Hope you are hanging in there. How’s the sitter? Mine is a bit wounded because I just came from PT. I’m slowly getting better in some ways but just holding my own in others. I told my PT today she’d probably be seeing me the rest of my life because this disease isn’t going to get better. I just have to deal with various parts of my body as they fall apart.
      Thanks for sharing your reaction with me. Hope you aren’t melting in that AZ heat…Love ya, Sue

      • Yes, Sue, one thing my dad was wise and smart. Wish i had listened to him more when I was very young. Hindsight is always 20/20!! Well, my sitter is always MISERABLE!! ITS A NEVER ENDING BATTLE!! I often say to myself and whoever willl listen (my poor dog!!)enough is enough. I’m going to try water p.t. I haven’t had good luck on land. Are you having p.t. to address all your different areas at once or just for the fractures/back? What kind of exercises do they make you do for s.i. joints? I hope the p.t. will continue to help you even if it’s a modest improvement and can keep all the other parts on your body from further damage . Hope your resting after p.t. yesterday. …….Jo x

      • P.S. OF COURSE, I’M MELTING!! IT HADNT BEEN TOO BAD UNTIL NOW…108°. WE HAD A GREAT JUNE FOR AZ…BELOW NORMAL TEMPS. I almost started thinking maybe the hot stuff wasn’t coming!!! Ha !

  4. Hi all
    Well as my dad wants to go to his own home he will only get a nurse to visit 4 times a day.If he went into a home they would pay a lot more ..so i was surprised
    But that’s what he wants so have to see if it works out
    My breathing clinic..have to do execises for over breathing see if that works.-. Go back in a month to increase it…I’ll try it it all mite work

    So came to shed and go back Wednesday.DH wants to go to a camera club meeting here who have got a talk about the subject he likes ..so a good reason to come back
    dD goes to see my dad tomorrow

    Hi Jo long time no see,good to hear from you
    Brenda hi I think you’ve been on before
    Chris

    • Hi Chris, since I knew you’d be back thought I’d wait and comment after you told us about your Dad. One point I keep meaning to ask you is can you get those alarms that hang around the neck like a small necklace for him to wear? That would be a way to alert the authorities if he falls and we all know that’s a possibility during the in between times that health worker is not there four times each day. Four visits should keep him clean, sort of, and bathe him as well as cooking…hopefully they will provide meals or cook. The bed and the commode will all help so much. Having a way to alert when he’s alone would be good. Hopefully he can get someone who is knowledgeable about skin and can keep him turned when he is in bed. Bedsores happen very quickly. Being in a chair during the day is good, too. A high protein diet will help keep him as healthy as possible. It’s strictly a try and see type of situation.
      As far as your breathing treatments, why not try it? Hope the steaming is still helping and just a quick observation…so glad and thankful you have the beach house to escape to. Hope DH enjoys the meeting about photography. So good he has that interest and talent. Do take care dear girl. You have my love and prayers. Sue

    • Hi Chris..thanks. I faithfully read Sue’s blog but normally comment on Facebook instead. But I’ve since deactivated my FB account. I think it’s wonderful all you’re doing for your dad. I wish i would have had more time with my dad in his last couple years. And I love the positive attitude you seem to possess with all you deal with!. Good luck with everything.
      Jo

  5. Thumbs up, Sue! Long, tiring day today. I don’t trust my brain to say more. 😉 Tomorrow I am treating myself to trying something new. A friend of mine takes antique pieces that have seen better days, paints, distresses, and waxes them beautiful and sells them. I picked up a really inexpensive marble topped pant stand to try to do myself and she’s going to walk me through it. If I “fail”, no biggie (and I have a piece of marble to do something with if I want), if it’s a success, I have a neat plant stand to keep or sell. Time to rest up!
    Chris, looking forward to hearing about your day when you are rested up.

    • Lyn dear, hope you’re getting some rest tonight. I just called Jim to bring home Mexican food for dinner as I got home from PT at 5 PM so I get it. Hope DD got an appt with her doctor. I think you’re new craft project sounds like so much fun. I’m afraid I’ve always steered away from plant stands because of our critters but do love them. Marble top sounds great. Is this the friend who did your dining room furniture? She’s good. Rest now. Love, Sue

      • Yes, Sue, that’s the friend. 🙂 Today I got the paint on it, Thursday I go back for the part I really need the guidance on. Hopefully my hands will allow me to do what I need to do. I think she was happily surprised that I enjoyed it so far. I do think I would, I just can’t do as much as frequently as she. I’d never try some of the larger pieces she’s done unless I had a LONG time and could work in short shifts. We agreed on Emperor’s Red for the stand. It looks nice with the marble. I can use it in my dining room, family room, studio, or even out front. Once I’ve been through the process with this smaller piece, I hope to be able to tackle a pretty dining room chair I bought for $10 and plan to do to use for decoration outside. 🙂 I just need to decide what color I want to paint it. I went along with her today to pick up paint so I know where to buy the kind she uses. It’s pricy, but worth the price in the quality. I saw I can get just a little amount, too, rather than a full pint. Perfect. I did sleep well last night, but still a bit tired today, and foggy brained, unfortunately. Thankfully, it was a peaceful activity to do in my fog, just harder to keep track of where I was in the process with the fog!

  6. Dear Sue, This has to be one of your best posts. Really understand the ‘enough already’ part, I must have said it a hundred
    times in the 10 years.
    Update I am using the pool 4 times a week and some machines at the gym that my PT recommended 2 times. Have some exercises that I am supposed to do every morning, but to be honest I just don’t make it everyday. I keep doing this stuff even though I am not sure it is doing any good. Who knows what would happen if I quit?
    Tonie, I am so happy for you, Things finally seem to be working out for you. I just worry that you will do too much. Please remember to take care of yourself.
    Chris, I am following your comments about your father whenever you post. I don’t have the same set of problems that he has, but mine are age related and I really understand his desire for independence.The .hardest thing for me to do was to admit I needed help.. It is still hard. I also know what it is like to be the caregiver and I admire you very much for what you are doing. Prayers and positive energy for you and yours.
    Jennie, Prayers for you Yorkshire Tyke, you are always in my heart.
    Wish I could write to everyone, but with these darn hands I end up rewriting almost everything and I get very frustrated. So take it that I read every word that is written and I feel all of your pain and I pray for everyone. I need to quit now or I will end up throwing this keyboard across the room. Love Janet

    • Janet
      So good to see a long post from you. I think of you often. Especially when working with the horses. I am doing too much. But I am really trying to be good about it. I am almost convinced I will never make Baby into the horse I need. She is too powerful for me to control and has no discipline. I need a good Tennessee Walker about 10 years old. Prayers for you sweetie always.love Tonie

    • Janet, Yes, I agree with Tonie, so good to hear so much from you and yes, we do understand how much effort and pain it takes for you to do it and it is appreciated all the more for that. No throwing keyboards. They’re much too expensive. Try a pillow. It sounds to me like you are so disciplined you put me to shame. My PT is more from the every other day school of thought. It’s hard enough for me to pick a few exercises to do then. There are so many for so many problems it gets a bit overwhelming.
      How very true it is that we often throw up our hands in total burnout and shout, enough already. Think of you often dear lady. Love, Sue

    • Janet, I’m impressed with your pool and gym time and commitment! Good for you! You take care. It’s always great hearing from you!

    • Janet
      You are right it is hard to admit help is needed. He was always so independent and could always do what he wanted. He was a sportsman,sport mad. Never sat still.
      But life changes and changes everything.
      You are doing well with the exercises ,you must be a very determined lady to keep that up
      Chris

  7. HELLO……NOT BEEN ABLE TO CATCH UP ON THE OTHER BLOG….LOVE THIS ONE SUE, THANK YOU I AGREE WITH EVERYONE ELSE….ITS ONE OF THE BEST…………ALL SORTS GOING ON HERE, NOT RECOVERING TOO WELL WITH THE DIVER AND IBS, BUT AT LEAST I AM STANDING UP STRAIGHT.
    HAVING TO GO TO HOSPITAL EVERY DAY, OUR FRIENDS HERE WERE IN TROUBLE, HE HAS A HEART PROBLEM, SHE CANNOT DRIVE, SO ME AND DH ARE SPENDING FIVE HOURS A DAY, UP AND DOWN TO THE HOSPITAL AND TAKING HIS WIFE IVY BACK HOME….SUCH A LONG WAY TO HER HOUSE TO COLLECT HER, AN HOUR OR TWO AT THE HOSPITAL, AN HOR TO TAKE HER HOME, AND ONE AND A HALF HOURS TO GET BACK….THERE IS NOBODY ELSE TO DO IT, BUT WE ARE GETTING NO SLEEP, WHICH ISN’T HELPING, THE DOG IS UP HALF THE NIGHT, RESTLESS IN THE HEAT….OH MY!! IF ONLY I COULD GET SOME DEEP SLEEP……GOT TO COME HOME AFTER ALL THAT AND DO THE COOKING…..PLEASE GOD HE WILL BE OK AND HOME SOON, OR IT WILL BE MY DH AND ME IN THE HOSPITAL. THE UPSIDE IS…..THERE ARE PLENTY OF TOILETS AT THE HOSPITAL, NOT MUCH OF AN UPSIDE IS IT?
    I WILL DO MY BEST WHEN I CAN TO READ ALL THE POSTS, BUT FOR NOW, PLEASE KNOW I LOVE YOU ALL, AND THANKS ONCE AGAIN SUE, AT LEAST I GOT THE TIME TO READ THE BLOG….SO GLAD I DID…….LOVE..JENNIE XX

    • Jen
      Of course you would do this.those who know you would know you would be the first to do this for your friend
      But take care Jen all those trips and your back ..I know you’ll be saying can’t be helped
      I just hope your friends DH will be ok and all will be well and you back to normal. Huh? Was that!
      Chris

    • Oh Jennie, I do worry about that good heart of you getting your body into trouble and DH as well. I pray your friend recovers and his wife stays strong. They are fortunate to have such good friends as you two. Hope the bowel clears up soon and you will get relief. It’s just a day by day business, huh? Understand. Take care as much as you can, okay? Much love, Sue

      • SUE……I AM OK, BUT IF I HAVE TO KEEP DOING THESE TRIPS, I WON’T BE….GOT A REPRIEVE TODAY, ANOTHER FRIEND STEPPED IN TO HELP, BUT WE ARE ON STAND BY, AS THIS PERSON IS NOT KNOWN FOR HER RELIABILITY, ALSO GOT TO TAKE HIS WIFE (IVY) SHOPPING ON FRIDAY, THEN TO THE HOSPITAL, SO NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO THAT DAY……HE COULD BE THERE FOR ANOTHER TWO WEEKS….BY THAT TIME I THINK I WILL HAVE EXPIRED.
        WITH REGARDS TO MYSELF….I MANAGED TO GET TO MY DOCTOR THIS MORNING, AND WAS GIVEN THE SAME MEDS, WHICH DID HELP, BUT I HAD RUN OUT OF THEN…..HE MASSAGED MY TUMMY AND SAID HE COULD FEEL THE COLON RELAXING……WELL YOU KNOW ME, I SAID “WELL YOU CAN JUST CARRY ON THEN WHILE I MAKE MYSELF COMFY”………HE THINKS WE BRITS ARE NUTS, BUT IN A GOOD WAY.
        SO PLEASED TO HEAR YOU ARE CLEAR OF YOUR INFECTION SUE, AND BY NOW I GUESS YOU WILL HAVE SEEN YOUR ONCOLOGIST, PLEASE GOD LET ALL BE WELL……………………LOVE AND HUGS….JEN X

  8. Janet
    Thank you for your kind words and your knowledge of my dads feelings..Good to hear from you
    Love your last sentence ! And I’ve Been there nearly done that!
    Hi Terry
    Lyn
    I used to love doing up stuff like that.it sounds as if it will be so pretty.just do it a bit at a time
    Hope you and DD doing better and all family ok

    Well my GS goes to Greece today with friends all same age……for a week.and me to do relaxed breathing!?
    Sue
    He always wears those alarm things round his neck.i shall bear in mind the protein when I do his shopping
    He did say see how this goes…so he’s thinking about a home!
    Waiting for the discharge sister to ring me with info on team coming to move my dads flat about to put this bed in
    Doing my breathing feels like I’m suffocating .10 mins 3x a day gotta lay flat knees bent ,breath 12 very shallow breaths a minute a long pause between each in breath.if I feel like a deep breath I gotta try swallowing!
    So I will keep it up
    It increases next time I see her
    Ok gotta get up got porridge for breakfast …made some sweet pot soup last nite for meal today,easy to go to this camera thingy tonite
    Sue
    Are you still better with your bladder …are you getting out to sit on that lovely porch you have
    Chris

    • Chris, I do love to hear what you are cooking, English style. I’ve never had sweet potato soup but I’m wondering why not? I love sweet potatoes baked until the sugar in them pops and then served with melted butter. I keep forgetting them and they are soooo good for us. May I ask if you blend it, the soup, or serve it with large pieces. I can imagine it creamy and smooth. What spices do you use if any?
      Sounds like GS is in for quite a trip. It sounds like an interesting time to be going to Greece. Hope he has plenty of money with him and won’t need an ATM machine.
      Your Dad appears to be facing some reality and I know that’s hard for him and can be so gruesome. I’m old enough to be thinking about many of those same things and maybe because of all my problems that often seem to be piling up it sets my mind to wondering about the future. I was thinking about something in regards to you not being able to go in at your Dad’s place due to the menthol odors and your Sjogren’s. Is he still using it? There are machines you can rent while he is out of the place that they used a couple of years ago when our house had the fire. It cleans the air of all odors. Of course, if he’s still rubbing on the menthol it would be for naught.
      Yes, my bladder infection is gone as are the antibiotics. Tomorrow we go to Portland to see the oncologist. Only one visit with one doc this time. Long trip for that. We’ll have to be sure to stop off for dinner if my back allows for it. I’m sure Jim looks forward to getting away even though it is a long trip. Thanks for the update on family. Take care dear girl, Sue

      • Well sue usually I blend it so it’s nice and creamy like you say..I put a dash of smoked paprika or sometimes just a dash of cinnamon with it..but at the shed I just mashed it so it’s sort of mixed as i haven’t a liquidiser here This time tho I only put curry powder with it but I did add some red lentils with it this time, yea I love baked ones too they’re are so moreish
        Yep we’ve made sure GS goes with sufficient money and we’ve told him is he’s robbed to just let it go..he txt me when he got to the airport here and when he got to Greece..?He knows what makes me tick!!
        Well there’s a antiseptic the cleaners use for the b.room and that smell as well.it still is so strong
        He will only start again as well when he gets home with the menthol he has the heat on in the summer and won’t open windows…I do remember you saying at the time about those machines.i think now it’s too late to start as he mite be home early next week..but we have been in and opened the place up but it builds up when closed again
        I hope you get to stop for a meal out..I don’t think you’ve done much of that of late..you used to go to some nice ones..one fish restaurant by the river used to sound good
        Hope all goes as it should for you tomorrow be thinking of you
        Well that’s it gonna really go to bed now
        Chris

  9. Oh my. What a great blog Sue !! I think this this best one of the year You really dug deep here and found truth
    Humor has always been a part of my life. Through sorrow or pain a little laughter lifts you up. And for an instant you realize that joy is still within you. That house has fallen on me a lot of late. But I am crawling out from under
    My sister so graciously made me a list of all the things I need to do before it is cold. At first it made me a little angry. But then I saw the good in crossing things off physically b
    Hope you are all having a good day
    Love
    Tonie

    • Tonie, I’m sorry Baby is not working out quite as planned. I do hope you know someone who can ride and work with her. That may be helpful?? And, I do think your sister’s idea is a good one. It will be helpful to you to have a check list. It helps you plan a bit more, and does feel so good to check things off when accomplished! Can you tell I like lists? 😉

      • Lyn:
        My body is just not up to setting up with her. I can ride her but not like I want. I wouldn’t giver her up for nothing though. Yes I remember you like lists. 🙂 Thing is I keep adding to it !

      • Haha, the danger of lists! Glad you can ride Baby, but maybe you can find someone else to do what you’d like to do with her so she’ll learn?? Is that a possibility? I’m not a horsewoman, so I wouldn’t know. Beautiful animals. Sadie and I enjoy seeing them on our walks, and I always thought I’d enjoy riding. I believe I might have been once a very long time ago as a kid.

    • Tonie, glad you got something out of the blog. That is my hope each time I write one. Judy sounds so much like she’s in the big sister mode. One of my sisters was bossy like that and never changed.
      Do take care and keep those striped stockings in hand while you climb out from under that house. Sometimes life is just too much. Thank the Lord for nights and new days. Glad the last shots helped so much. Love, Sue

  10. Jo
    Thank you for the kind words….but sometimes I’m not all positive…it comes and goes in waves
    I know you mentioned your dad on the blog some time ago it’s hard to live with and sometimes you remember stuff and oh I know ..I lost my mum in 2008 .words don’t really fill what you want to say
    108f. We used to have that temp,in Oz….exhausting
    Lyn
    You’ve got me going on these pine candlesticks I’ve had.ive been wanting to put a cream wash on them for ages and keep putting it off..well I’m gonna get the stuff when I get home now… I got an itch to do it

    Went to camera club and it was interesting about looking at pictures a different way..but my butt is Sore as usual
    Jen hope you got some rest there
    Tonie
    I do lists…all the time and cross stuff off…..how do you manage without one..I have a diary and then I bring it out and write down for the week and then I make lists for the day….I got OCD with it..can’t do without one…..and then I bring one to the shed! You’d have a real laugh if you could see
    Sue
    How’s the tiles going and painting your wall?
    Well gonna get to bed
    Chris

    • Chris:
      I have a list in my head All the time. SOmetimes I have to write things down, like groceries, but most of the time I just keep it running in my head. Never like to use them in personal life, however in business I had them running everywhere ! Tiles are done, but the wall painting is on the bottom of the list. I will leave it for this winter.
      Have a good sleep. We are having another bad storm coming thru. Still waiting on some good weather to cut hay !!
      Prayers for your grandson.
      Love
      Tonie

    • HI CHRIS……NOT MUCH REST I’M AFRAID, BUT A DAY OFF TODAY……TROUBLE IS WE ARE BEING PLAGUED BY BLACKFLY, AND THEY GET EVERYWHERE, EVEN A LAY DOWN ON THE BED, AND THEY ARE THERE, MANAGED TO GET THE BATHROOM UPSTAIRS PAINTED WITH DH, SO A GOOD JOB DONE, AS THESE TRIPS TO THE HOSPITAL HAVE BEEN EATING INTO OUR TIME…..
      I AM A “LISTER” TOO, CAN’T DO WITHOUT THEM, AND I KEEP A DIARY, ACTS AS A GOOD REFERENCE BOOK.
      I HOPE YOU ARE COPING WITH THE HOT WEATHER, DON’T KNOW IF YOU ARE AT THE SHED OR HOME, BUT THINKING OF YOU, HOW IS IT WITH DAD, IS EVERYTHING IN PLACE NOW, OR ARE YOU STILL STRUGGLING WITH ENDLESS PROBLEMS?? …….LOOK AFTER YOURSELF LOVE…….JEN XX

  11. Jo, I know. Of course, it’s hot as Hades in AZ but you seem to always be handling it so well. Do you ever get used to it? I assume you do. We used to live in the central valley of CA and that’s why we moved to OR. Can’t take it. My carseat was hot yesterday and I realized how much I don’t miss hot cars, etc. It is so beautiful in AZ. You always post the most wonderful pics. I’ll miss them if you’re off of FB.
    In answer to your question about PT, it would be impossible to answer on here because there are so many of them. I still use the R. Don Tigny exercises for the SI joints, she also added one using stretchy bands tied to the bed posts or stuck in a closed door and I stretch it with my legs, out and in in all directions. I would recommend the best PT you can find and giving it another try. Each of them are so different. Yes, she is treating all of my problems and there is only room for so much in a one hour visit. I also use machines to free up my left arms and shoulder that was frozen after radiation treatment.Some PT’s will only treat one problem at a time. That’s why I changed to this one and I’m so glad I did. Swimming and water therapy is great. We have a fabulous indoor pool but it has too much chlorine for my breathing or I would go there. The weightless exercises brought about by swimming are so much easier on the joints.
    Your dear Dad must have been a fine man. It’s a wonderful thing that he still is with you in your heart. Love, Sue

  12. Lyn, soldier on with the project. Sounds so stimulating and has such creative power. I love projects like that and wish I could do more of them. I love that deep red. The marble, is it gray or black? The chair for outdoors sounds like fun as well. Are you going to cut a hole in the seat for a potted flower? I’ve seen that done around here. Glad you rested a bit better. Love, Sue

    • Sue, I think for now I will just leave the cane seat as is and sit a plant or something on it until the cane gives out. Then I can remove and sit a pot down in. Gives me more options of what to sit on it. 😉

      • Lyn,, caning in any older piece of furniture is so hard to find nowadays. And it is definitely a lost art. Sounds nice. Sue

  13. Thank you, Sue, for this encouraging post. I needed some encouragement this week because it’s been rough. I think I’ll print this out and put it close to my bed and read it every morning! 😃 I appreciate you sharing your journey, it’s really important to so many of us that someone understands and can put it into words! What a gift we’ve been given!! Thank you and God Bless you!

    • Brenda from Texas, it’s been awhile. It’s good to hear from you but I am sorry you’ve been having a rough time of it. I assume you’re having an undue amount of pain, more than usual? I have thought of you along with Janet who recently wrote in and Annie as my three who I know keep up with the blog, from that great state. I guess my son reads also and lives in Dallas but he doesn’t comment. So, has it been terribly hot? You’ve had such crazy weather all spring and summer down there. Hang on my dear because something good will happen. It might not last. It might not be what you want but there are still so many areas of life that bring satisfaction and joy. Do take care…Fondly, Sue

  14. Morning peeps:
    Hope this finds you all well and happy. We had another big storm come thru last night. More rain. It is good for the garden but I really need to get my hay cut :(.
    I have not been sleeping well of late. So tired by the evening I just am beat !! I have to buck up tonight, cause I picked up the spare saddle and must be trying to ride Red tonight. It is an English saddle which will be a change for me. I haven’t ridden one of those in a while. But it will be good practice for my granddaughter to find her seat in both styles. I pray he behaves. I think he will, he is such a sweetie. Like a puppy dog and has been given direction, cause he follows hand signals very well.
    Sue, been thinking of you a lot with your PT. I am glad you only have one Dr to go see. Hopefully you can stop and dine out. It is good to get away for a little day trip, even if it is to the Dr. It is all the waiting at their offices that kills you.
    All of you who post on here, Brenda from Texas, Terri, and all of you We are so glad to see you all on here. WIsh you would post with us more. We welcome all. If it looks clannish, it is because us few have been on here so long, we know each other. But if you were to hop in here with us, we would get to know you as well. It is what this is all about. Helping one another.
    Love to you all
    Tonie

  15. YESTERDAY….DH AND I WERE SITTING IN THE CAR SO AS TO GIVE OUR FRIEND SOME PRIVATE TIME AT THE HOSPITAL WITH HER HUBBY…….GOT THE DOG IN THE BOOT, FASTENED TO THE CAR TROLLEY WHICH CAN BE USED AT THE SHOPS FOR GROCERIES……HOT DAY SO ALL THE WINDOWS AND BOOT WIDE OPEN.
    FELT THE CAR SHAKE, THEN THE DOG MUST HAVE SPOTTED SOMETHING INTERESTING, WAS OFF LIKE A WHIPPET STILL ATTACHED TO THE TROLLEY, TROLLEY UPSIDE DOWN, CONTENTS STREWN ALL OVER THE CAR PARK……GOLF BALLS EVERYWHERE, GOLF TEES, TOWELS, BOTTLES OF WATER, DOG BOWLS AND LEASHES……AND WORST OF ALL, A TOILET ROLL WHICH UNRAVELLED ALL THE WAY TO THE EXIT SIGN…….GOT IT ALL PICKED UP, DURING WHICH TIME SAID DOG APPROACHED WITH EYES CAST DOWN AND DRAGGING THE TROLLEY BEHIND HIM………….JUST THOUGHT I WOULD TELL YOU THAT, COS IT WAS HILARIOUS………………………JENNIE XX

      • Tonie, Can’t find the entry you made from a couple of days ago but wanted to comment on Baby. I’m sorry the riding isn’t working out as you had hoped but just remember all you’ve done for her and the shape she was in when you got her. It’s like that old commercial, “You’ve come a long way baby.” Know you’re still enjoying the grands and it sounds like you’re getting a bit more rest. How’s Ms. Alice? It doesn’t sound good for the sweet old dear. My but haven’t you had the weather with storms and buckets of water coming down. Get the hay in yet? Saw the pic on FB of your new chick. How fun for the kids and you.
        We had a grueling trip to Portland and seemed to last forever. Going to try another med for cancer. Going every other day to see if I can tolerate it. Not looking forward to it but will try. The last two made me puke. George seemed to enjoy himself. He gets admirers wherever he goes, the little cutie. He was wearing his Thunder Shirt and he looked so butch. So funny. Let me know how you’re doing. Get nervous when we don’t hear from you. Must get into the shower..and get on with my day. Much love, Sue

    • Jennie, that does sound hilarious. Sacha had quite an outing huh? You two must have been shocked, humored and doing a lot of fetching while Sacha looked on. There’s a lot more strength there than I would have thought…pulling a trolley upside down, no wheels to help. How funny. How is your friend doing? Are you holding up okay with all this carting back and forth?
      I went to the oncologist yesterday. Long day to Portland. We stayed with George due to the heat in Portland and the car when the air is turned off so ate late on the way home. Jim brought him into the main lobby of the hospital to get cooled while I went upstairs for my appt. Doctor and I decided I will try a third oral chemo and see how it goes every other day. PT today although I was ragged. Went just fine, now resting. Hope you’re doing the same. Love, Sue

      • HI SUE….JUST GOT BACK FROM THE HOSPITAL….A BIT EASIER TODAY, AS WE WERE ABLE TO BREAK UP THE DAY BY EATING LUNCH OUT AT A CHINESE RESTAURANT……HAD MORE SAKE THAN I SHOULD HAVE, BUT WHAT THE HELL!!
        YES I THINK SACHA ENJOY HIS LITTLE SOJOURN THROUGH THE CAR PARK…..WE LEFT HIM AT HOME TODAY, JUST IN CASE. HE HAS TAKEN TO SLEEPING OUT ALL NIGHT ON THE FRONT DOORSTEP, I HOPE FOLKS DON’T THINK WE ARE BEING UNKIND.
        OUR FRIEND IS DOING OK, WE ARE HOPING HE MAY BE HOME NEXT WEEK, THEY HAVE TAKEN HIM OFF BETA-BLOCKERS, PUT HIM ON SOMETHING ELSE, NOT SURE WHAT IT IS AS THE LABEL WAS IN FRENCH, HE IS ALSO ON BLOOD THINNERS……NOT WARFARIN BUT SIMILAR, SO MUSTN’T EAT GREENS ETC, HE IS PLEASED ABOUT THAT AS HE HATES VEGGIES ANYWAY.
        SO ANOTHER LONG ARDUOUS TRIP TO PORTLAND MY FRIEND, I AM SURPRISED GEORGE WAS ALLOWED IN THE HOSPITAL, ITS NOT ALLOWED HERE, NOT EVEN IN THE LOBBY…….BUT NICE FOR GEORGE.
        SO THE CHEMO IS GETTING LESS IF ITS EVERY OTHER DAY….A GOOD SIGN YES??? PT GRIM FOR YOU LOVE? YOU ARE BENEFITING FROM IT THOUGH IT SEEMS……I KNOW ITS HELL WHEN EVERYTHING HURTS, AND YOU WONDER HOW YOU ARE GOING TO GET UP OFF THE FLOOR.
        BECAUSE WE HAD A DAY OFF YESTERDAY, WE SPENT IT SHAMPOOING THE CARPETS, TEMPERATURES WERE UP IN THE NINETIES…….WE HAVE TO DO IT WHEN ITS HOT SO WE CAN OPEN THE FRENCH DOORS AND ALL THE WINDOWS, TO HELP THEM DRY……SO TIRED WE BOTH COLLAPSED ON OUR BEDS AND JUST READ AND DOZED, AS YOU DO………………RIGHT, BETTER STOP RANTING NOW, AND GET ON WITH STUFF……KEEP WELL SUE, AND LOVE TO THE POOCHES AND TO JIM……………..HUGS…..JENNIE XXXXXX

      • Sue:
        I am doing ok. Still so very busy. Enjoying the kids, but they want a lot more time than I can give them. Esp Devin. I know, I am glad to give Baby a good home regardless. Got the saddle to try on Red tomorrow I hope. Ms ALice is still not remembering right. And her eyesight is so bad, it has her seeing all sorts of things. No hay in yet. We are hoping for no rain in the next week to get it cut and in. Looks like only one cutting if this keeps up.
        I have lost another 4 lbs.
        I am watching “The Last of the Mohicans” Haven’t watched it in a longs time. Wes Studi is such a bad guy in this. And Daniel Day Lewis is such a hunk !!
        Do take care Sue. I will be in prayer for this med. If it is meant for you to take it will work out. i jsut really hate to see you get sick .
        Love you
        Tonie

  16. Hi everybody, still on vacation. Having a wonderful time. Will write soon. Just wanted to say hi and Let you know I am reading the blog. Sue I agree with everyone else. I think this is one of the best blogs I have read. Hi to everyone. LOVE YOU all. Hardly any pain.I will go home next week. Will write on here soon. LOVE, Donna

    • Donna, so pleased you’re having such a good time visiting with your daughter. Pleased you liked the blog. Live it uip girl…Love, Sue

  17. Jennie, Clean carpets would be nice. I need to do that here but just not quite to that level yet. Jim works too much to help with that big a job. Wonder why Sacha wants to sleep out…is it the heat? Pleased to hear your friend is better. What a time he’s had and you both.
    The reason my chemo drug will be every other day is to see if I can tolerate it. The last two made me so sick I dread trying another but really must give it a go. In two months it will time for another infusion of Zometa for the bone density. Hope it’s doing its job.
    Hope the heat isn’t being too hard on you.
    Concerned we haven’t heard from Chris and pray all is well with all she is in the midst of right now. Love, Sue

    • HI SUE…….YES I THINK IT IS THE HEAT WITH SACHA……ITS ALL OR NOTHING IN NORTHERN FRANCE….OH I SEE WHAT YOU MEAN ABOUT THE CHEMO, OH I DO HOPE THIS ONE DOESN’T MAKE YOU FEEL SO SICK. I TOO HOPE YOUR BONE DENSITY INFUSION IS WORKING FOR YOU……WILL WAIT FOR THAT OUTCOME.
      GOING TO EMAIL CHRIS TO SEE IF SHE IS OK…………………..LOVE JEN X

  18. We’ll hear I am again
    Went back and now at shed again
    dD is visiting my dad this w.end
    All went pear shaped…the hosp bed was to be delivered with a warden there this afternoon to move stuff. the bed came this morning and the warden couldn’t make it.we got there and he was a nice man and moved some stuff for us so he could get bed in..but my dad wouldn’t be able to reach the intercom to open the main door.so I thought that could be moved..but no.then the discharge team got involved and said he would have to go into a home..dad says no…they are on to me.i know how my dad feels and therefore am weighted on that side but understand the pressure on them….they are having difficulty getting the carers in.2carers 4x a day….but that’s not my dads fault .they want him out of the bed. But can’t until the get package in place. They are getting a bit brisk with me and say they might have to have an assessment so I will have to attend with him to say we take responsibility.
    What a day phone calls from them went on and on..
    So he is in till Monday at least…so we are at shed.
    My dad seems stable but still can’t understand him
    He is looking forward to going home.i was outside the shop getting him some food in when the hosp rang and said not to bother he won’t be home. They are going to have a word with him Monday about going into a home ….I thought about it and thought it better I should tell my dad so he knew what was coming and told him to think carefully about it.
    They actually got a phone to him for me …they usually say they can’t ..so that was lucky…and while he had it he asked me for his neighbours phone no. To ring….I rang her after and she had spoken to him. So he’s all there sometimes! He could remember the tel no.and managed to ask for it ok!
    I fell down yesterday thought I. Was going to crack my head on a pillar but managed to grab it with my hands..but I’m all sore today
    Well sitting here. Thinking about it all and could I have done better..I don’t know but maybe I could have responded better. But when people are bring arsey with me they get it back …difficult to hold it in I have to have a go!
    Another day tomorrow
    Well what’s everyone been up to
    Jen
    You make me laugh sacha probably as sue says likes the cool there
    Donna
    Good one you enjoy it
    Tonie
    You have a good w.end you deserve it….don’t do to much again!
    Lyn
    How’s you and DD?
    Sue
    Well I hope these meds are kind to you… like they better be.
    Did you have a nice meal out what did you have
    Bet you didn’t have jennies sake!
    Well day is closing still got door open and sitting by it.
    Nice…….oh yes and I had a bar of chocolate all to myself…pig I hear you say?
    Love Chris

    • Chris dear, oh my, oh my. I do wish these bureaucrats or medical folks, whatever they are, wouldn’t get so arsey with you…don’t know if that’s what you meant to write but it fits. They’re just trying to do what’s write in general and you are trying to do what you know your dear Dad wants. What a spot to be in. You are his advocate, I know. There are so many “what if’s?” in this scenario it is hard to say. He has to be safe but you also want him to be happy. This simply isn’t a happy situation. It’s unfortunately one of those darned if you do, darned if you don’t situations. If he goes home they want him up because of his lungs and the health and safety of his skin but they must feel he won’t be up if he goes home. Why are they having trouble getting the help he needs? I assume they don’t have the home health staff?

      As far as their saying you should take responsibility if he goes home? How do you feel about that? My dear, how could you? It’s too much for you and DH. I’m so concerned about your falling and understand so very well how sore you must be today. I’m glad you are at the coast and enjoying the cooling breeze. There is just something so life giving about all of it. Hope nothing is broken and you’re just stretched and bruised and know that’s bad enough. Chris, know you’re in my prayers and thoughts and hope a solution presents itself. It is a sad time for all of you, especially your Dad but also understand you have to avoid him having serious injuries. It’s so painful for him to face the harsh realities, don’t we all know from our own situations? Wish I was closer so I could hug you right now.
      Yes, we finally stopped at one of the Mexican restaurants we like after it got cool enough to leave George in the car. Jim got his usual cheese enchiladas and refried beans and I got that shrimp tostada I love with a beef enchilada and had enough for lunch yesterday. Kids are all coming over for pizza or other take out tonight. Beth has a dear friend visiting from CA. They’ve been friends since Junior High so we know her, too. Will close for now so please be good to yourself and rest and heal. Love ya, Sue

  19. Sue. your Mexican food sounds so good.
    Yep I meant arsey..good innit!
    I know really I can’t take the responsibility for him and this arsey lady will ring me after she has spoken to my dad Monday Maybe she will have another point of view then .My dad looks at me and trusts me.how can I not do what he wants but as you say there is something other that needs to be done here for him now
    I don’t know altogether what the trouble is with the carers coming.she only said he would be by himself a lot .well they knew that before..they said he could have someone there at night and she didn’t know about that.she has taken over from the other discharge lady….and appears to want to get him out the easiest way for her….it’s difficult on the mobile the line not always the best.
    But that’s it till Monday now tho
    Yea I wish you were closer sue ,but your words envelop me
    Have a good night with your family
    I’m in bed and at last feeling sleepy….and my back is easing
    Love chris

  20. HELLO….I AM IN TROUBLE AGAIN, CAN’T HELP THINKING SOMETHING IS GOING ON OTHER THAN DIVER AND IBS IN THAT AREA…….DOC PUT ME BACK ON THE SAME MEDS, BUT NOT WORKING, HAD TUMMY ACHE ON TOP OF ALL THE OTHER, AND SOME BLOOD LOSS…….AND YES I AM SCARED. BACK TO THE DOC MONDAY THEN, I WANT CANCER RULED OUT, I JUST CAN’T LIE LIKE THIS ANYMORE….LOSING WEIGHT TOO, AND EATING SEEMS TO MAKE IT ALL WORSE, DON’T KNOW WHAT TO EAT ANYMORE…..IF I DON’T EAT THE RESULT IS THE SAME…………………NO ENERGY LEFT, JUST WANT TO GO TO BED AND NOT GET UP……………….SORRY FOLKS, BUT ITS ALL GETTING TOO MUCH, I AM AFRAID TO GO OUT NOW, AND THE HOSPITAL VISITS HAVE TO STOP, CAN’T KEEP DOING THE LONG RUNS EVEN FOR MY FRIENDS SAKE……..LOVE AND PRAYERS TO EVERYONE….JENNIE X

    • Hi Jennie, I knew by the time I got on here that you would be in bed so I waited until tonight to answer you. I agree with Chris, get thee to a doctor muy pronto. Sweet friend, you have been pushing it much too hard lately. I know you were trying to be a good friend but it always pays to realize if you were to drop dead tomorrow, someone would take over your duties and obligations. Don’t pay such a high price, okay? You’ve already been through a lot this summer. You will find out as soon as you get back to your doctor what is going on, hopefully that will be soon.
      We drove across the mighty Columbia today and went to a Saturday market but it was too hot to enjoy. I was afraid to put Georgie down on the hot sidewalk/asphalt and I couldn’t take the heat but did buy some fresh vegies and fruits from my favorite vendor over there. It was, except for the heat, a lovely, blue clear day here in the NW. Our house is terribly hot. We’re due to cool off tomorrow but Jim and SIL and a doctor friend are going to an air show in Portland tomorrow to watch the Blue Angels perform. They’re a world famous U.S.Navy group of elite pilots who perform special tricks/skills. Jim’s all excited. I plan on a quiet day at home watching a new DVD I just bought that’s British called The Crimson Field about WW! nurses. Hope it’s good.
      Sweet lady, please rest and watch what you eat. That should help so much even if you have to go on something boring for awhile. Love you much, Sue

    • Jennie:
      Taker easy until you can get back into the Dr’s office. Prayers in the meantime for some relief. Wearing yourself out doesn’t help either.
      Love
      Tonie

  21. Jen
    Get to that Drs and tell him what you said here…don’t forget you had a colonoscopy a year ago about…you had diver and bleeding then. All was ok…I know how you feel . You may have anaemia from the bleeding and diver that’s why you ARe tired
    Just one more day till the Drs
    Your friends will understand
    Chrisx

  22. Tonie, congrats on the weight loss. You’re are doing so well and I’m so proud of you. Good time of year to diet with all the fresh fruits and vegies when you get too tired of the liquid diet drink. Hope you got to check out Red with the new saddle.
    I recall Devon has always loved being with you and clinging a bit. Hope you’re holding up okay. Hows the heat after the rain or is it still raining? We’re having a hot one but tomorrow will cool off. The guys are going to the air show in Portland tomorrow and will be a bit hot. We went across the river to WA state this AM to get some fresh produce…all my favs this time of year. Hang in there with the kids and know you’re thought of. Love, Sue

  23. Sue:
    Doing ok here. Yes the fresh fruits and veggies are in abundance. I had a fresh spinach salad yesterday evening. It was so yummy. Found this great dressing that is honey musturd and made from yogurt. Hanging in 🙂 Devie is extremely sensitive and cries at the least offense. She was telling me how her mom had no time for her, always doing for the younger boys. I will talk to her mom about this, maybe she doesn’t realize. I did so much yesterday by the time the cool of the evening came around, I was too pooped to do the horse. Hopefully today. We are very hot right now. No rain for the last two days and they didn’t cut the hay cause it was supposed to rain !!
    So glad you got out to the market. I hear ya on the quiet day with a dvd. I am looking forward to one of those myself.
    Take care
    Love you
    Tonie

    • Tonie, this is what I have always feared with Devie and getting the little ones back in the home could only stretch your poor daughter thinner in her duties,etc. So much to do for all the kids it is hard to touch all the bases and the little ones demand so much. I know Devie has always felt so close to you and she’s fortunate to have you.
      Too bad and a bit frustrating about the hay, huh? Too hot isn’t good. The weather seems to be involved in so many of our lives. We’re cooler today and there’s a good chance of rain Wed.
      Hang in there. The summer will end and you’ll get back a chunk of your privacy. How are Nikki’s plans progressing? How’s Judy and her bad neck doing? Sorry Ms. Alice is failing so much. Old age can be so painful. Hope they’re showing her affection at home. Well, must scoot. Need to fill up on a few store items today then have the day to myself. Love you much, Sue

      • Sue:
        I spoke with daughter dear about Devie last night. She said it wasn’t exactly like she said. But that she would make an extra effort with her. She is almost packed up and ready to roll out about the 5th. I also must get rolling 🙂 it is early and I want to go to the store, get it over with. Then I have to get some outside work done before it gets too hot. So much to do and not enough day to do it in. Or not enough ME to do it in I should say.
        I have a friend coming to visit for a while next week and he (yes HE) said he will help me get a lot done up while he is here. I will tell you all about him at a later date. Just say a prayer or two for me. Good feelings here on this one.
        It is supposed to be really hot this week, so have to watch the garden close. Nathan and I picked the last of the red raspberries on Fri. Next up will be blackberries. I need to take a ride out to see how they are doing.
        Many prayers for you and the new meds. I am worried about you getting sick again. Please, if you do, just STOP. I cannot stand to think of you getting down the way you were in the winter.
        I hope you had a great day to yourself yesterday. Devin and I have been watching THE MUMMY Dvd’s, and now we have finished them. On to something else.
        Love you much
        Tonie

  24. HELLO……JUST CATCHING A FEW MINUTES BEFORE DH AND FRIEND IVY GET IN FROM THE HOSPITAL……PATIENT DOING WELL AND MAY BE HOME BEFORE MIDDLE OF NEXT WEEK, AND FAMILY COMING SO VISITING HOPEFULLY WILL NOT BE NEEDED FOR A TIME.
    THANK YOU FOR ALL THE ADVICE YOU HAVE ALL OFFERED, YOU CAN BE SURE I AM LISTENING…..

    SUE…..YOU ARE RIGHT OF COURSE, NONE OF US ARE INDISPENSABLE ARE WE? I JUST COULDN’T BEAR THE THOUGHT OF IVY SITTING THERE WONDERING HOW SHE WAS GOING TO GET TO SEE HER DH WITHOUT A CAR.
    WHEW! IT MUST HAVE BEEN HOT AT THE MARKET IF LITTLE GEORGE WOULD BE GETTING HIS PADS SCORCHED, STILL I AM GLAD YOU WERE ABLE TO STOCK UP ON YOUR FAVOURITE FRUIT AND VEGGIES.
    WE HAVE SIMILAR TO YOUR “BLUE ANGELS” THEY ARE CALLED “THE RED ARROWS” USUALLY TO BE SEEN DOING A FLYPAST AT VARIOUS FUNCTIONS AND CELEBRATIONS IE:- THE BIRTH OF A ROYAL CHILD, OR THE QUEENS OFFICIAL BIRTHDAY ETC, ETC. THEY ALWAYS RELEASE RED WHITE AND BLUE VAPOUR, WHICH IS GREAT.
    I PROMISE YOU WILL ENOY “THE CRIMSON FIELD” NO TALKING WAS ALOUD IN OUR HOUSE EXCEPT “PASS ME” WHILE THAT WAS RUNNING, I EVEN SAT ON THE REMOTE, MAYBE THAT’S WHY I AM HAVING PROBLEMS,,,HA HA !!!……LOVE YOU XX

    TONIE…..I HEAR WHAT YOU SAY, AND I KNOW I HAVE TO TAKE ACTION BEFORE IT GETS ANY WORSE, DREAD WAKING UP THESE DAYS, AND WONDER WHAT THE DAY’S PAIN LEVEL IS GOING TO BE LIKE. I HOPE YOU CAN HELP WITH THE LITTLE ONE’S FEELING OF NEGLECT……MAYBE A WORD FROM YOU WILL PUT IT RIGHT…….HOPE THE HORSES ARE OK, BUT OU NEED TO REST TOO, SO I WILL IF YOU WILL, OK??….LOVE JEN X

    CHRIS ….IT WAS TWO YEARS SINCE THE COLONOSCOPY, SO MAYBE THEY WILL SUGGEST ANOTHER…..WILL SEE WHAT THEY SAY……I WILL BE THINKING OF YOU MONDAY, TAKE CARE LOVE……..JEN XX

    JANET…..TANK YOU FOR YOUR KIND THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS, I HOPE YOU ARE DOING OK……MUCH LOVE..JENNIE XX

    • Jennie, hope today is a bit better for you. I have seen your flying squad at some of your televised national events. THey are wonderful. I hope to enjoy the movie and feel better knowing you liked it so much. Was it a TV series?
      Hang in there until you can see the doc and treat yourself well. Much love, Sue

      • HI SUE….YES IT WAS A TV SERIES, I KNOW YOU WILL ENJOY IT IF YOU HAVEN’T ALREADY…..MEDS KICKED IN NOW AND FEELING LOTS BETTER….HOWEVER, MY DOC GOES ON LEAVE IN TEN DAYS, I WILL GIVE MYSELF A FEW MORE DAYS TO SEE IF THEY KEEP WORKING, AND IF NOT I WILL GET AN APPT WITH HIM BEFORE HE GOES OFF.
        HOPE YOUR JIM ENJOYED THE “BLUE ANGELS” AND HAD A LOVELY DAY………LOVE JEN X

  25. Hi all
    Lazy day today and yesterday.ready for next week!
    Sue the market and the bought veg and fruit sound lovely I like to do that too ,hope you benefited from your down time as well
    Tonie
    Busy girl again…good for you loosing that weight
    Jen
    Get that appt
    Lovely day here today and part of yesterday be good if it stays like this tomorrow
    Going out to watch the sunset
    Chris

    • Chris, You sound so much less stressed. Thank God for the sea, time away and lovely days…Happy for you for today as you gear up for the coming challenges. Love you much, Sue

  26. Sue
    Yea trouble seems far away here…also it seems a different lifestyle by the coast people seem more free and easy somehow….did you notice the lifestyle was different in Astoria .it must be invigorating living there And yep I’m ready for this bitchy lady ringing tomorrow ,but she might have changed over the weekend …into someone more pleasant
    BUT chocolate has got a lot to do with it too…gotta stop
    Be more like tonie on her diet
    Well great pink sunset tonite ,back now and sitting with door open and a cup of tea
    Met some great people who have lodges near us….this lady can really chatter but nice listening to her ,they are fit and healthy and ride bikes…but her energy and enthusiasm was catching
    Hope your good sue on these new meds and they suit you
    Love Chris

    • HI CHRIS….AS I HAVE ALREADY EXPLAINED ALL THATS GOING ON, I WON’T BORE YOU WITH IT ALL AGAIN.
      A LITTLE CHOC IS GOOD FOR YOU IF ITS THE DARK STUFF……MODERATION DEAR GIRL….HA HA!! I THINK YOU NEEDED A TREAT AFTER ALL THE TRAUMA YOU HAVE PUT UP WITH, I AM HOPING THE HIPS AND HANDS ARE LESS PAINFUL, WHAT ARE YOU TAKING FOR THAT, AND DOES IT AFFECT YOUR IBS???
      LOVE JEN XX

    • Chris, I don’t think it’s that different here unless you’re here as a tourist. The tourist are naturally more leisurely and relaxed. For most who live here it is unique because it’s fairly small and yes a bit more kicked back in attitude but basically folks just going about their business. I think the beautiful views help a great deal as it’s all about us and that is good for the spirit; however like any place, there are those who have problems and just don’t see or appreciate the beauty around them.
      You do sound so much better. Be thinking about you today as you go home. No, I’m not on the new meds yet as they haven’t arrived in the mail yet. This certainly doesn’t sound like the time for you to worry about dieting. One can only handle so much, don’t you think? Do you find DH’s B/P stays down better at the coast? Would imagine it would. Remember we’re all thinking of you…Love, Sue

  27. Tonie, You didn’t expect a Mom and daughter to have the same version of a conflict, did you? We each see it from our own perspective and I’m sure having the little guys living at home now has turned Nikki’s life upside down. I’m so pleased she is packing and moving so soon. I would imagine she is very excited about her new location, wherever that is back in the South near you. Your berries sound so wonderful. I know you’re exhausted but also am certain the kids are having a ball.
    Since I haven’t received the new meds yet have yet to see how it’s going to be. I can only hope.
    Your friend coming to visit does sound intriguing. Hey girl, you lose some weight and you go into action, huh? Just kidding and hope you have a great visits and get some things done. Overcast here, our heat gone but at it’s best not as hot as yours…thank the Lord. Hope you got your errands accomplished before it got too hot.
    I need to go over to the DMV and get my license renewed this week then it’s back to PT. Love and bye for now…Sue

  28. Jennie, glad to hear you’re feeling better today. I greatly enjoyed the Crimson Field. It was a wonderful production. I recommend it to all. It’s long but worth it. Jim had a great time at the airshow and came home sunburned and yes, he claimed he wore his hat and sunscreen. It was very hot for them I’m afraid but still fun.
    I think you’re very wise to plan ahead to the time when your doctor will be gone. One learns, huh? We have to watch out for ourselves. Hope you continue to improve. Love, Sue

  29. Well back at the shed
    Yep the not so nice lady seemed to have a different attitude today.i rang her and said my dad would prefer to go home and she just started talking about that.they are having some trouble getting a package together…but until then he’s in hospital…so miracle there.
    When DH went to put his aid in this morning it broke ..so we had to go home as he cant hear and hand it in to be fixed .he has another not so good one at home so have that ..so while back home…..had. My hair done,shopped for my dad and put in his fridge…got longest life dates.went to see my dad and watered plants .then my Dd rang GS passport was stolen from his room..along with his two mates ones..ugh.she was up all nite sending money for a temp one for him and dealing with ins and embassies as he comes home tomorrow. With a lost passport. his two mates can’t come home as they weren’t born in the UK and have to go where they were born. Been living here since 2 yrs old. So that has to be sorted out so they can’t come home! oh what a lovely day..and DH will have to wait 3weeks for his aid to be fixed!
    Can’t think of anything else to add to that lot
    So here i am back here and trying to arrange for someone to move some furniture and tidy up a garden for my dad….think I know someone .it would be nice for the flat to look comfortable ..you know bed just right chair by window etc
    Well I like tonies diet new man and new body! All sounds good tonie
    Me I’ve taken sues view and eat tonight ..bread and cheese it was nice ..nice and simple after the drive
    Sue DH bp well it depends what he has been doing even at the coast.he is now taking an extra one.
    We don’t seem to be able to stay here long enough for him to benefit always back and fore
    Jen glad things are a bit better
    Right gonna pack it I. Now long day
    Chris

    • Chris, I am so sorry to hear your DD had to go through all of that with GS. What a pain in the patooty. Sorry for his two friends who are going to have to stay on for additional weeks. Sounds like not only a pain but expensive. Be glad when GS gets home.
      Well dear, sounds like you won one today. Hope your Dad appreciates it all. Did he say whether he had thought about it over the weekend as you asked him to? Glad the female on the phone wasn’t arsy as the other day. Love that word. Sounds like you got a lot done in a short time today.
      Our dear girl Natalie who edits/posts this blog is going to England with her hubby tomorrow. She wants to know if anyone has suggestions for must sees or restaurants in London. Any recommendations I can pass on to her?
      Hope you get to rest up now…Tell DH to hang in there and you too as he can’t hear you as well. Sigh…Love, Sue

    • BLOOMING HECK CHRIS, ITS ALL GOING ON WITH YOU INIT? I BET YOU WILL BE GLAD WHEN THE PACKAGE FOR DAD IS IN PLACE…..OR NOT? BAD LUCK FOR YOUR DH AND HIS HEARING AID, 3WKS IS A LONG TIME TO WAIT, DOES HE GO TO “SPECSAVERS” MY MUM DOES, GOT THEM IN HOLLAND TOO.
      YOUR POOR GS, WHAT A MESS, AND IT WILL BE DIFFICULT TO SORT THAT ONE OUT, WHAT ROTTEN SODS TO TAKE HIS PASSPORT, I HOPE IT DOES THEM NO GOOD WHOEVER IT WAS……I DO HOPE TODAY HAS BEEN A BIT CALMER, YOU SOUND WRECKED……..KEEP SMILING LOVE……….JEN X

  30. Jennie, I was telling Chris that our Natalie friend is going to London tomorrow with her husband and asked on FB about ideas for sights and eats there. Any recommendations for her that I can pass on?
    Yes dear girl, I love the Crimson Field. It was so good. Must watch it again. Recommend it highly. Hope it’s getting cooler there and Sacha has come inside to sleep. How’s the gut doing today? Better I hope. Love you, Sue

    • HI SUE…..NATALIE WILL ENJOY LONDON. I THINK CHRIS HAS COVERED ALL THE PLACES I WAS THINKING OF, EXCEPT FOR COVENT GARDEN, WHERE THE STREET ENTERTAINERS ARE FANTASTIC……ALSO THE JUBILEE MARKET AT GREENWICH, AND PETTICOAT LANE MARKET IS WORTH A VISIT, AS WELL AS PORTABELLO ROAD MARKET………..NOTHING YOU CAN’T BUY FROM THERE.
      SACHA IS STILL BEING A NIGHTMARE, HE PUSHED HIS WAY INTO MY ROOM AGAIN LAST NIGHT, AND WAS BANGING AND THUMPING EVERYTHING TO GET MY ATTENTION, THIS WAS A 3AM……TONIGHT I AM CLOSING THE DOOR PROPERLY, EVEN THOUGH IT WILL BE HOT………NEED SOME SLEEP.
      SO GLAD YOU ENJOYED THE CRIMSON FIELD, THINK THERE IS GOING TO BE A SECOND SERIES, WILL LET YOU KNOW IF THAT IS THE CASE.
      THE GUT TODAY, IS NOT TOO BAD, COULD BE BETTER, MAKING NOTES TO GIVE TO THE DOC, IF NEEDS BE.
      NAUGHTY JIM, SOUNDS LIKE HE FORGOT TO PUT HIS HAT ON?? STILL HE HAD A GOOD TIME……
      RIGHT TIME TO LEND A HAND IN THE KITCHEN….OH YES! NEARLY FORGOT, OUR FRIEND IS HOME, SO NO MORE HOSPITAL VISITS……………………LOVE AND GOD BLESS……JEN XX

  31. Sue
    Well haven’t been to London for many years
    But the usual tourist places
    Tower of London …British museum….the Shard which is the newest tallest building with a viewing gallery…the London eye which is a huge circle thing you can ride on the side of the Thames with good views again…a boat ride on the Thames ….Kew gardens to walk around…an open top bus tour around London. There is a sherlock Holmes museum…also a Charles Dickens street scene to walk In.walking along the Thames embankment is good as there are a lot of famous buildings to see such as Big Ben and the Palace of Westminster…westminster abbey has a lot of history and kings buried there……St Paul’s cathedral
    Can’t think of anymore ..there are sooooo many restaurants I wouldn’t know of…but there’s the ritz hotel where they have a famous tea…The Cafe royal………china Town is good for a visit…loads of Chinese places to eat
    Camden Market which is a bohemian place next to Camden Lock is a famous place for walking and looking for unusual things
    Buckingham Palace and the changing of the Guards
    Greenwich Observatory museum where the 0 degree meridian is and the old clipper ship Cutty Sark
    Can’t think of anymore….I do hope she has a lovely time
    Chris

  32. Oh and the Shakespeare globe theatre..a replica ,which is a straw roofed place and worth a look see.
    And I think the place where they had the 2012 Olympics there is a tall thingy you can sort of go around ,in and up and is another tall thing with views
    Gone Brain dead now!
    Oh tower bridge over the Thames which lifts up to let ships through ..Tate gallery……blimey she’s not gonna have time for it all…….a must see are the stores HARRODs and also LIBERTyS they are good for a look see they have places to eat there too .in fact I would like to go to these again just to look
    Finito
    Chris

    • Chris, thanks for that long and wonderful answer. I sent Natalie the message to check out your remarks. You’re a dear friend. Sue

    • Well, I have to replay to Chris as it is not showing a remark box. But this is for all.
      Jennie, hoping you are feeling much better by now. Chris, so hoping GS got everything sorted out. Awful how people steal everything these days. Had my house broken into in AZ, and they stole my birth certificate and marriage license ./ My passport was lost in the shuffle or they would have gotten it.
      Well, my friend is still caught up in the UK. He went over to buy goods and is still filling his shipping containers. He is is somewhere between London and Manchester. He is a sweet guy. Italian. (hubba hubba) love the accent. And willing to relocate to me 🙂 Tomorrow is his 56th birthday so am robbing the cradle as they say here. We were hoping he could be here by then to celebrate but no dice, so will do when he gets here. Flying straight in so I will pick him up at the airport. My life has certainly taken a turn I never thought about.
      BUT… we rode Red last night, and what a sweetie !! Great ridign horse, manners, follows orders. He got a little uppity with me, and as he only has one good eye you have to allow his head bobbing around for sight. But he was a pleasure to ride after fighting Baby like I do. The English saddle we borrowed felt rather naked after the western I usually ride. I hadn’t set an English saddle for many years. But I really enjoyed my ride. It was a good end to a really busy day.
      SPeaking of which, gotta run. Gotta get ready for work. Ms Alice awaits.
      Love to you all
      Tonie

      • TONIE…..GLAD TO HEAR RED GOT AN AIRING, SAW THE PHOTO ON F/B, HE LOOKED GREAT, PUT SOME MORE UP IF YOU GET A CHANCE……WHAT IS THE DIFFERENCE IN THE SADDLES THEN, YOU GOT ME PUZZLED. WHAT’S THIS I AM READING, YOU GOT YOURSELF AN ITALIAN STALLION??? SO THAT’S WHAT THE WEIGHT LOSS WAS ALL ABOUT….GO FOR IT GIRL, BUT WE SHALL BE WANTING DETAILS……….LOVE JENNIE X

  33. Tonie
    Well GS went to a beach party the following day so he’s forgotten it..and his mum is worn out! But he is flying back now and is en route
    This romance seems from the books tonie….you’ve kept this a secret girl…but well done ,good on ya
    Back later Chris

    • Chris
      So glad gs is good lol I can imagine how his mom is Yes this thing caught me unawares. Wasn’t looking
      Jennie va western saddle has a horn in front and a taller back. The stirrups are wider and wood. Just like sitting in a scoop. Whereas the English has nothing like that. Well we shall see how all this works out. We have been talking a few months. But yet to meet. So time will tell
      Love
      Tonie

  34. Well another day here.went to a photo exib it was good.bought some bread rolls and sat outside and had them with the soup I made..not the weather for soup but still it was ok
    No sue my dad I don’t think thought about a nursing home at all..he just wants to go home
    Hope lyn and family all ok
    Donna sounds as if she is enjoying herself
    Hope Brenda is too at her summer place
    Janet..hope you going along good
    Well gonna pack it in now…
    GS got home ok today his two mates had to stay there.don’t know what’s happening there for them
    Tonie..what sort of things does he collect this Italian stallion of yours….in shipping containers..antiques?paintings? Fill us in with all the gen….sounds exciting
    Chris

    • Chris:
      I am not sure exactly, he just says, you know….goods, to sell. It does sound exciting, except it is hard work. I know from working export part the documentation, all the transport , follow up, import , etc. It is a pain. He tells me to teach him about farming, he wants to get into cattle 🙂 He is a city boy, so this will be a change for him.
      I hope your Dad settles in. Time will tell if he will be able to stay at home. God bless you thru all of this. Chris, you are in my prayers dear friend.
      Love
      Tonie

      • Tonie
        Thank you for your prayers I could certainly do with a few these days
        Wow..it sounds like you two are going to be a help to each other… Keep us all informed
        My dad stil in hospital waiting to get his carers in place
        I want to get back before to do a few things..but first all the doors and windows will need to be opened for a while
        Sue hope you are better
        Chris

  35. Hi All, sorry, too much pain today to make an entry. Be back tomorrow and tell you all about it. Love you…Sue

    • SUE ……SWEETHEART, I AM SORRY YOU ARE IN SO MUCH PAIN…..TAKE THINGS EASY AND COME BACK ONLY WHEN YOU FEEL UP TO IT….WE ALL KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO HAVE DAYS LIKE THAT……PLEASE GOD YOU WILL SOON BE ON THE MEND…..LOVE YOU….JEN X

  36. Sue
    Worried about you..was it the pt ,or the new meds….wait to hear and hope then you are feeling better
    And you are having a good rest
    Love Chris

  37. Sue:
    You are still in my prayers my friend. God bless you and lift you up. Rest easy and do what you know to do.
    Love you
    Tonie

  38. Hi all
    I’m back home now
    Hope all ok sue. And you’ve improved ..you rest as tonie says.
    Going to my dads tomorrow to see how we can move some stuff about to make it easier there.still awaiting him coming home..we’ll have to open all the windows for a while.before I can get in there.
    Gives rain and wind warnings here for next two days
    Chris

  39. Dear Friends, Forgive the little absence. I’ve had a frustrating week trying to renew my drivers license with all the sitting and standing in line. After the first day when I walked out due to the hard seats and the long wait I went back extra early the next day and they wouldn’t take my birth certificate. It was issued by the hospital where I was born, not the state I was born in. Yes, here in the states we have to prove we were born here to get a drivers license. I had to bring my weary bones home and call and order one for $45 and special delivery in time for the expiration on my birthday. PT was brutal and I was already very sore. Then yesterday Jim came home early and had to go to the ER. I had the grands for another hour and he went on alone. He had an abscess that had to be treated and he was in a great deal of pain. I went up there and after an hour of another hard chair with nothing happening I came home. He was there at the ER for nine hours. Ridiculous. I kept calling and tried to stay awake in case he wasn’t up to driving his car home. Once he got home he got some much needed rest…we both did. It’s just been a painful, very tiring week.
    Tile work on the front steps to start next week weather permitting. Haven’t started the new chemo drug yet because insurance has to have more info from the doc. It’s apparently very expensive. Weather has been beautiful and not too warm, wonderful winds blowing. Air here is so fresh and clean. Thinking of each of you every day and pray all is as well as can be with each. Love you, Sue

    • Sue
      What a time!…thank goodness it’s in the past
      Things start bad and they just get worse sometimes
      I hope you are improving now. What a thing for DH to have,I hope all is well with that now
      Good job the weather is good with all that happening
      Great to have the tiles done it’ll look good to come home to
      Take it very easy now sue and rest and here’s to a quieter week
      Love Chris

      • Chris, thanks for caring. I have had the most rotten time of it. Grands will be over today. I really need to do more with them than just watch TV. We’ll try to get out to do something if I feel well enough. The trouble with all the sitting pain is followed by other problems…one thing after another gets so tiring. I find I’m also very grouchy. I guess this old girl can only take so much and sometimes…bong, that’s it. Jim is better and went back to work today after one day off. You all know how he is about work.
        How’s it all coming together for your Dad’s plan to go home? Anything new? Well, best get dressed and ready for the grands. Hope you’re feel as well as possible dear girl. Love, Sue

    • Oh my dear friend:
      WHen life dumps on you it dumps hard. I so pray you are feeling some better today. And Jim, that he has healed and is better. I have no DOUBT he is back at work ! My prayers for you and him. Glad you are having good weather. I breath that fresh clean air here as well. GOd bless you and your man.
      Love
      Tonie

      • Tonie, indeed Mr. Wood went back today but he did take yesterday off and then ran errands, etc. It’s hard to tie him down. My goodness that is a lot to be awake. Small wonder you’ve been tired. Is your mind busy or is it your painful body?
        How’s it going with the grands? Saw the pics of Devin riding Red. Looked like it was going well. I see the time is coming quite soon when your DD and the little ones will be back in your area. Will they stay with you? Do you have room? Good to see them making such a large life change.
        Glad you slept better last night. Sure makes a difference. Later, Love, Sue

  40. Good morning all:
    I got some much needed rest last evening and feel some better today. I haven’t been sleeping well, waking up (according to my Fitbit) up to 25 times a night. So needless to say I have been very tired. Yesterday I just couldn’t do anything. Came home and lay down and didn’t get back up. Only woke up once, so much better,.
    Prayers that all is well with you all. God bless you each and every one and fulfill your needs.
    love
    Tonie

  41. Hya sue
    Well they can’t let my dad out of hospital.,they can’t get any carers in from the agencies they are all full up
    holiday time I think and too many people wanting to use it
    So he is not happy he has to stay there
    Went round to his flat today.DH opened it all so it was aired .arranged the chairs so it looks like more room and the bedroom is now a storage room of equipment..vacuumed etc and sorted out the fridge again as milk and bread etc not now fresh..will buy new again later
    The weather here is just 13c and rainy..good weather to pack myself off to bed and read early.
    I see the resp clinic again Tuesday …..
    Well I hope the weather is ok so you can get out for a short while and that it will sooth the soul…
    Back later chris

    • Chris, so that’s where your Dad is. It is the best place for him but I imagine he is at his most frustrated self being kept in hospital. Looks like another batch of groceries will have to wait, huh? What a great deal you’ve been through with this whole matter. Wonder if our kids realize what they’re in for in a few years? Shuttering thought, huh? Hope your Dad is getting good care and getting up when he can.
      Sorry your weather is so cold. Nice here. Had rain last night but now bright. Just enough rain so I don’t have to water any but porch plants. Hope you’re still at the coast and getting some rest dear friend. I’m doing a lot of resting and hoping next week is better. Should be. Thinking of you. Love, Sue

    • Chris:
      So much you are going thru for your Dad. But you will be blessed for it. I am afraid the kids of today just have a mindset of “put em in a home” They are not to be put out in the least . They think paying someone else to care for you is a good deal. Boy hope it don’t happen to them. I feel so bad for elderly stuck in homes when they could be at home. Your Dad is blessed to have a daughter who tries so hard to keep him at home. Godbless you I know all this is so difficult on you. And your dh. Are his parent still alive ? I never hear you speak of them.
      Love ya
      Tonie

  42. OH POOR SUE AND YOUR DH….WHAT A HORRIBLE TIME YOU HAVE HAD…….I HOPE THINGS ARE BETTER FOR YOU BOTH NOW….THINGS LIKE THAT KNOCK THE STUFFING OUT OF YOU, YOU CAN’T BE EXPECTED TO STAND IN QUEUE’S FOR ALL THAT TIME, I KNOW I CAN’T AND I HAVE LESS PROBLEMS………….YOU DIDN’T SAY WHERE THE ABSCESS WAS WITH JIM, BUT NINE HOURS IN ER…..POOR MAN, I HOPE IS IS FEELING BETTER NOW. I AM PRAYING YOU BOTH HAVE A RESTFUL WEEKEND AND CAN PUT IT ALL BEHIND YOU……LOVE YOU….JEN X

    CHRIS……..I THINK YOUR DAD IS IN THE BEST PLACE FOR THE MOMENT, AND IT GIVES YOU MORE TIME TO AIR THE FLAT OUT, AND GET RID OF THE SMELL THAT BOTHERS YOU.
    ITS NOT TOO WARM HERE TODAY EITHER, BUT NOT AS COLD AS THE UK….YESTERDAY WAS 25C, BUT TODAY DOWN TO 19C. GOOD LUCK AT THE CLINIC ON TUESDAY…..ARE YOU AT THE SHED FOR THE WEEKEND….HOPE SO.
    WATCHING THE FINAL STAGES OF THE “TOUR DE FRANCE” OVER THE WEEKEND, IN BETWEEN DOING THE LAUNDRY….TIM HAS HIS HOUSE ON THE MARKET NOW, HE HAS DONE A SUPERB JOB, THE AGENT IS SO IMPRESSED, AND THE PHOTO’S ARE TERRIFIC….SOON BE WITH CLAIRE IN CORNWALL, AND ON TO THE NEXT PROJECT……TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF…LOVE JEN X

    TONIE …THINKING OF YOU LOVE, AND HOPE YOU SOON GET BACK INTO SLEEP MODE….TAKE CARE AND GOD BLESS…JENNIE X

    • Jennie dear, no, I didn’t say where Jim had an abscess but let’s suffice it to say he did put it behind him. ‘Nuff said? I hope the coming week goes better as we’re having the tiles started on Monday and we’ll have to use another entrance/exit like through the basement but it will be lovely when it’s finished. Hope the weather allows them to progress but we will take what we can get.
      Yes, it was the most exhausting week and what I really hate is how depressed I get when I’m that exhausted. I’ll have to talk to PT because I think some of the routine is a bit too much for this old, damaged gal. Hope you are better in the intestines and the back is making life at least liveable. Loved your garden pics last week. I should post some new pics of our garden…nothing compared to the grandeur of yours, however. Love you, Sue

      • SUE……..ALL GARDENS ARE BEAUTIFUL AND YOURS IS NO EXCEPTION, NOT ACCORDING TO WHAT I HAVE SEEN SO FAR……POOR JIM, HE WILL BE NEEDING A POLO CUSHION THEN? I JEST.
        MAYBE YOUR PT IS A LITTLE TOO MUCH MY FRIEND, AND COULD BE THE CAUSE OF THE DEPRESSION SOMEWHAT, WHEN YOU CAN’T MEET THE DEMANDS OF WHAT IS EXPECTED, IT CAN BRING YOU DOWN, SO MAYBE BEST DO ONLY WHAT YOUR BODY “KNOWS” IT CAN DO, AND THAT WILL HAVE TO SUFFICE……JUST A THOUGHT.
        MY YOU WILL LOOK SO POSH WHEN ALL THE TILING IS DONE, PUT SOME PHOTO’S UP WHEN ITS ALL DONE, AND I CAN SEE WHAT HAS BEEN DONE………WILL YOU BE OK COMING AND GOING THROUGH THE BASEMENT, WE HAVE SHEER STEPS TO OURS, AND I DREAD USING THEM, ESPECIALLY IF THE OLD KNEES ARE FEELING CREAKY….PLEASE TAKE CARE WON’T YOU?…………..ROTTEN WEATHER HERE, MORE LIKE AUTUMN, FEELING CHILLY, TUMMY OK AT THE MOMENT, AND I AM TESTING MYSELF TODAY, TO SEE IF I CAN COPE WITHOUT THE MEDS FOR NOW…..WATCH THIS SPACE….LOVE YOU DEAR FRIEND……JEN X

  43. Morning all:
    I have been incredibly lazy this am. Guess I am due huh ? Going on 11 and still in jammies. Devin and I stayed up late and watched dvds, she woke me up to turn them off:) Woke up once or twice but went back to sleep. Now I have to make Sat morning breakfast for the kids. Sausage eggs and toast. this am. WIth some fresh tomatoes from my friend’s garden. Yummee. We had hamburgers last night and the tomato was so good. I just love home grilled burgers like that in the summer. Don’t eat them often just enough.
    Chris and Jennie, hope you are all enjoying the cooler weather. My friend sent me a pic of him in old Kent near a statue of a soldier carrying a child. He had on a jacket as well 🙂 Still no word as to when he will be finished up there. He says things go very slow.
    Sue, no I don’t have room for them, but I guess I would make it and go stay with Judy 🙂 . I am not sure what she is doing at this point beyond packing up everything. I got the hay in yesterday, now I have to buy some very large tarps with which to cover it . Big round bales. I am blessed with some very good neighbors. I made them take some money for gas, I just felt better about it. I am going to get Red out again today. Nathan says he will ride him. I want him to experience it. He was petting them yesterday. He doesn’t usually..
    Please take care all. We are having a very warm day here today. I need to get out this afternoon and rake up some hay left behind to use in the chickenpen for nests and this winter for warming. I will wait til later though. I had my shot of MTX last night and I can’t take the heat today the way I am feeling.
    Love to you all
    Lyn I know you enjoyed your Mozart concert last night. Wish we could hear it !!
    Tonie

    • Tonie, Glad to hear you got the hay in with the help of good neighbors. You must be one to have them. Glad Nathan got on Red. Hope it went well. ENjoyed the pic on FB. Also pleased you’ve been watching DVD’s with Devin like you used to. Making memories with those grands is often all that matters. Sorry about the heat.
      I’m withholding info on new male friend. Did you say you hadn’t actually met him yet? Pray for the best for you because that’s what you deserve. Keep us informed, okay? Love, Sue

      • Sue:
        Yes, I know. I am being cautious. He did say he is not a serial killer 🙂 I asked him. No really, I am not getting too involved. People are easy to take you aside when online, but reality is another thing.
        Yes, Nathan loved riding. He just smiled and laughed the whole time. Devin rides by herself. I let her ride up the hill some before we stopped. I told her to be careful he was gonna want to go back home fast. Well he did, it scared her good. She says she don’t want to ride him anymore 🙂 The first time is scary when you can’t get them to stop. I can’t count the times this has happened to me. But she will get back on.
        I can’t wait to see your house with the new tiles. I already have a pic in my mind. The sun will set them off so nicely like a new glow to the front.
        Prayers for you and Jim.
        Love you
        Tonie

  44. Well all
    Been busy seeing my dad today and more clearing if All his hidden paperwork
    He had been buying £300 vacuums for the neighbours daughter. £100 to a charity.and when I went into hosp today he’d given£10 to the cleaner who did his room,also receipts for ladies handbags different colours ..I think for next door again tho and daughter
    So I told him off for giving the hosp cleaner money and said I would keep all his bank books until he’s sure of the people that will come in when he’s home..he wasn’t happy but well have to see how it works out.
    I know the lady is very helpful and he would want to give her something ,I do know he bought her one of these vacuums..but that’s ok ..but when comes to,the whole family!!.thing is he denies it and says she gave him the money to buy it……..
    He’s playing up the nurses and telling me another story….shouting at them he hadn’t had his tablets and he has….telling one nurse not to come in the room……oh dear the list goes on
    DH bp is up…..its all got to stop somehow. DH can see it getting worse when he comes home.
    I just need to jump off somewhere I think !
    Well how’s everyone
    Sue..been thinking how you are
    Jen..we’ve spoke and I’ve told you exactly what I’ve put here
    Tonie
    I want some of your sat. Morn breakfasts
    Well gonna get some sleep…having funny,strange dreams and it’s since I’ve been doing this breathing stuff I was wondering was it that doing it..as I’m supposed to be getting rid of this co2 in my brain! I dunno
    Chris

    • Chris, sorry you had to come home. Sounds like good old Dad is acting up, poor fella. He is a bit limited in how much mischief he can get into and that must drive him crazy. You are, of course, doing the right thing to protect him from himself and I know that’s hard on both you and DH. You aren’t allow to jump off anywhere. We’d miss you far too much. I am sorry life is such a mess right now. Wish I could do something to make it all better. Be strong sweet friend and I will try to take the same advice for myself. Love you, Sue

  45. Dear Chris:
    I was just talking to Ms Alice’ daughter the other day. She has no kids. I told her now she knows a little about what it is like. Older folks turn back into children it seems in so many ways. I am sorry you have found so much amiss with your Dad’s things. But you are right to protect him. And yourself. Of course he is not going to be happy. But we know it is for the best. Things will sort out as time goes on. Meantime you must take care of yourself. DH as well. with his BP. He sees you upset, and it upsets him. Prayers for you all. He is the great healer of all.
    Love
    Tonie

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